Chapter 27
Jealousy
The Office:
I slam my hand into the stacks of papers on my desk. I send them flying across the room and then I collapse down into my chair. How had I fucked this up? What was I thinking last night?
"What happened?"
I jerked up when I heard Sonny's voice, I'd never even heard the door open. "Nothing" I was shocked to hear my own voice, it was almost a growl.
"I know something's wrong and I know it's about Brenda."
I jump to my feet, "She called you!"
"What if she had?"
"She's my wife Sonny, Carly is yours."
"I'm aware of that Jason, thank you for reiterating though."
"You aren't aware though, Brenda isn't yours anymore."
"Is this because I came by yesterday?"
I decide to play dumb, pretend like I didn't know about their kiss. "Why did you come by my house? You knew I wasn't home."
"Michael wanted to build a snowman."
"You're aware this town has several parks right? And actually don't you own a farm or whatever the hell it is not too far from here? Oh that's right you don't go there since it reminds you of Brenda too much."
I can see it in Sonny's face that he wants to hit me, I see him struggle to contain the same temper I'm barely controlling. "Okay first things first, I did NOT go to your house yesterday to try to make a move on your wife, I went there because she has nothing else to do during the day, she shops and spends time with Jax, every once in awhile she goes to the Quartermaine's, that's it. Secondly, you are the one who is with her now. This was this little rule from when I was growing up that you may not be aware of "Bros before Ho's," that means that you don't go after the love of your best friend's life. I wanted to grow old with her, I wanted to be there in sickness and in health. These final years of her life should be spent with me and not you, but you just ignored the fact that I would give up the world for her and you took her for your own."
"Carly, Sonny, did you miss the fact that you slept with the woman I had loved, that you took my son for your own?"
Pain tore through his eyes, "I didn't know you loved her, you've got to believe me on that. There is no way I would have ever touched her if I had thought that for a second. What did you want me to do about Michael? You weren't there Jase, you had to run off and lick your wounds and you left that little boy behind. Did you want me to turn him away when he came to me with a toy? Did you want me to ignore him when he cried? What did you want me to do?"
"I guess what it comes down to is that we both made choices in our life. We both need to respect them. Michael is your son now and Brenda is my wife, there will be no going over to hang out with her when I'm not there. I'm not saying that you can't be her friend, but you can only ever be her friend."
"I understand that Jason" and with that he walked out the door.
There was nothing left for me to do but collapse into my chair. I hated myself in that moment. I hated being the person to cause so much pain to be evident on Sonny's face. I had known that it was Sonny and Brenda, it was never Jax and Brenda, it was never Brenda and Luis, it was always and would always be Brenda and Sonny. In the end I would be a footnote in her life. It was one of those things I had to learn to deal with.