I own nothing except Jessie and Other characters you do not recognize. She is my character =). The rest is all JK Rowling Oh and I am making no money by writing this story… =( Ok so I can't write a chapter without Severus. Always remember that.

Previously…

Jessie stepped out of the fireplace and went to her room. After a few moments she heard someone else. Severus walked into her room and sat on the bed. "I couldn't hear them talk about it."

"Oh. Right." She waved her wand and her trunk was now filled with clothes.

"Don't think you're not important."

She turned to look at him. "What?" She couldn't believe what he just said.

"Because you are… t-to me." He looked up and saw her face "What?"

"Did you really just say that?"

"You really want to help me. The least I can do is say… I'm happy to be your friend." He said feeling uncomfortable.

Then she smiled at him and gave him a hug. She noticed that his body didn't become stiff like before and he was also hugging her back. For some reason she felt as if she could stay there all day.


- Three Weeks Later -

"Erik!" Jessie yelled across the house from her couch

Erik nearly ran to her side "Is the baby coming?!" He asked worriedly

"No. I'm not nine months yet!" She said looking down at her stomach. It wasn't really big at all "I don't even look pregnant."

"Some people don't I guess. Why would you call me if nothing has happened."

"I got my court dates."

"… And?"

"And I go tomorrow at 3:45. The Aurors are picking me up at 3:30."

"Am I going?"

"You don't have to. I'll be better on my own."

"Then I'll stay here. Have you- never mind."

"What?"

"Have you written Severus? He mite have new of some things that he would share with you."

Jessie frowned "You mean for the Order?"

"Sort of."

"I can't write anyone… and I'm not using him for information!"

"No! I know your not!" He answered quickly. "Its just if you knew something…"

"Yes I know. And I'm sorry. I don't like Dumbledore trying to use him… or me to get to him. Sometimes I feel like he shouldn't become a spy even if everybody wants him to be. He needs to make that choice."

"Yes I know its his choice. But why don't you want him on our side as a spy?"

"Because then he would be surrounded by people who will pretend to care about him when really they just care about the information he has. Not him or who he is and he need people to care. He deserves that much…"

"Yes, he does. I agree. But he has you and you are someone who does care about him and who he is. Not the information he can give us. I know that." He told her as he sat down next to her.

Jessie sighed "I hope he does too."

"Hey I heard Lily is supposed to have her baby. Remember, Dumbledore said you could go to Hogwarts while you're in hiding. The only people who see you in the summer time there is staff and they cant do anything."

"Yeah your right. I think I'm going to go down there. She might need me."

"I think it would be better if I went after the baby… comes out."

She laughed a little "You should wait until he's born."


Jessie stepped out of the fireplace and into the hospital wing and heard screaming and soon decided she should go back home. "I would like to leave this part a surprise for when its my turn." She told a very pale Remus who was standing off the side. He only nodded and watched her exit to the clock tower. She was pleasantly surprised to see Severus.

"You're supposed to be hiding!" he said not bothering to look at her

She frowned "Its summer and only staff is supposed to be here, not former students!" she said in the same harsh tone he gave her.

"You're not staff."

"Not yet. But Dumbledore gave me permission to come here once in a while."

"What makes you think I don't have permission?"

"You wouldn't ask and he wouldn't give it to you unless you asked."

"Why are you here?"

"To see Poppy." She lied not wanting him to know about Lily in case he didn't realize she was in the castle.

He turned to face her "Is the baby ok?"

"Yes. Just a check up." He nodded "So how are you?''

"I'm still a Death Eater if that's what you wanted to know."

"No. I was just wondering how you are."

"Did that answer your question?"

"Umm… you're the same?"

"Yes. So you can leave."

"I have every right to be here! And your mood swings are getting annoying. One day you don't mind me and the next time I see you, you act like you don't care."

"I'm sorry for not being so happy in the middle of a war like some people."

"You think I'm happy about this? Well I'm not! You need to stop wallowing in self-pity and look around! Everyone is scared! I bet even Dumbledore is scared! If you thought joining Voldemort would stop that fear then that was your mistake!"

"Don't use his name!"

"I will use his name because I'm not scared of him! I'm scared of what he will do if he does win this. I'm done telling you what I think you want to hear. Yeah it was your mistake. But you can make it better. So instead of feeling sorry for yourself try to make it better."

"I'm trying but do you know how hard it is to do that when you have taken so many lives?"

she sighed and sat down on the ground then layed on her back and heard him do the same

It was silent for a while. "Severus what's a life?"

"What do you mean? You know what a life is!" he whispered angrily

"The definition of life. Do you know"

"No. I don't look random things up in the dictionary."

She ignored his comment that was directed at her. "There isn't an exact meaning for the word. Really all it says is that it's a period of time when something is born and lasts to its death. It doesn't say what it really is."

"Yes it does! A period of time when something is born and lasts to its death! You're mad!"

"Yes I know that! But do you agree that we are all living a memory?"

"What?"

"What we are doing right now is going to be a memory. Do you agree?"

"Yes."

"Well life is a memory. People are going to remember our lives, what we did and why we did it. But only a few will remember who we really are."

"What are you trying to say."

She groaned in annoyance "You can be as mean, rude, or even as nice as you want. I'm the end it doesn't come down to that. When your life ends all that matters is what you did and why you did it. How do you want your memory to live on? How do you want to be remembered? I'm not saying to go off and do all these great things when really it's all an act. I'm saying do you want to be remembered as a foolish person who made a mistake or someone who made a foolish mistake and then went back and made it rite later in life."

"Why didn't you just skip to that part."

"Because you were talking about lives."

"Not my own!"

"But its time you start. You can worry about other people's lives but yours should be most important."

"Whatever."

She rolled her eyes. "Severus you are… I don't know."


Sooooo sorry I'm late!!!!! I've been so busy and stressed. But here it is. Yes i know its short like always. And i think there is more mistakes that usal... sorry. But its here!

Tell me if it was really stupid because I'm not so sure it's that good. But I hope it made sense. So the next chapter may be Severus thoughts. but I'm not sure. Anyway Jessie goes to court! But really I'm sooooooooooooooooo sorry im late! REVIEW!