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Rachel rested the entire weekend, she told her dad's that she was just feeling worn out and they told her to just stay in bed and don't do anything she didn't feel up to. She was glad that she didn't tell them, because the amount of worrying they were doing when she said she was worn out was enough, she couldn't imagine the worry they would have if they knew she was in hospital bleeding and it was possible that she could have lost the baby.

She spent the weekend listening to music and watching movies, just relaxing completely for school on Monday, she had wrote in her diary quite a bit and she had taken off a few names and she had gotten closer to her perfect baby name.

Dear Diary.

I had an eventful night on Friday, it was so scary and made me realise how much I actually love my baby, I came so close to losing her, and I don't know what I would be felling right now if I did, I don't think I could be feeling anything but sadness, And I'm trying my best to get the sadness out of my life.
I really can't lose her, it would honestly kill me. I've made myself love her and see her not for where she came from but for what she was, my little girl. I'm just so relieved and happy right now that she's still inside me, healthy and safe.

I know it hurt Quinn to see that happen to me, because all she could think about was her little girl and how much she didn't want that to happen, and then she started saying that she was a bad person for not wanting to keep her, but it's her choice and if she thinks that giving her baby away will give her a better life then Quinn is such an amazing person to do that, she is being unselfish and only thinking of the baby, and I admire her for that.

I still haven't decided what to do yet, but whatever I do it will be the best for my little girl and for me. I just want to make sure she can have the best life possible and if that means that someone else will bring her up, so be it.

I haven't spoken to Finn since I phoned him, I can't help but feel he is being selfish by pushing himself away from everyone, I know he wants to be there for me, and maybe I am pushing him away but he can be there without being with me constantly, I just want everything back to the way it was, when life was simple, when there was me and the glee club and everything was just perfect, I was getting close to Finn and I almost had everything I wanted in the world, but I can't go back to those days now, I just have to look to the future, maybe I will have Finn one day.

Baby names: Bella, Maria, Indigo, Jasmina, Tessa, Katrina, Crystal, Savannah, Jessika, ,Felicia, Ruby, Charlotte, , Harmony, Tara, and Summer. It's hard to choose some to take out, I pretty much like all of those names, I want my baby to have a beautiful name, and I want her to have a middle name that means something, but I'm not sure about that yet.

Rach x

She closed the diary and switched on her iPod, laying back on the bed and listening to the music in her ears. Not hearing her phone ringing 3 times before he gave up.

She fell asleep with the music still playing in her ears, she didn't feel or hear him entering her room, or sitting on the chair watching her sleep as he cried. He hated himself, ever since that night that he watched Rachel get raped by that man, he had hated himself ever since, he had tried to be there for Rachel, but when she wouldn't let him, he felt even worse.

When she woke up, she jumped when she seen him "Finn" she shouted her hand on her heart "What are you doing here?" she asked him

He shrugged "Sorry I didn't answer the other night, but I guess it wasn't important because you didn't phone back or text me back" he said not quite looking at her

"I was in the hospital" she sighed, not quite looking at him either

"What?" he gasped "What for?" he moved closer to her perching himself on the end of the bed "Is everything ok, with the baby?"

She nodded "I passed out at Brittany's, just when I got off the phone with you, I was alone that's why I called you, but Puck found me and took me to hospital" she said still not really looking at him, she couldn't help but feel angry at him, she didn't know if it was for not answering or just not being around.

"What was wrong?" he asked

"I was bleeding, but it was okay, nothing serious. They stopped it and just gave me tablets to take, they said it was normal in pregnancies and nothing to worry about, it happened a lot."

He nodded "Sorry" he said

"For what?" she asked wanting to know what he thought he should be sorry for

"Everything" he said "I've been distancing myself from you, you said you needed space and stuff, but I didn't know what you meant, how much I should back off"

"I didn't want you to stop all contact. Look Finn I'm sorry if I've been treating you badly, it's just you were there that night and you remind me of it, but it's not a bad thing, you remind me of when you fought for me, but it's sad too because I had to watch you get hurt and I hated that" she said looking at him now "Before this all happened I was in love with you, and I was ready to have a relationship with you, you weren't ready for one with me, after everything you went through, but now I'm not ready and you are, we have to come to some sort of agreement, because I don't want you to not be in my life, that would pretty much suck"

He nodded "I know, and I'm sorry. I've been keeping myself locked up in my room because I feel miserable, I thought that you didn't want me in your life, I just didn't understand what you needed, but now I do, you need your friends and I'll be here for whatever you need me for" he smiled, he kissed her fore head and she smiled at him and hugged him tightly.

"Thank you" she said "By the way how long have you been here?" she giggled slightly, but then her face was straight as she awaited Finn's answer.

"Em, your dad's let me in about an hour ago, I didn't want to wake you so I just waited" he said turning a little shy.

"So you watched me sleep? That's not stalkerish or anything" she laughed