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Rated K

Here is a fluffy, loving, Nick and Jules Chapter.

You can be a fly on the wall for one of their heartfelt conversations.

YOU have to tell me if these type of chapters are boring. You have to!

He could feel the sweat on his palms as he pulled into his driveway knowing that this time it wasn't just for a visit.

No, he was home.

He was coming home to stay and that made Nick's heart pound inside his chest.

He felt tremendous happiness but there was still something inside him that winced.

He felt a sadness for the time he lost. A sadness that he and his wife had to endure such heartache. He felt a sadness that all of that pain was unnecessary and brought on by sick and evil people. It wasn't fair and it wasn't right. It made him hurt and angry.

Jules looked over and instantly spotted that Nick was feeling an enormous amount of mixed emotions. She could see his happiness and it was a sweet sight, but she also detected a tinge of sadness too. She took a deep breath…She knew why. It was sadness that she too had felt before. The sadness that they had to endure any of it this. It was truly a horrible experience but, as Jules always did, she made sure she found the silver lining and she needed him to hear it too in hopes to ease his uneasiness.

"This only made us stronger, Handsome…you know that, right?" she said and gave him a closed mouth smile before touching his shoulder softly.

"It did. It did," Nick answered but still stared straight ahead.

He nodded slowly, not yet turning off the engine and continued, "But damn it, Babe, it was fucking painful as hell," he said and looked over at her with a slightly wounded look.

"It was. You're right. But we survived it and we didn't let it break us in the end….that's gotta really say something about us," she said as she unbuckled her seat belt and scooted closer to him. "Look at me," she whispered and leaned on the console to get even closer to make him focus only on her.

Nick looked at her as he reached for the keys and turned off the ignition. He stared back at her waiting for her thoughts.

"Nick," she held his chin with the side of her finger and ran her thumb over his lips, "I love you. I have loved you from the first day we got together. We have had some messed up things happen to us in the past few years…But we beat it…everything thrown at us…we made it," she told him and he gave a slight nod back. "I need you to hold on to that. Because if you don't, it will eat at you. It will eat at you, Nick, and I can't bear to see that hurt look in your eyes," she said before Nick cut her off.

"Sunshine, that hurt isn't because of you!" he wanted her to understand.

"Shhh," she whispered and ran her thumb over his lips again to silence him. "I know, Texas, I know. But when I see that hurt in your eyes I feel it…I don't want you to hurt anymore and I don't want to feel that hurt ever again…I've already felt it and I want to leave it behind us," she took a deep breath and continued, "…but if that pain…if that pain is in your eyes then I will feel it too, and I will always want to take that hurt from you…take it away for you," Jules leaned over and kissed his cheek softly before moving her face slowly away to look into his eyes again, "You are my other half, Cowboy…You hurt…I hurt. I want you to remember, that every time you feel that ache of what happened to us, I need you to stop…I need you to remember how much I love you, how much I absolutely adore you…I need you to remember that YOU are it for me," she said as she smiled at him, "Look, Nicky, I can say that until I am blue in the face but you don't ever have to doubt it…you don't ever have to wonder if it is only talk…because we had the opportunity to prove it…and we DID! We proved it time and time again, there is no need to ever second guess our actions," she cupped the side of his cheek with her hand.

"I can't see it as an opportunity, Sunshine, I just can't," he said and he looked sad. He wanted to find the silver lining. He really did. He loved that about her. He loved that she always tried hard to find some kind of positive even if there didn't seem to possibly be one. He also wanted to put it that pain in the past, too, but what Brooke did hurt him so deeply, so intensely, that just the mere thought of it cut him deep into his heart.

"Jules, the pain I felt from losing you was unbearable…seeing you with…" he said with pain in his voice before Jules cut him off.

"Don't! Do not let her win, Nicky. We win…we win AGAIN. We beat Cole last time and we now beat Brooke. We win and I want you to hold onto that," she whispered as she placed her forehead to his and breathed in the faint smell of his cologne, "Can you do that, Handsome? Can you do that for me? Can you just focus only on how much I love you? How much your daughter adores you? How this baby is a reminder of how much we love and feel for each other…" she rubbed her nose on his and brought his hand to her belly.

Nick took a deep breath and concentrated on what she was saying. She was the only one in his life who could ever make him feel the way he felt when he was with her. She was the only one who could make him see things differently with only her words. The love he felt for her was all consuming.

Nick rubbed her stomach lightly and only millimeters from her face, he closed his eyes and whispered to her.

"I don't believe this kind of love exists for most people, Jules. I don't. I don't see anyone else like us, do you?" he opened his eyes but kept his forehead on hers, "You are my Angel. I want to inhale you. I think about you wherever I am. I call you just to hear your voice, to tell you my stories, vent to you about my cases, laugh with you about funny things that happened during the day…I just want to hold you and love you all the time…," he kissed her softly and her hand stroked the side of his face.

Jules pulled away from his kiss and stared directly into his deep brown eyes but she didn't speak right away. She just let her eyes stare into his and she knew she didn't have to speak for him to hear what she was saying…their eyes spoke. He could see it. Finally, Jules trailed her fingers upward and stroked the side of his hair gently.

"Nicky, don't let her eat at you…don't let her continue to hurt you…I love you so much, Handsome, and I always will. We don't have to wonder if there we will ever be that "end of the road" for us…it doesn't exist. We know that for sure now. We proved it…you get that, right?" she asked.

Nick simply nodded, absorbing her way of thinking.

"I love you, Nicky, I absolutely love you and I am so sorry we had to hurt like that, believe me,…but it's over. Look around you…YOU ARE HOME. You are sitting right here in your driveway, getting ready to walk into your home and wait for your daughter to arrive. The hurdles are behind us, Handsome…We overcame it. It's over, listen to what I am saying…IT IS OVER, Cowboy…let it go now, okay?" she whispered and kissed him deeply.

He felt her kiss. He felt it deep into his heart. It nearly took his breath away. It mended him. Hearing her tell him so sincerely that she loved him, seeing her ability to know when he needed to be reassured and reminded to let the negative go, made him kiss her back even deeper.

The two of them kissed like young lovers on prom night right there in their driveway. They kissed passionately and yet softly. They kissed slowly and intimately with pure emotion that could be felt with bare hands. Nick reached his hand over and used it to hold the back of her head and let his fingers entwine with her hair.

Nick and Jules could probably have kissed like that for quite awhile but they were interrupted by the knock at the window. They pulled from their kissed and Nick turned to look at the window. There he saw the most precious face peering back at him. Held up to the window by Brett was his little girl…his baby. She had both her hands pressed against the window and she was beaming ear to ear with a wide and bright smile.

"Hi, Daddy!" she squealed.

Jules smiled from the passenger seat. She smiled at the happiness. She could no longer see that tinge of sadness he had felt; it had left him.

The sight of his daughter and the kiss of his wife…made everything better than it even was before.