Comment if you love Ulquiorra! Woo! Anway, It can be really difficult to write as Ulquiorra sometimes... I really don't want to make him seem too OOC. Enjoy chapter 20 everyone :D
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Chapter 20- Secrets
It was getting harder and harder to breath. Grabbing at the doorknob, my hands slipped; clammy with sweat. The reiatsu flowing from the room I was about to enter was so ridiculously strong I could hardly bare to stand straight.
"This reiatsu... Ulquiorra is in."
I was worried sick; how would Ulquiorra react if I knocked on his door? What if he was busy? And most importantly, would he help me achieve my ultimate goal; to find my strength? Probably not, but I didn't really have much to lose. I mean, I was already being practically raped by my own superior, and I couldn't fight properly without almost getting killed myself. Whatever punishment Ulquiorra would deal out wouldn't change me at all; I'd just be in pain again as usual.
Raising my right hand, it jittered about with nerves. Could I do this? I had to. I tapped lightly on the door with my knuckles; half hoping Ulquiorra wouldn't hear anything. However, I heard a muffled answer from behind the door.
"Who... is it?"
The reiatsu dropped rather drastically, putting me at ease... or rather, more at ease than I had been a few seconds ago. My resolute was in my head and in my heart; I knew I had to be courageous here. Parting my lips slightly, I answered Ulquiorra with a strong solid voice.
"Ulquiorra-sama, its Adoriana Hertz. Could I... ask you a question, er, sir?"
There was a long silence.
Oh no. He's going to ignore me now. How embarrassing... should I walk away?
"Come in."
Ahh. He replied so quietly I hardly heard him at all. Twisting the doorknob, I stepped in, legs shaking and blood so hot I could explode.
I couldnt quite make out what he was doing, he was bent over a desk at the back of the dimly lit room. I stood there quietly for a while, trying to compose myself. Ulquiorra stood up straight and stared straight at me. I could only see emerald green, the light from behind me causing little sparks to dance around in his eyes. Ulquiorra's eyes were certainly ones of beauty, unlike most arrancar. His glare was so deep it was as if he was looking past my eyes and into my brain, reading my innermost thoughts, some that even I didn't understand.
"Are you going to ask the question... or are you just going to stand there? I am busy, please hurry up."
Reality flickered in my brain, bringing me back down from the clouds and thump back into the room where I stood in a straight line to Ulquiorra. He was now standing only a few feet away from me, and I realised he wasn't as small as he looked.
"Ah... Ulquiorra-sama, earlier on you said something about me having power? How... how can you tell that? And if you know it, do you also know what could help me to coax this so-called power out, since I seem to be such a weak and useless being."
He sighed almost silently and gently placed the paperwork in his hand down on the coffee table next to him.
"Do you remember your battle a few years ago...?"
He stopped mid-sentence, running his hand through his glossy black spikes of hair.
"No... You wouldn't remember."
Clenching my fists I took a few steps closer to him.
"Wouldn't remember... wouldn't remember what?"
Ulquiorra stood silently in the shadows, not moving an inch nor saying anything. His muteness started to irritate me. I was asking him a simple question and he still couldnt answer me, what the hell was his problem? I moved my fist so it was almost touching his chest... some kind of stupid useless threat I guess.
"Ulquiorra-sama! Please, tell me what on earth you are talking about!"
He raised his own hand and placed it gently against my fist. Looking down at our feet, they were so close our toes were almost touching. I felt my cheeks blush violently, feeling Ulquiorra's hands on mine.
"I am sworn to secrecy. Telling you would only result in disaster."
His head suddenly jolted up a little, looking distracted. I watched, mesmerized as his emerald eyes flickered and shimmered... he looked totally phased out.
"Ul... Ulquiorra-sama?"
He blinked once and looked down at me.
"Nnoitra is looking for you. I just received a message from him... you should go."
My heart started to race inside my chest again. I didn't want to see Nnoitra, and the fact he was 'looking for me' made me feel terrified. What on earth would he do to me when he found me? I had run away from him, gone against his orders. Damn!
"I don't want to go and find him!"
I blurted out stupidly. My mind had been wandering off somewhere else, I didn't realise that I had actually shouted at the Cuatro.
"Sorry... I didn't mean to shout. I'll go now, um... thank you for speaking with me sir."
Even if he hadn't answered my question, he had actually taken the time to speak to me. Scurrying down the various corridors, I finally arrived at my destination. My own room. When I opened the door, there was someone unexpected standing inside, waiting for me.
