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Back to more fun exciting things (for thosse of you who can see this) This is Chapter 10 and I hope you like it! I left grateful to be out of there. Being in the same room as him for so long was harder than I thought it would be. I had a lot to focus on but all the way through meeting I'd been very aware of him. He'd sat back with his guardian mask on the whole time showing better control than anyone else in the room. He sat back in his chair and rested his elbows on the arm rests clasping his hands. His hair was tied back and occasionally he had pushed a lock of it behind his ear only for it to fall back a few moments later. And he'd been watching me of that I was sure, probably to determine when he had to protect the queen from my flying fist.

I stepped outside and gulped a few lung-full's of crisp air. It did a lot to clear my head and I felt rather refreshed. Until Eddie fell instep with me. Normally someone falling instep with you wasn't a problem, right? Well this time it was clear Eddie wanted to talk about something.

"What's up?" I asked.

"Belikov kept looking at you the whole time. Want me to talk him for you? I know he hurt you."

"No." I said surprising myself. "He'll actually come and talk to me before long."

I knew that was a given. When the new semester began Lissa, Eddie and I would go to Leigh and Dimitri would go where ever the council sent him. The likely hood was we wouldn't see each other for years, if we ever saw each other again. My heart clenched at the thought of never seeing him again. But this was still his choice. If he wanted to fix this he'd have to come and ask me for forgiveness. If we were so in sync all the time he'd surely know that already.

Eddie didn't respond to my reply in any particular way other than relaxing a little. I got the impression he didn't like my decision but he respected it all the same. Just like I had with Dimitri. Only this time round nothing bad would come of that respect.

"So, you, me and Liss all off to Leigh. How do you feel about studying some more?"

"Well we've kind of go to haven't we? Does she know what she's going to do yet?"

I laughed. "Does she ever. I think she even knows what she's going to do a PhD in. Political sciences and classical literature. I hope you like essays."

"Maybe she can write them all for us as well as her own. She's clever enough." He joked. "It's weird. We've been training for this for years. I thought I would be more excited."

"We've got someone's life in our hands. That's never an exciting prospect."

We walked in silence for a few more minutes as we made our way over to the Moroi rooms to find Lissa and Christian. Only when we go there it wasn't as happy as either of us had expected. Lissa was pouring through the Leigh prospectus and babbling something that I couldn't quite hear. Christian was leaning over her trying to make her see sense about something. Eddie looked at me asking what was going on. I hadn't checked the bond so I just shook my head and took another step into the room. Christian noticed us and silently asked us for help. I confidently strode into the room with Eddie following.

"Lissa. Calm down." I said with a hand on her shoulder.

She didn't look away from the book. I gently took it from her.

"Christian give it… Oh Rose."

"Hey Liss. What are you doing?"

"Looking at subjects. I need the prospectus." She reached for it again. I tossed it backwards and Eddie caught it. "Rose." She protested.

"Liss, sit down."

She sat back on the sofa eying up the book. Eddie threw it into the waste paper bin.

"Lissa, what's wrong?" he asked.

She didn't answer and made sure I couldn't hear it through the bond.

"She wants to change subjects." Christian began. "Because she doesn't think you'll like them."

Eddie rolled his eyes and crossed his arms before leaning against the wall. I sat with Lissa and took her hands in mine.

"After what you said…"

"It doesn't matter." I interrupted. "We're your guardians. We follow you."

"But…"

"Lissa. You're not changing your subjects. Final."

"It's not fair. Just like you said."

"I was angry and upset. Liss, we'll be fine."

"I'll make you a coffee." Eddie said.

Christian sat by her side and put an arm around her. She instantly calmed and I felt that all too familiar pang of jealousy. It wasn't too long ago that it was only me that could do that. Now it seemed more often than not that it was Christian who did that, don't get me wrong I was glad he could do it because there were times when I wasn't around but I was jealous all the same. And I knew he felt that way about what I did for Lissa – taking spirit's darkness away and all that because he thought he should be able to make her fell better no matter what the situation was. If I were in his place I would feel that way too. As it was we both put up with it for Lissa's sake and knowing that the other wasn't going to leave. Hell, he'd helped make it so I was her guardian so he was definitely all for me staying. There wouldn't have been a better way of getting rid of me than that.

Eddie came back with the coffee and drinks for the rest of us and handed them around.

"I propose a toast." I began. "To defying the queen and our happily ever after."

Everyone raised the cups saying "Happily ever after". Those were three words I'd never thought I would hear Christian say which had me laughing. To celebrate Lissa wanted to pot a movie on. We hadn't watched a film together in what felt like years. She had popcorn – lots of popcorn – brought over and then flicked through the movie channels. She wanted to put The Proposal on. Christian, Eddie and I groaned and flatly refused. Eddie pulled the remote out of her hands and flicked back up to Bride Wars.

"Eddie how is that better?" I asked.

"It's not as soppy. You get to watch married couples argue and the brides fight in massive wedding dresses."

Somehow that sounded appealing and no doubt Christian would get a kick out of watching engaged people tearing each others throats out. Figuratively of course. Lissa gave me the look. The look that said: I bet you and Dimitri will be nothing like that. I shook my head slightly meaning for her to shut up about it.

But her look stayed with me the whole way through the movie. My mind kept on drifting back to Dimitri and his caresses and soft touch, the way he used to find excuses to touch my hair and skin. God, when did it all become so complicated? I missed the days when I was able to talk to him about what was going on in my life and what was going on in his life. Sometimes, like after he'd called his family after someone's birthday, I'd listen to him talk about them for most of the training session with such a fondness I just somehow knew he was s family man. He's smile and lose his tough love mentor mask and leave his godly status behind him. But I also missed just being around him even if we weren't saying anything.

That last time that had happened was when we were walking to our rooms after the lunch date, thing. We hadn't said anything to each other the whole way back we just walked in a comfortable silence our arms occasionally brushing against each other sending a wave of electricity through us. I didn't know how the people we passed didn't feel it but it was definitely there, so obvious to both of us. And then he walked me to my door and waited for me to close it behind me before he left.

Part way through the film I left saying I needed some air. And that was when I bumped into Dimitri. Literally. I wasn't particularly watching what I was I was doing and crashed into him when I rounded the corner on the stairs. Fortunately he was watching what he was doing and didn't go flying backwards. As soon as our skin touched fire raced around my body and my knees went weak. After about a second he was the only reason I was still standing. I hoped he thought it was because I had lost my balance but if he was feeling what I felt, if his heart was beating as fast as mine and if he was having the same difficulty in breathing as I was, then he'd know that lack of balance had nothing to do with falling further into him. He held me like that for a few seconds before I pulled away leaving his warmth behind.

"Hello, Rose."

"Hey." I said wistfully.

"Are you alright?"

That question had me finding my resolve. How dare he ask that after everything he put me though? Instead of telling him how I felt I answered like a typical teenager.

"Yeah."

As soon as I shut down Dimitri turned glum on the inside. He did a good job of not showing it but I felt it all the same. I leaned against that wall hoping to look nonchalant.

"I came to tell you that you need to meet outside the guardian building tomorrow at ten pm to collect some gear." He said formally. "I need to find Eddie Castile too."

"I know where he is I'll tell him."

"Alright." He nodded. I turned to leave. "I'm sorry, Roza."

The second he said that all the grief of the past few months came crashing down on me like a tidal wave. I felt my heart crack some more and I had to catch the banister to stop me from falling. The last time he'd called me that… The last time he called me that he was leaving. If this was poetry we were writing him saying that would be us getting back together. But it wasn't. It wasn't that easy. I waited for him to say something else like how stupid he'd been. Only he didn't.

"That's not enough, Dimitri." I whispered, my voice cracking with emotion, and fled.

I took the stairs two at a time and didn't stop until I reached Lissa's door. I pressed my forehead against it and breathed. I couldn't go down the stairs and get the air I so desperately craved. Although I was fairly sure Dimitri had already left I couldn't go down there. Not yet. Perhaps not ever. I tried to control my emotions. And failed. I'd just rejected Dimitri. He would be hurting now as much as I had been when he left me. The thought brought tears to my eyes. I stood up properly just knowing that I wouldn't be able to face them – Lissa, Eddie and Christian – today, or anyone else for that matter.

I sought the sanctuary of my room which was just a few doors down the hall way. I lent against the door when I shut it behind me and let tears run down my face as I sank to the floor.

I didn't cry exactly. Tears fell but they were nothing like the tears after Spokane or at Mason's funeral. I guess in a way they were worse because they just wouldn't stop coming even when I wiped them away and made myself busy reading the Alchemists hand out though I suspected that was because he had given us that talk.

When the tears did finally stop I went out to get some lunch in the canteen that was in the guest building. Okay I was about an hour late but there were still some sandwiches left on the counter. I turned round to sit down but I saw Dimitri looking at me. Even from where he was he could tell I'd been crying. He started to get up but I turned on my heel and left back to the isolation of my room. Only I wasn't alone when I got back.

Lissa was waiting determined to talk.

"Rose – "

"Not now, Lissa." I snapped.

I sat on the sofa and flicked the TV on and watched whatever came up even though night time TV was generally rubbish this late. She turned it off and knelt in front of me.

"You're making a mistake."

"No I'm not." I retorted.

"Yes you are." Christian said.

"I thought you were supposed to like watching other people be miserable."

"It's not as satisfying when I've not been the architect behind that – "

"Christian, shut up." Lissa snapped. "Rose," she said softly. "You should talk to him."

"Eddie needs to know that we need to meet out front of the guardian building at ten tomorrow. Go tell him for me."

Lissa sighed, stood up and slammed the door behind her.

"She needs you to work the doors for her, she might break them."

He left saying, "He still loves you, Rose."

I hurled a pillow at him and was satisfied to see that it almost knocked him flying.

Poor Dimitri. I feel sorry for him myself and I'm the one putting him thorugh all this... I should feel worse than the rest of you I guess. Tell me what you think by pressing that review button. C'mon you know you want to!

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