No, I'm not gonna abandon this story. I have to many plans for it, and after getting this far with it, it'd be sad just to leave it. Yeah it may seem like I am from time to time, but I don't have everything like I want it. A few chapters already are either slightly, or completely different from what I have on paper. That's a good thing, because at one point I titled this whole thing, along with Till I See You Again, I called 'The Train Wreck'. I was hoping to get like, one more chapter in before somethin' kinda big happens, but plans change. (pardon my langue) Too damned much. I'm laughing evilly, because a lot, is gonna happen. And yes, if your wondering, I'm from a southern part of a state. I can talk normal. But it's faster to slur a sentence. Everybody's got an accent technically. deal with it.
Hera got on me after that morning. The following days I slept in, but I couldn't take being cooped up for much longer. The soreness of getting out that morning still followed me, but it was mostly gone. I just got out my door when I heard a slam. I arched an eyebrow, and walked to the lounge.
"Cheater!" Zeb slammed his fist into the table. Chopper beeped in defense. Zeb growled at him.
"You can't expect everyone to play by the rules." I said. Zeb and chopper both jumped at my sudden appearance.
"Jeez. Can't expect them to follow orders either." Zeb mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck.
"Orders? What are those?" I jokingly wondered out loud, before I sat across from Zeb. He shook his head, as Chopper beeped at me.
"Calm down, I'm fine." I reassured them both, as a new round of the game started.
"One round." Zeb told.
"Two." I shot.
"One."
"Two." I persisted.
"One."
"Two."
"One."
"Two."
"One."
"One." I slurred.
"Two -" Zeb growled. I winked, and gave him a two finger salute, as I chuckled. There was a distant conversation throughout the several games we played. After the fourth game, I pushed myself up from my seat.
"I guess I should get back to my room before Kanan or Hera notice." Chopper tried to almost push me along, but I swatted at him. "I'm fine. I can walk on my own thank you very much." He just beeped at me, and tried again. I swatted Chopper more. "Git." Finally he let me be. I looked up into the stretch in front of me. My lungs hurt a little, and I was sore.
Yay, my favorite. Damned hallways. I thought as I slowly limped back to my room.
Once I reached my door, my plan changed, as I drug myself to the latter.
Well. I'm gonna hate myself later. Was what rang through my mind as I slowly went down.
The sun was sinking down, casting the colors through the open entrance ramp. I stood at the beginning of the ramp and looked out at the field, as a soft breeze blew my bangs. That was when I spotted Ezra sitting on a small drop off. I almost normally walked over to him. Somehow, I was given strength that I hadn't had for days. I slowly sat down next to him, hanging my feet over the edge. The dripping sun casted the light over us, as stars slowly appear.
God, it's beautiful. I've seen a million sunsets and sunrises alike, but none were as breathtaking as this one or the sunrise a few days ago.
My heart beated a little faster.
"What are you doing out here?" Ezra asked, looking at me. Half of his face was covered in the colors casted by the setting sun.
"Living." I answered, watching the grasses wave as a breeze made it's way to us. Somehow, my bandaged hand made it's way over to my bracelet. We watched the sun for a while in silence.
"What I said in that field-"
"Was all true." Ezra looked at me surprised at my statement. "I actually was that. I forgot who I was there for a while." My hair swayed with the wind, as I looked Ezra in the eye. "You saying all those things. Reminded me of what it use to be, and that I don't have to let my past define me. What you said, reminded me of who I was, and who I am. Your words may have been harsh, but they brought me home."
The breeze brought in a short moment of silence, as the sun sank, into a sliver.
"You kept that all these years." Ezra whispered, as I turned the bracelet he gave me around my wrist.
"It was a reminder of you. Of the things I had to leave behind. It was all I had to keep me going. To keep me to stay strong, and. Not to give in."
It kept me from becoming cold, I added in my head.
Ezra sadly looked away, as the sky above us filled with stars. He was still hurt that I left, but I knew he understood it was for him.
"I'm not leaving again." I stated, looking over the field. Ezra looked at me. "You guys are what I have left. Without any of you. I'd be nothing. I wouldn't give my life for just anybody, but I sure as hell would try and help them." I looked over to see deep blue eyes staring back. "Even if I do die, you still ain't gettin rid of me." Ezra and I laughed. I held my side, but it didn't hurt like it usually does. We looked up it the amazing scatter of stars above us.
I may be stubborn enough to take the long road. A little too trigger happy. But I'd do anything for family. Blood doesn't tie us, bonds do. More than anything in this world, I'd put my life on the line, hell, I'd put my life down. For these people…
Me here to bother you again. I just get cough up doin other things sometimes. Mostly gettin down on paper what will happen later on, but I'm hopin to finish up this story before July, 'cause I'm gonna get really busy then. Even if I don't anytime I get the chance then, I'll try to post.