Chapter 1

Laying on her bed face down Andy couldn't help but cry as she thought back to the events of the past hour. What would life be like if you were around? she thought to herself. She couldn't help but cringe as she looked at her bruised arms, she looked around the dark lit room as she continued to shed a few more tears before trying to wipe them again for the umpteenth time that day. Andy was disturbed from her thoughts by the sound of a woman's yell downstairs. "ANDY"!

Disorientated, Andy woke up to the sound of her friend's very loud music in the kitchen. When will they end? she thought out loud. "When will what end?" Asked Traci as she entered the room seeming to be looking for something. "uhmm nothing". Traci knew Andy had been having nightmares for some time, she'd sometimes wake up to Andy kicking and screaming, she saw just how much her friend struggled and it pained her that she couldn't do anything to help. "What are you looking for?" Andy asked as she raised her brown Bambi eyes at her. "Found it", Traci replied as she raised her car keys for Andy to see.

"You are never going to amount to anything" , "You are so useless " , Andy was bought back to reality by the sound of her friend's shrilling voice yet again, "Andy" called Traci for the millionth time! Andy raised her head, "Huh?" she said. "Are you even listening?". "Yes I am " she said, sounding nonchalant.

"I'm gonna go" said Andy breaking the silence. "Huh" asked Traci looking very confused. "The funeral, I'm gonna go"

"Is this some kind of joke? Because if it is then it is not funny! Tell me it's joke". Traci kept on rambling. "Andy?"

Andy took a deep breathe before she attempted to try and make her friend understand, calm her down. Of course she wasn't joking. Two weeks ago when she early got hit by a car on her way to work she saw how her life almost "literally" flashed before her eyes, that made her think about both the future and the past. It led her to make this final decision, the decision to attend this funeral. "Traci... I have decided and it's final, I'm going to go to that funeral"

"You do know that you don't have to right? No, you don't need to go, why do you even want to go?". Ignoring the last question Andy jut took her glass as she stood up to go to the kitchen to get her self a glass of water. "I know I know I know", sighing Andy put the glass down and turned to face Traci who had also left the bedroom and followed her friend to the kitchen. Andy spoke again, "I know I don't have to but I want to, in fact I need to."

Frank couldn't help but smile as he saw Oliver and Sam walk in through the bullpen window. He was happy to see his friend, his brother back in one piece. It made him very happy t know that he was finally back home safe and sound. Hope he is not leaving us yet again soon this tme hopefully he sticks around a little longer, Frank thought.

"Welcome back home Sammy" said Oliver while giving his friend a hug and giving him a handshake. "It sure feels good to be home" said Sam who looked anything but happy. Instead you'd swear he wanted to be anywhere but back home, Toronto, 15th division, where he left all the people he considers family. Sam looked unhappy, but not that he ever looked happy but this time though, there was something different about him, even his yes were different; they looked hopeless, soulless and just plain sad.

"I'm going to take a shower, I'll see everyone after", Sam said as he hurried to the locker rooms and avoided any futher talkin with his friend, he didn't want anymre question about his undercover stint, in fact he wanted all but to ever hear about it. All he wanted was just to take a very long shower and then drive hi truck back to his house. Oh how he needed a cold beer..

A/N: So this is my first ever fanficton! I've always been more of a reader, one who likes to read other people's work and admire but I thought lemme just give it a try and see how it goes! So I'm not completely sure with how this story will go! But its definitely McSwarek as I'm a big McSwarek shipper. Anyway hope you like it, whether or not thi story continues depends on you guys, if you like it then yes I'll continue

I hope you like it and wish that I'm not that much of a terrible writer!