Chapter 4: Confessions?

Olivia's perspective

Why was she having such a hard time opening her eyes? They felt so heavy. Everything around her was complete darkness. Wait, where was she? She remembered being knocked down and falling unconscious. But anything else was a complete blank. Did she hear them right? Whatever happened, it must of done a number on them. She heard Fin tell her she had to wake up. It almost sounded like he was breaking down. And John, she could swear she heard the uneasiness in his voice. Cragen just sounded shocked and worried. And Elliot? What was the comment, 'I need you?' She wasn't going anywhere.

God, she wanted open her eyes so bad, but every time she tried, it just hurt more and more. Why can't I open my eye? I need to open my eyes. There was something in her throat but she couldn't make it out. Whatever it was, it hurt and made her throat scratchy.

Not only could she not open her eyes, she couldn't move. Okay, now I'm scared. Why can't I move anything?

Flashback

"I said shut up."

"No. We have every reason to be here. We're not moving." Yelled Olivia. SMACK. She felt the sharp smack of the baton on her back as she fell to the ground.

End of flashback

Cragen was the first one there. He was almost there everyday for the past month. And there was never a change. He was starting to think that she wasn't going to wake up at all. All hope for her waking up, was slowly vanishing.

"Has there been ANY change?" asked Cragen.

"Not since last week. There's still brain activity which is always a good sign. I know waiting is difficult in these situations but with everyone continuing to talk to her, it tells her to keep fighting. She may not be awake to talk, but she hear what everyone says to her." Said Nurse Ross. With that update, he went into her room and sat beside the bed. If talking was all they could do at the moment, then they were going to take full advantage of it.

"You're starting to worry us, Benson. You need to open those eyes of yours soon. We know your still in there. You're not missing anything at work anyway. The guys managed to close the case you had been working on. Turns out it had been the girl's own older cousin. Alex arraigned him and he's already at Riker's for the next twenty five years of his life. He won't be getting out to he's an old man." Began Cragen. There wasn't that whole of a lot to tell her. He wished he had more to talk to her about but there simply wasn't anything to mention. He said what he had to say. So he sent John in.

Again, John sat down in the chair that remained by the side of the bed.

"Benson, you need to wake up so you can get the enjoyment of watching Fin and me going at it. It hasn't been the same since you came home. It's just not as fun. Oh, yeah. Cragen, Stabler and Fin all told me I wasn't aloud to touch, make or go anywhere the coffee machine. You would be so proud. Although, it's not the same without you telling me that it tastes like asphalt. And Stabler actually took the coffee literally away from me. But that could have been because I left it empty and hadn't replaced like I was suppose to." Said John. For the first time since this had all happened, Elliot decided not to wait until he was the last person to see her. Besides Cragen, he was the only other person who would hold her hand. Rather or not it was slightly cold or not moving.

Olivia's perspective

John is still being himself. Especially with the damn coffee. And Cragen? Leave it to him to talk about work to keep him otherwise occupied. Wait, was he in the room? She could have sworn that he was. For not being able to see for herself, she could still smell that frequent sent of his. It was hard to miss.

"Liv, sweetheart, you have to wake up. I don't work without you. I don't function without. I can't do anything without. Please wake up." Begged Elliot. He never was one to beg.

"El, man. Kathy is in the lobby, wanting to talk to you." Said Fin. Man, off all times to be interrupted and it had to be now. He had too much that he wanted to tell her. Rather he NEEDED to tell her, that he hadn't been able to tell her in the past eleven years of their partnership. He sadly got up and walked back to the lobby, and Fin had said, was greeted by Kathy.

"Kathy, what are you doing here?" asked Elliot. What was she doing there? Of all places, he thought this would have been the last place she would. And under the given circumstances.

"I wanted to drop these off. Still no change?" replied Kathy.

"What are these? No, nothing has changed since the beginning of the month. She can hear us but other than that, nothing." Was his reply.

"The divorce papers. It was final as of yesterday but with what everything that's been going on, I figured I would wait till the time was right to give them to you." Said Kathy.

He was too busy focusing on other things to even care about the papers at the moment. All he wanted to do was get back into that room and not leave anytime soon. Cragen stopped, suggesting that Fin go and visit with her. He didn't like that answer very much. But thinking it was for the best, he sat back in one of the waiting room chairs.

Olivia's perspective

Did he just call her 'Sweetheart?' She must have either heard him wrong or someone else was in that room. He would never have called her that. She HAD to be wrong. And what does he mean by he doesn't function without her? Of course he does. He had to have when she went to Oregon with Porter. God, how she wanted to open her eyes.

Fin sat down in the chair. He really didn't have a lot to tell her. He just wanted to sit and visit with her. It was still hard to see her laying helpless in that bed, hooked up to every machine possible.

"Baby girl, you need to wake. You've been sleeping for a month. We're going insane with seeing you awake. Especially Stabler." Said Fin.

What was wrong with Elliot? He seemed like his normal self when he had been in the room. And why is everyone telling her that he's been glue to the chair in the waiting room chair when he's not in her room visiting with her? He has a wife and a family to be with. So why was he wasting his time hanging around just to see her?