Why am I here? He knows to find me here, but this is the only place I want to be right now. This place should be the last place I ever want to be but this is the 1st, Takah mountain. I remember when we first came here there was no one here and it was so peaceful and quiet, once we found this place we would always come here to get away from drama and problems. I just pray that Jared isn't going to come here; if he does then I'm positive that someone will have to call the cops because he's going to be dead.
The thing that I can't possibly understand is how he could do this to me. He told me he loved me, he promised me a future with him. I think this might be a huge dream and I'm going to wake up in my room with my old life back. But I've felt too much pain to believe this is a dream.
Angela, she knew everything about me and Jared, when we first went out I told Angela EVERY single thing that he did and how much I liked him. She always told me that she was so happy for me, she always gave me advice on my relationship and always helped me with everything that included him. Then I just noticed something. 'I'll help you with Jared.' 'Its okay, go home and I'll work with Jared in the library with our biology homework.'
She's always liked him! She always liked my Jared, how could I be so dumb! She would always ask me about him and how he's doing and even what his plans are for the weekends, and of course stupid me actually tells her everything she wants to know.
But Jared never seemed interested in Angela, I would talk about her and things she's into but he would always say something like 'oh that's good for her.' Or 'oh I didn't know that.' I also noticed that every time I would bring her up he would seem bored or try to change the subject. In would have never have guessed that he would cheat on me with her.
I lay down on the bolder that Im on and look up and the constant clouding sky, it starts to sprinkle and the drop splash on my face and forehead. The rain calms me down and I take a deep breathe and relax.
"You were always the only person I ever knew who loved the rain." A familiar voice says and I look up and the infamous Jared Gilbert stands there with his clothes drenched and huffing.
"Well you were the only person I've ever known who cheats on me with my best friend so I guess we're even." I sharply say back. He stands there a little shocked because I've never been so mean or harsh before.
"Lee about that, Im so sorry." He says as he climbs over the other rocks to sit next to me. I have the urge to just lean towards him and chock him severely, but I avoid the desire.
"Leah, I'm sorry about Angela. I was depressed about you never waking up and Angela was there to comfort me and I never thought you would ever wake up again. I started to date Angela and I wasn't so sad anymore." He said but I still didn't have any sympathy for the bastard.
I can feel my anger rise and my eyes start to water, damn it! I don't want to cry in front of him!
"It was a month! I was gone for a month! You couldn't have waited for at least 2 months before becoming a stupid bastard!" I yell and he flinches when I cussed. What's wrong with me, I never cuss!
"Lee-Lee Im-"
"Don't ever fucking call me that EVER again you cheating asshole!" My anger rises and so does my cussing, Im standing now. Jared's sitting in shock from the sudden cussing ability.
In a blank of an eye Jared jumps up and hugs me. God I miss him! He wraps his arms around my shoulders and my hands are between us, I fist my hand so his shirt is pulled towards me and he becomes closer. He feels so safe and I feel calmed in his arms and I take a sigh of relief.
"Leah, I screwed up. I love you so much, I'm glad that you're not hurt from the fall anymore." He whispers in my ear.
"Hurt is a understatement from what you did to me." I say as I'm about to pull away from the hug.
"I'm sorry I hurt you, please let's just forget that this ever happened and stay together Lee-Lee." He tells me.
"Okay." I whisper and he hugs me tighter. We pull away a little but his hands are still on my waist as he looks at me. He comes closer and I know we're going to kiss so I close my eyes. Our lips touch and we kiss but there is no spark like it used to be, its dead and meaningless. I can't be happy with him, knowing what he did and he might do it again makes me not look at him the same ever again. We can't be like we used to be. We pull away and I have to say something.
"I-I can't do this!" I say as I pull away from him and he looks shocked.
"I can't do this! Its just not the same now! I can't just forget it, As much as I want to I can't." I say as I push him away from me as I turn to walk away then I stop. I walk over there and swing my fist so it collides with his face.
Jared staggers for a while & now I walk away. I make it to civilization and I walk down streets to get to my house. Once my house is in view I notice someone in a white shirt and regular jeans on the porch. I get closer and I notice that person, Its Angela.
I then turn around and walk the other way down the street going somewhere other than here. I can hear footsteps running and it gets louder and louder.
"Leah!" I hear Angela breathlessly say. I turn around and she's standing in front of me out of breath from running.
"What the hell do you want now?" I say and just like Jared, Angela flinches at my new found bitchy attitude.
"Leah I just wanted to talk about what happened with Jared. When you fell into a Coma, everyone was devastated and depressed but the person that was damaged most from your accident was Jared. He was depressed non-stop and I would comfort him. After a while we started to date and everyone else would tell us that it was wrong but we thought you would understand that we want to be together and we still want to be together." Angela says while looking at me for forgiveness.
"Is that what he told you? That your still going to be together when I'm out of A coma?" I say as Angela nods. "Because he talked to me a while ago and begged for us to be back together and I agreed. But then knowing that you too were together just sickened me to the worst and I couldn't be with him." I say and I look at Angela and she's almost on the verge of tears from what I just told her. I keep going.
"Oh and I was so surprised to know that I have a slut for a best friend. I didn't know you had it in you Angela."
Angela is now starting the water works which is just annoying the hell out of me right now. So I do something that I wouldn't originally do. I walked away, from my best friend & sister. It would have probably hurt me to do this to someone that's so close to me but I'm way over hell mad that I don't even have any sympathy for anyone who hurt me.
I don't want to go home now because my mom is nosy and will ask every god damn question in the Mother Study Guide.
I got my car and drove to the beach and even though Its about 60 degrees out I still think it's a good idea to go cliff diving.
I don't even bother to change into swimwear because I don't have the passion to give a damn.
I take off my jacket and through it into the back seat of the truck. I take my cell phone and anything that I don't want to get wet out of my pockets and step out of the car and make my way past the average height for cliff divers and to the highest cliff here.
I look down into the water and waves crash, it looks scary but I'm not affected.
Before I even have a second thought of what I'm doing, I jump. The winds blowing though my ears that block me from my hearing and then I feel the ice cold water hit my body and I sunk down into the water and for some reason I don't have to strength to even try to swim up to the top for air but I just stay in the water. If I kill myself then maybe Jared and Angela will feel bad for making me come to the conclusion of suicide. WAIT! I'm not going to die for some cheating bastard and a slut of a friend! I try to swim back up but my arms or legs can't move! The water is too cold that it numbed my muscles! I really am going to die!
I can feel myself losing oxygen and my vision goes black. Great, now who's going to tell Jared that my last words to him are 'I hate you'?