Disclaimer- I don't own anything, but I do own myself, and my OCs
Author's Note-I'm holding off on the finishing the dare, but yes I am a girl, and I have periods. I have cramps, and this is for every girl that has this now, or still reads this and has gone through menopause. Any people I name that you don't know are from my class, because this really happened to me, not the break-up part. I dealt with that a while back. I do refuse to write my real name, so I'm going to write Foxen when people say my name.
Embarrassment
Kanda and Allen were bickering, as usual. Jack, Crow, and Yusei were looking at cards for Leo and Luna. Primo and Lester were bickering about school. Germany was lecturing Italy about war. Autumn and Abby were sitting, waiting for their authoress to come back from school. I was walking, tears streaming down my face, my stomach ached, and I had my coat on and my trumpet in my arms.
I walked up my front-door steps, I open the door, and drop my trumpet, eying all the males, and I run into my room, in more sobs. A couple of minutes later, I hear a knock on my door, it was Yusei. "GO AWAY!" I shout in more tears.
"I just wanted to see what's wrong."
"Nothing's wrong, just go away!"
"You're crying, now tell me what happened."
"I want to go talk to Akiza, not a boy!"
"Oh! That happened, I understand. I'm gonna tell you this, and you may try to kill me for once. Aki isn't here, because she went to get more of this pill called 'midol' for you."
I try to stop the tears falling, but I failed, thinking about today.
I'm walking into core three, I just finished eating lunch, and I took my reading MAP (NWEA). So very tiring, Justa comes next to me while I'm talking to Ashley. "Foxen, you kind of bled through your pants."
I turn around and rush to my seat, and pull my sweatshirt down (I didn't feel like trying to dress up, because I had started having my cramps, so that sucks). After class I went to my locker, and I got my stuff, and I went over to talk to Lily. My eyes started to tear up.
"Foxen, what's wrong."
I keep crying, first I say: "I hate being moody," but she doesn't understand my, so I just say something else. "I bled through my pants; I don't know what to do." I'm still sobbing while I said it.
"Foxen, don't worry, it happens, and if you want you can use my jacket," Lily offers, and I give her my stuff, so I can put her jacket, I'm still crying, but not in a full blown sob.
"This is not my week, Lily. First I find out Tommy is cheating on me with this chick named Summer Rose. Then I have another shark week, but it feels like an actual shark is biting my stomach, then I bleed through my pants. I hate being a girl."
"I do too, but you have to get through it."
"I know, but why does it have to work like this?!"
"I don't know Foxen, I don't know."
We walked over to the band room, and I grab a trumpet, then I sit down, and see the nametag says: Lily Jesswein, it wasn't mine, so I put it by er chair, and I go and get my own. I wanted to cry some more. Then Marcella and Kendal call me over, and they ask me if this is my jacket, and I say no, it was Lily's and then I get my trumpet, but every time we'd play our Christmas music, I felt tears coming to my eyes.
"Solo and Ensemble people come meet me by my office!" Mr. Doe announced, and we all went over there, then he calls Nick and me over to him.
He gives Nick the original for both of our solos, and then he asks me back in there, and tells me about trying to find another original, but then asks me if I'm sick.
"No, I bled through my pants," I said to him, since he's married to another woman, so I knew he'd understand.
He nodded, and as I'm going back to my seat, my tears finally fall. Everyone asks me if I'm alright.
"Yeah, I'm fine." 'No! I'm fucking not okay, why else would I be crying? I bled through my pants, I feel like I'm going to throw-up, and I'm on my period, why the fuck would I not be okay?' I said yes on the outside, but on the inside I felt like saying that to them, and then we were silent, Mr. Hiscott looks at me, his eyes said "She's not okay". He knew, he's expecting a baby girl soon, he has a wife. He knows that it's not easy being a girl.
Then afterwards the school-day ended, I rushed to my locker. I had to give Lily back her jacket in the band room, so I used my trumpet case as a shield, I wanted to cry again.
After I got my stuff went home, and now we're here.
I open my eyes realizing I fell asleep, I got up and changed my clothes, and I came out, Akiza was holding a bottle of 'Midol', I felt so relieved, I took the bottle, and opened it up and got a pill and took it, and swallowed it with some water, and I hugged Yusei. 'He cares for me, he gets it. No one else does though.'
"I'm glad you're feeling better, but did you put you know what on?" Akiza asked, smiling as I raced to the bathroom, and put on a pad, and came back.
"Thanks Aki, and I have some songs to sing, then I'm going to end this chapter," I say, searching three different songs:
I'm not the only one – Sam Smith
Try – Colbie Caillat
Dollhouse - Melanie Martinez
"The first one is going to be I'm not the only one by Sam Smith, I realized that I was being cheated on by my boyfriend, Thomas Ciciora. So here goes!," I say, getting the music on, everyone paying attention.
You and me, we made a vow
For better or for worse
I can't believe you let me down
But the proof's in the way it hurts
For months on end I've had my doubts
Denying every tear
I wish this would be over now
But I know that I still need you here
You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one
You've been so unavailable
Now sadly I know why
Your heart is unobtainable
Even though Lord knows you kept mine
You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one
I have loved you for many years
Maybe I am just not enough
You've made me realize my deepest fear
By lying and tearing us up
You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one
I know I'm not the only one
I know I'm not the only one
And I know...
I know I'm not the only one
"This next song is how nobody is perfect, and that you don't have to be afraid to show that you're imperfect, hope you like this one. It's called Dollhouse by Melanie Martinez."
Everyone seemed surprised I didn't even try to cut my wrists or anything yet.
Hey girl, open the walls, play with your dolls
We'll be a perfect family.
When you walk away, is when we really play
You don't hear me when I say,
"Mom, please wake up.
Dad's with a slut, and your son is smoking cannabis."
No one ever listens, this wallpaper glistens
Don't let them see what goes down in the kitchen.
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces.
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees.
(D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees)
Hey girl, look at my mom, she's got it going on
Ha, you're blinded by her jewelry.
When you turn your back she pulls out a flask
And forgets his infidelity.
Uh-oh, she's coming to the attic, plastic
Go back to being plastic.
No one ever listens, this wallpaper glistens
One day they'll see what goes down in the kitchen.
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces.
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees.
(D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees)
Hey girl (hey girl, hey girl, hey girl, hey girl)
Hey girl, open your walls, play with your dolls
We'll be a perfect family.
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces.
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains.
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees.
(D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees)
I stop for a minute, and look at Akiza. "This last song features girls who think they don't think they can live on this world, thinking nobody likes them, and want to kill themselves. This song is called Try by Colbie Caillat, hope you like this one Aki."
Everyone looks at Akiza, then back at me, they seem surprised I'm still alive. As for I am surprised!
Put your make up on
Get your nails done
Curl your hair
Run the extra mile
Keep it slim
So they like you. Do they like you?
Get your sexy on
Don't be shy, girl
Take it off
This is what you want, to belong
So they like you. Do you like you?
You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try
Oh
Get your shopping on,
At the mall,
Max your credit cards
You don't have to choose,
Buy it all
So they like you. Do they like you?
Wait a second,
Why should you care, what they think of you
When you're all alone, by yourself
Do you like you? Do you like you?
You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing
You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to bend until you break
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try
No
Oh
You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try
Take your make up off
Let your hair down
Take a breath
Look into the mirror, at yourself
Don't you like you?
Cause I like you
I smile, and I look at the computer. "Thank-you readers, and yes this all means a lot to me, please review about anything. Advice truths or dares, I will be able to help. I was cheated on by this guy, but it was truly a couple weeks ago, so I'm not mad anymore. Thank-you for reading, this was really for all the females, but men, if your girl is having a problem and you ask what it s and they nothing. It's obviously something, so find out what it is!"
"Don't forget to review, follow favorite, and put in your comments on this story, she doesn't need to be sad!" Yusei yelled, before I but it up onto the website, making me smile even more.