Bella's point of view

8 months later

"Where are we going?" This was about the 15th time I had asked that.

"Would you be patient you impatient woman!" Edward said frustrated.

"No! It's almost 11:00pm and we are driving in the middle of nowhere! I'm scared." I squeaked the last part.

He sighed and lifted up the middle console so the third seat was available in the middle.

"Come here." He said.

I scooted over and wrapped my arms around his stomach. He put his free arm around me and held me close.

"You have no reason to be scared. I'll protect you. Always."

I kept my mouth shut for another ten minutes until Edward pulled onto the side of the road.

"Why are we at the beach?"

"Shh." He snapped.

He came around to my side and grabbed my hand.

He led me down to the beach.

As we were walking he sighed heavily.

"You are not good with surprises you know that Ms. Swan?"

"I just want to know where I'm going all the time."

"That's not the point of a surprise!" He laughed incredously.

I rolled my eyes.

We came along a rocky shore and he stopped.

"What?" I asked.

"Look around."

I did as he said.

This place was beautiful. The water was stunning and clear with the moon shining on it.

"It's beautiful."

"It's probably the most delicate place you could find in the state of Washington." He chuckled looking up at the moon.

I put my hands on his chest.

"Why are we here?"

"I think we should consider having the wedding here."

I smiled slightly. I had always wanted a beach wedding.

"It's beautiful, not too windy in the month of October."

We wanted to have the wedding after this coming summer.

"October?"

"Autumn is the most beautiful time of the year." He said.

"October what?"

He shrugged.

"Whenever just at least 10 days before Halloween." He chuckled.

"I like it." I smiled.

"But a beach wedding is going to be very expensive."

"So?"

"Ugh. So. So? That's all you have to say?"

"Yep." He smiled crookedly at me. He put an arm around my waist and pulled us back so we plopped down in the sand.

I leaned over his chest.

"How did you find this place?"

"Well Esme and Renee might have suggested-"

"Mom! She told you! Oh good god! I cannot believe she told you!"

He started laughing at me and I smacked his arm.

"It's alright. I think it's cute they you had already planned your whole wedding at the age of eight. And who you were going to marry . . ."

"Oh my god." I groaned.

"Look. I was only 6 when I told my mom that!"

"I know." He chuckled and rubbed my back.

"But, you refused to tell me anything you really wanted for a wedding so I resulted to dangerous levels."

"And that would be?"

He leaned close into my ear.

"Our mothers." He whispered.

We both burst out laughing.

"Dangerous indeed." I smiled. He laid back and pulled me on top of his chest.

"A beach wedding seems nice." The wind was blowing slightly and he brushed the hair out of my face.

"Fine. But, it's still traditional." I said.

"Definitaly. Suits and dresses." He kissed my nose.

I rested my cheek on his collar bone and watched the wave's crash upon the shore.

"It's going to be incredible." I whispered.

"The wedding?"

"No. Marrying you." He tilted my chin up with his index finger and pressed his lips against mine.

February 16th

College was going very well. Not at all what I expected. I thought Edward and I would be separated and always working on book reports of whatever.

But, no. We had all of our classes together, so that meant we had the same assignments.

Which we did together. I looked to Edward for answers. Not just on things I didn't know but on things in general. Common things that I didn't understand. He seemed so much smarter than me at times.

Classes just ended for today and Edward took my hand as we walked out of the classroom.

I turned to him as we were by the huge fountain in the middle of the campus.

"I think I know the date should have the wedding on." I grinned.

He stroked under my eye.

"Oh do you now?"

"Mmmhmm." I smiled.

"Hey Bella." I turned around still holding Edwards hand and smiled politely at Mark.

I have him for the last class and he talks to me sometimes when Edward isn't looking. Ha-ha.

My intimidating muscle man.

"Hey Mark."

Edward was not happy about this at all. He squeezed my hand hard.

I gave him a look through the corner of my eye.

"Can I borrow your notes? I'm so tired I didn't really pay attention today." He laughed.

"Sure." I said and dug through my bag.

"Here." I smiled and handed it to him.

I turned back to Edward and was about to start talking when he said something.

"Thanks by the way."

"No problem. Just don't lose them." I laughed.

"Don't worry."

"Get some sleep." I laughed.

"Yeah. Bye." He looked at Edward then walked off.

I looked back to Edward and he was glaring at the back of Marks head.

"Hey." I put my hand on his cheek.

He looked down to me and raised his eyebrows.

"Mark huh?" He asked.

I rolled my eyes.

"He's a terrible liar. I saw him writing his notes all through class." I laughed.

"Then why didn't you say no?" He questioned.

"I was being polite and nice. You should try it sometime."

"I'm not a people person." I laughed at him.

"Well it's a good thing I annoyed the hell out of you until you were nice to me."

He rolled his eyes.

"Yes I'm a sucker for pretty brunettes named Bella."

"I hope there are not a lot of them in this world."

"Maybe. But none of them are as beautiful and as bright as you."

"Aw, I feel special."

"You should darling. Anyways what were you saying about our wedding date?"

"Oh! How about October 15th? 20 days away from all hallows eve." I giggled.

"Sounds perfect."

"Bella!" Angela tackled me into a hug.

"Hey Ang."

"What's up buttacup?" She asked.

"Maybe you should tell her." Edward said.

"Tell me what?!"

"Edward and I are getting married."

She gave me this deadly look that said I better run.

I stepped behind Edward laughing.

Ben patted Edward on the back.

"Congrats."

"Thank you!" I said from behind Edward.

"Hiding behind your man isn't going to help you now." Angela said.

"When did you propose?" She asked.

"Prom night."

"Bella! Were best friends and you haven't told me till now!"

I peeked my head under Edwards arm and grinned cheekily.

"Nope. But, if it makes you feel better I haven't told Alice or Rose either."

"Yeah. That does make it a little better." She hugged me.

Alice and Rose left to separate colleges. We had a whole day filled with crying and missing each other the day before Rose left to Colorado and Alice left to New Hampshire.

"When?" Ben asked.

"October 15th we think." I said.

"It sounds fine." Edward said.

At 4:30 we had an appointment at the bakery. I was really happy that Edward wanted to do the wedding plans with me and wasn't one of those guys who complained and made the girls do it all.

"Cullen." I said to the lady. I smiled. I could really get used to that.

A lady came out and smiled at us.

"Where will you be getting married at?" She asked.

"Well, were having a beach wedding so I think we should have a beach wedding themed cake."

I looked at Edward.

"But it has to be elegant." I added.

"Hmm. I'll see what we can do. Any decorations in mind?"

"Maybe seashells." I looked at Edward biting my lip. He glanced down at my lip and gulped.

I giggled quietly.

"Color?"

"Tan almost like sand." Edward said.

She sketched some stuff down on a piece of paper while biting her lip. That didn't even seem to faze Edward.

"How about cake flavor?"

I groaned.

"See here's the difficult part. This weirdo doesn't like sweets." I said.

"I like sweets! Just not a lot of them." Edward defended.

The lady giggled at us.

"Chocolate? White? Marble?" Edward shook his head no.

"Ok. How about this. Is there anything or any kind or cake that you do like?"

"Isn't there some kind of red cake?" HE asked.

"Red velvet?"

"Yes! I like that one."

"Mmm." I smiled.

"Good, red velvet we can do. How about a filling?"

"We should fill it with cream cheese frosting." Edward said.

"See there's the man that likes sweets!"

Edward rolled his eyes.

"Sounds delicious." I said.

She showed us a sketch and I smiled.

"I love it."

"Me too." He said and kissed my hair.

"Great. How many layers?"

"I think 3 will be good." Edward said.

"Hmm. Ok. That will come up to about 543 dollars."

I gulped.

"Maybe on 2 layers-"

"No its fine." Edward objected.

She got up and went to the register.

"Will that be cash or credit?"

"Credit." Edward said and handed her a credit card.

"Edward." I growled.

"Yes sweetie?"

"I thought we agreed that I would pay half."

"Hm. I don't remember that."

I gritted my teeth, I didn't want to fight. Especially not in public.

After he paid we got in the car and headed home.

"What's wrong?" Edward sighed.

"We agreed that I would pay half!"

"Bella don't make a big deal out of this."

"No! Damnit!"

He turned to me upset.

"What is this all about?!"

"I want to pay for some things! I want to contribute to this wedding, half and half!"

We pulled up to the apartment and I swung the door open not letting him get it and went upstairs ahead of him.

He shut the apartment door behind me.

"I don't know why you're making such a big deal a big deal out of this."

"No. Of course you don't." I said.

"What's that supposed to mean?" He snapped.

"That's means that you don't care if I feel like I'm completely mooching off of you. It makes me feel like shit!"

"I invited you here Bella. I offered to do all of these things!"

"Whatever." I snorted.

"Well what do you want me to do?! Be less of a gentleman?!"

"Maybe." I muttered.

He walked up to me and shook his head.

He kissed me fiercely. Hard and rough. His hand slammed my hips into the wall along with my head. It didn't really hurt but it honestly didn't feel good.

"What are you doing?" I breathed.

"Being less of a gentleman. Being less protective let's see how you like it." He growled and kissed me.

I didn't like this. I really really didn't like this…

Whenever he kissed me it was always so sensual and gentle but so passion.

I could feel his fury in this kiss. His hands were on my hips instead of behind my head of cupping my face as usual.

Suddenly his hands shot straight for my jeans zipper.

"Wait." I said and put my hand on his chest.

He broke away breathing hard.

"You didn't like it did you?" He snapped.

It wasn't that I didn't like the kissing. I always loved kissing him; it was just the way he kissed me I didn't like. I didn't say anything.

"Yeah I didn't think so." He shoved himself off the wall and looked down to me.

"I was raised a gentleman Bella. Before you my life sucked and I was an asshole to everybody. I've managed to push that aside for you. I won't be that man again. I refuse. So do not try to bring him out of me."

He sat down on the couch and rested his elbow on the arm of it and his forehead in his hand.

I was still breathing erratically because of him.

Then I realized what I did. How horrible I was. To the person I loved more than anything in the world. I would do anything for him.

I carefully stopped leaning against the wall and slowly walked over to stand in front of Edward.

I bent down and wrapped my arms around his neck. When I did this he was stiff but then relaxed.

He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me tight against him. I buried my face in the crook of his neck and started to cry.

I cried because of what a bitch I was to him. After everything he has done for me! He doesn't deserve this.

"I'm sorry. So so sorry." I stuttered.

"No. I'm sorry. That was uncalled for. Way out of line."

I shook my head disagreeing.

"I don't want you to change. I love you the way you are. I fell in love with you because of how protective you are of me. How much of a gentleman you are. I love you so much."

That only made me cry harder.

"Shh. God, sweetheart in sorry." He rubbed my back and kissed my hair.

"Did I scare you?" He asked several minutes later.

"No." I shook my head.

"I think I did." He sighed.

"No. What scared me is me upsetting you. I never want to upset you."

He brushed the hair out of my face and wiped my tears.

"Gosh, I cry all the time you must find me so annoying."

"No." He laughed.

"I could never find you annoying. I love you baby doll."

"I love you too."

Later that night I crawled in bed while Edward was taking a shower. I had just taken one.

When he got out I pulled the blankets up over my mouth. He raised an eyebrow at me and chuckled.

He sat down on the edge of the bed watching TV while he dried his hair with a towel.

I slowly got up and crawled over behind him. I was only in my boy shorts panties and a lace tank top camisole.

I usually slept in only this; Edward didn't seem to mind that I was half naked. Anyways he only slept with his boxers on. He was shirtless right now as a matter of fact.

I put my arms around his neck from behind. Not in a loving gesture but in a choke hold way.

It didn't even faze him!

"Sweetheart?"

"Yes?" I huffed.

"What are you doing?"

"Trying to put you in a choke hold."

"I realize that. Are you mad at me or something?" He chuckled.

"No. I want to wrestle."

"Well in that case you're not doing it right."

Quickly before I could even comprehend he had me over his head. He threw me onto the bed and I gasped. Not because it hurt but because how damn fast he was.

He leaned over me smiling crookedly.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked smirking.

I didn't say anything I just wrapped my arms around his neck and tried to pull him down.

He shook his head at me and picked me up again. He swung me over his shoulder then slammed me on the bed again only this time my head hit the soft pillows.

"No fair. You cheat." I pouted crossing my arms.

"How on earth do I cheat?!" He laughed incredously.

"You have so much strength you could lift like three of me!"

"And that's cheating?"

"Yes."

He crawled over me smiling. When he tried to kiss me I moved sideways so he kissed my cheek.

"Do you want me to let you win?" I shook my head no.

"If I show you how to put me in a proper headlock will you be happy?" I grinned and nodded.

He pulled me so I was sitting on my knees.

"I hope showing this to you isn't a mistake. I could piss you off then you'll know how to do it when I'm sleeping." He chuckled.

"I would never!" I gasped. He laughed at me.

"I hope not."

"Humph."

"Ok, technically I'm going to show you how to put me in a full nelson."

He bent forward.

He pulled my arms under his arm pits and smiled.

"Just lace them under my armpits. Good."

"Lock your fingers behind my neck."

"Ok you have to squeeze real tight. Keep your legs spread or else you'll lose you balance honey."

"Like I had any balance in the first place." I snorted.

I did as he said.

"Ow. Ok. You're doing it right." I immediately let go.

"Really?"

He rubbed the back of his neck.

"Yeah."

"Did I hurt you?"

"No." He chuckled and kissed my lips.

"Darn." I sighed. He looked shocked.

"Just kidding."

He crawled over me and pinned my arms to the bed.

I tried to wiggle free but he was really freaking strong.

"Let me go." I whined.

"I don't think so." He smirked and started kissing my neck. I giggled when he kissed my ear.

I waited until he was distracted and flipped us over. I pressed my knee into his groin slightly.

"I know what you're thinking and you shouldn't be thinking it Miss Swan." He tsked. He didn't dare make a move though.

"Uh oh. Who's got power now?" I smirked.

"Your evil. An evil little girl."

"I am not a little girl!" Oh that ass! He knew that would distract me and he took advantage of it picked me up and slamming me back down.

"Were probably going to break the bed like this." He chuckled.

He stood at the edge of the bed watching me breath heavily.

"I know another way we could break the bed."

"Oh do you now?" He grinned.

"MmmHmm." I grinned biting my lip. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down on top of me.

Ah! I just loved this chapter. I think it's the best! They are so freaking cute!!

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