Teenage Dirtbag

Chapter 11

EPOV:

As I watched her walk away from me, feeling my heart pound with every step, I thought about her words. "The only thing it's accomplishing is to ruin our chances of being with someone we really want to be with.....Right?"

The only thing that would ruin my chances for being with the one I wanted was if she ended this now. Before answering her ridiculous question, I nodded to myself realizing what I had to do.

"No" I said, standing and walking to her. The need to profess my feelings for her became overwhelming.

Focusing on her mouth, its familiarity, I brushed my thumb across her lower lip gaining the courage that I needed.

"Bella...You...are the one I want."

"But yesterday....TODAY!......you pulled away...." her voice filled with both anger and frustration.

I cut her off with a kiss, sweet and simple, to silence her. I couldn't bare to be reminded of my stupid selfish mistake.

That kiss ignited a flame that burned deep inside, needing to be smothered by her touch. My arms wound themselves around her waist and lifted her off her feet.

Finding strength in her eyes, I affirmed with conviction, "I'm not pulling away now."

I couldn't hold back any longer as my lips crashed into hers forcefully. My body followed, pushing her against the wall, coaxing her legs around my waste. Her hands quickly found their way through my hair, threatening the stability of my legs.

She was killing me slowly with every movement. She felt so fucking good pressed against me, knowing that this was for us and us alone. At that moment there was no Jacob and no lies, just her and I letting all of our honesty wash over one another through our lips and our hands.

Her tongue tasted like heaven and her body tempted me like hell.

'This must be a fucking dream.' I thought. 'I smoked so much weed that I passed out.... That's it. I'm really lying on Alice's bed drooling on her designer sheets in a weed coma.' If it was a dream, I was gonna take full advantage.

Moving my lips to her neck, tasting her sweet skin, the truth easily rolled off my tongue.

"I've wanted you for so long." I grunted, when suddenly I felt her body tense.

Abruptly, I was snapped back to reality with a shove of her hand. I knew this was too good to be true.

She shook her head with a hint of regret. "No, Edward, you can't do this." Oh god, she didn't want me.

I simply listened, waiting for her rejection, as she berated "You're confusing the hell out of me and now I don't know what to believe. We started this...thing, whatever it is between us... under the cover of a lie. You made that clear, when you pushed me away. I was trying to show you how I really felt and you brushed me off. Now, I'm suppose to put all of that aside and believe that you really want me." The resentment evident in her voice.

'How she really felt? Could she really care for me too?', I thought, questioning her confession, as I listened to her erratic assumption.

I had pushed her away...... to protect myself, not to deny her. And, because of that, I was on the verge of losing any kind of chance I had with her. It was time I laid it all on the line.

My eyes dropped down to my hands, which were now holding hers. "You're right, I did that, and I apologize, but you took it all wrong. I have wanted you every moment of everyday since I laid eyes on you and having you kiss me, knowing that it wasn't real, was to much for me to take. So, I resisted...to keep myself from falling for you even more than I already had."

"How can I believe you want me, after being refused by you so many times?" She questioned with desperation.

'How can I make her believe me when there are no words to describe the depth of my feelings for her?' She needed proof... and that was exactly what I was going to give her.

I slowly pulled her left hand up and placed it flat on my chest. "Do you feel that?" I asked, revealing both the relentless beating of my heart and the hunger in my voice.

I watched as she slowly nodded her head, biting her lip. That simple gesture caused my heart rate to speed even faster as I felt the pressure in my jeans build to an excruciating throb. 'If she could only feel the physical evidence of my affection, my feelings couldn't be denied.'

I hesitated half of a second, questioning my next move, before I trailed her hand down my chest to my stomach placing it on the warm, hard evidence.

"Do you feel this?" I closed my eyes, fighting the urge to press her palm down harder to relieve some of the discomfort she had caused me.

When my eyes opened and focused on her, her lips were opened slightly and moving toward mine at an agonizingly slow speed. I focused on her mouth impatiently waiting for it to meet mine, when suddenly it stopped, just shy of its destination. Closing her eyes, she licked her lips and lowered her head, slightly shaking it in indecision.

Just as I began to lose all hope, her head lifted and her eyes opened. "Fuck it", she said as her lips crashed into mine eagerly.

The tempo we had set earlier, quickly shifted from slow and sensual to fast and feral. Her arms latched on to my neck as her body propelled itself toward mine, throwing us both backward onto the bed.

"Damn!" I whispered as I grabbed her ass that was now straddling me while she moved her mouth all over me in desperation.

Our hands became needy as they viciously attacked one another. While her hands pulled wantonly on my hair.... my hands snaked up her shirt worshiping its perfection. She clawed at my chest as I ran my hands down her sides to her hips, pulling her roughly against me. God, I have never wanted anything so much.

"FFFFUCK!" I growled as her wet heat moved across my shaft.

Her panting was driving me mad and I would have taken her, here and now...... but, I knew I couldn't. Not like this. She deserved so much more.

I rolled us over on our sides and moved my mouth from hers, placing it on her neck as I trailed slow passionate kisses down to her collarbone, thinking about how our first time would be...should be. Our breathing slowly returned to normal and our hands began to caress, rather than attack, one another. My lips released her neck and I pulled away to look down at her delicate frame lying beside me, that until now, I had only been able to enjoy in my dreams.

"You are absolutely beautiful." I sighed, as I scanned my eyes over her body, noticing all the perfect details that I was finally able to appreciate fully.

As she laid there, patiently allowing me to enjoy every dip and curve of her, I was taken back at the sight of the faint bruises that still marked her wrists. I hadn't looked at them since it happened. The urge I felt, to kiss them away as I held her in the parking lot, remained.

Bringing her wrist to my mouth, I gently pressed my lips against the fading reminders, muttering, "I don't know what I would've done if anything had happened to you."

Doing the same to the other wrist, I promised, "I will never let him touch you again."

Smiling softly, Bella took my hand and kissed my palm before placing it on her waist. "Only you can touch me." Then closing her eyes, she exhaled the breath she had been holding, waiting for me to continue my exploration.

God, how I've dreamed of this moment, to have her this close to me, to be able to explore every inch of her body. I watched my hand run down her side, my thumb grazing the side of her breast. Her nipple reacted immediately to my touch and strained against the confinement of her shirt. I slowly raised my eyes to see that she was watching me, anticipating my next move. I licked my lips, remembering the taste of her skin, before dropping my eyes back down to the beauty lying before me. Moving forward with determination, I slid her shirt up and watched the rise and fall of her stomach as her stuttered breaths quickened with my touch. My fingers began to trace lazy circles around her belly button before running along the line of her low riding jeans. When I heard her slow exhale, a satisfied grin spread across my face, knowing that I was the one making this angel sigh with pleasure.

I loved watching her body react to me. The way her nipple blossomed at my touch, the goosebumps that spread like a wildfire under my hand, and the shiver that ran through her body urging me to continue. I watched all of these things in amazement, that I could cause this kind of response. She had been torturing my poor body, without knowing it, for months, and now it was my turn. Yet, her physical reactions weren't enough. I wanted to hear my name fall from her lips again. I wanted her to acknowledge that it was me who made her feel this way.

Building up the courage for my next move, I bit my lip as I popped open the button of her jeans, then slowly slid the zipper down while watching her rub her legs together anxious for my touch. Her eyes opened, heavy with need, pleading for more as she grabbed my hand and led it inside the front of her jeans. She needed me, almost, as much as I needed her...Almost. My need escalated beyond the breaking point when I felt my knuckles slide across the soaked cotton of her panties. Mother Fucker!. As my fingers moved through her soft curls, my middle finger dipped inside to bathe in her juices. My mouth began to water, imagining how good it would taste...on my chin.

My body shivered at the feel of her slick warmth. "You're so wet." I grunted, concentrating on controlling my pending orgasm.

I must have looked pathetic, trembling beside her, nervous about my inexperience. I had never been with anyone like this before and the feel of her was slowly sending me over the edge. Sliding through her folds, my probing finger circled her, tightly wound, bundle of nerves.

That's when I heard it...Faint and breathy, but my name just the same.

"Edward..." She exhaled, lifting her hips against my hand.

Hearing that word fall from her beautifully aroused lips, I knew that I could die today and be a happy man.

As my hand began to move on its own accord, to quench its thirst deep inside her wetness; I was halted by a loud banging on the door downstairs.

Startled, Bella quickly raised up and pulled her knees to her chest looking at me with wide eyes. I could tell she was stunned by what had just happened.... and to be honest, so was I. Her body had hurdled me into a sexually induced haze, causing me to focus solely on her, forgetting that there was a whole other world apart from ours.

The silence was deafening as I thought about what had just happened. I never planned to take things this far, but I couldn't stop. It was like I was in a daze, acting only with my sense of touch, reading her body like braille.

"Are we okay?" I asked, worried that I had pushed her into something she didn't want.

She answered with a smile brighter then the setting sun that was shining through the window across her face. "Perfect." She exhaled.

Before I could get too excited about her answer, the banging resumed.

"Go Away!" I yelled as I let my head fall back on the pillow and my arm hide the agony in my eyes. Why, God!? Why?!

Combing her fingers through my hair she laughed out, "It's gotta be Alice. She knocks like a cop with a search warrant." Huffing, she rose to her feet. "She must have forgotten her keys."

I rose to my knees, pulling her to me. "Yeah, well I say we leave her out there and maybe next time she won't forget her fucking keys." I mutter between kisses. "It would be... a learning experience." I continued, trying to explain the legitimacy of my teaching method.

"Hmmmmm." She sighed in my mouth, before pushing me away and clearing her throat. "It's her house, Edward. I have to let her in."

As she headed down the hall, I jumped to my feet to follow her down the stairs. Watching the way her ass swayed as she descended each step, I couldn't stop the animalistic thoughts that went through my head. I knew then that I would never get to use to the way she made me feel.

Once we reached the bottom step. I playfully attacked her from behind, wrapping both arms around her waist, as she screamed with shock.

"I can't help it...." I growled while assaulting her neck with kisses.

Moving my mouth to her ear, I whispered "You bring out the beast in me."

She swallowed deeply as she reached for the door knob. The door opened and instead of being met with Alice's usual annoying smile, we were met by Charlie's intimidating scowl. Even though the anger in his eyes was hidden behind his standard issued Ray Bans, it was written all over his face.

A gasp came from Bella as she shimmied out of my arms. "Dad, it's not what you...."

That's all she could get out before he grabbed her by the arm, pulling her out of the doorway and toward the cruiser. "I've been worrying about you for two days and this is what you've been doing!...Playing house with this delinquent! You're coming home with me, little girl."

"Dad, No! You can't do this! Let me explain! I can't go home! You're gonna leave me alone!.... I can't be alone!" I heard her screaming as she struggled against his fierce hold.

"Bella!" I yelled, as I ran after her. "Mr. Swan, really... I just gave her a ride."

"That explains why she smells like dope!" he yelled, not bothering to look in my direction.

At the sound of my voice, her head shot up and with all of her strength, she jerked free from his grasp. Throwing her arm around my neck and placing her lips to my ear, she whisper with panic, "Don't leave me alone tonight...Please!"

Confused, I nodded hastily, wondering what had made her sound so scared. Before I knew it, Charlie had climbed the porch steps and was pulling Bella by both of her arms toward his car, throwing her in the back seat like a common criminal.

As the car began to take off, she pressed her hands against the window and mouthed the word 'Jacob'.

Jacob?....Jacob! I had forgot he existed. The last couple of hours had been just me and Bella and I was beginning to get comfortable with that arrangement. But, there he was... fucking shit up again.

I watched the cruiser speed away, as gravel pelted me from underneath the spinning wheels forcing me to take cover behind the door. My mind was reeling. It had taken approximately five minutes to be catapulted from the clouds of heaven to the bowels of hell.

Standing behind the door, my forehead and palms pressed against the cold wood, I gritted my teeth trying to ease the tingling that was slowly creeping up my arms and legs and the feeling of suffocation that signaled the oncoming panic attack. "Not now! Not now!" I screamed through my clinched teeth, banging my fist against the unyielding door.

She looked so small and so fragile in Charlie's angry hands. I couldn't shake the image out of my head, until another one sprung from my memory of Jacob's angry hands holding her down on the ground. That was the only other time I had seen that look of pure terror in her eyes. 'He must have threatened her again'. My fingers dug into the grain of the wood, as I pictured them around Jacob's throat, digging into his skin as he gasped for air.

I had to get control of myself... for Bella. I took a deep breath and slung open the door, willing myself to fight the tremors that had begun to affect my balance. "Get a grip!" I said, wiping the sweat from my forehead, fumbling with the keys, and turning the ignition to hear.......Nothing.

"Come on, Fucker! Start!" I yelled at the piece of shit I called a car. I pumped the gas peddle furiously turning the key over repeatedly.....Still nothing.

I sat there with my head leaned back on the seat, taking deep breaths before trying again. I did the only thing I could think of doing....reason with it.

"Okay, dude. I know you're ass is old and I've put you through a lot of shit, but if you will do me this one favor, I promise I will change your oil, buy you new tires, give you what ever the fuck you want. Deal?"

Holding my breath, I reached over and turned the key one last time....The rumble of the engine caught me off guard. I sat trying to catch my breath, my anxiety overwhelming me, before throwing the car in drive and speeding my way toward Bella.

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BPOV:

"Dad, No! You can't do this! Let me explain! I can't go home! You're gonna leave me alone!.... I can't be alone!" I screamed as I tried to reason with him, but he wouldn't listen. He just continued to drag me away from the one person that I knew would protect me. Charlie wouldn't even believe me, how was he gonna protect me?

I gave in to his persistence, allowing him to drag me without effort, until I heard an angel's voice yell my name. "Bella!"

Hearing Edward yell my name as he pleaded with my dad, I found the strength to pull free from my father's fist. I ran as fast as I could to Edward's opened arms and threw mine around his neck to beseech, "Don't leave me alone tonight... Please!"

I saw the confusion in his eyes as he nodded his head, just before I felt my arms jerked back and my body following. Charlie threw me in the back seat of his cruiser like a shackled prisoner. The tears stung my eyes as I thought about Jacob's last threat. 'I'll make you forget all about him. I'll fuck you so hard you won't even remember his name.' Jacob had proven that he keeps his promises and he had even given me a preview of his promise, touching me as if I was still his.

I pulled myself upright in the seat, pressing my hands to the window. "Jacob" I mouthed to Edward, to make him understand the reason for my plea. Then, was flung back into the seat as the car sped away throwing gravel at the house.

I felt nauseous as I fought to rid my mind of the unwanted memory of Jacob's threat. I quickly switch my train of thought to Edward and how safe I felt in his arms. It was so unlike any feeling I had ever felt. Even when I first started dating Jacob, his touch always felt firm and forced.... nothing like Edward's. Edward's touch was always soft and comforting, reminding me what heaven might be like.

Just as I began to feel relaxed in my thoughts, Charlie ripped me away from my calm.

"What the hell are you thinking, Isabella! That Cullen boy is nothing but trouble. I could see that from a mile away. Is that who you dumped Jacob for?... Is it!?"

Shaking my head at his naivety, I explained with frustration, "Jacob's not the person every body thinks he is. He's got you all fooled. How do you not see that?"

"Don't try to blame all of this on him..... Jacob is a good boy." Charlie assured, mostly to himself.

"Jacob is a liar!" I screamed at the top of my voice, causing my dad to flinch at my anger.

The rest of the ride home was quiet, except for the occasional interruption from the CB radio. I couldn't believe how blind he was. How he could believe Jacob over me, his own daughter. He use to think of me as a good girl, but now my name was mud and it was all because of that lying bastard.

Once we got home, I ran upstairs to my room slamming the door to accentuate my fury. I waited to hear Charlie leave, only to hear a knock at my door.

I didn't answer.

"Bells?....I'm leaving."

I had nothing to say.

"Look, why don't you just call Jacob and try to work this out? If what he said wasn't true, then he misunderstood what he saw. Maybe if you explain to him what happened, you guys can work this out."

I was devastated. Charlie was still taking Jacob's side even after hearing my disdain for him.

My emotions shut down. I felt numb with the realization that Jacob had won. He had slandered my name and ripped my dad from me without the least bit of remorse. I had no choice but to except this fact and move on.

Emotionless, I answered, "He didn't lie. I fucked Edward... and I don't feel bad about it. Jacob's just too..........." I shut my eyes and let a single tear fall to the floor before finishing, "good for me."

Collapsing to the floor, I doubled over, clutching my stomach as the pain of my words consumed me. It was excruciating, like daggers in my gut, and I couldn't move. I was frozen in agony.

Lost inside my oblivion, I drifted off to a restless sleep.

The meadow was still and quiet, no breeze to stir the fallen leaves. I was standing in the middle of the open field when I saw the beautiful tulip jutting out of the cold ground. It was radiant, standing tall and proud, outshining the naked trees and their dark shadows. As I moved my hand towards it, it began to whither and turn in on itself until it was lying on the ground, brown and lifeless. Fear struck my body as I stood and felt a hot breath run across the back of my neck and heard the deep menacing growl of the wolf. 'Where is my angel?' I thought. 'He promised to keep me safe...never let him touch me again.' But, he was no where in sight. A tear fell down my cheek as my terror left me motionless. The beast proceeded to taste the skin on my neck with his rough wet tongue, letting out a deep chuckle laughing at my fear. My eyes closed and my body tensed as I heard his paws crunching the leaves, the sound moving in front of me. My eyes shot open when I felt his cold nose nuzzle my breast then lick the side of my face. My mouth opened to let out a scream ... but no sound came out. He had stolen my voice and all hope. "You're mine." he growled as he nudge me to my knees forcing me to kneel at his feet. Realizing my defeat, I laid down before him, in offering, as he dug his teeth into my chest devouring my useless heart.

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The next thing I knew I was awoke by the sound of tapping on my window. My hands still clutched in fists around my stomach, I opened my eyes to find that I was still on the cold hard floor. Achingly, I pulled myself up.

'How long have I been asleep?', I questioned myself, as I slowly stood to my feet and walked to my bed.

As I was about to lay back down, the tapping resumed more hurried than before. I snapped my eyes to the window afraid of what or who I would see.

Perched in the tree outside was Edward, my protector and the boy who held my heart, or what was left of it.

I sprung to my feet and pushed up the window, grabbing Edwards shirt in my fist, all in a matter of seconds, anxious for his comforting embrace.

"Whoa...whoa...Bella! Let me get inside before you try to rip my clothes off." he laughed out, climbing through the window.

As soon as he was inside, I threw myself at him, attacking his face with kisses. "Thank you. Thank you. Thank you."

Trying to pry me off of him, he grabbed my arms and asked, "What's this all about? What's going on, Bella? Your dad left almost an hour ago and I've been tapping on your window for, like, 30 minutes." Finally pulling me in his long strong arms, he whispered, "I was scared."

His voice lulled me to a calm that I only had when I was with him as I sank into his chest. I couldn't tell him what had happened, what my dad had said. I couldn't go through it again, relive my dad's hurtful words. I just wanted to lose myself in Edward's arms....smell him...feel him...love him. He was the only person that I felt this close to. Alice was my best friend, but saw me more as her child. She always tried to keep me from feeling, always changing the subject, scared that I would break or crumble. Edward knew my strength and gave me strength. He let me feel, held me while I cried, and comforted me with his silent assurance.

Losing myself in his embrace, I took a deep breath and sighed, "I love you."

"What?" he whispered as he grabbed my arms and looked into my eyes.

What had I said? Looking down at my hands, I thought about my words and was amazed by how right they felt coming out of my mouth. I did love Edward. Even though I had only known him a few days, I had fallen head over hills for him and even if he didn't feel the same, I needed to confess it.

Looking into his eyes, I repeated, firm and true, "I love you, Edward."

He pulled me to him and kissed the top of my head before saying, "Oh God, Bella. I've loved you for too long. If I would have told you when I first wanted to, you would have thought I was crazy. I've been a pussy, a stupid fucking pussy." He laughed and looked into my eyes again before professing, "Bella....I love you. I love you. I love you..." Kissing me between each admission.

Now this...this was heaven and I would be content to stay here in my heaven for eternity, though I knew it couldn't last.

As I laid, curled in his arms, I drifted off to a dreamless sleep hoping the nightmare was over.

Okay, there were some requests to make the chapters longer. I believe this is the longest chapter I have written so far. I hope the length didn't cause the chapter to suffer from too many details or fillers. Let me know what you think.... and thanks to all you who have taken the time to review. It always makes me smile when I see review alerts : )