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Warning: The chapter mildly contains mature content.
Rin's mind was in complete confusion and her mixed emotions and feelings were held responsible. She was trying to make out some sense out of them.
Ok, now! Let me think and sort things out.
1. Liking Sieko…. ok, loving Seiko as a friend.
2. Attraction towards the prince, (I really must admit it… at least to myself)
3. Happy and thrilled of the proposal.
4. Confusion as to whether I'm in love or not
5. Decided to accept the proposal (well… almost)
And….. oh yeah!
6. Childish loyalty and blind faith towards my Lord Sesshomaru
7. Disappointed at my Lord's abrupt flight
8. Disappointed… no! BROKEN, that Lord Sesshomaru may never visit me after my wedding
9. …..….jealousy towards my Lord's future mate (ugh! I just can't believe I'm jealous when I really should be happy for him)
10. ...….
Rin blinked once; twice; she was getting nowhere with her self-assessment. It only got her even more confused!
"Arrrrgh! I can't take this anymore! I'll need some help!" Rin squeezed her eyes shut, held her head and cried out loud.
She rushed to the young miko and shrieked, "KAGOME! I need your help! Desperately!"
Confused at Rin's strange behavior, Kagome said, "Sure thing, Rin! What is it?"
Rin thought for a moment and then said, "I need you to explain…. What is 'love'? I mean… How do you know you're in love?"
Kagome's eyes widened at Rin's sudden queries. Then the young miko said assertively "Love is not something that can be understood by listening to its definition, Rin. It is an emotion that can only be felt. That is, if you must understand love, you must feel love".
Rin blinked. She didn't understand (1) what love is & (2) what kagome had said.
Kagome got that expression, and went on with one of her forefinger pointed upwards, "If you are in love, you'll eventually know that you are in love, got it?"
"um….. I guess so….. But what if I'm so confused that I may not know that I'm in love while I'm actually in love all along?"
"That's the trickiest part, Rin. You'll have to figure it out yourself. But….. I can give you some clues…."
Rin was listening keenly.
"If you're in love, you simply cannot live without him whomever he is; you can't even imagine a life without him; his absence will only leave a permanent hole in your heart, that which can never be filled even by the most loving heart of another… if he's not there, you'll feel as though you've lost a part of you… I mean… he completes you… when you're with him, you'll be the happiest person alive…. he's your home… only by being by his side will you feel content… no matter what, you'll want to be with him, forever!"
Throughout kagome's lecture, Rin's subconscious mind was lingering upon the magnificent figure of her demon lord.
"Rin?... are you listening?"
Rin slowly nodded, still not out of her trance.
This time Kagome's voice was softer and more emotional, "…..that was how lost I felt when I was away from my Inuyasha for three years, and how happy and content I was upon our reunion"
Rin snapped out of her dazed state and saw Kagome who was close to tears.
"Thanks, Kagome… I think I can figure out myself now…"
Kagome shot her a warm wide smile.
What was I thinking? The demon lord mulled over what happened. At that moment his demon self was so enraged that it wanted shred the old miko to pieces. But the whole of his being knew that she made all sense in the was gritting his teeth in rage and annoyance. Why does that old miko has to be so correct all the time?... Old woman! You are too wise…. much to my misfortune…. After the defeat of Naraku, it was her who had conceived the idea that Rin should stay in a human village, preferably under her care, and learn to live like a human. Although Sesshomaru hated parting with Rin, the old woman made sense, so he had to agree upon Rin's fierce adamancy and non-cooperation to the idea, both the elders had to give her the choice of life in human village and life with her demon lord, once she's old enough.
He had seen his Rin run off, with hurtful tears in her eyes, when Kaede made her assertions. A part of him had wanted to comfort her, if at all he knew how. But he himself was in such a pathetic state of mind, needing more comfort than Rin ever seemed to need. He chose to take flight again.
He knew that none of what Kaede had said could be denied; nor can they be neglected. She spoke the truth! the reality! which was bitter and unacceptable as she described. A small part of him was glad that he had left Rin with the wise old woman. No regrets as far as that was concerned.
She was right that he cannot visit Rin often once she's married. By the way, it was high time he takes a mate as the old miko has said. An alliance with a demoness of aristocracy that will widen the Regions under his control and dominance substantially – siring the heir of the West - regions to conquer – setting up an Empire – defeating demons – becoming more and more powerful - … WHAT NOT? His inner voice roared in frustration. The list seemed endless to Sesshomaru and he has begun to get tired of it. Recently Sesshomaru has had this feeling that he's getting NOWHERE with all his desire for power and dominance, although he may never admit it.
Having such a list of missions to accomplish which rivals the length of the ocean, he may never be able to visit Rin…. And just as the old miko had said, there is this threat of rumor of scandal.
But….. But can he really refrain from visiting Rin as often as always? And considering the worst case, can he refrain from her forever for trying to avoid scandalous rumors? His inner voice again, truthfully said that he MAY survive WITHOUT A MATE, but he shall NEVER survive WITHOUT RIN. Is she that important to him? He has been in existence for several centuries on earth, and never had he been attached and bound to anyone till he met Rin. And within very short time, in comparison with the duration of his past, Rin has totally transformed him!
Will Rin's marriage be an end to their relationship for good? Will he not be able to listen to her sweet voice, humming, singing silly songs? (now that she's older- singing more sensible songs…) Not to mention Rin picking flowers for him, although he has nothing to do with them… The way in which she held her arms perpendicular to her body, trotting about, playing with Jaken and fooling around. What about her childish loyalty over him and blind faith in him? The way how she calls, 'Lord Sesshomaru!'. He really had to admit that his name sounded the sweetest when he heard HER pronounce. Obviously because she was the ONLY being who loved him so much. Her blind obedience. He recalled many instances, while in one of them, when he ordered her not to move, the running girl halted half way – her hands and one of her legs in held in air, displaying a running posture- made her look funny. That posture must have been physically painful. Only when he ordered her to move again did she even relax in her odd, painful posture. He was indeed amused at her gesture, even though he never showed. And how can he overlook her pure unconditional love and care, although he's a cold, distant demon lord? He's not made of stone to ignore, Rin's display of affection, "Lord Sesshomaru will come for me!" "Lord Sesshomaru! You came!" "I'm worried about Lord Sesshomaru!"…. Hmmph… Sesshomaru grunted, As if something CAN happen to me… A voice from within told him that any demoness whom he chooses for a mate would not be capable of possessing and displaying such purest and unconditional love for him….. And is he to lose such person to someone else forever?
Sesshomaru growled. His demonic mind began to imagine:- Rin possessing childish loyalty and blind faith and displaying blind obedience to Seiko! Rin picking flowers for Prince Seiko! Rin calling out affectionately, "Prince Seiko!", "Prince Seiko will come for me!" "Prince Seiko, you came!" "I'm worried about Prince Seiko!" -
"GROWL!" this time, Sesshomaru's growl was vicious and piercing. "SILENCE!" he ordered his mind and mouth.
He let out the breathe he was holding and shut his eyes for few moments…
He opened his eyes only to see his own figure sitting under a tree, few yards away. There was pitch darkness and the only source of light was the crescent moon in the sky. It is night already? He found Rin's petite maiden form sleeping soundly on the lap of his figure. His mind was picturing the physical transformation of his cute little ward into a gorgeous young maiden. She…. looks beautiful… He felt right hand involuntarily sought her head. His fingers began to caress her head and tresses, and she stirred. Her eyes fluttered open. "Lord…. Sesshomaru…", her voice was a low whisper. Sesshomaru observed silence as always. She smiled like sunshine. She lifted her left hand and held his right hand. He did not withdraw. She gently sat up. He shifted his right hand upon her left shoulder. Rin and Sesshomaru were gazing at each other; their gaze never wavered; her eyes sparkled with love, loyalty and faith. He was enjoying the sight of his lovely ward, who was safe and sound in his arms. All of a sudden a flash of light blinded his eyes.
The next moment he saw Seiko's figure instead of his own! It was Seiko's hand which was upon Rin's shoulder! The handsome prince and the beautiful maiden, who were so much in love, were simply staring at each other. The dazzling couple was lost in its gaze.
"Rin…" Seiko said, huskily.
"Prince Seiko…." Rin's voice was a whisper.
Seiko gently placed her on his lap and wrapped his arms around her; he bent forward and slightly tilted his head. Sesshomaru began to worry at Seiko's actions. Then the prince sealed her lips with his. Rin complied instantaneously and her hands started grazing Seiko's thick hair. Sesshomaru choked.
The encouraged prince only deepened his kiss, while his lips and hands proceeded with his sensual ministrations to Rin. Rin was moaning helplessly. In moments, he was making love to Rin!
Sesshomaru couldn't believe his eyes! Both seemed to be lost into another dimension of the universe, and the moans and groans they were making were unnerving Sesshomaru to the core. NO! SILENCE! He just can't believe he had to witness and listen to something as torturous as this and do nothing! He both saw and heard Rin panting Seiko's name in her moment of ecstasy, and it was penetrating Sesshomaru's head. NO! RIN! STOP!
Rin moaned "Ohhh…. Seiko! I LOVE YOU!"
GASP!
Sesshomaru snapped opened his eye only to find that he had dozed off and it was all just a dream….. more like a nightmare…. Sweat beads were formed on his forehead and his heart was racing at jet speed…... He couldn't believe how realistic the 'nightmare' was. Or…. What if it WAS real? Seiko making love to Rin! He can't say it never happened, now that they're engaged. His body burnt so much with envy and he was craving to slaughter Seiko with his Bakusaiga in one swipe, revive him with his Tenseiga and slaughter him again for good. He recalled the lyrics of Rin's song:-
'Is your wide chest my eternal bed? What have you in mind?
Is your torturous kiss a trap? What sort of trick is that?'
While, all along, Sesshomaru had thought that Rin was singing about him, this realization transformed his envy into fury. He was overflowing with such fury, that he could slay a hundred demons! He tore deep into the forest to find his victims-to-be….
Chapter Notes:-
-yes! You're right! That part of dream, between Rin and sesshomaru was nothing but a modified version of the silent interaction that took place between the couple, right after Rin was revived the second time; remember episode no.9 of Inu yasha: final act, where Rin died 2nd time and where she was revived by meido seiki of Sesshomaru's mother?
2. and yeah, the dream was a bit weird. But as you know, seeing your own figure doing things and feeling what you're figure is doing are all possible in dreams, isn't it?
Uh-ooooh! Sesshomaru is so pissed off! What will become of him?
What about our Rin? What did she 'figure out' anyway?
Stay tuned! Until next chapter… ;-)
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