Moonchild here! Back to continue the little web of love and confusion. Remember people I do not own any rights to Sailor Moon so please do not sue!
Chapter 5
A Drunken Night
I made it back to my apartment and collapsed. I just laid there for two days still in shock of what happened. Andrew loves me, Seiya hunted me down, and Darien broke up with me. Needless to say these were all fantastic reasons for me to stay in bed forever. Then to add icing on the cake, in two days it would be mine and Seiya's 5 year anniversary. Yeah….I was never leaving the bed. Molly would come over and make sure I ate at least twice a day. She agreed to let me lay in bed until after my anniversary. Then I would have to get my ass up! Her words not mine. In my words my ass was quite contempt until school started. There was a whole world of television that I was getting to enjoy and Luna seemed quite contempt with this lazy life. Well when the big day came I got an unsuspected call from Darien. My hand shook as I answered the phone.
"He…eello"
"Serena are you okay?"
"Of course! Why wouldn't I be?"
"Well I know what today is…."
"Yeah…okay…I'm not ok…."
"You want a friend?"
"Please"
"I'll be over soon."
Well hell! My apt and I both looked like hell. I grabbed all the food garbage by my bed and ran to the shower. I jumped out and put light make up on and just put my hair in a ponytail. I finished just in time to hear the doorbell. I ran to the living room. When I opened the door he was carrying two bags. One bag had Chinese. The other bag had coconut rum. Both of these bags were greatly welcomed!
We ate in almost silence. I could tell that he was worried about me, but what got me is that he did not understand that he was one of the main reasons I was so upset. There was a huge part of me that just wanted to grab him, kiss him, make love to him, and never let go of him. The coward in me just sat there and watched him eat as I picked at my food.
"Serena…you need to eat more than that!"
I sighed and began eating more. I could see that he did care about me, but would this friendship be enough? After we were finished eating he asked me if I wanted to talk about it. I shook my head no and handed him a glass. He laughed at me and went to put some juice in with my rum. Luckily he was kind to me. He put more rum that juice in the drink. The first drink didn't do much to me, but the third one sure did the trick. We were laughing and joking as friends. Apparently alcohol can bring ex-lovers into the friendship zone. I was about on my fifth drink when I was really enjoying myself with Darien. We were talking about the past and laughing. Then the laughter stopped as I got a text from Seiya.
"Hey Serena, did you get the luggage during the divorce? Trying to pack for a trip."
Really? I mean really? Is he insane or something? He practically breaks down Darien's door to find me and then on our anniversary just sends me this nonchalant message. I'm going to blame this on the alcohol because I normally have my emotions in check, but not that night. I took my cell phone and threw it against the wall. I then just let out a loud, frustrated scream. I just fell to my knees and screamed then I burst into laughter. Darien came over and grabbed me.
"Serena? Calm down! You're scaring me!"
"I don't care Darien! I'm so sick of worrying about what I'm doing for everyone else! I have spent my life worrying about how to make everyone happy! I wanted to make everyone like me and love me! What do I have to show for that life? The man I gave everything to is still trying to take more from me when there is nothing left to give. Then I somehow manage to run into you. It seemed like fate. I was so happy for the time we were together…..I don't want Seiya. I want you! Darien I want you!"
He just held me in his arms and let me cry. He never said a word. It wasn't long until I past out in his arms. The next thing I remember was Darien placing me in my bed. He smiled sweetly as he placed me down on the bed and brushed the hair out of my face. He thought I was asleep. He then leaned down and kissed me. At that point I kissed him back. He stopped in shock. I grabbed his hand and pulled him down to kiss me again. He did. I wasn't sure if it was the alcohol or what I had said, but we making out with an intense want and need for each other. We then made love, or so I think we did. I have a very blurred memory of the rest of that night.
The next morning I woke up before Darien and we were completely entangled in each other with very little clothes. My hand was wrapped tightly around Darien's. My head was pounding, but I really didn't care. I was happy that I woke up like this. Apparently, though I was the only one. When Darien woke up he basically sprang out of bed. He jumped into the shower without saying a word to me. I got dressed and went to make coffee. When he got out I handed him a cup of coffee. He grabbed it from my hand and sat down. Then he sighed a heavy sigh.
"Serena, about last night…it was a mistake. We were both drunk and….."
"What? Darien, I thought you broke up with me because you thought I still was in love with Seiya. I thought when I said what I said last night that you understood that I care about you. That I want to be with you!"
"Serena, you need to heal and I need to breathe. This has gotten really intense really fast…."
I quickly put my hand over Darien's mouth. I realized something about my dear Darien. He hadn't changed a whole lot in all these years. It was more than his worries about me and Seiya. He was worried about how much he was starting to care about me again. Darien never did well with commitment. Our commitment was even more terrifying because of my baggage and because we did truly care for each other. He wanted to walk away before either of us got hurt. I just shook my head.
"Darien, there is a chance we could get hurt, but that's a chance we have to take. This is us though. We don't want to hurt each other. We could be the best thing for each other."
I grabbed his pinky. He looked up at me. His eyes were so dark. He was still scared.
"We can make this work."
"Serena! Stop! I understand what you're saying, but I can't do this! It's too fast. Just give me time to breathe."
He ran out of the apartment. He left me there in a state of confusion. A single tear fell down my cheek. I wanted to go after him, but I wanted to let him breathe. That is after all what he wanted.
That's it for Chapter 5. Yes I know no questions were answered but we'll get there people. Just keep reading!
