Edwards point of view

February 1st

"Do you want to do something tonight?" I asked Bella as we drove out of the schools parking lot.

She bit her lip hiding the side of her face with her brown hair. I reached over and brushed it away, I didnt like it when she hid her face from me.

"I kinda promised Jake I would come over today."

Damn. I really wanted to spend the day with her.

My face slipped into a frown and of course she noticed.

"I can go some other time. He'll understand."

"No. No you go. Uhm have fun. But will you come with me somewhere first?"

"Of course. I said I would be over at about 5."

4:02. Ugh. Not enough time.

"Maybe not..." I said.

"I can be late." She rolled her eyes. I put my hand on her knee and smiled slightly.

"Ok."

I drove down the familiar street, well it has been familiar to me lately.

We drove down a few streets for about 10 minutes.

"Where exactly are we going?" She laughed.

"Shh." I laughed.

She breathed a sigh and leaned back.

Another 10 minutes later I pulled up in front of a small appartment complex. It only had about 30 appartments to it.

"What are doing?" She asked.

I ignored her and got out. I took her hand after I opened her door and walked up the sidewalk with her.

We walked up the stairs and stopped at appartment 33.

I opened it with my key and motioned for her to go inside.

She looked at me confused.

"Just go check it out." I said.

She bit her lip and walked around the appartment fr about 5 minutes looking at all the rooms.

It had 2 bedrooms, 2 baths, kitchen, laundry room, living room, dining room, etc.

"Nice." She commented and walked up to me.

"Why are we here?"

"So you like it?" I asked ignoring her previous question.

"Yep. Its really nice, and big."

"Ok."

"Ok?"

"Yes." I said and started to walk out the door. She grabbed my wrist and eyed me.

"And?"

"Oh! I bought it." I said smiling and walked out of the appartment.

She followed me with and incredulous grin on her face.

"What the heck?" She laughed.

"What?" I questioned like nothing happened.

"You just bought it?"

"Yes." I opened her door for her and she slid in.

"Why?" She asked once I got in.

"Im not a big fan of living with my parents till im 40." I smirked at her.

"Your unbelievable." She laughed incredously.

"Why?" I chuckled.

"Because."

"Because why?"

"Just because."

"So does this mean you dont want to help me move in?" I laughed.

"Oh, your actually going to let me do something? Like carry heavy boxes?" She raised her eyebrows.

She always had to make fun of how protective I was of her. I rolled my eyes internally.

"No. But I get lonely very often now a days."

She looked at me with an eyebrow raised.

"What?" I asked.

"Where did you say you were from?"

"I was born in England. Why?"

"You have a very sexy accent."

I almost swerved the car.

"What?" I laughed.

"When you said 'now a days' your accent slipped through." She giggled.

"I honestly didnt know I had one."

"Yep, you do. Sometimes atleast, I guess it depends on what you say."

"Hmm." I nodded.

"Do you want me to drop you off at Jacobs house?"

"If you want, he can always drive me home." She shrugged.

"I can come get you." I objected.

"Theres no need to Edward."

I sighed and turned down his street.

Knowing that she was going to be gone in one minute made me very upset. In the depressed kind of way.

My anger issues have gotten... better. I dont blow up as often. And if I have the urge to, I'll go straight to my piano. The only thing I can play is Bellas lullaby, its the only song that will calm me down. Unless shes around, then I refuse to get angry, no matter what. I will never ever get that way with or in front of Bella. Its unexceptable.

"I love you. Be safe." I said and kissed her head.

"You always say that. Do you expect me to get hurt?"

"Well ive seen you trip over a banana peel in the cafeteria." I chuckled. She slapped my arm playfully.

"Good point. You caught me though! I love you too and I'll be safe." She sighed.

We pulled in front of his house and Bella got out. She bent down to the open window and smiled sadly.

"You know, i'd rather be with you."

I felt my heart beat faster at her very simple words.

Before I could respond she was gone. I drove back down the road glimpsing in the rear view mirror for her.

Jacob had her in a bone crushing 'bear' hug.

She told me everything about Jake. I wanted to know, but it didnt stop my jealousy from flaring up a notch.

I need to work on two things.

My anger.

My jealousy.

Anger would come first, I could not ever see Bella when I was angry. As I said before, its unexceptable.

Jealousy. Ah, what a wretched emotion it is. I've never experienced it before I met Bella. Now I seem to be having it quiet a lot. Yes, I do need to work on that also.

They will both take some time, I suppose. I will work my hardest, for Bella.

7:30 that night

Bored. Hmm. I think this feeling is worse than jealousy and anger mashed together.

I started humming Bellas lullaby staring up at the ceiling, whilst lying on my bed.

When, what do you know, it started playing. I looked around for my cell phone and smiled when I saw her picture pop up with her number reading 'Bella'.

"Hello, love." I answered.

"Edward!"

"Alice?" I asked confused.

"Edward! Bellas in the hospital."

I was out of my bed running down the stairs in less than 2 seconds.

"Where are you going?" Esme asked.

"Bellas in the hospital!" I yelled as I walked out the door.

"Alice what the hell happened?" I demanded as I sped down the road.

"She was motorbiking with Jake-"

"What?!"

"Shit, calm down Edward. Ok. So she was motorbiking and she didnt know how to stop-"

"What?!"

"Do you want me to finish?!"

"Sorry."

"She flipped off the front and landed in the dirt, apparantly the dust from the bike clouded her lungs and she had an asthma attack."

"Oh god." I groaned.

"It was minor, but the bike landed on her wrist, it could possibly be broken."

"Damnit!" I growled and slammed my hand on the steering wheel.

"I got to go, im here with Rose and her parents, her dad is checking her out, hes not very happy with her." She snickered.

"Niether am I." I slammed my phone closed.

Didnt she promise to be safe?!

Damnit.

God, please let her be ok.

Alice said it was minor...

I quickly pulled into the hospital got out and walked up to the emergency room.

"Edward shes in room 310." Rose snickered.

"What?" I asked.

"Shes scared." Alice giggled.

"Of me?!" I asked outrage.

"No! She actually scared shitless. She was panicked when we walked in. Flipping off a motorbike can apparantly scare a Bella." She laughed.

I rolled my eyes and got in the elevator. When I walked up to room 310 I went inside and leaned against the wall.

Her dad was putting her wrist in a black brace. She was sitting on the edge of the bed in her clothes which were a little dirty.

"Im going to have a talk with Jake. And you, young lady. What did I say about riding on those things? It dangerous!"

"I know." She sighed quietly and hung her head with her hair surrounding her.

"I understand that Jake was leaving, but it doesnt mean you can go on a thrill ride. You have to think about your heath Bella." Her mom stated quietly.

"I know." She whispered agian.

I couldnt help but wonder why she was so quiet. This wasnt the joking fun loving sarcastic Bella I knew.

Well, this was the motorbiking one that I didnt know.

Her parents glanced up and looked at me.

I had on a straight poker face. Emotions not slipping through, I have had lots of practice doing this.

Her father stood up and walked out with her mother, they both smiled at me slightly.

"Shes fine. But her cough will get worse. And her wrist is just sprained, it will only have to be in the brace for 4 weeks. Just a fair warning." Her dad said and clapped me on the back.

When they were gone she continued to keep her head down. I saw something hit her palm, something wet. She rubbed her eyes and looked to the side.

Her eyes were probably watery from the dust. She looked back and saw me. Her eyes got wide and she just stared into mine.

After endless moments of me looking in her wide doe like eyes I broke the silence.

"How do you feel?" My voice was tight. I hadnt realize I was holding back my anger, not exactly at her but at Jake, and her actions. I could never be angry at her.

"Fine." She mumbled so low I could hardly hear it.

I didnt say anything else, and neither did she. I didnt know what to say. My fists kept bawling up every now and then when I thought about different things in this situation.

A few moments later Jake and her father walked in.

"Sorry Bells." He said and hugged her.

"Dont be. It was my idea."

My eyes popped open wide. No, No! She promised she would be safe! This was not her fault!

Damn, it was.

"Bella, I have to stay here till 10. So Edward can drive you home." He looked at me and I nodded.

"K." She mumbled.

They all left after her father signed her out. She walked next to me about 3 feet away rubbing her arm up and down. Still, we were silent.

I was waiting for her to speak first.

I opened the car door for her and she slid in mumbling an even more quiet 'thank you'.

As I was driving to her place, my anger started to get the best of me. My fists were clamped tight around the steering wheel, knuckles white. My poker face was set, but my notrils flared every once in a while.

When we pulled in front of her house we both just sat there. She wouldnt say anything and it was driving me up the wall.

There was a little sound of rock music playing in the background. I slammed my palm on the volume dial hard.

Bella jumped in her seat startled.

Dont do this Edward. Calm down.

She looked down fiddling with her hands in her lap.

"Edward-" She started in a whisper. Knowing what a douche I am I interupted her.

"What the hell were you thinking?! Didn't you promise me to be safe?!"

She didnt say anything, fine, then I will keep going.

"Going motorbiking with Jacob is not what I call safe Bella! Goddamnit! Knowing it was your damn idea is even worse!"

I calmed down slightly and spoke sternly.

"When I saw your number on my phone I expected way different than Alice calling me and telling me that your in the hospital! All because you and Jake wanted to have your wild ride!"

Once again I repeated with anger.

"What the hell were you thinking?!"

Her shoulders were shaking and she looked up at me with her doe like eyes.

There were thick wet tears flooding down her face.

Oh god no. Please! NO! I did not just make her cry. Oh god.

"Im sorry." She whispered in a broken whimper. She quickly opened her door and got out.

I reached for her arm to stop her.

"Bella wait!" I called after her. But she was gone, she ran up her driveway and shoved her way through the front door.

I closed my eyes and leaned my head back on the seat.

See?! This is what happens when your an asshole!! You yell at the person who means absolutely the world to you! You make her cry! You make her upset and right after she just got out of the hospital!

You screw everything up...

I drove home cursing myself out.

When I got home I filled my parents in on what happened.

My father wasnt happy that I let my anger issues get in the way and yelled at her.

Neither was my mother, but they were understanding.

When I went up to my room, I dialed Bellas number constantly, I never left a message. I wanted to atleast appologize to her, not some answering machine.

She never answered and I felt my heart sink into my stomach.

"Please Bella, love, sweetheart, angel, darling, sweetie, baby doll answer." I chanted at the ring on the other end. Nothing. I mean absolutely nothing, signaling that she turned her phone off.

I layed back on my bed. One wet tear fell down my cheek.

Somebody knocked on my bedroom door and I quickly wiped it away composing myself.

"Come in." I called.

My mom peeked her head in and smiled.

She saw how upset I was.

"Did you call her?"

"Yes. Atleast 30 times, she never answered. Finally she just turned her phone off."

She sighed heavily and sat by me on my bed.

"She'll forgive you."

"No. She wont."

"Edward, I know Bella, and she has a big heart, she loves you and she will forgive you-"

"She wont." I repeated and walked into the bathroom.

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