Army Wives

Chapter 7- Meaning

My contractions were hitting me like hell. I thought I'd pass out. I laid on my hospital bed, in my room, and Jasper by my side.

"I can't take this anymore!" I yelled in agony. Jasper smoothed out my hair, and kissed my forehead. "It's okay honey, it'll all be over soon." He soothed. The doctor came in and looked at my contractions. "Okay Bella, your contractions are about fifty seconds apart, so I think we can get things going here." He smiled. I dropped my head back. "Oh thank god!" I sighed. Jasper laughed,

Jasper grabbed my hand, as the doctor told me to push.

It seemed like endless hours of pain, and agony. It was like pure hell. Everything went away when I heard that little sucker cry. "It's a boy!" The nurse said and I broke down crying. Jasper kissed me, and thanked me for giving him a beautiful baby boy.

The doctor handed me our baby and we awed at his handsomeness. "He's so beautiful." I cried. Jasper nodded, and smiled, "He is,"

"Christopher." He smiled, I smiled back, and nodded. "Perfect." He looked just like Jasper. His blonde hair and blue eyes. Both our kids look exactly like him. God bless them,

Alice ran threw the door with Edward, which wasn't such a good idea with Jasper here. "Ohh! He's so adorable Bells!" She said and kissed his little head gently.

Edward smiled and kissed my head congratulating me. I smiled and thanked him. "He looks like Jasper so much!" Alice smiled. "Thank god," I smiled and laughed,

"Bella, your beautiful, so shut up." Edward laughed.

"Another addition to our huge family." Emmett said coming threw the door. Rose came in with Jaycee, and the twins. Emmett was caring Arianna. He passed her to Alice and Jaycee came to sit on the bed and see her new brother. The twins watched in amazement.

"Bruder?" She asked and I nodded, she kissed his head and said, "Small bruder." We all laughed.

We left the hospital around noon the next day, and Jasper had to go back to work. Eight days till they all left…Why? My life officially sucks.

"Hold on Chris, I'll be right back." I said laying him on the floor so he could look around. I answered the door and it was Edward. He smiled, "Edward." I acknowledged.

"Beautiful, Bella." He answered. I rolled my eyes and he stepped in. "Edward, I can't be with you, I can't. I love Jasper. I love you too, but I think your just dazzling me again."

He looked confused but brushed it off, "Bella, don't. I love you," He smiled that smile. Yep. Dazzling for sure. This guy should be illegal.

Chris started crying for me because he was hungry. "You should leave, I need to go feed my son," I said and he nodded, he kissed my head and left. I groaned irritated.

"I know, I know. I'm sorry, here." I said and gave him formula. I couldn't breast feed again, It hurt way to fucking much.

"What should I do Chris?" I wined. He hummed, and Jaycee came down the stairs. "Hey momma." She said and sat next to me. "Hey baby," I said kissing her cheek. "What you doing?"

"Feeding your brother." I said and she nodded, "I hungy too." She said and I nodded. "I'll make you a PB and J after I'm done Kay?" I asked and she nodded and started watching TV. I yawned, exhausted.

Jasper came threw the door and smiled, "Hey you,"

"Daddy!" Jaycee screamed and ran to him, throwing her arms around his legs. He laughed, "Hey 'darlin." He picked her up and kissed her cheek. "Theirs my little stud in training." He said to Chris and I laughed, Chris just giggled. "Hey, could you make her lunch? Your son is greedy and doesn't want me to put him down," I laughed.

He laughed and nodded, "Sure, c'mon Jaycee," He said and walked into the kitchen. Jaycee came back in the living room, sitting in front of the TV eating her sandwich. I yawned again and Jasper kissed my lips. "You look tired." He commented, "I am."

"Here," He said and took Chris from me, I thanked him and laid on the couch.

I fell asleep quickly, exhausted from the kids, and life.

I woke in my bed. Thank god for you Jasper. I crawled out and walked downstairs. Jasper was sitting on the couch, with the baby. "Where's miss Jaycee Lynn?" I asked sitting down. "Sleeping, she wore herself out." He laughed, I nodded. She does do that often.

"Alice told me about Edward." He said suddenly. I looked at him, shocked. "I know you still love him Bells."

"Jasper, not in the way I love you. I love you like no tomorrow. Edward…thinks he can get to me." I said and he sighed, "Thank you Bella. For everything." He smiled and I smiled back, "I don't love him Jasper." I said and he nodded, "I know," He kissed me and I looked at the clock. 12:43am.

"I better get him to bed." I said and he handed me our sleeping child.

"Good idea." He laughed quietly. I walked upstairs and quietly set Chris in his crib. He whimpered a little, than relaxed. I let out a relived breath, and tip toed back downstairs.

"I can't believe your leaving again. And in a week." I pouted. He laughed and kissed me again. "I love you Bella," He said and I smiled, "I love you too." And I meant it.

Departing Day

"Daddy leaving again." Jaycee acknowledged the fact that my heart was breaking. I nodded, and tried not to cry. "Yes honey, he is. But, he'll be back. I promise." Her little lip quivered and tears rolled down her face. "Oh, honey." I said and picked her up, holding her close. I heard Jasper come downstairs and frown at the sight.

Jaycee reached out for him, and he grabbed her, holding her close. "Da-Daddy! Don't Le-Leave me!" She cried, and I felt my heart break even more. "Jaycee Lynn. Don't cry, I'll be back 'darlin. I promise." He said and kissed her head. I smiled a little, and he looked to me, and I saw tears treating to leek out of his eyes. I bit my lip and walked up the stairs.

I carried Christopher down the stairs, and into the car, as we drove to the airport. It was partially a quiet ride, only if Chris would giggle or mumble baby talk, Jasper would smile.

I sighed as we pulled up the airport. I got Christopher on my hip, and Jaycee didn't want to leave her daddy. I was fine with that because I didn't want to either, but I had to be strong for my kids.

We walked to his gate, and saw Alice, Emmett, Rose, The Twins, Esme, Carlisle, Arianna, And Edward. I sighed, and we walked toward them.

Edward and Emmett were wearing there uniform, just like Jaspers. Esme was crying on Carlisle shoulder, and he was trying to stay strong.

Alice was staring absentmindedly at her daughter, and so was Edward. She looked just like him. Bronze hair, and green eyes. Heartbreaker.

The twins were on each of Emmett's legs, and Rose was in his arms.

"Flight 643 now boarding." That dreaded intercom said. Esme took Chris and Carlisle took Jaycee and I threw myself into his arms.

"Bella, don't cry. Please," He said smoothing my hair. I couldn't take it. I needed to cry; I had too. I sniffed and held him closer. "I love you Jasper. With everything I am." I cried.

"Bella," He whispered, and I looked up, my face stained with tears. "I love you more than my own life. More than anything. I'll come back, and I won't be gone long." He attempted to smile, but it failed.

I buried my head into his chest and I felt Alice's tiny arms pull me back. Jasper reached for me and kissed me, long, and passionate. "I love you," He whispered, and pulled back.

He scooped Jaycee up in his arms, and kissed her forehead, "Love you daddy." She said wrapping her little arms around his neck. Esme handed him Christopher, and the baby squealed at the sight of his father. Jasper held him close and kissed his head.

I watched as Emmett, Edward, and Jasper boarded the plane. Rosalie broke into hysterics, as Emmett waved goodbye, and I could tell it broke him.

I held Rose whilst she cried, and the twins stood in shock. Jaycee fell asleep in Esme's arms and Chris was sitting on Carlisle's lap. Alice sat in a seat, still. Just the same as she was before.

I couldn't believe they were gone, and for over a year.

Thirteen months to be exact.

November 10th 2012.

Arianna would be one.

Jaycee would be three and a half.

Christopher would be one.

Maribelle and Amelia would be two and a half.

I wouldn't be able to take the pain any longer. Alice wouldn't budge, and Rose…would die.