I put on my swimsuit and went to the backyard. I needed some tanning lotion on, but Cody was inside and I didn't wanna have to ask. I settled into my chair and closed my eyes. I felt warm breath close to me and I had to force my eyes to stay closed. He seen that I didn't have lotion on and rubbed some on my arms and legs and tummy. Everytime he touched be I felt butterflies and he knew I couldn't ignore it so I allowed myself to open my eyes. He looked at me with the most sincere eyes I have ever seen and I knew I looked dumb. He didn't say anything he just layed back in his chair. I decided that if I got into the pool that I would be able to calm down and recollect my thoughts so that I could stop shaking. I got up and stepped into the warm pool water and looked to see if he was watching and he wasn't. I leaned up against the pool wall and closed my eyes. I thought. What a surprise? I always think when it comes to times like these. I struggled with my thoughts and chose to follow my heart. I stepped out of the pool, went to my towel, wrapped it around me, and cuddled up in Cody's lap. I knew it wouldn't take long for the tears to arrive and just as I thought it happened. It scared him, but he just held me until he thought it was better.
C: Are you okay now? *kissing my cheek*
Me: I'm not sure. I miss it already and its gonna take time. That's just the way it is.
C: I know, you and change *laughing*
Me: Sorry *laughing*
C: Let's go inside. I want to have a date later. It's very important.
Me: Okay. Do I have time to take a nap first?
C: I guess, I'll carry you.
So that's what he did. He carried me up the stairs and into his huge master bedroom. He layed me on the bed and covered me up. I closed my eyes and he sat right there with me, never leaving my side. I dreamed about Josh, poor poor Josh. It was like a flashback of that night at the hospital. He was leaving me again, going back on his word for the second time. I was crying and no one was there. It was like a replay over and over again. I woke up with a gasp and Cody was definately alarmed. I told him that I was okay I just needed tp get up and get ready. I did and after I was done he started getting ready. WHile he was in the shower, I went downstairs to talk to Georgia. I told her I was going to be traveling with Cody the next week, but after that i would be home for most of the year. About 20 minutes into our talk Cody came down the stairs looking amzing.
