Disclaimer: My plot bunnies but borrowed original Harry Potter world and characters, with changes ;)
AN: Not putting up trigger warnings anymore unless something is explicit – most likely will never happen
Happy New Year's everyone.
Chapter Eleven – Pain & RevelationLord Lucius Malfoy paced in his study. He stopped again to study the two pictures before him. It is the same girl, they resemble each other and yet they look so different. The smile is the same. Quite a disguise and why did she feel the need to don one?
He was frustrated and turned away from his desk. He wanted to confront the girl for his son's sake. A knock sounded at the door and he sighed. Perhaps Cissy could help. His voice was a little brusque as he called, "Enter." He flipped the two photos over on his desk, in case it was Draco who walked in.
He was relieved to see Narcissa walk into the room. Unconsciously his body relaxed as he marveled, once again at her beauty. He held his hand out for her to take.
Narcissa spoke in a soothing tone, "What is it Lucius, what has you so troubled?"
He led her around the desk and handed her the two photos. He pointed to the blonde, "I met this one yesterday at the Trunk Shop in Diagon Alley."
She raised an eyebrow and examined the two moving photos carefully. "The hair, eye colour and nose are completely different although the skin tone is the same. The shape of the eyes is similar as is the facial structure. Sisters perhaps or close cousins."
He shook his head, "Same height, age and build." He paused and then said, "You don't think they could be the same girl?"
Her eyes widened in surprise and then she carefully examined the photos again. "Possibly but I am not entirely sure. You said you met her at the Trunk Shop? Did she speak to you?"
Lucius nodded and they entered the pensieve to review his memory.
Narcissa was astonished and paced the study, "The voice is either the same or extremely close. We only heard a whisper from the first girl." Then she suddenly stopped and laughed at herself. Lucius looked at her enquiringly. "Look at me pacing." She turned to him and raised her eyebrow. "I would assume you also have been pacing in here trying to determine the truth?"
Chuckling slightly he pulled her into his arms and agreed, "You know me too well, Beloved."
Silently they held each other for a moment and then Narcissa gently said, "We cannot determine if it is the same girl who healed our son. Let us leave it for now, we know where the second girl can be found if we decide to investigate further. Dearest come for tea now."
Lucius sighed and then reached for another photo on his desk and handed it to his wife, "This was on her thumb, I wasn't sure if you noticed it in the pensieve."
Narcissa casually glanced at the photo and then stared at it. "This is very unusual. I know this but what is it from?"
Nodding his head Lucius replied, "My thoughts exactly my dear. I know this is significant but from where? It will come to me but it makes me uneasy. This is powerful and important but I know not how. I feel we are heading for something dangerous or wonderful but I don't know which. It causes great concern in me."
Narcissa nodded her head and hugged her husband. "We will face it together Lucius and we will protect our son."
Lucius absentmindedly nodded his head and started to tap the photo on the desk revealing how disturbed he actually was by the encounter. Abruptly he asked, "Did you notice how long it took her to change into her disguise?" Narcissa tilted her head in thought. Lucius continued, "Mere minutes. Can a child know how to do that, let alone have the magical control? There must have been someone in that alley but I saw no one. She's smart and much too old for her years. The magical control to heal Draco and now this…" He started to pace again. "Narcissa in all my years I have never seen or heard of such a child as this one, she should not be and yet I saw her with my own eyes."
He swallowed and looked almost wildly at his wife as he held onto his left inner arm with his right hand, "You saw her when she clutched her left arm. You've seen me do the same many times when I have been called." He released his arm and whispered, "What if He has returned, what if He is connected to her or possesses her?"
Narcissa grabbed a hold of him and held on tight. "Dearest, please let it go for now. There is nothing we can do, but keep an ear out for rumours. Tomorrow we will research the Library regarding the design on her thumb. Once we answer that question, we will have a direction to follow. Come have tea and put your mind at rest."
Listening to his wife's wisdom, Lucius calmed himself and then kissed her. They left his study arm in arm to have tea amongst the roses.
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Sunday was a bright sunny day and Selena lay resting in her bed when she woke that morning. So much had been happening that it felt good to just lay there for a few moments. Selena sat up in bed and performed her morning meditation. With all the meditation she had been doing lately she had organized her memories up to when she was one year old.
Frowning she got up and dressed for exercising while thinking of some of her memories from when she was a baby. Admittedly she had slept a lot but by the time she was twelve months she was awake for most of the day except for a nap in the afternoon. What was disturbing her was that she hadn't spent much time with her Father. For all that they were supposed to be in hiding, he wasn't there very often and she wondered how that could be.
Could he still be on 'missions' for Dumbledore? Was he just with Sirius, Moon and Tail? There were no answers and so she let the thoughts go. She was determined to finish organizing up to her fifteenth month today, if possible. Seeing as Monday she would have a lesson with Master Snipbue she wanted to be with him as she relived those early difficult memories when she lived with the Dursleys.
Softly tapping on Doug's bedroom door she poked her head in to see if he was awake and giggled as the mound of blankets rose and arched into a hill. A foot escaped the blankets and hesitatingly reached for the floor. Sneaking into the room Selena launched herself at the hill and it flattened with an ooof.
Suddenly Selena was wrapped in the blankets as Doug retaliated and rolled her off of him. They laughed together and Doug helped Selena escape her cocoon.
Yawning and rubbing his hair Doug sleepily mumbled, "Practice?"
Nodding Selena answered, "Yup." She left the room and went downstairs to wait for him in the living room. When Doug came downstairs they decided to go outside instead of practicing indoors.
There was more room for them to move about in the back yard and Selena had fun stretching and then sparing with her brother. After about an hour they entered the kitchen to find Missy making waffles for them.
Missy hesitated and then said, "Mistress your Mum is not well."
Doug and Selena both stopped abruptly and got very quiet. Selena murmured out loud, "Headache?"
Missy looked sad and nodded, "It's really bad."
Sighing Doug commented, "I think she's been hiding them from us."
They all looked miserably at each other and then Selena said to Doug, "The Healers will help her tomorrow. I'm going to get changed. Missy and I are going to Potter Manor today, if Mum says okay do you want to you come with us?"
Grinning Doug exclaimed, "Yeah!" Then he clasped his hand over his mouth and guiltily glanced at the ceiling. "Oops!"
The two quietly went upstairs and got cleaned up, Doug taking a shower first.
Selena crept into her Mum's bedroom and eased open the bedside table drawer. Seeing no potion bottles, her shoulders slumped. She knelt on the floor by her Mum's bed and resting her head on the bed gazed into the white face pinched with pain. "Oh Mummy," Selena whispered and then she caught her breath as her Mum opened her eyes a slit.
Petunia reached out a hand and rested it on her daughter's head.
Biting her lip Selena couldn't help that a few tears leaked from her eyes and then she whispered, "Going to take Doug and Missy to Potter Manor today so you can rest. Call Missy if you need anything."
The hand on her head stroked down her face and rested on her cheek. Not able to take her Mum's pain any longer, Selena practiced her calm breathing and entered her Mum's mind.
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Pain...Confusion…Terror. Whirling masses of fire lit her head and body.
A damp cloth was across her forehead and eyes. Selena breathed shallow breaths as she lay upon the soft surface and tried to move an arm. She whispered, "Ooohh…that was a bad idea."
The cloth lifted and a person sat on the edge of her bed. Opening her eyes just a crack Selena saw it was her Mum looking very concerned at her.
"Mum?" croaked Selena as she struggled to sit up. She was feeling better by the minute and the pain was lessening from her pounding head. "You okay?"
Petunia huffed, shook her head and let out a weak chuckle, "Am I okay?! How about, are you okay instead? Selena I swear…what were you thinking? You are much too precious to me, please stop getting hurt."
Taking her daughter's hands, which were plucking at the sheet, into her own Petunia gently said, "Thank you for trying to help, but as much as it hurts you to see me in pain, it hurts me even more when you get hurt because you try something you aren't ready for. Selena please learn this lesson: you are more important to us who love you than any pain we go through. You know I am going to the Healers tomorrow. This was just one last migraine before I won't have them anymore. Do you understand what I am saying? This migraine was bearable because I knew I was not going to have them soon. You could have been seriously hurt and there was no one to help you. Don't make me tell you that you are not allowed to do any magic without supervision."
Selena gasped and her eyes grew round in shock. Petunia nodded. "If I have to I will speak to Missy and the Goblins. I don't want to prevent you from using your magic but if you will not learn to be cautious and think before you willingly sacrifice your health and magic, I will take whatever measures I have available."
Looking solemnly at her Mum, Selena swallowed and said, "I'm sorry. My head hurt but its better now. Are you better?"
Sighing Petunia said, "I am better but the migraine is lingering and could come back any time. Now breakfast first and then off you go with Missy and Doug to Potter Manor. I will stay home and rest today."
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Standing before the House Elves inside the front parlour Selena nervously said, "I thought I'd try to remove the curse, of course I'm not exactly sure how it worked, but I do want to try." She looked at the House Elves before her and hoped one of them would volunteer.
Doug gazed around with awe. He hadn't realized exactly how wealthy his sister really was. Remembering how mean he had been to her when he was a Dursley, he blinked away the moisture that gathered in his eyes. He had felt guilty before and she had forgiven him when he had said sorry but now he felt uncomfortable, like she was more than just his magical sister.
He sighed upon realizing that his sister had still been nice and loving to him even though she had all of this. Thinking deeply he came to the conclusion that she really did love him and their Mum and she chose to live with them in a house that could almost fit into the parlour he sat in. Just because she had more and was more didn't make her any less the same sister he spent time with. Shaking his head he started to smile and refocused on the here and now.
Hoggy stepped forward and bravely said, "Try with me please Mistress."
Relaxing her tensed body Selena said, "Hoggy, my Home Fay." A brief glow was seen and then died away leaving Hoggy the same as he had been before. Selena bit her lip and murmured, "Sorry".
Getting up from his chair Doug approached Selena and gave her a hug as he whispered, "I love you sister don't get sad. Try again." Gazing into her eyes he nodded his head and Selena's smile grew upon her face.
She exclaimed, "You're brilliant!"
Shrugging Doug returned to his chair and sat down to watch round two.
Turning back to Hoggy, Selena allowed herself to examine him and look at the magic that surrounded him. Looking around the room she remembered the tour through the Manor and the care and pride Hoggy had put into her home. She recalled his proud face as he pointed out the hidden staircases and sliding panels which led to spy holes and hidden rooms.
With a full smile upon her face Selena gazed into Hoggy's eyes and allowed her feelings to well up, "I, Mistress of Potter Manor thank Hoggy, my beloved Home Fay for his loyalty and loving service."
Hoggy began to glow and the light surrounded him and then splintered into dust to fall and fade into the floor. The other four House Elves gasped and looked at Hoggy in wonder.
As with Missy, Hoggy had grown taller and his facial features had changed. He knelt before Selena and with tears coursing down his face looked up in awe and gratitude. "Thank you Mistress."
Laughing Selena helped him up and gave him a hug as she said, "No bowing, we're both magical creatures. Nice hair by the way."
Hoggy blushed and cleared his throat. As with the Forest Fay the House Fay had long luxurious hair. Hoggy snapped his fingers and a black ribbon tied his black hair back at the nap of his neck. He glanced at Missy and blushed again.
Missy's eyes had rounded in surprise at receiving such a look and her cheeks blushed.
One by one Selena changed each House Elf into a Home Fay after she examined each one and allowed her love for them to come forth.
After a small discussion it was decided to take the Home Fay to visit Tyrellyn and Elysianna. Doug wondered if he would be welcomed, but then decided not to worry. He would show his respect and manners and hope for the best.
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It was early afternoon and Doug, Selena and Missy were home again. Their visit with the Forest Fay had been another celebration of wonder and hope. Doug won over everyone there by his obvious awe and respect for everyone he saw. Many who had grievances against muggles paused and thought perhaps there was hope for muggles after all.
The magical creatures had watched the teasing and love between the siblings and felt at ease watching their childish actions towards each other. Doug and Selena had played with the other 'young ones' and the older ones relaxed when Doug just laughed at being thrown into the lake by the centaurs. They laughed when Doug pulled Selena in too. Though some watched the Shadow and feared its response, when it did nothing they sighed in relief and encouraged the smaller young ones to go play too.
Selena spent a bit of time conversing quietly with the Dryads and came home with a tall thick black oak tree branch.
The rest of the afternoon was spent either quietly in their rooms, outside flying or in the living room reading or playing games.
Missy discreetly watched Selena as she sat under the cherry tree with her hands holding the oak branch. It was Doug's turn to fly and Selena was contemplating the Dryads instructions, while Missy was there to watch over them.
With her eyes closed Selena carefully stroked the branch with her hands and magic while she thought of her Grandpa Hugh. A cherry fell down and hit the branch which had swirls of magic flowing around it. Selena just continued to rub the branch with her hands now spreading the cherry juice along the wood. When her magic told her it was finished her hands stilled and her eyes opened.
Smiling her delight she examined the sturdy walking stick in her hands. The glossy black oak had a red hint to it that turned into deep black within its spirals. The top had a wider spiraled knob that allowed the hand to fit perfectly around its last spiral. It was beautiful and Selena breathed thanks to the Dryads for their gift. Shrinking the walking stick Selena placed it into a pocket and watched Doug continuing to fly around their back yard.
Missy marveled at what her Mistress had accomplished and shortly thereafter they all returned inside.
Petunia was up and feeling much better now so they spent the rest of the day lazily together. Although they were supposed to be working on potions that afternoon, none felt up to it and instead they studied or read instead. Selena also spent time organizing the last of her memories with the Potters. She was now ready for her next lesson with Master Snipbue on Monday.
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Early Monday morning arrived and Missy and Selena were up ready to go. Selena was anxious about her Mum's healing. "So Missy I will be here at quarter to one to take Mum to Gringotts."
Missy arched an eyebrow and firmly stated, "No you won't. There is a black string portkey here ready to take your Mum. No arguing, the Goblins have provided it and they expect her to come that way. You, on the other hand have Pureblood training at one o'clock and that is where you will be. Plus you need to be having lunch with your Grandpa Hugh – you promised."
Giving a pleading look that did nothing to Missy's determined expression, Selena gave up and said, "Yes Missy I will do as you say. But if anything happens…"
Missy interrupted, "I will whisk you away immediately to your Mum."
Having to be content with that, Selena used her ring to take them to Gringotts. Missy returned home and Selena made her way to Warrior Training. She opened the door being wary of being attacked and she felt a disturbance in the shadows. Narrowing her eyes she casually walked into the shadows and between one step and the next she shadow traveled within five feet behind the disturbance.
After she assessed the situation she coalesced her shadowy form and curtsied to Ragnuk, "Good morning friend Ragnuk, may your ears hear what your eyes cannot. How are you?"
Ragnuk stiffened and turned to study her before nodding. "I am well friend Heir Black, and you?"
Shrugging Selena said, "Fair, my Mum is being healed today." Her eyes roamed the room while her magic searched the darkness for hidden threats.
Nodding Ragnuk said, "Do not be concerned she will be well looked after." He paused and then said, "I have come to watch your training for awhile."
Refocusing her eyes upon Ragnuk, Selena smiled and said, "Perhaps I will see you fight with Teacher Boaxum, if you don't mind a Trainee being so honoured."
Releasing a snort Ragnuk replied, "If I don't end up on the floor, you will be honoured as will I. High Warrior Boaxum could have pursued and received any position within the Goblin Nation but chose to train warriors instead."
"His choice honours us all and strengthens the Goblin Nation." Selena said with a smirk.
Merely bowing his head in acknowledgement, Ragnuk waved Selena to accompany him towards the doors. As they walked forward in silence Boaxum entered and after shutting the door bowed to them both.
Selena had already bowed at the opening of the door, as was proper respect for her teacher. Immediately the two started to stretch and Ragnuk hastened to catch up. He noticed Selena was speaking softly in Gobbledegook as she performed each exercise.
Three poles whizzed in the air and Ragnuk was surprised to find that he was the only one not yet moving into the pole exercises.
This time Selena spoke in a normal volume for every Goblin word she spoke. Ragnuk was becoming impressed and by the time it was time for a break he was shocked at the level of difficulty Selena had already achieved. He thought quickly and realized this was Selena's fourth lesson. He caught his breath and calmed his racing heart.
He had planned on having Selena taught until she turned eleven in five years. Now he realized she most likely would only need two or three years and she could be the best Boaxum had ever trained. Fear grew in his heart at training a weapon that could so easily turn on his people and decimate them.
Turning his eyes upon the young child before him, he watched her fight back to back with Boaxum and awe filled him at how they moved together. Parry, thrust, step and turn. All in a dance of synchronized violence. It was beautiful and compelling to watch and Ragnuk dared not take his eyes from the two.
They were finishing their snack when Ragnuk spoke to Boaxum, "I have decided to grant your Trainees' request. Healer Snipbue will be in charge of administering the snake venom. It will only be administered on Mondays and Fridays immediately after Warrior Training."
Turning to Selena, Ragnuk enquired, "Heir Black may I meet Familiar Shisou?"
Quickly Selena mind spoke to Shisou and he slithered onto the table to stare at Ragnuk. Shisou's tongue flickered in the air capturing the scent of Ragnuk. Sitting perfectly still Ragnuk watched Shisou knowing just how dangerous the snake really was.
Deciding that he would err to the side of respect and nonthreatening manners, Ragnuk said, "Welcome Familiar Shisou, it is an honour to meet the one who protects Selena. I appreciate your restraint during these lessons."
Shisou hissed and then slithered closer to Ragnuk as Selena spoke, "He is pleased to meet the one who had befriended me and helped me become more lethal." She giggled and then continued, "He wishes to touch your skin and catch more of your scent, if you will allow him. You as well please Teacher Boaxum, if you will."
Ragnuk agreed and Shisou slithered up his arm and around his neck and back down the same arm, though his throat involuntarily convulsed when Shisou was wrapped around his throat.
Boaxum nodded and Shisou performed the same route with him before slithering to Selena and becoming a tattoo again.
Selena smiled and spoke softly, "Shisou thanks you both for allowing him to recognize your scent. He wishes for training when it next grows warm so that he might fight with me." She paused and thoughtfully said, "I think he means early next summer. He agrees to provide venom and wants to scent Teacher Snipbue as well."
The rest of the lesson went well and Ragnuk did join in but laughingly claimed he had been sitting behind a desk for far too long and would not fare well against a fight with High Warrior Boaxum. He did fight with Selena and Boaxum against ten practice dummies, each ensuring the other two were protected. Selena was glowing with excitement and thanked them both with a deep bow.
Ragnuk stayed for the remainder of the lesson and traveled with them, Selena was driving, by cart for breakfast at the Goblin Hall.
Selena was going to take a seat at one of the lower tables but Ragnuk had taken her arm once they had left the cart and he now guided her to the High Table. Although she was watched, the Goblins continued their breakfast and discussions. Boaxum followed in their wake and sat beside his Trainee so that she was between the two.
Ragnuk filled his plate and then casually said, "Perhaps in the future I may join you and High Warrior for another practice. I find I have missed training and allowed my body and reflexes to not be in top form."
Selena gave a hopeful look at her Teacher who rolled his eyes and stated, "We would be honoured if you cared to join us when you can. Perhaps you will improve enough to be a challenge one day. Right now I think my Trainee could press you hard for a win."
Ragnuk laughed, causing those who noticed to watch them carefully. The Goblins returned to their meal when no weapon was drawn and no blood flowed. Replying in Gobbledegook Ragnuk said, "I do not doubt it. She will be your finest achievement High Warrior Boaxum."
Boaxum nodded and turned to Selena and said in Gobbledegook, "Do not look surprised Trainee; I knew this during your first lesson."
When Selena replied in flawless Gobbledegook, Ragnuk controlled his reaction with a single clench of his jaw. "You both honour me. Thank you." Ragnuk had not realized she was quite so proficient in their language.
The three returned to their meal. Selena left the Goblin Hall, taking some passengers with her and thereby earning some galleons. Returning to her room she showered and quickly changed into her mind training cloak. Missy was there to help her and Selena was very thankful for her help with her tangled wet hair.
Once Selena was in the little room with Teacher Snipbue, she shared what she had organized of her memories and finished by showing him her 'happy' false memory. Snipbue was pleased and together they examined her first memories of living with the Dursleys.
It was extremely difficult for them both and they took many breaks, especially after viewing the first time Selena was hit and left crying and bleeding in her pitch black cupboard. At that point Snipbue stopped reviewing memories and instead taught Selena how to distance her emotions from the memory. He cautioned her to be very careful that she didn't disassociate her feelings completely but just enough to not feel battered while viewing her memories.
Selena listened carefully and promised to practice the necessary thinking involved. She discussed with him the healing she had done when she healed her eyes and accidentally her body as well. Hesitatingly she also shared the pain and compassion she had felt with her Mum's pain. She then told him of what she had done and how her Mum had corrected her.
Snipbue nodded and asked if she needed any clarification and if she could see her same emotional response for both incidences.
Examining her feelings Selena nodded as she saw the similarities. "Is it wrong to feel that way?"
Gravely Snipbue replied, "No, it is good for you to feel compassion and love for others. Let me put it another way. A man has been travelling for a few days and has a loaf of bread remaining for his journey. He will not be able to obtain more food until he reaches his destination, many days hence. He comes upon a poor travelling old woman who asks for a bite as she has nothing. Now how should the man respond?"
Frowning Selena answered, "I would give her the bread of course but I shouldn't give her all of it."
Smiling Snipbue continued, "Correct. If the man gives her all of the bread he is a fool. If he gives nothing he is likely condemning her to death. If he shares with her, he has saved her life and will receive her blessings. Just on a side note, I have found that magic takes notice of such things, so do be careful. Which do you think you have been so far?"
Giving a great big sigh Selena groaned out, "The fool. Thank you Teacher Snipbue."
Snipbue inclined his head and the two drank their tea in silence. Snipbue asked, "Can you guess the emotions each felt with the differing responses?"
Slowly nodding Selena answered, "Yes. The one who gave no bread thought only of his own self, he looked down on her?" Snipbue nodded and Selena continued, "The one who gave all the bread felt great compassion but he put her above his own needs and risked his health and even life. The one who shared treated her as his equal, and valued both lives."
"In Warrior training you will learn to see each fight and determine if it is wise to fight or retreat to fight another time." Snipbue smiled at the interest Selena showed. "This is what you must do in all areas of your life. Assess the situation letting your values and logic guide you and then make your decision. Over time it will become easier to think this way."
They talked of other things and tried the next painful memory. It had been easier for Selena to deal with but later she stated that she didn't want to try again without him guiding her. Snipbue reassured her that her decision was the best course to follow.
Selena received Teacher Snipbue's permission to have Shisou taste his scent and once that was done they entered her mindscape. They relaxed in her Fire Castle as Snipbue discussed with them the best way to extract Shisou's venom. Snipbue explained in full how they were going to slowly increase the poison into Selena's body until she would become immune.
It was time for their lesson to end and Snipbue said he would take a small sample of the venom next Friday and perform testing on it to see how lethal it was. Next Monday he would have a precise plan and they could start that day if she consented.
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After Selena left Snipbue allowed his frustrated anger and compassion to show. Even though they had just meditated Snipbue's warrior Goblin blood demanded a release. Gathering his warrior clothing and battleaxe he quietly left the Mind Healer Hall for the Warrior Training Hall.
High Warrior Boaxum was there planning to advance his Trainee to the next level of weapons when he rose an eyebrow at seeing the Healer enter his Hall. He carefully watched the vicious attacks Snipbue was performing against the training dummies and was ruefully surprised at his expertise in Boaxum's craft.
Waiting until Snipbue had blunted the edge of his emotional outburst; Boaxum approached Snipbue and gruffly asked, "That bad?"
Snipbue gave a snarky grimace to Boaxum and then bit out, "Worse and we've just started. Now I have to calm down before I attempt to heal one of the ones who tortured her. If I didn't know that Heir Black loved her I would find it easy enough to pinch a nerve and let her die when we heal her."
Looking at Snipbue with new found respect, Boaxum gave him a nod and stated, "You are a worthy Goblin Warrior. I now see the benefit of Mind Training, assassin class?"
Grinning and giving a chuckle Snipbue nodded and stated, "The appearance helps."
Boaxum nodded at Snipbue's jolly innocent appearance and agreed, "No doubt."
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Returning to her Gringotts room Selena was happy to see Missy was there to help her change. She quickly asked after her Mum and was relieved to hear that she was in good spirits. Missy left and Selena grabbed the walking stick and calmed her mind and body. She shadow travelled to the Trunk Shop and although she found it difficult doing so on the sunny summer day, she managed to enter through the shadows into the back storage room.
Selena gently cleared her throat and Grandpa Hugh gave a start and then laughed, "I was wondering how you were going to show up today, didn't expect you from there though. No, no you don't need to explain. I like a bit of mystery. No customers right now so we can close up shop and either stay here or wonder outside."
Shyly holding out the walking stick Selena whispered, "For you Grandpa." When he took it she snatched her hand back and held both behind her back as she watched him carefully. She didn't know she would react this way and was puzzled why she was so nervous and wanted to hide in the shadows. She realized that she was worried about if he would like it or not and that she was afraid because she had just handed over a potential weapon which could be used against her.
Calming her fears while she stared at him intently, she flinched when he turned and examined it. Forcing her breathing to return to normal she relaxed her muscles starting at her forehead and working down her body.
Grandpa Hugh was deeply touched over the surprising gift and he could feel the magic humming comfortably deep into his bones. He placed his hand around the first swirl and felt a pinch and then the stick adjusted itself to his grip. With wide eyes he gasped at Selena and said, "Thank you Selena, but this is far too expensive for me. It's a magical walking stick, far too grand for the likes of this old man."
Frowning Selena worriedly said, "It didn't cost anything except the asking. Is it wrong? Don't you like it?"
He looked at her and understood that he had taken the wrong approach. He reverently held the stick in his hands and answered, "Forgive me Granddaughter. I love your gift and feel like a King with it. It is the most beautiful gift I have ever received. Tell me, if you will, who did you ask for it? Did you have to give anything in return?" He was still worried over what she would have had to give in exchange for the exquisite magical walking stick.
Shrugging her shoulders she replied in a nonchalant voice, "I asked a Dryad how to ask the oak tree for a sturdy branch and how to fashion a walking stick for my Grandpa. The oak gave her a branch it had been saving for a wand maker, but none had come asking in the last hundred years or so, so they gave it to me. Then Tithorea, that's the oak Dryad, she told me how to magic it. Did you know there are many kinds of Dryads? Well, only Dryads belong to oak trees. Meliai are for ash trees and Epimeliads for apple trees. There are lots of names and each tree has its own kind of Dryad."
Looking at her in amazement he felt his throat tighten and he gruffly said, "I have most likely forgotten and I would like to hear you tell me." He reached out and hugged the girl while he whispered, "Thank you again Granddaughter, are you sure you didn't have to give anything in exchange?"
Resting her head on his shoulder she smiled contentedly and said, "No. We were having a party and everyone was happy. They seemed happy to give it to me and besides if something was wrong Tyrellyn or Elysianna would have said so."
He asked, "Who are Tyrellyn and Elysianna? Are they family to you?"
She giggled and said, "Maybe sorta family. They are the King and Queen of the magical creatures. They are the Forest Fay and we are friends I think. They have really nice parties but kind of short." She drew away from his arms and whispered, "No telling, its secrets and I'm only telling cause your family. I'm hungry can we have lunch now?"
He took another breath to steady his pounding heart and answered, "Let's go sweetie. Friday would you like to come to my house with your Mum and brother? Oh, don't let me forget I need to get an owl for the place after lunch."
Selena morphed into her blonde disguise and together they left the shop, walked to a café and ate an enjoyable meal as Selena chattered away about Dryads and various other magical creatures she had met. Grandpa Hugh laughed and enjoyed hearing about the antics of her playing with the other 'little ones' as they were called. They wandered to Eeylops Owl Emporium and found an owl for Grandpa Hugh and then returned to the shop.
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A man and woman had been standing across the way from the Trunk Shop when Grandpa and Granddaughter had exited. No one noticed the two just standing there, of course that may have something to do with the notice-me-not charm they had cast on themselves prior to standing there.
The man touched the woman's arm and indicated with his chin the young girl and old man. They carefully followed and walked passed where the two were sitting at an outside table. Turning into an alley where they had a clear view, the couple stood silently watching for a time.
The woman turned to the man, "Lucius is that the girl with the vine ring?"
Lucius nodded and his jaw clenched, "Yes that is her. The walking stick is new."
Narcissa shuddered and leaned closer to her husband. "I'm actually frightened of a little girl Lucius. Look my hands are shaking."
Turning serious eyes upon his wife, he held her hands within his own and tried to calm her fears. "We will be fine. We are just standing here and not causing any issue for anyone. If there is any danger we will simply go home or into a shop. I just need to know how to protect you and Draco."
Giving a sigh and trying to calm her alarmed intuition she nodded to her husband and fell silent.
They followed the two from the café to the Emporium and then back to the Trunk Shop. They watched as the old man fumbled with his keys and then they turned white in shock as the little girl turned around and stared at them. Then she smiled and gave them a dainty little curtsy and waved her hand before turning and stepping into the opened shop behind the old man.
Turning to his wife, who was now trembling, Lucius softly promised, "We won't return again unless we have business to conduct and most of that can be handled by owl." He guided his wife to the apparition point, "Come now Cissy we will leave the mystery in peace and let fate decide our course."
Never had Lucius been as scared as he had been when the little slip of a girl had acknowledged their unknown presence. Even while being crucioed by the Dark Lord and believing he was about to die, that had not terrified him as much as this little girls' power.
It would be many, many years before either would dare to mention the cold green eyes that had searched their very souls on that hot summer day. Neither had noticed the dark Shadow that had hovered at their backs though they had felt something terrifying and gave all the credit to the little girl.
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Selena used her Gringotts ring to travel home and made it in time to kiss her Mum goodbye before the string portkey whisked her Mum and Missy away.
Doug and Selena gave each other a comforting hug and then Missy reappeared to keep Doug company while Selena flooed to Mrs. Tonks' house for lessons.
After twenty minutes Selena apologized for being inattentive. Andi gave her a practical lesson on morphing, personal grooming and dress attire in different situations. After an hour and half an owl appeared with a reassuring note regarding Petunia's healing. Both were relieved and Selena was able to turn her complete attention back to the lessons. Etiquette was discussed at length regarding gifts, thank you notes and friendships. It was a fairly easy lesson for Selena who appreciated it greatly.
At one point Andi gazed at Selena and requested, "Heir Black I realize that we have a business arrangement but I was wondering, when it is just the two of us, if you might call me Aunt Andi."
Holding onto her decorum with a thread, Selena's smile threatened to take over her whole face when she attempted to calmly say, "I would be honoured Aunt Andi and please do call me Selena or niece as well."
Andi graciously nodded and they returned to the lessons.
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When Selena returned home at four o'clock it was to a happy household and Missy had taken over the kitchen to prepare the 'celebration' dinner. In the living room Selena along with her Mum and Doug sprawled on the sofa, each needing the others physical touch. Petunia was reading about potions, Doug about Quidditch and Selena the Potter Heritage.
An owl arrived with the invitation to lunch on Friday from Grandpa Hugh. Doug decided to miss his football game in order to visit with Grandpa Hugh, which secretly pleased the girls. A reply was sent off with the owl accepting the invitation and to meet at Grandpa Hugh's shop.
Petunia, Doug and Selena, with Missy apparating them, tested the emergency portkey on their bracelets. When they activated the portkey, using a special activation word, they reappeared in the living room in front of the fireplace.
It was a nice relaxing evening and Selena even managed to finish her bathroom installations before she crashed into an exhausted heap in her bed.
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The next morning at breakfast Doug hesitantly said, "Mum?"
Petunia lifted her eyes to Doug and smiled. "Yes Doug."
Doug softly said, "Ummm…It's been two weeks and you said I could ask in two weeks. So, may I please have a tattoo of the Evans Crest?"
Biting her lip Petunia sat back and tilted her head at Doug. A small frown appeared on her forehead and she asked, "On your right upper arm, I think you said?"
Doug looked at his Mum with hopeful eyes and nodded. Petunia sighed and said, "Christmas time and only if the Goblins agree to do it. Otherwise it will be a no."
Leaping from his chair he threw himself at his Mum and hugged her tight. Selena smiled and kept eating. Missy gave a small smile at how happy Doug was.
"Thanks Mum!" Doug excitedly said as he returned to eating.
Selena looked at Doug and smilingly said, "Now we'll both have tattoos." Then she glanced slyly at her Mum and nonchalantly said, "So Mum what kind of tattoo are you going to get?"
Petunia gaped at her daughter in stunned disbelief and then gave her a stern look. "I guess you will just have to wait and see."
All of them laughed together but in a few minutes as Doug was leaving the kitchen, he looked back to see his Mum holding a pencil and doodling on a blank piece of paper with a thoughtful look on her face. He nudged his sister's arm and after she looked back, they continued out of the kitchen giggling behind their hands which covered their mouths.
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Selena's Pureblood lessons on Tuesday were a continuation of Monday's lessons plus Andi started to teach languages. When Selena mentioned that she could already speak Gobbledegook but was trying to read it, Andi blinked in shock.
After a pause Andi thoughtfully said, "When did you learn to speak the Goblin language?" When Selena just bit her lip and didn't answer Andi continued, "In the Forest at Potter Manor the Fay gave you a gift didn't they? Was this it?"
Nodding her head Selena said, "I was learning at Warrior training too, but I need to learn how to read and spell it. Could you teach it to me?"
"Unfortunately I didn't learn the Goblin language, but you can still study it. I will set some time aside for you to study it when we are studying other languages. I think we should start with English and Old English then move on to French and Latin. Is there any language you would like to study other than Gobbledegook?"
Selena was jiggling her leg and then suddenly stopped as she tilted her head and gazed steadily at Andi. She answered, "I am also thinking that I want to read and spell: German, Greek, any of the languages that will help me understand Runes, like Elder Futhark and Old Norse. Ones like that plus Italian, Parseltongue and possibly Mermish, if you think they have a written language."
Confusedly Andi asked, "You just want to read and spell in those languages but not speak them?"
With widened eyes Selena looked at Andi and then giggled, "I can already speak them that was the gift Tyrellyn gave me; the gift of languages, to speak and understand them. I just need to be able to read them."
In a strangled faint voice Andi asked, "All languages? That – that's a very generous gift."
Shrugging Selena got up from the table they were sitting at and looked at the pictures on the walls. She paused in front of one showing the Tonks having a picnic with their two children. With a faint smile Selena quietly answered in French, "They like me and I did something which meant a great deal to them."
Hesitating Andi, also in French asked, "If I may ask, what did you do for them?"
As Selena turned around Andi saw a very adult look on Selena's little face. Selena studied Andi for a moment and then nodded as she switched back to English. "I told them that all magical creatures were welcome to live on all of my lands. I did add that my guests needed to be safe though."
Andi opened her mouth to speak but then licked her lips before trying again. "That was very generous of you Selena. I understand now why they would want you to understand and be able to speak to everyone on your lands then."
Selena burst out laughing and said, "I didn't think of that Aunt Andi."
Nodding Andi smiled, "It is always better to understand others so there might not be any misunderstandings. Languages, along with customs are a huge barrier in diplomacy."
Wrapping her mind around the unique teaching she would have to accomplish regarding languages Andi suggested, "So we need language books, alphabets and words, proper writing and practice. Throw in a culture course and a visit to finish off each language and we could potentially accomplish what you desire in only a few years taking into consideration your memory."
Smiling brightly at Selena, Andi said, "I'm really looking forward to teaching you, but I'm going to have to brush up on some of the languages and learn with you on others. You mentioned Parseltongue and Mermish. I don't know those but I don't think Mermish has a written language. Hogwarts has a Mermish colony in the Black Lake, but I'd rather we visited another colony instead."
Selena nodded her head indicating that she understood and agreed that they both did not want to go into an enemy's territory.
With a faint frown on her face Andi cautiously explained, "There is something I need to explain to you about Parseltongue and how it is viewed amongst Wizards and Witches. History first, at Hogwarts all Black's have been in Slytherin with a few in Ravenclaw with one exception, my cousin Sirius who was sorted into Gryffindor. The snake represents all Slytherins and indeed is on our crest. We are usually resourceful, cunning and determined to see our goals are accomplished. Almost always we have multiple reasons for what we do. We think before we act and use our cunning to ensure we survive. We are leaders or the power behind the leader."
Taking a sip of her tea Andi continued, "Most others look upon Slytherins as evil or 'Dark' because we have more than our fair share of Dark Lords in history. If you examine each Hogwarts House you will see that we are almost exclusively Purebloods with only a few Half-bloods. What most don't realize is that the Slytherin House profile characteristics are also found in those who are abused, of which I believe we also have the greatest number."
Selena returned to her seat at the table and continued to listen raptly to Andi.
"Now the story goes that Salazar Slytherin was a Parseltongue and so was the previous Dark Lord, he-who-must-not-be-named. Salazar wished to exclude muggle-borns from Hogwarts and it is rumoured that he has a hidden chamber at Hogwarts and that his Heir will rid the school of all muggle-borns. Due to the 'Dark' nature of Slytherins and the blood purity most embrace, you can see how the Wizarding World would look upon one who is a rare Parseltongue as that has become the trademark of a supposed 'Dark' Wizard or Witch."
Making a note on her parchment Andi said, "We will look at the time of Salazar later and see if we can discover why he was against muggle-borns. Do you have any questions?"
Thinking for a brief moment Selena said, "You know that Shisou is my Familiar and now you know that I can speak Parseltongue. Shisou mostly is a tattoo during the day, especially when I am not home. But he still needs to feed and will no longer be a tattoo at that time. I have a very…different life from most. How do you think the children of Hogwarts are going to react to me?"
Reaching out with her hands Andi gathered Selena's hands into her own and looked into Selena's eyes. "Dearest Niece, you will need to build allies quickly during your first year, possibly start on the train to Hogwarts. You will have to try to stay hidden from Dumbledore and yet you will need a power base to protect you, which means exposure. You are the most gifted Witch I have ever seen even though you are still a child. I will do my best to teach you to be the Pureblood amongst purebloods. I know that you are already kind and gracious to all and have the strength within to stand up for yourself when necessary."
Releasing Selena's hands with a gentle final squeeze Andi smiled and refreshed Selena's tea as she said, "We have years yet for you to learn what is needed my dear Selena. Let's enjoy it and please leave the worrying to the adults." Andi nodded at Selena's smile. "Niece, you only have one childhood so let's make this one better than it has been so far."
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The remainder of Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday passed as per Selena's new training schedule. Master Cordwainer Moonclaw returned with new shoes and boots for Selena to choose from. Again she was delighted with the selection and so chose and paid for them all.
Missy and Selena went shopping on Wednesday during lunch to find a magical expanding wardrobe that would fit all of Selena's new apparel and footwear.
While they were shopping, they made a brief stop at Madam Malkin's to 'help' her change the name of Jamie Evans to Selena Black, which she had in her records from Selena's first visit. As they walked away from the shop Selena gave a relieved sigh knowing that Madam Malkin would never remember the name Jamie Evans.
Returning home Missy took the old wardrobe into her room for her own use as she had been convinced by Selena to have a few changes of clothes.
Selena gifted the Potter Home Fay with a few hair clips, ribbons, elastics and hair grooming sets. Tears came to each set of Fay eyes when the gifted sets revealed the embossed Potter Crest.
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Friday arrived and with it lessons and lunch with Grandpa Hugh. Selena was a bit sore from learning how to properly handle and throw knives. Her nicks and cuts had been healed, but her arms still felt heavy, like lead. Teacher Boaxum was very thorough in his teaching, including how to discern the imperfections of knives and the sharpening of them. He had gleefully told Selena that he had obtained permission for her to watch a Master Bladesmith create a knife on Sunday.
Shisou had given his venom to Teacher Snipbue for testing and had received a rat in appreciation. Snipbue casually mentioned that Black Mamba snake venom was rare and valuable; he also stated that Goblins did enjoy lacing their battle weapons with poison.
Grandpa Hugh's house was above the shop and they all enjoyed a nice lunch together. Unfortunately the time passed swiftly and it was soon time for Selena to return to her lessons. Doug wanted to stay and help out around the shop and Grandpa Hugh was pleased to see his interest.
Petunia and Selena returned home along with Missy where Selena then flooed to Aunt Andi's. Missy was to return for Doug in two hours. Doug had a great time and performed little chores around the shop. That day the two males bonded and it was no longer just Selena who had lunches with Grandpa Hugh on Mondays and Fridays.
Pureblood lessons were progressing and Doug joined Selena at the Tonk's for another dining lesson. This time Dora was with them and it added another aspect to Dining. It was to their benefit to learn how to handle mistakes when dining out and how to graciously ignore said errors. It was not considered polite to burst out laughing when Dora 'accidentally' flung a piece of lobster into her Mother's wine glass.
The night ended with the usual meditation and goodnights. Selena fell asleep with a smile on her face and peace in her heart.
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It was still early Saturday morning and the rising sun had just started to cast its glow upon the sky when Missy woke in the dark feeling uneasy. She felt a magical disturbance and left her room to find the cause.
Entering Selena's room Missy noted that her Mistress was mumbling and tossing about in her bed while magic swirled around the room. She was obviously having a nightmare and Missy spoke in a soothing tone to gently wake her Mistress.
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Selena was sweating and trembling in terror and anger as she viewed her dream memory in full.
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Selena was a fifteen month old baby on that dark October night. It had been a good day, filled with her parents entertaining her. Since the Fidelius Charm had been cast last week her parents had been more relaxed, especially as just yesterday Tail and Pafoo had visited.
Lying in her cot, Selena woke to feel strange magic entering her room and then blanketing the house. Standing up holding onto her blanket she stares into the hall from her opened bedroom door as she hears her Father yelling, "Lily, take Harry and go! It's him! Go! Run! I'll hold him off."
Her Mother stumbles into the room picking her up as a blast was heard and felt by the two in the upstairs room. With tears coursing down her cheeks Lily's desperate gaze locks onto Selena as she turns swiftly on the spot. Selena sees the dawning horror on her Mother's face and then finally acceptance as shrill laughter is heard from below and then a green glow briefly shines into the room from the hallway.
A strange magical feeling wells up deep within Selena and bursts forth as a faint golden glow surrounds her body and then disappears.
Footsteps are heard unsteadily climbing the stairs as Selena receives a last hug and kiss from her Mother as she whispers, "I love you more than my own life." Her Mother places her gently into the cot and bravely turns to place herself between the danger and her child.
Turning her head Selena looks into the far corner of her room feeling a movement of air in the corner as she stands in her cot. A tall man covered in a black cloak enters the room and Lily immediately shouts out, "Not Harry, not Harry, please not my child!"
The wand is wavering and the man appears to be sweating and breathing harshly, his face is grimacing in pain. He growls through gritted teeth, "Stand aside you silly girl…stand aside now."
Looking past the two, Selena notices a rat on the floor peeking around the doorframe and into her room. Turning back to her Mother and the stranger Selena hears her Mother say the activation words to her rune ritual, "Not my child. Please no, take me kill me instead…have mercy."
A red spell lights the room briefly and Lily falls to the floor as the man breathes harshly. Selena looks up into the anguished eyes of the stranger in her room. She watches in fascination as the shaking hand raises the quivering wand to point at her.
The man gives a scream of impotent fury and a green light encases Selena's head and body with burning pain. After a moment the green light fades and Selena wails from the intense pain. As the pain lessens and then ends she sniffles as she looks at the screaming man lying rigid on the floor as the green light had turned and attacked his body, his wand lying useless on the floor near his feet.
The sudden movement from the corner of her room causes Selena to stare in surprise at seeing her Grandpa Albie appear. She lifts up her arms wanting to be comforted and instead hears a muttered, "Oh no, no this will not do, not at all." The man on the floor slumps falling quiet as the green light dissipates.
Albie picks up the stranger's wand and another green light fills the room as he points it at her Mother and then in a pleased voice states, "Much better." He winks at Selena and nods saying, "No witnesses you know, much easier to control the outcome." He then casually tosses the wand onto the floor and turns a curious look onto Selena.
Pulling out his own wand from his cloak he points it at Selena and states, "Hmmm….a small scar, not noticeable enough for you to be recognized though and that just won't do."
Pain hits Selena and she shrieks as blood runs down from her forehead. She looks into the twinkling blue eyes and anger fills her little body. She releases the anger filling her in a wailing scream as the blue eyes look deep into her mind. The room shudders and suddenly Albie is thrown out of the house through the exploding outer wall.
Sitting in her cot, Selena whimpers in pain as she watches through barely opened eyes as the rat scampers into the room and changes into Tail. This time she does not lift her arms but instead watches as Tail places an object onto the stranger's body and it disappears along with the body. Tail raises his tearstained pleading face to Selena as he grabs the stranger's wand. He opens his mouth as if to say something but then jumps as an apparition is heard. He gives a last pleading guilty look at Selena and then holding onto a button disappears as well.
A black haired man with a hooked nose enters the room and as Selena saw before he gathers her Mother into his arms as he cries. Selena tries to get his attention by crying but then he too is startled by a loud noise and leaves.
Another of her partial memories comes into play as Sirius enters and the scene plays out as before. This time it continues as he wraps Selena with her blanket and carries her from the room, walking very slowly. He carefully shields her eyes from her Father's body as they leave the house.
A very large tall bearded man was standing by Sirius motorcycle when Sirius and Selena exited through the gated picket fence. In a gruff voice the very large man, Hagrid, obstinately refuses to let Sirius take Selena away and instead states that Dumbledore ordered him to take Harry.
Eventually Sirius hands 'Harry' over to Hagrid even though she clutches at Sirius' robes and whimpers from her pain and at being parted from the last person she knows. Selena wrinkles her nose at the smell coming from this stranger. Eventually she succumbs to sleep as the cold air bites her cheeks and the rumble of the motorcycle lulls her tired body and mind.
The memory shifts and she finds herself reliving the memory of the nurse in the strange windowed room. The memory fades and then she wakes to the nurse handing her over to Hagrid who covers her with a black cloak and after quite some time of walking she hears and feels that they have returned to the motorcycle and are flying through the cold air again. Feeling drowsy from the drugs still in her body her awareness drifts into sleep.
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Selena leaped from the bed in a cold sweat, her magic crackled the air as she clenched her hands into fists and trembled with rage barely able to control her magic.
Missy drew back in fright at the terrifying sight and fell to her knees. She cried out and begged, "Snipbue Mistress. Call Teacher Snipbue, please Mistress."
Turning rage filled eyes upon the quivering Home Fay Selena could barely register her presence. Shisou as a tattoo slithered around her arm unable to reform into a snake due to the magical field surrounding her. He and the House Spirits tried to calm Selena down but she was unable to pay any heed to them mentally as her thoughts returned to the full memory she had finally uncovered.
Doug and Petunia entered the room stumbling and sleepily until they saw Selena glowing with a green and gold light. Leaping back Doug hit the wall when a bolt of magic snapped in the air before his face.
Selena's mind turned over the words that had penetrated 'Snipbue' and she linked it to Gringotts. Turning her fisted hand up for her to look at the bronze ring, she pressed on it and screamed his name with her mind. Immediately a slightly dazed Snipbue stood before her and grasping her arm they disappeared, leaving a very frightened and confused family behind.
Snipbue and Selena reappeared on a rocky cliff above an ocean hitting the rocks far below them. Quickly Snipbue removed his hand from Selena and backed away swiftly. Selena faced the ocean and screamed her rage long and loud into the early morning, bolts of magic launched into the air and ground surrounding her. She screamed until she had no breath and then gulping in some air she screamed again and again repeating the process until her voice was hoarse.
Cautiously Snipbue returned to her side as she slumped onto the ground and lay to press her cheek against the solid rock. Tears fell from her eyes and she mumbled hoarsely, "She didn't have to die. I hate him. I will utterly destroy him."
Looking to where Selena was looking, Snipbue trembled and fell to his knees as he saw the Shadow. He looked back at Selena and heard her say wearily and demandingly to the Shadow, "You will help me." Snipbue turned his head and just caught the Shadow nod its head. A chill shook his body as he saw the feral smile on Selena's lips as she whispered, "Good."
With Snipbue to support her weakened body they returned to Selena's Gringotts room. Missy appeared within a minute of their appearing and Snipbue requested that she help Selena to shower and change into her mind training cloak.
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Selena sat before Snipbue sipping on a soothing tea he had prepared for her. They were in the special training room and Shisou was wrapped around Selena's body with his head resting on her shoulder.
In a calm voice Snipbue spoke, "Heir Black we must review the memory." He lifted a hand to forestall her protests. "Shisou and I will help you, as will your House Spirits. Let us go to your mindscape, I fear you will need all of our help."
Releasing a shaky breath Selena looked at Snipbue with cold green eyes. "You have to protect my secret memory, even from the other Goblins. None can know of it yet, if it is revealed too soon even more people will die."
Feeling very disturbed by the cold hardness emanating from this little girl Snipbue carefully thought about his loyalties and the Shadow. He gave a short nod and said, "I will protect your secret memory, if I feel it should be told to anyone I will discuss it with you first and let you decide. We must enter your mindscape and protect the memory and then I will do so in my mind."
Together Snipbue, Selena, Shisou and the House Spirits entered her mindscape. Her mindscape was a mess as the dream pieces sealed in the urn had burst forth and like a bomb leaving behind destruction in its wake. Her Fire Castle lay in ruins from where she had hidden the urn. With a touch of irony Selena thought it didn't look much different than the House in Godric's Hallow had after her accidental magic had thrown Albie from her mentally and physically.
Slowly her Fire Castle was repaired and the memory watched. They watched it once again to pause and to examine and discuss the meaning behind each action of all involved. Once they had the memory sealed and protected Snipbue added his own special protections teaching Selena what he was doing and how to dismantle them if she ever needed to.
Shisou comforted Selena as best he could and provided a calm voice to the discussions. He even added a little of his own brand of humour as he questioned if the rat would be tasty or not.
The House Spirits were livid at the betrayal they saw through Selena's memory. They explained that the golden glow had been her taking the magic of the House of Potter. Snipbue added that her magical core had increased due to the death of her parents and becoming the last of the Potter line and Heir.
Hours later Selena returned home with Missy and a tattooed Shisou. Petunia hugged Selena and worry lined her face at Selena's unresponsive rigidity. Guiding Selena to her bed and freshly changed sheets Petunia tucked her daughter in and kissed the cold hard face as Selena closed her blank eyes to fall into an exhausted sleep.
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Letting Selena sleep herself out, Petunia greeted her with a gentle loving smile when Selena entered the kitchen just before noon. Her smile faltered at the blank unsmiling face that stared at her with cold eyes. She sat with Selena who mechanically ate what was before her.
Once she was done eating Petunia led Selena into the living room and sat beside her. Petunia drew the stiff bodied girl into her arms and stroked her hair as she softly said, "Don't let them win daughter. Whatever you remembered must be awful, you may tell me if you wish and I do want you to, so that you may share the burden. But don't you dare continue not being the warm loving girl I know you are. Don't you let them hurt you and change you like this. Use it Selena, use it to strengthen you to become who you want to be."
The little girl's body loosened a fraction but Petunia knew she had not reached the core of her anger and pain. She continued to worry over who could reach her daughter and then an idea came to her. She led Selena to her room and told Missy to help her change into robes, while she did the same in her own bedroom.
When they were ready Missy whisked them away to Horizont Alley. Missy returned home to wait for Doug, who would be returning shortly from a football practice. Petunia had already sent a note to Andi cancelling their Potion lesson this afternoon.
Petunia led a mostly unresponsive Selena into Scribbles where Petunia drew Mrs. Scamander aside and pleaded for her help with Selena. Mrs. Scamander gave Petunia a soft sad smile and agreed to help the poor angry little girl.
Petunia hesitated and confusedly said, "She's not angry but cold and unfeeling, almost like a breathing statue."
Mrs. Scamander sadly shook her head and said in a soft voice, "No my dear, she is in a towering rage to cover her pain and unable to show any emotion due to her fear of it overpowering her." Petunia's eyes had widened in shocked understanding. "Now I will take her to my special cozy room if you could mind the store for me. Interrupt us if you need to."
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Mrs. Scamander gazed at the girl attempting to sit stiffly on the cushiony chair. It was an impossible feat and the girl looked at Mrs. Scamander in dismay and betrayal.
Her lips twitching almost into a smile Mrs. Scamander said, "This is my comfort room. When I am feeling sad, angry or just out of sorts I come here to feel and be comforted." She handed Selena a light blue squishy ball that was very soft. "Isn't that the strangest thing you have ever felt? It is so malleable and yet I cannot destroy it. I've lit it on fire, hit it with cutting magic and yet the thing just continues on the same as before. I can't even nick the thing, but watch this."
A tendril of magic reached out to gently touch the ball and a picture of blooming flowers appeared upon its surface. Selena watched it in fascination and gave a small smile at Mrs. Scamander.
Speaking quietly Mrs. Scamander continued, "That ball is true to its nature and indestructible but it will change if I am gentle with it. You are being forged with cruelty little one and yet you are surrounded by those who care about you. Don't let the ones who hurt you change who you are. If you do, you will turn into that which has hurt you – becoming the monster you desire to destroy. Keep your compassionate heart and gentleness."
Selena hesitated and then said, "I want to hurt them for hurting the ones who loved me. How do I let that go?"
Giving a sigh the older lady said, "You asked before about my strength and yet gentleness and being a Lady. You are still so young but your troubles do not care about your age. Let's think about this objectively; is the person still in power over you, can they do the same to others, are they still doing it to others? If so, then they must be stopped but not by your revenge – that is a dangerous slippery slope – question yourself and those you trust if you are not sure of your judgments. Be fair and it is perfectly fine to feel your emotions just do not be swayed into actions against your convictions."
Mrs. Scamander nodded at the ball and said, "Keep it my dear I have another."
Selena bit her lip and then struggled to stand from the chair. She walked forward and facing Mrs. Scamander curtsied deeply and then rose up saying, "Thank you Mrs. Scamander for the talk and ball."
Laying a hand on the little girl's head Mrs. Scamander gently said, "You are very welcome little one."
They left the room and Petunia was relieved to see the return of an almost normal Selena although with a subdued air. Petunia thanked Mrs. Scamander sincerely and then left with her daughter.
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Selena spent the remainder of the afternoon in her room with the strangle little ball and trying to destroy it. Eventually she gave up and took a bath with it floating in the bubbly water. When it got wet it randomly changed colours and Selena laughed as she attempted to guess which colour would be next.
Eventually Selena left her room, curled up next to her Mum on the sofa and let her sorrow and sadness release through her tears. Doug sat beside her and gave her facial tissues as he read their potions book.
She told them only a little of her memory and Petunia had a few of her own tears falling as she heard that the stranger had only stunned Lily, that it was a 'friend' who had killed her for some unknown reason.
Missy cleaned the house spotlessly and prepared comfort food to entice her family to eat. It was the only way she knew how to deal with the pain her Mistress felt.
Later that night Selena lay in her bed trying to sleep. She called out to Missy, "Missy I can't sleep. I'm scared please stay with me?"
Unable to deny her little Mistress, even though it was improper Missy held her Mistress throughout the night as both finally slipped into sleep.
The Shadow caressed Selena's hair and glanced at the Home Fay. It approved of her loyalty and devotion. It turned away from the sleeping females and left a jewel encrusted thin long box on the desk. Giving one more look at the two fast asleep he dropped a flower onto the box knowing it would still be fresh when she saw it.