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Still BPOV:
After a few minutes, I opened up the door and showed dad the negative test.
"See, I'm not pregnant."
I thought he would be happy but he just continued to stare at me the same way I had him right before I went into the rest room. Why did he look like that? He was going through a range of emotions on his face. I didn't know what all of them were but the last was angry. I took a look at the test.
Positive. Oh god. I would bet my life on it not being like that when I showed him. I thought about it, recounting the minutes. These things were tricky. I didn't wait up to 3 minutes and I just gave my dad the honor of me popping up pregnant literally in front of his face. Why couldn't I faint on cue? I didn't know what to say to him. I just stood there clutching the test and looking back and forth between the two.
How would I tell Edward? Technically, we didn't formerly breakup but we weren't necessarily an item either. In the end he had kept his promise. We were a couple, but on hiatus. His letter had been clear. We would work this out one day. But he was a vampire, who knows how long his 'respite' was going to last. I could be sixty by the end!
I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out. I was repentant. I think dad was having a heart attack. If I could have one, I think I would have too. He was so disappointed in me. I never wanted to become a statistic but I was reckless. Like most teens. Smart and stupid all mixed into one. I would be talk of the town. Chief Swan's daughter knocked up by the weird out cast, yet elite society member, Edward Cullen.
'Bells… I didn't think of all the kids out there that are so carefree with their bodies, that you would be among them."
That hurt. I was going to bare a scarlet letter for everyone to see at school once I started showing. I could see this on an episode of Maury titled "I got pregnant by a vampire". I wish there was a new school to go to but this was a small town. There was the reservation's and then ours. There was no way I could be allowed to go to the former one mention.
I was going to be a mother. What a shock. No one would have ever guessed that I am sure. "I'm sorry dad…I don't know what else to say."
"Well, we should go tell his parents. Let them know what the two of you have been doing in your off hours." My brain cells scattered and I stared at him oddly. Tell Edward? Tell them all? "Never, never had I had any trouble from that boy until he started seeing you."
Every word drove a nail into my coffin. He was right. I was the fall of Edward's morals. I wanted to have sex, I pushed him into it. He was my first and after that I might as well have been on an episode of Girls Gone Wild Special Edition. I was a hormone raging nympho on all accounts. If I could have sex with him all day I am sure I would have.
"Dad..like..no way." I begged.
"We're going right now. Get your things and let's go..and that's final."
"OK, fine. Just let me call Jessica and tell her I can't hang out later." I stalled.
He nodded. "I'll be waiting in the cruiser."
My mouth fell open. This was going to get worse, I could see it now. I whipped out my cell and dialed Alice. The phone hadn't even rang before her voice said 'Hello' on the other end. I didn't know what to say to her now that she was there.
"Bella, I know already so just tell me what you need to." She broke the ice.
"Who did you mention this to?" I rushed.
"No one. It's up to you to relay what's going on, not me."
"Thanks, Alice. I appreciate it."
"No problem. Besides, it's going to be a doozey to everyone. I am not even going to bear the brunt of this mess. Tootles."
"Ugh. See you soon." I hung up the phone. This is the part I would hate.
EPOV:
My mother was the first to open the door and she expressed her surprise but happiness to find Chief Swan there. It was an act, we all heard a car coming up the road and I alerted them to it being Chief Swan, but the reasons were still unclear. He stood next to a dejected Bella. I tried to read his mind but it was scattered. Stupid boy. How could he be so stupid? It was hard to get to his thoughts sometimes but at least it wasn't completely impenetrable like his daughter's. Still, he held no clues as to what they were doing here.
BPOV:
"Chief Swan, nice to see you again." Esme's smile lightened my mood a bit.
He did the quick wave. "You might not think that once I explain to you the situation, Mrs. Cullen."
"Do come in." She stepped back to let us past and I caught the look she gave Alice and Edward. They both shrugged. I could tell Edward was trying so hard to penetrate my Dad's musings with no luck. That was better for all of us. I didn't want him to know any sooner than he had to.
We walked into the parlor and sat on the long couch. The whole family was curious now. Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, and Carlisle stopped everything they had been doing. This had never happened before. No one human visited them. I was the first. Now, my Dad. What was about to be unleashed would be pandemonium. This was something out of the twilight zone.
"As you all know," My dad started off, "Bella and Edward have been having their on and off again relationship. Which is fine, I had no problem with your son until now." Oh god, I panicked. " There has been a new development in this situation. I want to know how it will be handled."
They all looked around towards each other. Edward was trying to piece together my dad's thoughts and Alice tried to keep the smirk off her face. I rocked on the couch slowly. I can't take this. Everything was happening so fast. Edward and I, then no Edward and I, now Edward, a baby, and I. Utter craziness.
"What is the problem, Charlie? We will do anything to help." Carlisle looked down at me as he stood next to the seat that Esme was in.
"I'm glad to hear you say that. Bella here is pregnant." He said it dry.
I could almost hear the rumble as the ripple of shock spread across the room. All eyes were on me. I could feel them. Especially Edward's. If he could bore a hole through me he would've. There was a long pause and Carlisle was the first one to speak.
"Really?" He questioned. "I wasn't aware that they had any kind of..intimate relationship." So Edward had not told him. Rosalie squinted at Emmett suspiciously when he looked away. Jasper and Alice had also ducked their eyes.
Esme sat so concerned, gripping Carlisle's hand that laid on her shoulder. "How far along is Bella?"
"I don't know…We don't know yet."
"Well, we will get her in touch with the best OBGYN doctors and nurses as soon as possible. Fee-free." Carlisle assured.
"That's good and all, babies are expensive but they need time and patience Are they physically and mentally prepared for this? Bella has to be, but your son, is he able?"
Everyone turned to Edward this time. He stood there unnaturally still. His gaze was on my stomach as if he were trying to picture the abomination inside. Shock smacked across his face and he leaned against a far wall. He almost acted as if he were going to pass out.
"A baby." He murmured dumbfounded.
"Is he going to be okay?" My dad said standing up to offer any assistance.
"Yes," Carlisle said something to Edward that we couldn't hear and he nodded looking at me again. I blushed. "Charlie," He said clearing his throat and looking our way again. "Would you mind if all of us, the adults, went to talk in the Dining room? It will also give Bella and Edward time to talk about…things."
"No problem." He obliged, starting to walk off with them. To Edward, "No more of your poppy-cock." Luckily he was out of sight when Emmett fell to the ground cracking up.
"Poppy..cock. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA." His gurgle of laughter almost shaking the walls.
"Enough. Let's go Emmett. Give the baby-making love birds time to chat. We can talk about how scary weird this all is later. I'm out of here. Follow if you know what's best for you." Rose scoffed.
Everyone cleared out so quickly I almost wanted to laugh. Edward hadn't moved since we got here. His face was almost lifeless. I could just hear him now, "I'm not alive so how can I be lifeless?" Sad, we had not talked in so long that I inserted what I thought he would say. How pathetic.
"Is the baby mine?"
Finally. W-what did he just say? "Excuse me?" My words slightly hitching in my throat.
"Is.. the baby mine?" He said it cold and calculated.
"I don't know yet, Edward. I just found out. Hopefully, when I go to a doctor then I will know about how many weeks I am. I just didn't expect this. Please, don't be angry."
In a flash he was in front of me.
"Don't be angry?" If he could ever look like a murderer this was the time. "You slept with Jacob. That fucking dog," His eyes closed and opened and a muscle in his jaw ticked, "had his hands all over you and you enjoyed every..little.. bit of it. You're probably having his baby, not mine. You think it's me? Your Dad sure does. " His eyes became dark. "But me..I'm not so sure."
I blinked back the wetness threatening to spill over, he had never dropped the f-bomb in front of me before. "Can't you be civil about this? You cheated on me first. I was so messed up after that.."
"Yes, I was wrong. But Tanya can't get pregnant Bella. Did you not think at all? Everyone will know about you and Jacob. You think he's going to keep it secret? And if he doesn't spill the beans, how am I going to look when we aren't talking much? Like I abandoned you while you are pregnant. People will start asking questions, they will start wondering, and then they will come to their conclusions. Whether close to the truth or not. I don't mind what happens to me in all this.."
"You still care about me.." I stated.
"I care more than you can ever know." He slipped into sadness and backed away from me. "I didn't mean to hurt you, Bella. But don't worry, you had the last laugh."
"What .. What will happen if it is yours?" I stuttered in embarrassment.
"Then I will do what I must."
"And if it is Jacob's?" My eyes had a mind of their own. They were trying to plead with him. "Would we ever be together?"
I could see him cringe at the thought of me having my best guy friend's baby and he sat down on the couch. "I don't know the answer to that."
I sat down next to him in silence and I just stared at my feet. Just like me to get into this mess. I had no real words for what I was feeling or thinking. My mind was floating into a black hole. All I could think of was what I wanted and what should be. Everything was so difficult. I needed it to be easy. It couldn't be this hard.
Our parents would be back soon and then I would have to go and be grounded for 9 months and 18 years. Edward's hand moved my hair out of my face. I absently leaned against it. I was happy for his touch. I had not felt it in such a long time.
"Get an abortion.."
I jerked my face away. "No…NO! You..I don't believe in that. You don't want to take my life but you want an innocent baby's?"
"Maybe it is ours. Maybe it is not." His tone was callous.
"When did you become this unfeeling person?" I turned and faced him.
"I don't know."
"You don't know anything anymore. So why am I trying?" I pushed up. I didn't want to go but if I didn't I was going to look like a maniac. "Tell them all bye for me..I'll be outside."
I walked briskly out the front door and closed it behind me. I couldn't catch my breath. I leaned against it for a brief second hoping the world spinning around me would end. I was tired of passing out or hurting myself or having love break my heart. I hated Forks right now. I needed to get away.
Before I realized it I was running. I didn't know where I was going but I needed to go. Possibly it would be better for everyone if I just got lost. I never was the type to do immature things like runaway but I never was the type to sleep with different men either. Look at me now. Two guys, one baby, one me. How could I let myself get in this position.
I wasn't a typical teenager. I always thought of myself as different. Smarter. Now, I was just a statistic. I hated thinking that over and over again but I couldn't help it. That was exactly what I was. Tears blinded me. I couldn't see anything, but I knew I was straying away from the road. But if he didn't care…neither did I. Love sucked.
