-1Edward's POV
Bella was sleeping, curled up next to me. I realized how exhausted she must be. we'd been going almost non-stop for two days with brief breaks.
"Hey Edward, do you ever feel guilty about how we treated her?"
"What? Just now?"
"No! She was enjoying that so why should I feel guilty? I mean before. When we first got her. We were pretty hard on her"
"No, you and Jasper were hard on her"
"Err…I believe you were the one her made her ride you so hard she could barely stand up after"
"Who told you that?"
"Jasper"
"Hmm…Emmett, look" I pointed. Bella's body was a patchwork of bruises and scars. I could identify the scars Jasper had inflicted, with the whip. Some of the bruises were hand prints and I felt a surge of guilt when I noticed some on her shoulders. That was me. I'd hurt her.
"Whoa. Where did they come from?"
"Us Em. They came from us"
"We were monsters to her"
"I suppose it's what we are"
"We owe her some serious shit. After all we put her through, and what she gave us"
"I never got it, how can you get off inflicting pain and suffering on her?"
"I guess I didn't think about it. I just got caught up. Jasper, messing with the mood. Didn't it work on you?"
"No. I felt like a monster while I did it. Not the time when I made her ride me. That was her egging me on, I lost control. No, when I first saw her, I didn't want to. And the way she looked at me, so hopeful"
"She's heard Jasper and I say stuff about you…not being like the rest of us. She pinned all her hopes on you to save her"
"That's what kills me Emmett. She still looks at me like that some times. As if she expects something more…then what I am. I hate disappointing her"
"Edward…"
"Yeah?"
"Nothing"
"Emmett, just say whatever you want"
"Do you love her?" I didn't know. Did I?