Previously :
Where I was going or how I was going to drive home in this condition. I just stood in my car and let it all out. All the hurt, pain and the suffering all gone. I drove home. Thank god Charlie was not home when I got there because I was not going to explain what happened. And I was not in the mood.
I went to my room and cried myself to sleep.
Chapter 3
Here in my bed and looking like a train wreck. I was a mess. My face was red, and my eyes were red and puffy. What a way to start my morning. Today I was going to promise myself that I will not leave and I am going to have to face them sooner than later.
Today was off. It felt like one of those days that something was going to happen. It can change my life forever. But this is something that I cannot explain. It is still hard to understand it because a million scenarios come to mind. Sometimes something happens and sometimes it doesn't. And if something does happens it is not something you were expecting. It was always the opposite of what I was thinking. It is just a matter of time when everything fits together.
I went to start getting ready for my day to begin. I headed towards my classes. Luckily I didn't run into any of the Cullens because I was not ready to face them even thought I promised myself this morning.
The day seems to be going easily. I only ran in to Edward in Biology. That is until lunch time. This is when I saw all five of them. They once again looked like they were in pain. I didn't want that for them .So this means that I had to talk to them after school.
That is when I smelled rust and salt. That can only mean one thing, BLOOD. When I looked at the table that the Cullens were seating at, I can tell that it was hard for them to be around it. I tried to calm down so I won't faint from the smell.
I had to get this off my mind. Here I am looking around the cafeteria and have seen two people that I thought I would never see again. It was my mother and Cody. How I miss them so much. But what are they doing here. Last time that I talked with them was a couple of days ago. And she did not mention that they were coming here to see me.
Here I am standing right in front of them and giving her the biggest hug I can give. The expression on their faces was off. I can tell something was wrong right away. This is not going to be good. I broke the silence.
"Mom what is going on? Why are you and Cody here?" I said looking at their blank expressions. It was like they were shutting down. They didn't speak, they just started at me. It was starting to get weird from here on. What is going on that it is hard for them to say something. I am glad that they are here.
During the whole thing I forgot the one person who helped me through everything. I forgot to give Cody a hug. How I could forget him. He helped me with everything. He was always there for me when I needed him. He always knows what to say even thought I had a crummy day. He will always make smile. I can see why I dated him for some time.
"Sorry I forgot to give you a hug and I miss you so much." I said looking at him with curiously eyes. I heard a growl coming from the other side and it was no other then Edward himself. That is not right hearing him growl. Why should he growl when he didn't love me, or when he left me? Did he know that he left me to suffer all by myself?
During this whole ordeal I was still waiting for a response from her. This is when my world came crashing down around me.
"CHARLIE" was all she said during the sobbing.
I still didn't understand what this had to do with Charlie. I was wondering that this must be bad for her to be crying. She never cries that I have been with her.
"Mom what does this have to do with Charlie?" I said nervously.
"Charlie was murdered" she said looking at me with tears coming down her face.
What??
My father is gone. It's like my life is not worth anything. Who could have done something like this? My whole world came crashing down once again. Once in the past when Edward had left. And now with my father being murdered. It was like I couldn't move, couldn't do nothing. It was like my whole body gave out.
I was crying so much that I didn't notice I was in someone arms. I was in Cody arms. It didn't feel right. I wanted Edward to be with me. I wanted him to tell me that everything is going to be ok. I am here for you. How I miss being so close to him. With the simplest touch he was able to calm me down. All I wanted him to whisper "everything is going to be ok" in my ear. How he could make me shiver when he would whisper. But that will never happen. He left me to face my life all by myself. Here I am in another mans arms.
I didn't care that I was in the cafeteria and all eyes were on me. All I wanted was to be comforted. And here is Cody helping me once again.
"Bella sh,sh, sh, it's going to be okay. I am here and I am going to help you again." Cody said while rocking me back and forth.
I was crying so much that I passed out.