I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. Last night may not have been the best of nights but I made it through. Today is gonna be fun and all my worries will hopefully fall behind. I poured a bowl of cereal for breakfest and headed off to take a shower. I was ready to go at 8:45, so I just sat down on the couch and watched TV until I heard a knock at the door. I checked the clock and it said 9:00 exactly. I opened the door to see one of the most beautiful men on the planet.

C: Good Morning Beautiful. Did you have a good night?

Me: It was alright.

C: Are you okay? You sound a little bumed.

Me: No, I'm great. *smiles*

C: Okay, you ready?

Me: Sure am.

The walk to the car was pretty quiet, not many questions. It was a very comfortable silence, don't get me wrong, but something wasn't right and Cody sensed that. He didn't ask any questions about it, giving me a chance to work out how I was gonna say whatever it was. We got to the car and he turned on the radio. My song was on, Leave the Memories Alone by Fuel so I sang along.

C:You have a beautiful voice Melonie. *smiling*

Me: Thank you, but I really don't *blushing*

C:I'd pay to hear you *laughing*

Me: That's because you like me.

C: Whatever *laughing*

Me: So where are we going?

C: I thought we would go have a picnic at the park then go to the beach for a little while, sit on the pier and watch the sunset.

Me: Awww. You are so sweet, its gonna be an amazing day.

C:I'm glad you think so.

We talked some more on the way to the park, but they were just casual questions and some silly ones. We pulled up to the park and walked to a shady spot underneath a huge, beautiful tree. There were a couple of kids playing frisbee or passing football, but it wasn't packed like it was on some days. We spread out a blanket and started to get out the food. We ate and after we were done we started talking.

C: I wanna hear some about your past relationships. If you aren't too scared to tell me *laughing*

Me: i haven't had many boyfriends to be honest.

C: I'm surprised.

Me: Well... *looking down*

C: * taking my hand* I know something is wrong. Whatever it is, you can tell me. I'm here for you, I won't laugh or say its stupid. Go ahead.

Me: I was engaged to a guy named Josh about 4 months ago. About 3 months ago he died of brain cancer. I was sitting in the hospital room the night that he died, he was a guy that never gave up. Seeing him there I felt so helpless, I wanted to help him so bad, to cure him, I couldn't stand to see him in pain. When he engaged he promised me that we would have the modern-day fairytale, the house with the white pickett fence and the mini-van. I wanted it so bad and I knew he could supply me with it and the love I needed. *crying*

C: Come here. *hugging me close* Its gonna be okay. He's looking down on you right now and smiling, I know he is proud of you. He wouldn't want you to cry, it will make him hurt. You don't wanna make him feel bad, do you?

Me: No *smiling*

C: Lets go, we need to find something to get this off your mind. *laughing*

Me:Okay. Can I tell you something?

C: Of course you can.

Me: Well, I think I love you. *looking down*

C: Look at me *smiling* Don't be embarrassed, because I think I love you too.