The following days of their lives as a married couple proved to be nothing but hell. Hell, even the place where they were living in was hell. Their old house was sold and since Leeteuk didn't have a decent job, he just relegated himself and his wife in a small, dingy, dark, cold apartment where he would just throw his stuff around and wait for his wife to clean things up. Yoon Eun Hye, on the other hand, just followed her husband's orders without hesitation. Either out of love or out of fear that she might lose her life, she just abided by the rules. His rules.

One night, much like all the other nights, Leeteuk came home drunk. He found his wife sleeping on the sofa with his polo on her body. He still had the beer bottle in his hand and upon the sight of this, he threw the bottle to the floor causing it to break and his wife to wake.

"What the hell was that?" Eun Hye yelled, surprised. Since Leeteuk was drunk, he thought that she was angry and quickly walked up to her. Eun Hye backed up a bit and tried to run to her room but he caught her by the hair and threw her to the ground.

"YOU DO NOT YELL AT ME, YOU WHORE, DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?" he removed his belt and whipped her, buckle first. He could hear her high pitched screams and her begs for mercy.

"I'm sorry…." she said in between sobs. She clutched his polo tightly and backed up against the wall where she sat with her knees up to her breasts. "I didn't mean to yell at you! It's just that…I…I was…I was so afraid….you…." Leeteuk wasn't having any of her nonsense rambling. He picked her up by the hair and led her to their room. He pushed her to the bed where she scrambled once again. He began to undress and since he was drunk, the smell of alcohol was all over the place, which made Eun Hye dizzy. Knowing that she wasn't in the best state of mind that night, Leeteuk leapt on the bed and forced himself on her. He raped her. He knew how much she hated having sex with him so he took advantage of her dizzy state and his drunken state to fuck her. He made her scream in either pain or pleasure that night and once he was done, he wiped the sweat off his forehead and cursed at her. He left the room and locked her in. Eun Hye was left crying inside, hugging her pillow.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie.

Eun Hye couldn't explain her feelings for him. She loved him but she hated him. She loved him as a boyfriend but everything came to her suddenly. The suspicions she had about him and the sudden marriage that happened not too long ago. She could've loved him even more. Their love could've grown more. But he chose to rush things. Just so that he could have his way with her.

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can't breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It's like I'm in flight

High of a love

Drunk of the hate

It's like I'm huffing paint

And I love it the more I suffer

I suffocate

And right before I'm about to drown

She resuscitates me, she fucking hates me

Leeteuk sat on the sofa where his wife laid. He thought his actions and words over and over again and tried to figure if what he did was right. If marrying her for her body was the right thing to do. Was it right for a man to put front his desires over his passion. Did he really love his wife or was he just using her. He himself had no idea. He rubbed his forehead and swept his bangs. He stood up from his chair and walked to the room where his wife was staying in. He took the keys that were hanging from the key hanger but made a fist. He pounded lightly on the wall and leaned against it, thinking to himself.

And I love it

Wait, where you going

I'm leaving you

No you ain't come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

Cause when it's going good it's goin great

I'm Superman with the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad

It's awful

I feel so ashamed

Eun Hye was halfway through her sleep when her phone rang loudly. It woke her up and she was sure that Leeteuk heard it too. She scrambled to find it and when she found it, she checked the caller ID.

"JAKE!" she whispered sharply. She excitedly answered her phone and talked to Jake.

"Jake! Oh Jake thank God! Thank God you fucking called! I've been wanting to talk to you but I couldn't and didn't know if I should! God, Jake!" she said with perplexity and joy in her voice.

"Eun Hye! Why? Is everything alright? Are you okay there? How's your new life?" Jake had all these questions to ask.

"Not going great. You see, my husband's a jerk! Everything I told you about him is true!"

"No shit! Tell me, what's been happening?"

"Earlier on, I was sleeping on the sofa and he came in drunk and saw me asleep. He dropped the bottle and it created such terrible noise and it woke me up. I yelled out loud and he thought I was angry so he beat me up! He then pulled my hair and led me to this room where he had his way with me before locking me up here!"

"Fuck. No." was Jake's reply. "Nobody and I mean nobody does that to you! You're a woman, for Jesus' sake! That husband of yours is either mentally unstable or gay!"

"I'm going for gay!" Eun Hye said. Little did she know that Leeteuk was listening in on their conversation and the minute he heard the word "gay", he broke the door down and showed himself to his wife. Eun Hye let out a blood rattling scream and dropped her phone. Jake began to worry about what was going on. Eun Hye tried to run away from her husband but he pushed her back.

"GIVE ME YOUR FUCKING PHONE!" he yelled. Eun Hye shook her head and tried to look for her phone but couldn't find it. Jake could hear his yells from the other line.

"Hello! Hello! Eun Hye! Are you alright? Stay on the line with me!" Jake said anxiously.

"WHO'S THAT FUCKING DUDE?" Leeteuk screamed while sweeping the bed sheets and the other clothes on the bed away.

I snap

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

Leeteuk found the phone and bent down to get it. Eun Hye tried to stop him but he stared at her and shoved her away. Jake was still on the line when Leeteuk placed the device to his ear.

"Hey! I don't know who the hell you are but let me leave you with a warning! You don't call my wife and hold secret conversations with her, do you understand me? This woman belongs to me and she is my property. Don't you be calling yelling 'what the fuck is happening' when I'm around! You don't call my wife, you understand me! Ring her phone one more time and I'm gonna try my hardest to fucking hunt you down and I'm telling you, bro I have a gun here! I'm gonna shoot your ass dead! So if you want to leave, leave my wife the hell alone!" Leeteuk yelled. Jake wasn't about to go down without a fight. He retaliated with all his bravery.

"Well hey there! I don't know you either but seems to me as though you're abusing your wife. I'm here to help her live with you not to help her hide from you! I know you're her husband and I know that she belongs to you but she doesn't deserve the bullshit treatment that you're giving her! So if I were you, I'd straighten out my act because I for one don't want to see my ex-crush in so much pain!" Jake hung up. Eun Hye heard the words that he said and felt relieved and touched. Jake was so sweet! But she wished that he had called earlier while Leeteuk was gone.

Leeteuk walked around rubbing his forehead and yelling to himself. He looked at Eun Hye and said, "I don't want you talking to that guy ever again, alright? If he comes around here, I'mma shoot him with my gun. I ain't joking. Who's he anyways?"

With full pretentiousness, Eun Hye said proudly, "That man just happens to be my ex-boyfriend. And I'm proud to say that I was once his!"

"What happened between the two of you? Why didn't it work out?"

"I broke up with him. I wanted us to stay friends." she said with her head down. The two were starting to calm themselves down and mellow down. Leeteuk sat beside her and looked at her. She refused to look though she knows that he is looking at her. Partly because she was just bluffing. She and Jake were never and item and she just said that to give herself a little bit of pride in front of Leeteuk.

"You shouldn't have." he said. "You're better off with him."

"But…" Eun Hye muttered. "You threatened the crap out of him. What happened to "I'll shoot you with a gun if you ever come close to my wife"?"

"I didn't mean any of that." Leeteuk said softly. "I just don't want anyone else to be with you other than me. I want to be the only guy."

"But you said that you only married me for sex. Now it's the only guy? Get your thoughts straight!"

"I couldn't think properly a few minutes ago. I had these thoughts and feelings juggling inside of me. I didn't know whether to feel sorry or to just accept it. I don't really know why I married you. All I know is that I love you. "

"If you love me, don't hurt me." Eun Hye said. "I may not be the strongest person around here but that doesn't mean that you can take advantage of my weakness."

"I just wanted to feel strong. I never knew what strong was. I never felt strong not even once."

"And by hurting a woman, you feel strong? That's not strength to me. That's actually weakness in disguise. Please, Leeteuk. You have to stop this. While our marriage is still young. This'll turn sour in the end, I know it."

"I guess I'm troubled. I don't know my own strength."

"I agree." Eun Hye said, facing him at last. "You're blinded. All you see is yourself, yourself, yourself. That's all you know, too!" she finally raised her voice. She was apprehensive at first out of fear that Leeteuk might hurt her. She was actually expecting him to hurt her and was quite surprised when he didn't.

"I don't know what to do anymore. I love you but I think…I think you don't return it."

"I can't believe you. I try my best to believe you. Every single little word that comes out of your mouth…I really want to believe in it but I just can't. Some part of me knows that it's all lies. Like right now. You told me that you didn't love me and that you married me for sex, and now you're taking it all back! You're unbelievable!"

"I can't express myself well. I don't know what to say because I'm afraid that if I tell you, you wouldn't understand."

"I don't know where this conversation is taking us. Let's be honest with each other tomorrow, alright. I'm going back to my room. Thanks for ruining my evening and most likely, possibly, my life. Goodnight, husband." she said with fake sweetness.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie.

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you're with them you meet

And neither one of you ever know what hit em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get them

Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at them

You swore you'd never hit em

Never do nothing to hurt em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom

And these words when you spit em

You push pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw you bit em

Throw em down

Pin em

So lost in the moments when you in em

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best to go your separate ways

Guess they don't know ya cause today

That was yesterday yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records playin over but you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again now you get to watch her leave out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane.

[TOMORROW MORNING]

Eun Hye was the first to wake up. She sat up on her bed and stood up, started walking around the room. She checked the alarm clock next to her and saw that it was only 3:00 am. She didn't want to sleep any longer for she feared for her life.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear my cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie.

She exited the room and walked around their small house. She eyed every single little nook and cranny in the place and checked out every single little object. Dilapidated. Abandoned. Several other negative adjectives could be used to describe the objects inside the house and the house itself. She heard faint footsteps on the carpet but disregarded them and continued her observation. The footsteps were coming closer and stopped. As soon as she was sure that they were just behind her, she slowly turned to check who it was, as if she didn't know.

"What do you want?" she said with her head turned to the other side.

"I want to talk to you." said Leeteuk from behind. "I really need to tell you something. I feel the need to."

Eun Hye looked forward once more and headed for the couch. She sat down and looked at her husband who had remorse written on his face.

"Tell me, what do you want?"

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean

And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine

But your temper's just as bad as mine is

You're the same as me when it comes to love

You're just as blinded

"I'm very, very sorry for what I did to you last night. For the pain I've been putting you through since the night we got married. I know it's been hell for you but honestly, it's been hell for me, too. I feel bad whenever I hit you." he tried to touch her face but Eun Hye was having none of his nonsense. She wanted to show him a side of hers that he never knew existed. A side of hers that is concealed by her beautiful face and tender actions. Just when Leeteuk was about to stroke her face, she pushed his hand aside and stood up.

"You feel bad? I thought you said it made you feel stronger? Now it makes you feel bad? I got a question for you, do you even know what it's like to be a woman? What it's like to get stepped on, underestimated, disrespected, fucked around with, raped, beat to the bone by your own husband who's supposed to be loving you but instead does the opposite? Do you even know what hell is like?" Eun Hye yelled at him. It was 3:30 am and the neighbors were all asleep. "Hell is when someone like you comes around and hurts a woman just because she wouldn't have sex with you, that's hell! Hell is when your husband is a total hurricane of emotions that you don't know whether to trust him or leave him! Hell is seeing you every single day! The only reason we're together is because your parents and my parents forced us to get married. You fucking arranged this marriage and you're the one who's fucking destroying it! Are you even in your right mind?" Leeteuk snapped and got angry as well.

"Well if it makes you feel any better, I'm the idiot! I'm the world's biggest idiot for following my parents and not what I wanted. But that doesn't make you any smarter because you're an idiot yourself for actually agreeing!"

"Fuck it, you told your parents to arrange a forced marriage between us! And you're calling me an idiot? You must be-" Leeteuk slapped Eun Hye and watched her fall to the ground. Eun Hye had her hand on her cheek, trying to ease the burn that his palm caused. Mustering her strength though emotionally broken, she stood up and glared at him. Eun Hye dashed out of the house at 3:40 am and began to walk away from the apartment. Leeteuk covered his mouth and rubbed his head in remorse. He couldn't believe what he just put his own wife through. He loved her. He wanted her and needed her the moment he saw her but then he just yelled at her and even slapped her in the middle of her talking. He just had to make her stop. He wanted to kiss her to calm her down but it didn't work. It came out wrong. He waited for some time before actually moving. His actions paralyzed him greatly.

Leeteuk decided to chase after his wife or if she's no longer within the vicinity, run out there and look for her. He ran out of their apartment and hurried to the elevator. He got inside feeling all perplexed and as soon as he reached the ground floor, he found his wife standing next to the light post crying while looking at the empty street. He found her and embraced her. She tried to struggle but his warmth kept her from doing so.

Baby please come back

It wasn't you, baby it was me

Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is that I love you too much

To walk away though.

Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk

"I feel so horrible." Leeteuk said. "I can't believe I just did that to you."

"I feel just as horrible. But I think we're really not for each other. You saw me once. You got to know me. I think it didn't work out. I was right. I was right all along." The two walked back up to their apartment to sort things out. Leeteuk remained speechless until they entered their flat. The two went to the bedroom and talked things out there.

"Right about what?" he asked.

"Right about what I told my friends. I'm like a small figurine. Lovely to look at and nice to hold. But there's no real substance to it. Face it. Men love to look at me and admire me greatly. But later on, they'll just walk on by and look for another girl to marry. A girl that they'll love for the rest of their lives. Admit it or not, you're the same way towards me. You married me because I'm beautiful. You married me because I look so fuck-able. But then you found out that I didn't like having sex and that I've never had sex, except for the night where you forced yourself on me which doesn't even count. Then where do you go now?"

"That's bullshit." he said emotionless. "I never said that I married you only for your-"

"You're not using your head again. For God's sake, you have a brain why not actually put it into action instead of just leaving it to rot in there."

"But I'm not in this for sex."

"Don't deny, Leeteuk! Don't make me walk out of this place again!" she stood up with tears streaming down her eyes from earlier on. "If you didn't marry me for sex, then why'd you get mad when I told you that I wasn't in the mood for sex, huh? If you really love me, you'd understand. But you don't love me, that's why you don't understand."

"I don't know what else to say."

"If you married me with a love that's sexually-driven and unsubstantial, then I suggest you walk out of this place or I'm walking out." she said softly. "Face it, my beauty and sex appeal won't last forever so if forever's not on your list, then I want you to go out. Right now. Go out and find a new girl. One that looks like a lollipop with a huge head, huge boobs, and a small fucking waist! Then waste your time with her, what you two will be doing in the days to come, I could care less about!" she laid on the bed and wrapped her entire body with the blanket. Before reclaiming the lost sleep, she muttered, "I'm a different person now. If you want to fuck around, do it with someone, to someone else. Not with or to me!" she fell asleep with the blanket over her body like a dead body in the morgue. Leeteuk just sat and watched her sleep.

Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the dry wall

Next time, there will be no next time

I apologize even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games, I just want her back

"I know you can hear me…"Leeteuk said softly. "I just wanna say I'm sorry for all the bullshit. I know how hard this is for you. You're not ready. You weren't ready when they called for it. I wish we could go back to the days when we had fun. We loved each other then. I wish we could make things right. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just out of my head, a little imbalanced, that's all. I want you back."

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie…

I love the way you lie…

Leeteuk rubbed his head once more. With tears in his eyes, he looked at her and laid on the bed right next to her. He embraced her and said,

"I just want you to love me again."