CHAPTER 6

When I awoke a bit later, my back was no longer facing him but I was looking at him or rather, he was looking at me. I blinked my eyes a few times and allowed my eyes to adjust to the dimming light; the light from the kitchen shining in over my head to wash his face in shadows. The wind was still roaring outside and I could hear the rain on the roof. Edward was looking right at me, his eyes warm and gentle. He gently stroked my back, like I had done on the beach and whispered, "Hey there beautiful. You have a nice nap? You are the most content sleeper I have ever seen."

"What, how long have you been watching me sleep?" I should have been uneasy about this but I wasn't. The fact that he wanted to watch me sleep was nice and made me feel safe.

"About 20 minutes. I woke to find you snuggled on the couch." He grinned mischievously. "I thought you were supposed to be keeping me awake but then I awaken to find you here with me."

That's when I knew.

"You purposely put me on the couch!" I accused but still I didn't attempt to get up.

"You've got me. You looked tired and I needed you to supervise me. I told you that I didn't have a concussion though."

"Well, I'm glad that you didn't die in your sleep. This death grip that you have on me would make it impossible for me to get up to get help." I laughed and settled myself in and a little closer to his face. This close up, his eye lashes were so long, the kind that I had always wanted, the kind that mascara took to. His breath was sweet on my face, I didn't even think about it as I leaned in and kissed him. Edward didn't miss a beat. He pulled me closer, forcing me to straighten my legs out so that our bodies were touching in more than one place. He wrapped one arm tightly over my back and the other grasped my face. It started off sweet and gentle, one that I had experienced earlier but this time desire made its way out. He kissed passionately, his lips rough on mine, his tongue experimenting with mine. His hands roamed cautiously over my body, only pausing in each place long enough to feel the softness and moving on to find the next. I could feel myself melting, absolutely melting under his touch. Edward groaned as he pulled away. Desire had moved into his eyes, I was dazed looking at him and the ache in my stomach was amazing. I had never felt that before. This man was doing this to me.

He pulled away and attempted to sit us up.

"Bella, you are driving me crazy. I think that we need to stop or we will find ourselves in a predicament that we may not want to be in. Yet"

I gazed at him wide eyed and catching my own breath, "Yes, you are right". I was embarrassed, not because I had kissed him with so much passion but at the fact that he ended it. I knew it. I was not what he wanted. I was never what they wanted. I sat up quickly, straightened my bunched up tank and tried to put distance between us and allow space and time for me to swallow the rejection, the same rejection that I had experienced before. The memories of my relationship with Jacob Black, a childhood friend, surfacing in my thoughts. He had been my confidant and best friend before Alice and Angela had ever come into my life. He had been the one that I could rely on and he had been the one that I had un-knowingly had crush on for the longest time, I had just chalked it up as we were kindred spirits. Unfortunately, my inability to discuss my feelings when Jacob had professed his feelings for me and I had rejected him and my ability to discuss my feelings for him at the wrong time, like when he had tried to get me to help him pick out an engagement ring for his now wife, Leah, had crushed me.

Edward pulled me from my daydream with a gentle touch on my shoulders. "We will have our time together. I promise. Fate brought us together today and I intend; I want to see it through." He pleaded insistently while looking me deep in my clearing eyes. "You will not be able to get rid of me so easily. Trust me on that one. " He leaned forward to place a gentler kiss on my lips.