A/N Okay, so I feel pretty stupid right now. I just realized that all of this time I have been calling Bella and Edward's son Ethan when I meant for his name to be Edward Junior (EJ). So I went back through all of the chapters and corrected all of the times I called him Ethan. Anyway thank you so much for all of the reviews and a big thanks to BoredTech for helping me with my story. Please read and review my story. And I am very sorry that that took longer than I thought it would I had the stomach flu for about a week. Enjoy!
"Bella?" Alice asked again.
"Yes Alice it's me" I said sheepishly. As soon as I said this I was attacked by four of the Cullen's. I guess I would be excited too if I found out that someone that I thought was dead was actually alive. After the four of them were done hugging me to death they backed away so we could talk. I couldn't help but notice Edward stayed against the wall looking rather pale, even for a vampire.
"Bella, we missed you so much. We though that you were dead," Carlisle said in a sad voice as he and Esme walked up to me give me a hug.
"Bella when you left it felt like I lost another child. It was a horrible feeling," Esme dry sobbed.
"I'm sorry," I whispered hiding my face, "So sorry."
Esme then gave me another reassuring hug and she and Carlisle went to sit back down.
"Bella, why did you "die"?" Alice asked.
"Well I kind of need to talk to you guys about that," I sighed
"Okay, tell us then Bella," Rosalie encouraged. Wow. Rosalie of all people. She always hated me when I was human and now that I was back she was encouraging me and giving me hugs.
"Okay. I need to do something. I'll be right back," I said slowly going up the stairs to my kid's rooms.
"Guys?" I called.
"Yeah," EJ answered.
"I need you guys to come downstairs with me. The Cullen's are here." I sighed.
"Okay," Madison said grabbing my hand and walking toward the stairs.
"Okay. Let's go," EJ said walking down the stairs behind me.
I set down on the couch between my kids holding each of there hands.
"Okay" I began, "When I left Forks, I left because of them," I said motioning to my kids.
"I don't understand," Emmett said confused.
"Okay I'll explain this because it is really important that everyone understands. This is Edward Anthony Jasper Emmett Swan Jr. and Madison Renesmee Alice Rosalie Carliee Swan," I took a deep unnecessary breath, "mine and Edward's kids."
"What?!" Edward asked showing some interest even though he was looking even paler if that was possible.
I took a deep breath and braced myself "This is EJ and Madison, there…" I took another deep breath while wondering if it's possible for vampires to faint because I was feeling rather light headed "yours" I finished looking directly at Edward and held my breath while I waited for the fallout. I heard several distinct gasps then he finally spoke.
"They, they can't be..." Edward stumbled out.
"What do you mean they can't be?" I asked
"Because vampires can't have kids" he said as if it was obvious.
"But I was still human!" I mumbled.
"Bella, I don't care if you got pregnant with someone else," he said although his face looked as though he was heart broken.
"What?! I just.. I mean.. how could you.." I couldn't handle it and ran up the stairs to my room. I heard dead silence for a solid minute then I could hear in the other room that Alice started talking."Edward why are you such an ass!?" Alice asked obviously pissed off.
"What do you mean? There is no way they are my kids." Edward stated without a doubt.
"Edward, look at them, right here in front of you, EJ is the spitting image of you! Do you really think Bella would have cheated on you? You were her whole world and now you're acting like she was sleeping around on you!" Alice yelled,
"Edward, you can be seriously stupid sometimes, I'm going to go talk to her," Alice sighed standing up sadly.
Giving one last look at Edward showing her fury Alice left the room and bounded up the stairs in search of me. Within seconds she found me and softly knocked on the door and spoke.
"Bella? Can I come in?" she asked softly.
"Sure" I said although I grimaced as I said it.
She came in quietly and sat down next to me "Edward sure can be an ass can't he." Alice stated. Just then I burst into dry sobs and in an instant Alice had her arms around me in a hug.
"I know... But you got to admit Bells, it's a lot to take in all at once. Give him a few minutes at least. You've had 16 years to accept it, he's had less then a minute. He'll, come around, you'll see!" Alice said with a certainty I wish I could feel too. Good old optimistic Alice I thought.
"Its just that seeing him here, after all these years, its like the feelings never left, I want him so badly, its all I can do not to run to him and beg him to take me back and then to see that he thought I actually was whoring around and that EJ and
Madi aren't his! I mean.. just… ugh!" god, I felt like I WAS 17 again instead of my actual 33 years.
"I'm sorry," I sobbed into her shoulder.
"Shhh. It's okay," Alice soothed her,
"I understand Edward can be quite an ass but he's still crazy in love with you" Alice chucked. "You should see him, he's spent the past 16 years pining for you and moping around like, well, like you were dead" she said as her voice turned melancholy.
I froze there and it scared me for some reason. "Bella?" she asked.
"I'm sorry Alice," I sighed
"It's okay… After we found out that you were "dead" Edward was a mess. He tried to go to the Volturi to beg them to kill him. It took all of us watching him 24/7 and for him staying in Alaska for a few years to get him to stop at least being suicidal. All Edward does now is sit around and mope. Emmett doesn't tell jokes or pull pranks anymore. I haven't gone shopping in forever. Even Rose was a mess when we thought you were dead. She feels really bad that she was such a bitch to you when you were human. Carlisle and Esme felt like they had lost their own daughter. And Jasper… my poor Jasper… not only does he have to deal with his emotions, he also has to deal with the emotions of everyone else. At one point in time we actually had to leave the country because the emotions were so hard for him to handle," she sighed.
"I'm sorry. Truly I am," I whispered.
"It's not your fault Bella. It's Edward's. I told him not to leave you like that. But he didn't listen. I told him that you would be safer if he was with you but he didn't believe me. I'm so sorry Bella. I should've come back to make sure that you were safe," Alice sobbed.
"Alice, it's not your fault okay?" I said with certainty "Even if you had come back to look for me you wouldn't have found me because I left right after you left," I said.
"Well, I guess it's a bit of a moot point now but the important thing is your alive! Now, when do I get to know my niece and nephew?!" Alice said suddenly excited as if she were going on a fabulous shopping trip.
"Now I guess, I'm just worried about going back down there…" I truly was, I didn't know if I could keep myself from dropping to my knee's and begging Edward to take me back, I didn't think I could bare to see him again and not have him hold me in his arms.
"Well Bella, you've got to do it sometime and right now you have the support of everyone so lets go shall we?"
"Okay." I smiled meekly and she grabbed my hand and pulled me down stairs.
A/N So thank you so much for reading and please review. I will update as soon as I get time and after at least five reviews. Thanks again to everyone who read and reviewed.
Megan.
