I own nothing except Jessie and Other characters you do not recognize. She is my character =). The rest is all JK Rowling Oh and I am making no money by writing this story… =(

This chapter is starting with a vision. But it will all make sense in the end. I haven't written one in a while and I thought it was time for one.

Previously…

"He's your best friend." Erik said quietly "Its only natural for you to fall in l-"

"Don't say it. Even if that is what I feel… its not supposed to be like that. It would never happen. I'm his best friend like you said. That's all he would ever want from me."

"Lets just forget this came up then. But can we go to Mom's? She needs someone and we know grandma isn't coming."

"I haven't seen her in a while."

"Maybe we'll stop by."

Jessie nodded "Ok, now help me up."


Jessie and Erik stood outside of their mother's mansion

"Well," Jessie started "I came. Now I really should rest. I have had a long day and-"

"It's the right thing you know. Besides we came all the way to America so you might as well stay"

" Fine, but don't start with me. I know what's right. And I should go in there and tell her what happened. But I'm not going to."

"Because its too hard?" he asked somewhat angry

"Yeah. And I'm tired."

Erik turned to face his little sister "I've never known you to be selfish."

"I'm not being selfish!"

"You won't tell your mother the truth because it's too hard for you. Well She thought Michael was a good man and that he didn't deserve to die! Your mother will go through everything to try to figure out what her husband did to deserve this."

"So you would rather me go in there and tell her that he deserved everything and that I was really the victim. Do you want her to know that she married a perverted monster?"

"You need to tell the truth, Jessie. Or I'll do it for you. If you don't somehow they'll trace it back to you. When they do you will have no choice but to go to Azkaban or tell them the truth. And don't make me see you go to that place."

Jessie stared at him for a moment and thought about everything "I'm supposed to be in hiding right now."

"Just go inside! Tell her! NOW Jessie!"

She obeyed after a moment of standing there. I don't even call her mom! I call her Amanda! When she got to the porch she saw that her brother was gone. Oh that's just great!! Jessie thought just before knocking on the front door. Her mother answered the door.

"Jessie!" she hugged her

Jessie became stiff. She couldn't even remember the last time her mother hugged her. "Hi mom." Its never too late to start I guess.

"I'm so happy you came here. I thought I would have to go through this alone." Jessie was released

That makes my job easier. Jessie thought before taking a closer look at her mother. "Mom have you slept?"

"No. Lets go into the sitting room."

Jessie nodded "I have something I need to tell you."

"What is it Honey?"

HONEY!?! Who is this woman and where has she been most of my life?

"Its kind of hard but-" She was interrupted by another knock. "You sit down, mom. I'll get it." Jessie opened the door and saw Sirius.

"I heard what happened and I went to Hogwarts but your brother said you were here. So I came here to make sure you were ok. And when I got here I realized you were going to tell your mom what happened and I thought you would need someone here to help." He took a deep breath "And I really wasn't really sure if we should have left things the way they were. But is it ok if I come in and stay with you. Just for support."

"I can't believe you really came here."

"Well I did."

She moved over so he could enter. "Thank you."

"No problem."

"Jessie who is it?" Amanda called from the sitting room.

"I'm just going to tell her I'm pregnant."

"She'll think it was me! Jessie tell her everything." He told her as they entered the sitting room.

"This is my friend Sirius. He's here because of what I need to tell you."

"Your pregnant." Amanda whispered

"Yes."

"But it's not what you think." Sirius jumped in "She's not… its not mine. Were not really… You couldn't really call us… us."

"Sirius you're rambling… again."

"Sorry."

"Mom… I got a letter saying that I was supposed to come over to get some of dad's stuff the day before… the accident happened. So I came over and Michael was here." She stopped to look at Sirius. Then back at her mom "He… raped me. Please believe me."

Amanda was now very pail. "Why would you say something like that?"

"Because it's the truth!" I can't believe I told her! I should have just left!

"So you killed him! You did this?"

"He hurt her! Don't you hear what she's trying to say?" Sirius almost yelled.

"Sirius there's not changing her mind"

"GET OUT!" Amanda shouted, "Your lucky I don't call the Ministry!"

Sirius grabbed Jessie and they appeared in front of Hogwarts.

"Jessie… everything will be ok."

"She didn't even believe me! Or even consider the fact that he could have done something like that! What if she calls the Ministry?"

"Tell Dumbledore. He already said you were going into hiding. That's all he has to do!"

"And stay there forever?"

He didn't think about that. "You need to tell the truth. And when you do, you will have all of us on your side." He took her hand in his as the walked up to the castle. "I will help you get through this."

Jessie was happy someone was telling her this. She just wished it were someone else. Which reminds me…

"Sirius about the other day, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that."

"What kiss me? Oh that was fine. I didn't mind at all. Really. In fact-"

"I know what you want and it can't happen."

"Why not?"

"Because it wouldn't be fare to you. Don't get me wrong, I like you and everything but it wouldn't go anywhere."

"Jessie I'm not looking for something serious. Just something. I've never really had a girlfriend that I really felt something for. You would be the closest thing."

The two reached the castle. "Would you like me to go with you when you talk to Dumbledore?" he asked.

"I'm not going straight there. I need to go home and check on something." Yeah… Severus!

"Just think about what I said."

"Yeah ok."


"Severus?" Jessie called as she stepped out of the fireplace. "Are you home?" She knocked on his bedroom door. "If your there I'm coming in." She waited for a response. When one didn't come, she slowly opened the door. Severus was lying on his bed. "Severus are you ok?"

"Go away, Jessie." He whispered

"No. What happened? I'll tell you how my visit with my mom went."

"We shouldn't be friends anymore. I'm putting you in hiding and that's it."

"Severus tell me what happened." I knew that was coming but… not just out of nowhere

He sat up "I killed a little girl."

Jessie walked into the room and sighed "Severus its ok. You had to do it."

"No! I didn't! I could have refused!"

"Then he would have killed you. And if that happened I don't know what I would do."

"You would be better off."

"Severus! You have no idea how much I value our friendship. But you feel bad about this. That's how I know you're still good inside, no matter what you may believe. I killed my stepfather! What do you think about me?"

"He hurt you! That little girl did nothing!"

"Severus please believe that you're not bad! You made a mistake that led to others." She sat next to him "Many people make mistakes. You just have to try to move on and hope everything gets better. You could go to Dumbledore. He will keep you safe and you know it."

He sat in silence and listened to her. "How could you say all of this? How can you say this when you have been hurt so much? How can you stay positive?"

"When my parents divorced my dad always seemed so happy even though he loved my mom… Merlin knows why he would but he did." She saw him smirk "One day I asked him why. He told me that if he were always angry that would make everything worse. I realized that I never really remembered they were divorced until someone asked me about it or the subject was brought up, and when it was I really didn't think much of it. It seemed like nothing. I know that I could never make this seem like nothing but I can try to make it easier for us. So if I told you what you were saying about you being a bad person, which isn't true, it would only make everything worse."

He thought about what she was saying. "You are very much like your dad. You look like him too. I've never met you mother but you don't seem at all like her."

"Thank you for saying so."

"So you visited her?"

"Yes. She didn't believe me. But I didn't expect her too."

He shook his head slightly "So what happened."

"She yelled at me and said get out. I even slipped into her mind. I at least thought she would consider it. But she just thinks I'm a slut. She really thought that too."

"Sorry."

"It's ok. I'm used to it. Most of the time she shouted it at me. So are you ok?"

"Better."

"That's good." She smiled glad she could help. "I'm going to talk to Dumbledore."

"I think… I should talk to him about a job."


Thank you to my reviewers… I seem to only have two. But they like this story. One threatened to eat my spleen but that's ok they still said "nice chapter." (You know who you two are and thank you so much) So if anyone else wants to review… ya that would be nice. So tell me if you liked this!!!! Ok so next chapter the ministry come in.

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