Chapter 8

(Paul POV)

To be honest, I had no idea what the hell I was doing. All I knew was that I wanted to die.

My imprint didn't love me. She had a boy friend! How could I be so stupid! A girl like her couldn't be single. She was way too perfect.

"Paul! Get your ass back here now before the vamps notice!" I could vaguely hear Seth calling from behind me but it didn't register in my mind. I was too set on dying.

"Paul! What are you doing man!" Embry's voice joined in on the hollering. I walked further into the Cullen's territory, Seth and Embry up against the boarder line erging me to come back over. I could here the rustling of leaves in the distance. The leeches would be here soon.

"Paw?" A scared little voice called. I looked behind me, my eyes wide. There stood Ryan, petrified to the spot as he watched the stone cold creature that could only be a vampire heading towards me, a snarl on it's face.

It was the big, dark haired leech. He would be easy to take down.

"Get the hell out of there Paul! You can't phase in front of Ryan! Come on! You're leaving Cat unprotected!" Embry was yelling frantically from behind me. I looked back at Ryan who looked like he was about to pass out.

"Get the kid out of here!" I yelled back over my shoulder, glancing back at the dark haired leech who was now being restained by the bronze haired one. The older, docter blondie guy was walking slowly towards me, looking completely calm.

"If you leave now we won't attack." He told me calmly. I growled. Who was he to make such an offer! They should be ripping me to shreds right now.

"No! Kill me!" I shouted at him. He just looked at me, a shocked expression taking over his features. "Kill me!" I screamed more forcefully. He didn't oblige, he just stood there starring at me, looking sympathetic. This wasn't how it was supposed to go. They were supposed to kill me right away. Take me out of my misery, end my life.

I didn't want to live! Why couldn't they just do as I asked and kill me?

"You don't know what you're saying." The doctor one said again, looking at my now shaking form. Out of the corner of my eyes I saw Quill show up and grab Ryan, taking him back home. It was safe to phase now, yet I couldn't.

"KILL ME!" I screamed again, tears springing to my eyes. The doctor smiled sadly before turning to the other leeches.

"Bring him home Edward." he siad, gesturing to the big dark haired guy who just glared at me. They ran home together, leaving me there feeling more then frustrated. I turned around, screaming in anger and punching a tree as I walked back towards the treaty line. It fell down slowly and I gripped my head in my hands, wiping away tears of frustration and angst as the leaked from my eyes.

"You ass! How could you do that! You put the whole tribe in danger!" Embry yelled as I walked back over the line. An aggravated fist made contact with my face. I had the smarts to at least flinch, even though it didn't hurt.

I was receiving cold, hard glares from each of them as I walked off to no where in particular.

"Were you even thinking! Did you think about what would have happened to Cat if you died! She would have died too Paul! She would be dead because of you!" Seth yelled at me, pushing me against a tree to scream in my face, I let him. The image of Cat's dead body etched itself in my brain and I tried my hardest to get rid of it but I couldn't. I could have killed her. She could be dead because of me.

"I-I" I said but couldn't get any words out. The realization of what I just did hit me like a thousand vampires.

"It's always about you Paul! That's all you think about! Now, for once, you have someone who actually cares about you! Someone who was made just fro you! And you don't even care about her! You know what? I feel bad for her! She HAS to love you Paul! She has no choice! But not anymore! I'm not going to let her love you Paul!" Seth screamed in my face, his anger making him shake. It was then that I thought about how Seth acts around Cat. Oh god, he likes her.

He likes my imprint. And she liked him too. Well, she liked him more then she liked me. Oh god, Seth had a chance. He could steel her away. I felt anger take over me as I punch Seth in the face, hard.

"Stay away from her!" I screamed out, new tears falling down my face.

"Me?" Seth asked, his voice becoming calmer as he softly scoffed at my words. "I'm not the one who just almost killed her Paul." he said, shortly laughing without humor. "Oh, and by the way, Justin was gay." He said before turning around and running towards Cat's house.

"Embry?" I said, turning to see him still giving me a hard look.

"Don't. You betrayed this tribe Paul. I have to tell Sam about this you know? He's not going to like it. He'll have to decide what to do with you. Until then, just stay the hell away from me." He said, roughly bumping my shoulder as he made his way towards Sam's. "Oh, and I wouldn't be surprised if Ryan has already told Cat what he saw."

And with that, I was left alone in the woods, crying to myself over my foolish mistakes, and my broken heart.

Tell me what you think! I personally didn't think it was all that good.