We Remain

Chapter thirteen

Clarke POV

Walking back out through the woods the conversation with Lexa and I kept re running in my mind and before I knew it I was back out on the hill with five of Lexa's Guards surrounding me.

They didn't come any closer then two meters and never made eye contact with me. Trying to ignore them I could see Octavia in the distance, making her way towards the training grounds. "OCTAVIA" I called out and began running towards her.

Once in front of her, her eyes widened. "Clarke what are you doing out here, you should be back in the healers hut." Looking around me she frowned "What's with all the guards."

Spinning around I notice all five guards had followed me. "I don't know, they weren't following me before" my head already hurt and my confusion wasn't helping.

She pulled me in close and whispered "How the hell did you get out of that hut, there was a healer inside and five guards surrounding it."

I frowned "What are you talking about? The Hut was empty."

Looking at my guards again she shook her head "It certainly wasn't when Lincoln and I left and I can't imagine Lexa would command them to leave their guard."

"Well I'm telling you it was empty, maybe Hunter saw something" I said shrugging it off. "Speaking of which you would not believe what I just found out".

Walking to the bottom of the training ground with Octavia I told her about Hunter, Costia and her other bodyguard/lover Jarod and how I had just told Lexa about it. All she did was frown the entire time.

"What's with all the frowning" I asked confused. It wasn't the reaction I imagined I would get.

"It doesn't make sense" she paused "The commander only just gave out word she had changed her fight with Hunter to a 'death match.' Why would she do that after what you just told her." That was a very good question and one I was going to find out.

"Do you know where she is now?" I asked eyeing the training ground for any sign of her.

"I'd check the village if I were you" nodded my head at her I gave her a quick hug before leaving her.

Weaving my way through the village I got caught in a crowd that had gathered but managed to squeeze my way through, possibly pulling a few stitches on the way.

Once I was at the front of the crowd what I saw made my blood run cold. I was out the front of the Healers hut where two of Lexa's guards were carrying a obviously unconscious or possibly dead female. I could hear the grounders talking amongst themselves, some had their heads bowing at the women saying 'Yu gonplei ste odon' (Your fight is over)

While I heard others whisper the words 'fisa.' This was their Healer, I felt sick to my stomach noticing the side of her was covered in dirt and blood.

It was then I caught sight of Lexa behind the hut looking out towards the woods. Sneaking past one of her guards I came up behind her "Lexa" I whispered.

Her whole body swung around and when she faced me her eyes that were originally full of anger softened at the sight of me. "Clarke" her shoulders sagged in relief, then instantly changed to anger, "where are your guards?"

Before I could answer they where next to me once again, but that didn't take away her anger. Striding up next to me she faced them and let out her fury, all five warriors winced. I couldn't tell what she was saying but it was obvious she wasn't pleased with the job they where doing.

I did however manage to understand one guard saying something in trigedasleng about me being small. Unfortunately for him that wasn't a good enough excuse going by Lexa's reaction.

"Kamp raun hir" (Stay here) she snapped at them. Then turned towards me tilting her head towards the edge of the woods.

Once we were at the edge Lexa narrowed her eyes at me "You need to stay with your guards at all times."

I rolled my eyes "why do I even have guards?" but she refused to answer. "At least tell me what's going on, you changed your fight with Hunter to a death match, why?" her eyes saddened.

"TELL ME" I yelled frustrated. "I told you it wasn't Hunters fault and Costia was lovers with Jarod one of her bodyguards."

Dropping down onto a log nearby Lexa let her head rest in her hands before looking back up at me. "Costia only had one guard."

Sitting down on the log to her left I grabbed one of her hands "No. Hunter told me she had another guard, Jarod."

Looking into the distance Lexa began to speak again "before Hunter became a warrior all three of us were close, since Hunter did not have a name at that time Costia and I decided to give him one." She paused for a second "we began calling him Jarod."

My eyes nearly popped out of my head "are you telling me Hunter is Jarod?" So many questions and scenario's began running though my head, did he see Costia being taken or worse what if he had handed her over because she wanted to end things with him. I guess only Hunter knew the answers.

Turning to me Lexa gave me a sad smile. "He has been waiting for this moment…for a death match. He's smart though he wants me distracted before our fight, he knows he can not defeat me when I am focused."

I shook my head, he manipulates me into unknowingly telling Lexa about his affaire with Costia, so she can fester on the knowledge of his betrayal. He really is twisted and I began questioning my knowledge on being able to read people. It was like we were talking about two completely different people.

Lexa looks up at the sky, then back at the healers hut, I could see the dampness in her eyes "He did this."

"What do you mean," I asked.

"He wanted you to be the one to tell me, even if it meant killing your guards and our healer for it to happen."

I looked at the Hut and felt sick "They died because of me."

Lexa spun her head back to me "No" she said firmly. "They died because of me. When we were young I knew there was something different about him but I was a child and I found it intriguing instead of something dark. Even when I took command I would make excuses."

There was a short silence before she spoke again with much more anger and determination in her voice "Blood must have blood Clarke."

Ignoring Indra's constant interruptions Lexa and I sat on the log with me to her left, not talking just trying to grab a few moments of peace without feeling guilt, pain or betrayal.

Lexa had been trying to practice some kind of trigedakru meditation, I missed the name but by the way her face looked it seemed to be helping..

I turned my head towards the village then back to Lexa and found her green eyes opened staring at me. I couldn't help but notice how much they shined in the sun. Realising where my thoughts were headed I shook my head and turned my head back to the Village.

It would be a lie to deny the fact that I was attracted to Lexa and she obviously had feelings for me, never bothering to hide it. The truth is even if we did get together how would it work. I have to lead my people and she has to lead hers. It would never work or the conventional type of relationship wouldn't.

I hated the fact that I wanted to kiss her just as much as I wanted to hate her. However I knew the hate part was only because of my own heart shattered at her betrayal, something I would have done if I were in her position.

It made it all more difficult to accept and hate her. I wanted to pretend for a while that it didn't happen and there was no tourument.

Looking back at Lexa I watched her remove her gloved hands rotating her wrists, obviously trying to restore some feeling in them.

Being brave I lifted my right hand and gently tucked a stray braid that had come loose behind her ear.

Lexa's whole body froze at the sudden contact before then slowly turning her head towards me. I could see in her eyes she was unsure of what to do or what to say. Honestly I didn't blame her, not after her last attempt in the woods.

Showing encouragement I moved closer to her, watching as her eyes filled with a yearning I could not quite describe, but made my breath catch.

When she spoke her voice was no louder then a whisper. "Clarke?"

Ignoring the question in her voice I did something very unlike me and leaned towards her, softly pressing my lips onto hers. I could tell she was worried that at any moment I would pull away, but once I rested my hand on her knee she realised I had no intention of doing so and her kiss went instantly from slow and gentle to anything but.

Distantly I could hear Indra's voice call out for her Commander, which was then followed by a frustrated growl from Lexa that made me jump. Looking up I saw her eyes narrowing where Indra's voice was coming from. I wasn't sure if it was good or bad thing, I didn't get the chance to find out. Lexa grabbed my hand and pulled me behind a large tree, obviously even Indra couldn't stop what was about to happen.

Lexa stood still in front of me her vulnerable green eyes staring into mine, asking permission. Feeling suddenly nervous I nodded my head and unconsciously began thinking about my lack of experience.

I didn't need to worry, Lexa somehow made all those thoughts disappear the second she grabbed my right hip pinning my lower body to the tree, tangling her other hand in my hair and resumed what I had started.

I had never felt so wanted before and before I knew it my right hand was on the nape of Lexa's neck, pulling her closer to me.

It was all so intense that I could barely think, which was a good thing knowing my inability to relax. Right now all I knew was that this was nothing like when I was with Finn, he kissed me like I was a china doll. Lexa however kissed me like I was the only person that mattered to her and I would disappear any second. This was obviously grounder style and I had to admit I like it…a lot.

In the distance I heard a horn being blown for the tournament to start. We both abruptly pulled away slightly out of breath, talk about saved by the bell or horn for that matter.

Looking towards the Village then back at Lexa I noticed a beaming smile on her face. The closest I'd ever seen to her give a real smile before was the day we were being chased by the Gorilla, were I told her she may be heartless but least she's smart.

"Now you fight" I smiled, turning back to the Village.

Once we exited the woods I noticed Indra standing to the side with a deep scowl on her face, making me blush all kinds of red.

Many thoughts began swimming though my head 'What have I done' and worse 'what must Lexa be thinking'. Dose she see this as myself declaring that I want to be hers or dose she understand it was something to take our mind off the chaos around us, a something that I'll find very difficult to forget.

Looking back at the grin on her face, even in front of Indra I got the distant feeling that she thinks I want to be hers.

Honestly I didn't know what I wanted, actually I do know…I want Lexa to kick Hunter/Jarod's ass.

The kiss with Clarke and Lexa had to be T rated so that was re written, making it less descriptive LOL.