A/N I have to say that this was one of the hardest as well as one of the first chapters I ever wrote. I knew what I wanted to happen for this, so instead of forgetting my ideas I decided to write them. This chapter was hard even thinking about this makes me sad. Well, I would like to thanks everyone who reviewed and my awesome beta TayBee. Now, please enjoy!
Megan
BPOV
"One second!" Rose called down the stairs to Emmett.
"You ready?" Alice asked.
"No, not really," I chuckled.
"Too bad," she smiled dragging me out of her room.
We walked to the bottom of the stairs to where Emmett was standing and waiting for us. When he saw me he shook his head and I prepared for an argument.
"Bella?" Emmett scolded.
"Emmy, don't start," I looked at him.
"Fine. Just don't let me catch you making out with any guys on the beach or I swear you will be in trouble," he threatened.
"Whatever Em," I chuckled. Alice and I hooked arms and walked out to my truck, which we would all be taking to the beach. Edward sat next to me in the passenger seat to give me directions. "It's about an hours drive. I'm sure Alice will keep us occupied." He laughed.
"Damn straight!" Alice yelled from the back seat. We were just driving down the road to get on the main road when Alice got bored.
"Can we play "I Never" please?" Alice begged hitting me on the back of the head.
"We are only playing if you stop hitting me," I threatened.
"I will be good," Alice promised, "Okay, if you have just raise your hand. The first one to raise their hand ten times loses."
"Got it," everyone agreed.
"I've never made-out with someone for more than fifteen minutes," Alice chuckled, getting Emmett and Rose to raise their hands.
"That was a low blow Alice." Rose said.
What Bells never had a boyfriend?" Emmett asked, seeing my hands still on the steering wheel.
"No, I had one boyfriend, remember," I urged not wanting to tell the whole story over again.
"Oh, the asshole," Emmett sighed.
"Okay, my turn," Rose volunteered, changing the subject, "I've never gotten suspended."
Emmett, Jazz and Edward raised their hands, "Stupid goody-two shoes girls," Emmett mumbled.
"I've never been a cheerleader," Emmett said.
Rose, Alice, myself, Edward and Jazz raised their hands.
"What?!" I asked shocked.
"We will explain later," Alice smiled.
"Edward, your turn," Rose smiled.
"I've never been slapped by the person I'm dating," he laughed, "Sorry Emmett, I just want to see you lose."
Emmett grumbled and raised his hand. Very timidly, I raised my hand of the steering wheel. I wasn't going to lie about what happened back home.
"What?!" they asked shocked.
"James," I sniffled swerving. Everyone in the back seat was freaking out.
"Bella pull over!" Emmett said sternly, "Edward can you drive?" he asked.
"Yeah. No problem," Edward smiled sadly at me. He climbed over me and took the wheel. My hands sat in my lap as I held back the tears. Edward reached over and rested one of his hands on top of mine.
Everyone in the car was looking at me expectantly. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you guys. It's just not something I talk about." I said, looking at my lap.
"That's how Rose was at first." Jasper said.
"What?" My head snapped up. Was Rose hurt by someone?
"Oh, sorry Rose," Jasper said.
"It's okay. I can talk about it," Rose sighed putting her hand up. "I was raped last year Bella. It took me a long time to talk about it."
"Who?" I asked, "Was it someone you trusted?"
"Some football player at the school named Royce. He asked me to homecoming, but I said no. He followed me home that night. It was just really hard to talk about. I don't know, most people don't understand it." Rose said softly.
"I understand better than you might think."
"Bella?" Alice asked slowly.
"Yeah," I sniffled. "It's one of the reasons why I begged to move out here." I didn't want to talk about my rape. Not now. Edward's grip tightened on my hand. I looked up to him and he smiled the saddest smile I had ever seen.
"Oh my…Bells. My little sister," Emmett sighed. His hand reached over the seat and held my shoulder tight. Small tears sat in the corners of his eyes.
"Well I know how to dampen a mood, don't I?" I asked almost jokingly. I hated that everyone was so sad. "Why don't we forget about all this for a few hours and we can talk about it later."
I put on my best cheery voice even though my heart was breaking.
No one said anything for the remainder of the ride. As soon as we got there, I jumped out of the car and ran before I collapsed too close to the car. I found a spot that was secluded but still on the beach. I felt my knees give way and then I fell to the ground my body racking with sobs. I can't handle this pain that is coming back. I have to talk to someone soon…Rose. I will talk to Rose about it and then I will call Esme when we get home. Esme always was my lifeline when I was little, she was like my own therapist.
I pulled myself up into a sitting position and stared at the ocean for a little while. I was listening to the wave when I heard my name being called. "Bella! There you are!" Edward called and ran up to me. He sat on the beach next to me and scooted close enough that I could rest my head on his shoulder. "Are you okay," he asked me, his hand rubbing circles in my back.
"I will be. Today just brought back a bunch of memories. I got help back in Phoenix, but it's still hard to deal with sometimes. I want to act like it didn't happen right now."
Edward nodded and stood up. He stood in front of me and put both hands out to help me up. I grabbed his hands and was again surprised by the electricity I felt. He yanked me up and only let go of one of my hands. We walked down the beach hand in hand back to the group. "I should warn you, we ran into some- well- I guess they're friends- when we got out of your truck. They're going to hang out with us. Edward started pointing to different people. "The blonde greasy one is Mike. Don't let him sit next to you, he'll try something. That's Tyler, and that's Eric."
I looked closer and saw three girls as well. "Of course you know Tanya, but you haven't met her evil minions, Jessica and Lauren. They absolutely thrive on gossip."
"Well they are going to have a field day with me then." I sighed. Edward squeezed my hand reassuringly.
"Hey Bells! Are you okay?" Emmett asked when I had gotten back over to them.
"Fine," I tried to smile at him.
Edward spoke up to introduce me, not dropping my hand. "Everyone, this is Bella, Emmett's twin sister.
"Hello Bella," everyone replied politely while Tanya was shooting me dirty looks.
"Let's play truth or dare!" Jessica suggested.
"Sure," Alice smiled after looking at us, me in particular because of the very eventful "I Never" game.
"Who wants to go first?" Alice asked.
"I will," Tyler smiled, "Mike truth or dare?"
"Dare," Mike answered.
"I dare you to run naked down the beach and back," Tyler smiled.
"Okay," Mike sighed.
"Bella I would close your eyes," Edward chuckled in my ear. I looked around and saw Rose and Alice both had their eyes shut.
"Good idea," I smiled at him closing my eyes.
Mike ran down the beach screaming "I feel so alive!" at the top of his lungs while everyone else was just watching or laughing. Finally he finished, he had to be like the slowest runner ever.
"Done," Mike huffed and puffed.
"Finally," I muttered.
"Okay, Eric truth or dare?" Mike asked.
"Truth," he replied.
"Ugh! Fine! Who do you like?"
"Lauren," he muttered quickly averting his every from everyone that was there. Everyone was too stunned to speak, "Jessica truth or dare?"
"Truth," she smiled.
"Have you ever had sex with someone as a one night stand?" Eric asked.
"Once," she answered as both she and Mike blushed. At least we know who the guy she had sex with was. Eric looked shocked.
"Eric is learning a lot about his so-called friends" Edward laughed into my ear. I shivered at his breath running down my neck.
"Tanya truth or dare?" Jessica asked.
"Truth," Tanya answered. This was so boring why couldn't anyone pick dare and do something interesting?
"What is the worst thing that's ever happened to you?" Jessica asked. I shifted in my seat. I'm glad I wasn't asked that question. I felt like I was about to explode.
"The worst thing to ever happen to me besides Eddie breaking up with me twice?" she asked herself, "Oh, I got it. It was last year and my boyfriend were walking up in Port Angeles and some guy walked up to me and pinched my ass."
Is she serious? Some perv pinched her butt?
"That's the worst thing that ever happened to you?" I asked loudly, astonished.
"Yeah!" Lauren yelled. "I was like, holding hands with my boyfriend and I was just walking down the boardwalk and this guy pinched my butt! I swear I needed to be on suicide-watch or something."
My eyebrows shot up and Lauren got angry at my lack of understanding. "Oh puh-lease Bella. You've probably never had anything happen to you ever. What's the worst thing that's happened to you? Did you get rejected for prom?"
"You don't know the first thing about something bad happening to you!" I yelled.
"Bella what's going on?" Emmett asked looking confused.
Lauren looked glad she got a reaction out of me. "Oh really? What could be so horrible about your life? You lived in sunny Phoenix, living it up by a nice pool perhaps? And then you move back here and it's like you never left. Every one loves you right away. Yeah, your life is real bad." She said sarcastically. I sprang up from my seat.
"Bella, don't," Emmett said.
"Shut up Em. I have to say this. You think that someone pinching your ass is bad? One pinch? Try having an abusive boyfriend!" I yelled but she didn't say anything.
"Trying being raped not only once but four time by two different people. Try having one of those people be your boyfriend who you thought loved you. And try having the other guy be your step-brother who you thought you could trust. Try living in the same house as him. It sucks. I suffered for two years in an abusive relationship and then being scared to death to go to bed at night in fear of being raped again. You try a life where, every time your parents go out your boyfriend and step brother touch you and try to kiss you. You try having my old life in Phoenix for even a year and I promise you that you will want to kill yourself. I did. I was put in a mental hospital, I was suicidal, I was put on suicide watch at the hospital and I was and still am on anti-depressants to control my suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I still feel like the world would be better off without me, but then I think of my family and my friends and I don't want to kill myself over my old life. You try living like I did for ten years and then you come and tell me that you don't have problems like I do!" I hadn't realized that I had started to cry until I had finished talking. Alice and everyone else started walking toward me and I couldn't deal with it. I just ran, I couldn't deal with it right now.
"Alice call mom!" I heard Edward call to her as he and Rose started running after me.
EmPOV
I sat there in total shock. Surely this was a dream. I couldn't believe this was real.
"Alice call mom!" Edward yelled. He and Rose took off after Bella. I couldn't move, I just fell to my knees, sobbing. Grown men shouldn't cry!
I felt two soft arms wrap around my shoulder. Alice.
"Why Alice? Why?" I asked through tears.
"I don't know Em. I just don't know," she sniffled.
"I thought that I could trust him!" I yelled, "Phil was such a nice guy! How could his own son be such a creep? How could he let him do that to Bella?"
Alice just cried. Jasper came over and joined our little group of two letting Alice cry into his shirt. I could see that Jasper was trying to stay calm for Alice but there were tears in his eyes threatening to fall. Lauren and Jessica just sat on the beach with stunned expressions.
"I'm sorry I couldn't keep you safe Bella," I cried to myself, "I'm sorry!"
A/N Anyone surprised? Please tell me if you liked this chapter or not. I would really like to know. And just for the record, if I didn't have my beta, TayBee, I have no idea how well this chapter would've gone over. I know that I already thanked her but I would just like to do so again. And now... If you read all my rambling, please review! I will update when I get at least seven reviews. Thanks
Megan :)
