They had searched everywhere, but still, no sign of her anywhere. Every hour the family would report to the house. The parents had finally decided to stay home, waiting for their phone calls if they found her. Matt and Dan were gone to the airport, Sean was checking every spot in town. John had tried to think his hardest about where she would go. He went to their old house in the woods, the park, even the School. Seeing the Football field reminded him of the night of the prom. And remembering the night of the Prom made him think on how desperate he felt when she said good-bye beforeshe leftfor her new school.

It was the night before she left. She was putting the last touch to her luggages. He had decided to visit her one last time, not wanting to go to the airport. He knew it would have been too hard. Her parents greeted him and told him she was in her room. He went and leaned on a wall, staring at her. Her hair was down, she was humming a song. Strangely enough, it was the song they sang together at the Prom. She was so beautiful. He couldn't take his eyes off her. She was taking the pictures from her mirror. Smiling at the memories some brought up to her, she was sometimes caressing the smiling faces of her loved ones. One in particular seemed to catch her attention. She brushed a tear aside and put the picture in her pocket, not with the other ones, John noticed. He stepped in the room and her gaze met his.

He had had the worst time seeing the pain in her eyes. He had to force himself not to ask her to stay, to tell her he didn't want her to disapear from his life. But he didn't felt ready. He couldn't ruin her plans by telling her what he had just found out. And he couldn't tell her how he felt, after all, she had just broke-up with his own brother. But she was moving so far away. Canada, he'd never been there before but hated the foreign country for taking her from him. He sawllowed all his pain away and faked a smile.

'' Need any help Xandra?''

'' I'm almost done anyway, thanks for asking though. What are you doing here John?''

'' I came to say Good-Bye lil sis. I won't be at the airport tomorrow, so I thought I should come tonight instead. Am I bothering you?''

The pain in her eyes widened. Was it his harsh tone or the fact he wouldn't be at the aiport? Did it even mattered now? They had no idea if they would see each other again. Of course they would, but when? And how much would they have changed from this day on? So many questions that might forever remain unanswered.

'' Of course you're not bothering me John. I'm happy you came to see me. I'm gonna miss you so much you know. Come, sit down.''

She patted the bed next to her. He sat down, hating the silence that now took place between them. There was so much they couldn't talk about, it was putting tension in the air.

'' What about you John?'' She softly ask, avoiding his stare.

'' What about me?''

'' What are you going to do now? Are you going away to try out those amateur Wrestling federation until someone discovers you and make you a WWE Superstar? I know this is what you want to do.''

'' I have no idea yet. Maybe, maybe not, listen I....I, can't stay long, I have things to do.''

''Oh...I see....''

He hated himself for his cold tone, but he was retaining so much, that was the only way he was able to act. He got up and held his hand to her. Why in hell was he leaving? He wanted nothing more than stay with her all night but something forced him to leave. he wanted to escape the pain, to get used to the idea of her beeing out of his life. He would never be able to make it through.

'' Gimme a hug lil sis, and Good-Luck in everything.''

She got up and they hugged tightly for very long.

'' Promise me one thing John, please...''

'' Anything for you Xandra, what is it?''

'' Promise me to never give up on anything and always chase your dreams. I believe in you and I know you'll succeed. Just stay yourself and everything that has to happen will happen k?''

He tightened his embrace, not wanting to let her go. He was losing his best friend, his soulmate. He understood it now that he would never be able to find someone like her ever again. She was definitively his everything.

'' I promise sis.'' A promise he was already breaking by letting her go without telling her the thruth. A promise he was breaking by letting her go.But she would never know. He would never break her faith in him, like she could never do anything to fade the love he felt for her.

'' Stop calling me like that...''

Tears were running down her cheeks now. He saw it as he broke the embrace. It was almost too much for him.

'' Why? Aren't you like my sister?''

She shook her head. She sighed and wiped her tears.

'' Yeah, if you say so. That's what I'll always be for you John, your best friend, your sister...''

Was it him or the word seemed to hurt her? He had to go, he was seeing things. He was ready to believe that this was as much painful for her then it was for him. Almost ready to believe they were doing a hudge mistake right now. he had to go or he would break down.

'' I love you Alex, please take good care of ya..''

And he left her stand there alone, not sure if he wanted to know what she had answered back.......

Even now, it was painful for John to remember the scene. Has she really said she loved him back? If yes, in what way did she meant it? He threw his fists in the air in anger. Where was she? He needed to see her right now. No more games, he would tell her how much he had always loved her. He wanted to be there for her.

He quickly got up and searched his pockets. An idea had strucked his head. What a fool! He had forgot to check the most obvious place of all. Her house. He had the keys, he could always go and check it out.

He ran through the park, not caring about the rain, the weird looks he was getting. Yeah, he was wet, he was running in the rain. But he was running after the love of his life, he was running to get his happiness... he only wished he hadn't let it slippped through his hands.....Alexandra, please be there....

A/N: Sorry for the cliffie, but I just got a few ideas back. I was so lost with all my fics, i thought I should stop writing. But I'll go one day at a time and I might make it at updating everything... Thanks for reading...