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"Rachel" he said pulling his head back to look at her, he sighed as his eyes connected with hers, he could feel her pain, it was clearly etched on her face, it wasn't right "Are you ok?" he asked, feeling dumb, he obviously knew the answer "I've been so worried, everyone has"
She sighed also, she opened her mouth to speak, but no words came out. She looked down and then back up again "No" she said a tear falling down her face, making a tiny splash on the her bedspread "I just can't believe that this has all happened, my head is messed up and I feel so dirty and hurt, I didn't want to speak to anyone, because I didn't know what to say, I still don't Finn, but I feel ok about speaking to you now, I don't know why, well do because you were there, I just needed to speak to someone"
He nodded understanding exactly what she meant "What about going to counselling?" he asked overhearing her father's speak about sending her
She shook her head immediately "No! No, I can't go to counselling, I want to put this to the back of my mind and never think about it again, I just need a few more days or a week or so, and I will be ok, I know I can forget all about this and just get on with life, but everyone has to forget about it too, everyone else and never speak of it again, and never show me sympathy"
"Is that healthy?" Finn asked, he knew Rachel would want something like this, but he was unsure if he could go along with it, this had scared him just as much as it scared her, well she was probably feeling more, but Finn did feel something.
Rachel shrugged "I don't care, it's what I want Finn!" she said "Please just do what I ask"
Finn nodded, with a hint of reluctance "Sure" he said, more like a mumble though, Rachel could tell he didn't want to do this, but she knew he would, he would do anything to make her happy. "What are you going to do about school? Almost everyone knows"
"I can tell glee club to make sure that no speaks of it, or well my dad's can" she said "Or you" she looked at with almost a plead in her eyes, he nodded.
She smiled. "Thanks" she said, and that was the last they ever talked about what had happened, Finn told all of the glee club, and he got Mr Shue to make an announcement in an assembly, Rachel still hadn't returned to school, she still had a few bruises and she wanted them all the heal before she went back, the whole glee club continued to worry about her.
It was another 3 days later when Rachel walked through the school doors, she looked at the corridor where the incident happened and she automatically felt sick, she pushed the thought to the back of her head and entered the choir room, everyone looked at her, sympathy painted across their faces before the remembered and changed them to welcome "Hey, Rachel" Mr Shue said as she took her seat
"Hi Mr Shue" she said placing her bag on the floor beside her
It was hard for everyone not to stare at her, not to feel like they wanted to go and give her a hug and tell her that they were sorry, but it would just upset her, Finn had told them all the she wanted no one to speak of it, or acknowledge that any of it happened, to act like she was just of sick, but it was proving to be ever so difficult.
"Shall we begin?" Mr Shue asked and the glee club all nodded, Rachel nodded to, looking excited the get back into something she loved "Ok, Rachel we have a song that we think you will love" Mr Shue said handing her sheet music
She smiled as she looked at the sheet "Ready?" Mr Shue asked, she nodded and stood.
The piano began to play and she began to belt out the song
I have to wonder if this wave's too big to ride
Commit or not commit in such a crazy tide
It's sooner than I thought but you called me out
I've lost control and there's no doubt
I'm gonna start all over
Out of the fire and into the fire again
You make me want to forget
And start all over
Here it comes straight out of my mind or worse
Another chance to get burned
And start all over
I'm gonna start all over
Fantastic and romantic all a big surprise
You've got the warning hesitation pushed aside
It's sooner than i want but you caught my heart
I guess I'm ready now to start
I'm gonna start all over
Out of the fire and into the fire again
You make me want to forget
And start all over
Here it comes straight out of my mind or worse
Another chance to get burned
And start all over
I'm gonna start all over
It's so easy
You disrupt me
Can't complain
It's so easy
You disrupt me
Can't complain
It's so easy
You disrupt me
Can't complain
It's so easy
I'm gonna start all over
She smiled as the song finished and sat back in her seat, the whole classroom applauded, "That was really good Rachel" Mr Shue said "Great to have you back"
"Good to be back" she smiled looking around the classroom and all of her fellow gleeks. The bell rang which indicated the start of first period, everyone left and headed to their first class, Rachel walked down the hall her head held high, but it lowered as she looked at all of the other students, they looked at her like she was broken or something, she hated being looked at like this, and then she passed that spot again, the spot where her whole life changed forever, she couldn't take it anymore.
Her breathing became short as she rushed to the girls bathroom, she opened the door hoping no one was inside, she sighed a little when she found it empty, she opened a cubicle and slumped down onto the toilet seat and cried, she cried loudly, not caring if anyone heard her, but she was slightly relieved that everyone was at class, right now she wanted to be swallowed alive by something and not have to deal with this any longer. Rachel Berry's life was a mess.