It had been a week since her last counselling session and she had done everything her counsellor had asked her to do, her diary had been written in regularly with all her feelings, she had opened up to her fathers and she had began to think positively.

She was still extremely upset though, it wasn't like the counselling was some sort of miracle, she still felt as if her heat was broken and unfixable, she still felt miserable, but she was getting better and she knew she would be able to get passed this, and knowing that made her able to get on with her life and hope that she would be her old self again soon.

It was time for her next counselling session, her dad's picked her up outside the school again and drove her there, she entered the room where she met with her counselling.

"Hi Rachel, how are you?" her counsellor asked her

Rachel shrugged a little "Okay, I guess" she said

Her counsellor nodded "Okay and how has this week been?" She asked her

Rachel thought for a minute before she answered her "Ok, I had a few times where I didn't feel up to doing anything but I pushed through it, I haven't been crying as much either"

The counsellor nodded "And the diary, did you bring it?" Rachel nodded and handed it to her "Do you mind if I look?" Rachel shook her head and the counsellor opened the diary.

Friday 2nd July

The baby kicked again today, it's so hard to feel it because it makes it real that there is a baby inside of me, and it makes it real as to where the baby came from, I can't stop thinking about the father of her, my little girl and her beast of a father, what will I do if I decide to keep her and she asks about her dad? Tell her I was raped by some monster and that was her dad? How could I do that?

Sometimes I wish she wasn't in there at all, because things would be even simpler I would be able to get over this quicker without the constant reminder of the pain, but is she a pain? I don't think so because when I do think off her I think of her as my daughter, not that monsters I think of her with love, but then he pops into my head and I feel like crying, I feel like crying because of my baby girl, what sort of mother will I be?

I never thought I would be pregnant so young, but I never thought I would ever be raped either, I guess it's something I'm going to have to grow into, and I'll have to grow up pretty fast.

She closed the book again and thought "Are you having trouble with the pregnancy Rachel?" she asked her

Rachel nodded "Not with pregnancy, just thinking about the father of my baby, I mean it's not fair on her for me to say I hate her and she is devil spawn or anything, but I just can't help myself crying when I think of where she came from" a tear fell down her cheek and hit the floor, she wiped her cheek and then her eyes adamant not to cry.

"Well what I suggest is that you embrace the pregnancy, not think of it as a bad thing and not think of the father, just think of her as your baby, I deal with a lot of young girls that have went through the same thing you have, and one girl told me that she imagined the father to be Justin Timberlake because she had a huge crush on him and that's who she would have loved to have a baby with, he was her child ideal father" she laughed "It helps to look at baby clothes and get yourself excited without thinking of the father, Looking at names helps too, I know you may not keep her, but name picking always gets the mother excited"

Rachel nodded

"Just try and wipe your memory clean of the father of your child, not of the rape though I still want you to talk through that and stuff, but just think of that little girl as your baby and no one else's"

"Okay" she said weakly

"What else have you been felling this week? How are the nightmares?" she asked her

"Still there" Rachel sighed "I just keep seeing him come after me, and other girls like me, I see the police chasing him and then he grins at me when he gets away"

The counsellor nodded and wrote that down in Rachel's file.

"Okay, well Rachel I'm not going to lie to you, this is only your second session, you aren't going to feel better soon, but you will in a while it takes time but soon you'll be free off nightmares and fear, just keep going with the diary and the positive thinking, and try those baby techniques okay?" Rachel nodded "I'll see you next week then?"

"Bye Lynn" Rachel said, she stood her feet and shook Lynn's hand; she left the room and joined her father's back out in the waiting area.

"Are you finished?" they asked thinking it wasn't too long. Rachel nodded "Home then?" She nodded once more.

They made their way out of the centre and into the car; her father started the engine and began the drive home. "How was it today?" Hiram asked

"Okay, she looked at my diary and asked me a few questions and stuff, not too much"

They nodded "And did it help?"

Rachel nodded "She told me to start looking at baby clothes and to pick out names, because sometimes it helps to bond with the baby and to stop thinking of her as something that came from something horrible and to think of her as my baby something that is wonderful" she said

Both her dad's smiled "If you ever need to talk to us, were always there you know" Leroy told her looking at het through the mirror.

"I know daddy, I'll always come to you if I need you" she smiled into the mirror and they both smiled back "I love you"

"We love you to princess"