After not updating for a while (Sorry I lost track) I'm gonna post this one early. Enjoy!
"I failed you Allia." Kanan whispered.
Kanan's words echoed through my mind.
No. No you didn't Kanan. I did.
I shortly watched as a book Haken had saved from the Republic fall, along with a short letter I wrote. I put that one, and the letter my mother wrote in Kanan's room the same day, knowing I wasn't coming back. While I was with Haken, I wondered if I would ever see them again. If I didn't run into them before. I knew I would look for them, when the time was right. I would think of a few things from time to time, and that was what helped me when I was sure I'd never see anyone from Ghost again...
I felt a hand tightly grip my hand. I opened my left eye, and followed an arm, to see Ezra. He looked at the bracelet that rested around my left wrist. Ezra's dark blue eyes looked to my eye. He realized something, and was still processing it.
"I...I remember." He whispered as he stood. Ten he left my room. We had shared a vision. I slowly pushed myself up, adjusting the pillow behind me as much can as I could. But something around my side limited my movement. Pain rushed through my right arm. I saw that my hand was wrapped, and it continued to my elbow. I felt over my eye and took the bandage from over it. Oddly enough I can swear I can see out of my right eye a little better now. I stared at my hands for a while, thinking over things. That was when I remembered my bag. I looked over the edge of my bed, to see it resting against it. As I picked it up, I wondered if anyone went through it.
I hope Ezra will keep that between us, I silently thought.
I briefly went through the contents, making sure everything was accounted for. As I set my bag back down in it's place, I heard Kanan's voice outside my door.
"I know you want to see her, but I need to talk to her. And after that we need to leave her alone to let her rest." Kanan said sternly. I smiled. He truly is the closest person I have to a father. More than anyone I've ever known.
I wonder if he protects me because of my mother. Or if he actually sees me like a daughter.
So I wouldn't get my hopes up, i decided the latter reason. Then the door opened. I couldn't see the person Kanan was talking to, but I couldn't help but wonder who it was. When the door closed, I looked at him. Kanan sat down in the chair Ezra was in a little while ago.
"How are you feeling?" He asked, trying to mask the concern in his voice.
"Like I was hit by a ship." I answered. Kanan smiled, but it soon disappeared. Then it hit me. The crew was just starting to cope with my 'death' when I showed up. But U also realized how much I missed them. Kanan looked up at me, I could see the questions in his eye, but I let him ask them.
"Were you with your Uncle this whole time?"
"Yeah." I slowly nodded.
"I was almost convinced Haken Cath had been executed or discovered long ago. Until I saw him in person." I could see that Kanan had more to say, but it wasn't related to my uncle. There was something I was dying to say.
"You changed the subject Kanan." I smiled teasingly while holding back a laugh. "Admit it. You missed me." I knew I called him out, as Kanan avoided my eyes and pretended to get mad. I broke out laughing, only for a moment later to hold my side in pain. I looked up at Kanan, and smiled at his worried face. I leaned back, calming down. Kanan stood up and walked to my door.
Might as well say it, I thought.
"My mother was right. You are the closest person I have to a father." I paused, becoming serious, and looked Kanan in the eye when he turned around. "You didn't fail if I willingly took Ezra's place." Kanan didn't give me the questioning look I expected. His expression was
understanding, as he turned and walked out the door. I sighed, and slid down to the side that didn't hurt. Too soon, I fell asleep.
I woke up early the next morning. I stared at the empty bunk above me, deep in thought. They would expect me to lay here. Resting my ass, I'll go crazy staring at walls all day.
"Hera's gonna kill me." I mumbled to myself. "To hell with it." I sat up, my legs going over the edge of my bed. "She can kill me later." I grunted, standing up. I used the wall to help me walk to my door. When I opened it, I poked my head out, making sure no one else was up. The rising sunlight leaked through the open cockpit door.
No. I'm definitely not sneaking around while everyone else is in their room. I shook my head as I walked down the hall.
I stopped in the door to the cockpit, as I was cloaked with orange light that came through the windshield. Then a light breeze reached me. The fresh wave of air reminded me that I needed some.
This'll be even more fun, I wanted to spit, as I looked down at the latter in the cockpit, and limped over to it.
I stopped a few times as I climbed down, either to readjust my grip, or because my side started to hurt. But eventually, I got down to the entrance. I turned around to see Sabine standing on the beginning of the ramp. She leaned against the frame, watching the sunrise, thinking. I slowly limped to the opposite side of the ramp, trying not to bother her. I was already starting to get sore. But I had no regret, as I filled my lungs with the morning air.
"Aren't you supposed to be resting?" Sabine asked abruptly, looking at me.
"For all Hera knows I am." I tried to chuckle, but ended up holding onto the entrance frame and clinging my side. I was a little surprised to see that worry traced in Sabine's eyes.
"You're pretty bad, aren't you?" Sabine asked, looking back to the watercolor sky.
"I've been worse and survived." I grunted, slowly sliding down into a sitting position, watching the rising sun. Sabine took a breath and did the same. "But it's the ribs that really get ya'" There was a silent conversation between us. I clung to my side a lot, but I see it in a good way.
I nodded to something sabine said, smiling. The sun was still working it's way into the sky, when Hera cleared her throat behind us. I put my hands up in surrender.
"I guess I've been caught." I put my hands down. "Sorry officer, but I think It's gonna take a lot of effort to get me up from this spot."
"You don't have to get up." Hera told me.
"Good thing, because I don't think I can get up." I said jokingly.
"Can we get a few minutes?" Hera looked to Sabine. She nodded, and climbed the latter. Hera slowly walked over to me, and sat down. After a few moments of silence, Hera spoke.
"You know you really scared us back there." She sighed.
"Thats what a lot of people tell me these days." I looked at Hera and gave her a reassuring smile.
"You don't have to worry, I'm not goin' anywhere. Not intentionally."
The multi colored sky held onto it's fading colors. The rising sun, brought a new beginning. The words played on my tongue.
A new beginning...