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Dear Diary

I really feel like I am becoming my old self again, every now and then the memories of that night come flooding back, but last week in glee when we sung together for the first time since then, I felt so happy. Every time my baby kicks I just picture that dream of me pushing her in the swing and everything in me tells me that, that will come true because she will be my daughter. That no matter what I'm feeling that in the end I will keep her, I change my mind so many times, one day I say that she will be better off with some else, someone who can care for her better than I can, someone who isn't a mess, but I'm already getting back to myself, what if when she does come that all the hurt is gone from me?

I can't help feel that my life is clicking back together one piece at a time, Finn has backed off slightly and I enjoy his company more again, he doesn't ask how I'm feeling so much anymore so I'm happy to tell him. I've become so close to Quinn, she's honestly like a sister, I talk to her about anything and everything and I like to think she feels the same about me.

I've thought of a few names for my little girl, and I've discovered I like quite unusual names, Quinn laughed at a few of the suggestions I came up with, but some of hers were just as bad! I'm going to write them all down and then sort of cross a few out when I think I don't like them anymore and hopefully by the time she's here I'll be left with one.

Here is goes: Bella, Maria, Indigo, Jasmina, Tessa, Katrina, Crystal, Savannah, Jessika, Rose, Lydia, Felicia, Ruby, Charlotte, Sophia, Harmony, Tara, Layla, and Summer... So maybe they aren't that unusual, but they are the names I like, so who knows one of those could be my little girls names.

Now it's time to head out to the movies with Quinn, the first time I'm actually going out to something that isn't school or counselling!

Rachel x

She closed the book and turned on the TV opening her bedside table and choosing a DVD to watch, she put the DVD in and pulled up the covers and lay on her bed watching the movie. It hadn't been on long when he phoned buzzed indicating she had a message, she huffed slightly and picked it up, it was from Brittany, she thought for a moment, Brittany never texted her. She opened the message and read it 'Parents are out of town, glee party at mine, drinks and nibble! ' she closed the message.

She thought for a bit, getting out for a social event might be good for her, but what kind of party did Brittany mean? She couldn't handle one of the cheerio parties that she had heard about from other, of course Rachel was never invited to a cheerio party.

Her phoned buzzed again this time it was from Quinn 'Brittany's? I need a non drinking buddy' Rachel smiled at made up her mind that she would go, she replied back to Quinn and to Brittany letting both of them know she would be there, she decided that she would drive, of course she had to ask her dad's first, but she thought they would be cool with her getting out of the house for a bit, and she wasn't wrong.

She asked Quinn if she needed a lift, but she said no that Puck was taking her, it would be silly to go with Rachel when she was already at Puck's house. So she said she would meet her at Brittany's house. Rachel arrived and felt a bit nervous, she had never been to a party arranged by anyone from school, she was never cool enough t be invited anywhere, and she wondered how much fun it would be, because if everyone was drinking it wouldn't be that much fun, Rachel hated drunk people!

She knocked on the door and Brittany answered, she pulled Rachel into a hug with a smile on her face "Here, I made you a mocktail!" she said taking her to the kitchen and handing her a drink.

"Thanks" Rachel smiled, feeling a little strange, it was still weird to get on so well with Brittany, she was popular and Rachel, well she was far from being popular. "Your house is lovely" Rachel said and Brittany smiled moving her to the living room where a few of the others were.

"Hey girl" Mercedes smiled waving her hand at Rachel and indicating for her to come and sit beside her, Rachel obeyed and moved across the room to where Mercedes was sitting with Kurt "Looking good" Kurt said looking Rachel up and down, she had chosen to wear a skirt again, a pink on this time with a white top and white shoes, she smiled thanking him

"Do you know who else is coming?" Rachel asked the others

"Tina and Artie are on their way, Santanna is up the stairs, I'm not sure what she's doing, but she hasn't came down in ages. I think Britt said Mike and Matt are coming and I'm not sure who else" Mercedes told her and Rachel nodded

"Quinn and Puck are coming too" she said and both Kurt and Mercedes smiled

"It's going to be a fun night!" Kurt said and Mercedes agreed with him.

An hour or so later and everyone had arrived, everyone apart from Finn, Rachel had asked Brittany if he was coming, she said she texted him but he never replied. Rachel was a little upset that he wasn't there, Finn needed a night out just as much as she did, she knew that ever since everything had happened that he had cut himself off slightly, When she was around he acted as normal as possible, but she knew that when she wasn't there that he was distant and she hated that thought. She thought for a moment? Had he been out since it happened? No one had said off him being with them, was he just going to school and coming home? He used to go to Rachel's, but she told him to back off and he hadn't been back since.

'Oh no' she thought, he was still blaming himself; he was secluding himself because he was down! She excused herself and went outside, she lifted out her phone and searched through her contacts until she came to his name, she dialled and he answered straight away "Hey" she said casually

"Hi" he replied, in a tone of voice that suggested he was little confused, probably to why Rachel was calling

"How come you aren't at Brittany's?" she asked

"Just had to help mum with a few things" he said "Did you go?" he asked a little bit of shock in his voice

"Yeah, I thought it would be good for me, to get out and stuff" she told him

"Yeah, I'm sure it is" he said

"You should come round!" she said "We're doing Karaoke later, it should be really fun" she made her voice go a little higher at the end, "Everyone's here" she told him, maybe if he knew he was the only one missing he would want to come

He paused for a second and she knew he was thing, whether he was thinking about coming or thinking up and excuse she didn't really know "Em" he said, it was clear he was still in thought about it "I don't really think I'm up for it, I'm a little tired" he said and she sighed

"I'll miss you" Maybe that would work, maybe he would come if he knew that she would miss him. Nope, he giggled a little but not a genuine giggle, a giggle that said he didn't know what to say.

"Sorry" was all he came up with "I'm just a little busy, next time" he said

"Ok, see you at school on Monday then?" she asked

"Sure, see you!" he said before they said goodbye and ended the call, she put her phone back into her pocket and felt her stomach go a little funny. She placed her hand on it before a pain shot through her. It was just a shooting pain, but it soon got worse, she doubled over and reached for her phone, she tried to yell but her voice wouldn't let her.

She pushed the call button and it went through to Finn again. This time he didn't answer and she cursed him, soon enough a scream came from her mouth and she sighed inside a little and hope that they would hear it inside. The door opened and Puck looked down at her rushing to her side "Rachel" he said "Quinn" he yelled into the house.

He perched Rachel on his knee while he knelt over her checking her pulse, it was racing and she was barely conscious, he was aware she knew that he was there but she could say anything to her.

Quinn came rushing outside followed by the rest of the glee club, they all looked at Rachel and gasped, Quinn moved to her other side and gasped loudly "She's bleeding!" she yelled, "We need to get her to the hospital"

Puck lifted her and put her in the back seat of his car, Quinn climbed in beside her and rubbed her head, she tried to keep her conscious as they drove to the hospital, but she was drifting in and out they rushed her inside "She's bleeding" Quinn said the reception at A&E "She's 4 months pregnant and she's coming in and out of consciousness"

The reception nodded and took note "Take her into room 3" she told them and they nodded rushing her into the room, they were met by a doctor who asked them what had happened, the moved Rachel to the bed where the doctor examined her, Puck and Quinn were asked to wait outside, they obliged and closed the door behind them as they left.

A tear left Quinn's eye as she looked at Puck "I hope she's okay" she said a few more tears following the last one.

Puck nodded and pulled Quinn into a hug.