Edwards point of view

Continueing their date...

It started to get extremely cold out in the park so we walked back to the car.

The drive back was quiet. I looked over to Bella and saw her eyes were out of focus, far away.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked and swept her hair over her shoulder to get a better view of her face.

"Nothing."

I groaned loudly.

"We have got to stop doing that. No more 'nothings'."

"Fine. I was thinking about something Esme said to me the other day."

I remembered back to the day Bella first met my parents. Her and my mom were talking in my room, they thought I couldnt hear them. I dreaded this. It was not something I wanted Bella to hear.

"And that is?"

"She was talking to me about, um, I guess something that happened a while ago to you..." She looked down fiddling with her hands.

"Oh. Did she tell you?" Even though I knew the answer it was best to play it cool.

"No. She said it would be better if I waited, that you would be ready to tell me when you were ready."

"Its complicated Bella." I said strictly.

"Thats a classic line." She smirked.

"Its a long story."

"Thats another one. You dont have to tell me if you dont want to. I was just curious."

I sighed heavily. This was going to be difficult, but I actually wanted her to know now.

"When I was younger I had a very closed relationship with my grandparents. I would go over to their house everyday after school and have pretty much the time of my life. Since I was young I didnt really know what medical problems were. I knew my grandfather had a strong case of lung cancer. I thought nothing of it."

"As I was saying I used to go over there any chance I got. My grandmother would invite me to garden and bake with her, I would watch sports with my grandfather, even though I had no idea what was going on." I smirked at her.

"Ha. I know what that feels like. My father wont let me watch sports with him because I ask to many questions." She smiled.

I chuckled and continued with my story.

"When I was ten, my grandfather ended up in the hospital. One day my grandmother and I were visiting him, I planned to stay with her overnight since the house was empty. On the way home we got in a . . . car accident." Her head snapped up to me, but I kept my eyes on the road.

"Im not going to get into any gory details but my grandmother ended up passing away." She gasped slightly.

"I was perfectly fine. Throughout the next month everything was difficult, my grandfather started losing his memory. He did once ask where she was and why she hadnt been visiting him. None of us had the heart to tell him, but my father stood up and broke the news. He slept for the next few weeks, not letting anybody in to visit him."

"The day he passed away he let only me in. He was telling me about his time in the army, I slept in the hospital that night. But I awoke to screams and loud bangs. My grandfather had passed away at 3 a.m. They were trying to keep him alive longer by pumping his heart, it didnt work. I was yanked out of the room by my mother, and that was the last time I saw him. I wasnt even aloud to the funeral because of what I saw."

"After that everything in my world turned upside down. I never talked to anyone, I managed to keep my good grades. But if somebody said something to me outside of my home, then I would snap."

She was quiet, exeptionally quiet. You could hear the soft Cd of Debussy playing lowly in the background.

I looked over at her hesitantly. She was staring at her hands.

"Please, just say something." I begged softly.

"I honestly dont know what to say. Its not what I expected."

"What were you expecting? That I saw ghost as a child and have premonitions?" I asked.

She smiled faintly.

"Im shocked. What you went through is terrible." She whispered and took my hand in both of hers.

We pulled up into her driveway and sat there.

"Im sorry." She said sincerily.

"Me too. But now you can probably guess why the sudden change in me has been brought out by you. You made me forget all about that unfortunate time. You brought me back to life, I guess I should say."

She smiled at me. I put her hand to my cheek and held it there.

"You made me feel again."

"Im glad I have that kind of affect on you." She laughed slightly.

"You have a big affect on me." I chuckled.

She glanced back to her house then at the time. It was 9:30.

"Will you come in?"

"If you want me to."

"Absolutely."

I went around to her door and held my hand out to her. She took it tightly in hers and we walked up the driveway into her house.

She seemed confused that the door was unlocked and walked in.

"Jake! What are you doing here?!" She said surprised.

A boy about 16 was sitting on her sofa talking to her father. He lived on the reservation, I could tell by his skin color and they way he had his hair. They all looked the same down there.

He walked over and picked her off her feet hugging her.

"Hey Bells!" Hey said chipper.

"Edward this is Jacob Black, we've known each other since we were two years old. Jake this is Edward, my boyfriend." Bella motioned to each of us. It made me all warm inside that she called me her boyfriend. Although I did feel that wretched emotion - jealousy - come back and haunt me when he hugged her.

We both knodded at each other and said 'Hi'.

Bella pulled me to sit next to he in the recliner chair.

"So whatcha doin here?" Bella smiled.

"Harry Clearwater is in the hospital, he went into a coma." Charlie said.

Bella bit her bottom lip.

"Im sorry Jake, how does Leah feel?"

"Leah is his girlfriend." She said to me quietly. I knodded and put my arm around her.

"Shes real upset Bells. She kept crying all day."

"Why arent you there comforting her!?" Bella said outraged.

"Woah chill." He laughed.

"Shes with her mom at the hospital, I just came here to fill yall in."

Bella narrowed her eyes at him.

"You better be nice to her." Bella threatened.

"Shes never nice to me." He said amused.

"Yes, but shes never nice to anyone."

"Gotta love her." Jacob sighed.

"We know you do." Bella retorted smiling.

I looked at my watch hoping Bella didnt notice. 9:55.

"Do you have to go?" She questioned.

"I promised Esme I would be home by ten." I said sheepishly. She took my hand and stood up walking me to the door.

"I guess I better go to." Jacob sighed heavily.

"By Jake." Bella said and hugged him goodbye.

"See ya Bells. By the way you look pretty."

"Thanks." She smiled and waved to him as he drove off.

She turned back to me smiling.

"Whats wrong?" She asked eyeing the furrow between my brows.

"He said you looked pretty, you look absolutely beautfiful, so much more than pretty."

"Shut up!" She laughed and turned her head so I couldnt see the crimson blush spread.

I wrapped her in my arms and leaned against my car.

"I like this shirt on you. It brings out your sparkling eyes." She mumbled laying her head on my chest.

"You put the sparkle there." I said and kissed her head.

We stood there for a few minutes then I sighed pulling away.

"I'll see you tomorrow." She said in a yawn.

"Get some sleep." I chuckled and kissed her cheek. She nodded and walked back up her driveway. I got in and drove off.

Did I have to get that empty feeling whenever she isnt with me?

I looked over to the passenger seat hoping to see her blushing face hiding from me. No such luck.

My car felt colder than usual. My heart did. God, im addicted to her.

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