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It felt so horrible, I wish I said no to Finn we could have missed it all and none of would have never happened, but now it's etched into my mind for my entire life, nothing will ever be worse than that night, no horrible nightmare will ever be like that, nothing can match it.
To not be able to do anything, to just have to lie there and let all of that happen to me, to feel so weak and not be able to fight him off, its' the worst feeling in the world, with Finn just lying there being tortured every time he tried to help me, who could do such a thing? Who could find pleasure in inflicting so much pain on others? It's sick, whoever he was he must have had a sick mind and he deserves to rot in hell!
I fell so dirty, so unclean now, I wanted my first time to be special, I wanted it to be with someone I really loved and I wanted it to be when I wanted it to happen! Not when some disgusted man forced himself upon me. I hated it every minute, I cried and screamed and tried to fight my way out, but nothing worked he over powered me and he seemed to like when I fought him, he got more aggressive and he would grin at me, it made me feel sick.
I don't know if I will ever be able to be intimate again, All I will think of is that, the pain and the fear that I felt, Nothing will ever be the same, that day has ruined my life forever.
Rachel lay in the hospital bed, her dads where beside her, but she never spoke, she hadn't spoke a word since she left the school, she wouldn't tell anyone what happened, he dad's had to hear it from a police officer and he heard it from Finn.
She just lay there staring at the ceiling, her dad's tried to talk to her, but they never got a reply. She just stared at them, he eyes sort of glazed over, they wondered if she even knew they were there.
Finn was let out a few hours later; he went straight to her room ignoring his mother. He tapped the door lightly before entering, he seen her and his broke all over again, her dads looked at him, a look that he could tell had a bit of sympathy, but also hope, hope that she would talk to him, He approached the bed his eyes still fixated on him, he tried to connect with her eyes, but there was nothing to connect with, it was like she was a robot, she had no life in her.
"Rach" he said when he was finally at her side, he took her hand in his and rubbed in gently looking at her whole body, she looked awful, but even now she still looked beautiful "Rachel?" he said again when he got no answer the first time, he looked to her dads and they both just shook their heads, he understood what this meant, his attention was drawn back to her as the hurt filled his body even more, seeing her like this killed him
She went the whole day in hospital without talking to anyone, Her dads left her and Finn alone, but even then a single word never left her lips, When the nurses told her she could go home, but first she should give a statement to the police she just blanked them, she blanked her dads who tried to get her to talk to the police officer, but she just walked straight past and out to the car, They drove home in silence and when they got in she went straight to her.
Once she was inside her room she broke down, she fell to the ground as sobs wrecked her body, they were silent though, she didn't want her dad's to hear, she suffered alone.
She didn't come out for the next few days, didn't speak, didn't eat, and barely moved. Her dad's were becoming increasingly worried, Finn came round everyday and a few of the other glee club members called by, but still not a word left her mouth. A week had passed and Finn called round at the usual time, he hadn't been to school so it was kind of early, her dad's let him in and he climbed the stairs to her room.
He gently knocked the door and he walked in, this time was different though, she was sitting on her bed instead of lying in it, she had a tracksuit on instead or jammies and she was listening to her iPod, he smiled at her and she looked at him, really looked instead of just her usual glazed expression.
"Rachel" he said with a sigh
She looked at him and she cried, for the first he had seen her cry "I'm sorry" she said between sobs, Finn rushed to her and pulled her into his embrace.
"Shh" he said "It's ok, don't be sorry, Rachel I'm sorry" he said cradling her stroking her hair with his hand and the other supporting her tightly around her waist
"Why are you sorry?" she asked pulling away to look into his eyes.
"I should never have let that happen to you!" he said cursing himself for what that man did
"I don't blame you, Finn you tried everything to stop him, you couldn't do anything"
"I should have tried harder!" he said
She shook her head" You done enough, and I'll always be grateful for what you did, you were there your eyes showed you cared, you got me through it, You showed me how much you cared by trying to get up each time even though you knew the pain that was coming to you!" she said
"I'm sorry" he cried, this time she hugged him, her arms tightened around his neck as she buried her head into the crook of his neck and they both sobbed.