Okay, I'm back! Like I said track has me running (literally) left and right. But, we had no school so I'm updating (obviously)! Oh, and I did quote a reviewer in this chapter, I'm too lazy to go check so thanks to whoever you are! I hope its okay that I used it! If it's not just review and I'll change it.
"Well, Bella, it looks like your life has had more pain than we thought" Carlisle broke the silence.
"Yeah, I guess it has." I replied once I found my voice.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Edward asked.
"Why didn't I tell you?! Why do you think Edward? Why wouldn't I tell you that I'm a stupid suicidal girl who's had a kid and can't even handle some boy taunting her? Those are just perfect things to bring up on the first date, aren't they?!" I shrieked at him.
"We've had more than one date and, you know I'd never judge you!"
"I...Iā¦just hoped it'd all go away." I stammered.
"Bella, secrets never go away." Jasper said.
"I know! I'm so stupid!" I was THISCLOSE to crying.
"Stop saying that! You're not stupid, and you never have been! So you've made some mistakes! We all have! It's called life!" Alice said.
"It's true." Edward said, just eager to put his two cents in.
"My mistakes were bad though! I never wanted anyone to see me this way! That's why I never told anyone!" I wailed.
"Just because we know how sucky your life is, doesn't mean we see you any different." Emmett said.
"But you do. Deny it all you want, you'll never see me the same way." This made them silent.
"I should go." I said.
"No, Bella. Stay." Edward said.
'No, Edward. I shouldn't have told you." When I got outside I realized I didn't have a car. And that it was pouring rain. I seriously was going to walk home but, then Alice came out with her car keys.
"Get in." she said as she unlocked it. I got in. We drove in silence until I got up the nerve to ask her what I needed to.
"Alice, what do you think? You hardly said anything inside."
"Well, I can see why you kept it a secret. And I'll never see you the same way but, not in a bad way. You just seen a little less innocent and fragile."
I nodded. I don't think any of them knew how hard it was for me to talk about this. It brought up so many memories and extra pain it was hard to handle.
"You should talk to Edward. He's in shock that you went through all this. He hates to see you in pain and this pain he can't protect you from."
"Yeah, not tonight though. I just need to be alone."
"Okay," I got out and she rolled down the window," and Bella? Your going to school tomorrow whether you like it or not."
