DISCLAIMER: I do to own anything that looks familiar, this all belongs to J.K. Rowling. The character of Jane Groenhorst is my creation though.
REVIEWS ARE LOVE! Still my first story... Sometimes I don't like my own style of writing, not sure how to change it though...
P.s. I did not abandon this story, but I am really busy trying to graduate... Just be very (VERY) patient.
P.p.s. My overall story might contain several spoilers to the book Jane Eyre...
Chapter Seven: Misconceptions
SPOV
I woke up early this morning, not that I can call it waking up, because you'd have to sleep first before you can wake up. And I did not sleep. I dreamt, I dreamt the entire night, and I am still dreaming. It started when Miss Jane brewed her potion perfectly and it still hasn't stopped. I'm still living in this dreamlike haze, the feeling of her lips on mine still tingling in the background of my mind. I had to kiss her again! But I won't! I blessed whatever available deity that today is Thursday, and that she does not have Potions nor private tutoring. This provided me with one day to wake up from my dream, and return to reality. The reality being, that I am a Professor at a school where youngster come to learn. I am to teach them Potions and nothing else. And this young woman, who was lured into spending time with me by that meddlesome boss of mine, she is one of these students. She seemed so calm after our fleeting meeting of lips and minds. For she was in my head, she heard all my thoughts. I only wish that I was able to hear hers. Does she pity me? Did she only kiss me because she felt sorry for me, knowing that I find her beautiful and knowing that I will never have her. Trying to console me? Did she want to kiss me? She did say that she was happy that it happened, but for what reason? I must stop this mind wandering and start with my day. A good strong cup of tea should straighten me out.
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I haven't seen her today, she wasn't even present at dinner. I heard Minerva telling Pomona that Miss Jane was in the library with Leo Wright, one of my own Slytherins! Working together on a Transfiguration project. Apparently they get along very well. After dinner I went to my chambers, I had rounds to do this evening, but first I wanted to get away from students and colleagues. I decided to continue reading the book I got from Albus. It was called Jane Eyre. After fleeing from her beloved Rochester, she forgot all about him and met some peculiar fellow called St. John, who is determined to marry her and take her away to some far exotic land as a missionary's wife. Closing the novel, I suddenly realised that there were some expects in this book, that matched my life. I have done horrible things in the past, I meet a young woman named Jane and without even knowing about my past wrongdoings she meets a young man who fancies her and probably will forget all about the greasy Potions Professor.
I put the book away and set out to catch some students out of bed after curfew. Due to my experience I of course caught some students kissing in the Astronomy Tower and deducted house points along the way there and back. Turning another corner I heard some female voices. Hoping it was a student out of bed I sneaked up on them. Unfortunately it was only Minerva and Irma Pince, the librarian. Nothing interesting, until a certain name sparked my interest. "Leo Wright!" I heard Irma say. "No! She could not have possibly done that!" "Yes she did! The Fat Friar told me himself. He saw Miss Jane and Mr Wright kissing in the library!" No! No, no, no, no, this could not be. She kissed another man, boy even within twenty-four hours?! I need some air. I almost ran outside with the intention of doing a lap around the lake to vent my frustration. Approaching the glittering black pool I saw a figure. I did not have to think hard to find out who it was. Even after these few days I recognised her immediately. There she was walking in a glimpse of moonlight. I made my way towards her...
She was smiling at me as she tended to do. I put my mask in place, if she could ignore and forget what happened yesterday, then surely I could too. "Good evening Professor, out for a midnight stroll?" "Miss Jane, it is none of your business what I am doing out here, but the question is what are you doing out of bed after curfew?!" Her infallible smile wavered and she looked up at me wearing a slightly puzzled expression on her face. "Well Headmaster Dumbledore stated that I do not have a curfew since I am already of age." Damn Albus and damn the girl! She was right of course, Albus did say that the curfew did not apply to her. "Even so what are you doing out on the school grounds after midnight all by yourself, unless Mr Wright is hiding in the bushes." "I'm sorry Professor I'm completely lost, what does Leo have to do with this?" "It does not matter Miss Jane, you just do as you please and don't mind us mortals." I turned around, robes billowing behind me as usual. The girl really got on my nerves. Does she think I'm stupid? Pretending not to understand what I meant about Mr Wright. Apparently this is all normal to her, kissing strangers as if it is nothing. Well it did not mean anything to me either! "You just keep telling yourself that Severus."
JPOV
After a night of blissful sleep I started my day. It still felt as if I was walking on air. I really couldn't figure it out. I only met the man last Monday, however, I seemed to be drawn to him. That fleeting kiss last night made my stomach do summersaults. Once my head touched the silken smoothness of my pillow I drifted off into that blissful sleep, from which I just awakened. Unfortunately I don't have Potions or private tutoring today. Cursing Thursdays, I got dressed into my school uniform and made my way down to breakfast. After breakfast there was Transfiguration. Professor McGonagall told us that we had to do a Transfiguration related project in duo's. Leo Wright came up to me asking if I wanted to be his partner, which I agreed on. We decided to start on it after lunch, since we didn't have any more classes after that. So after lunch we made our way to the library. Although I found Leo to be a very nice boy, he was just that, a boy. He tried to flirt with me, without any luck, for an image of a dark haired man still haunted my memories. It was just past nine o'clock and my stomach rumbled, I hadn't even since lunch! "Shall we call it a day Leo? I'm hungry and tired and I don't think that we'll get much more work done anyway." Leo nodded in agreement. We were sitting on the floor of the library surrounded by books. After many hours of sitting, getting up wasn't as easy as it seemed. Leo was already up, his hand reaching out to help me get up. "Thank you." I took his hand and he pulled me up, hard, too hard. I stumbled into him and he very conveniently manoeuvred his head so that our lips met. Pushing away immediately I apologised for bumping into him, still believing it was an accident. However Leo tried to pull me back towards him. "Come on Jane just a little snog." I was shocked! This boy thinks that he can just kiss me if he wants to. "I'm not sure whether I should be flattered, sorry or repulsed, give me a second to make up my mind." "You should be flattered of course! The hottest bloke of Hogwarts wants you." "Alright I think I have made up my mind, let me put it this way Leo, you are what? Sixteen? You seem to be a very nice boy, but that's just one of the problems, you are just a boy." "Very well you conceited slut! Just because you are older and everyone thinks you're smart, doesn't mean that you are the Queen of Hogwarts. Look at you acting so high and mighty, but now I know the truth. I'll set them straight!" And he stormed off. Be my guest Leo, you just do that.
After enjoying a wonderful meal in the Hogwarts kitchen, kindly provided by the house elves, such adorable creatures they are, I needed some air. Being kissed by two people, almost strangers, within twenty-four hours, whether wanted or unwanted was a bit overwhelming. Since it had been a beautiful day it wasn't necessary to get my cloak from my room. Taking a quick look at the time I decided that a long stroll around the lake might be just what I needed.
I was on my way back to the castle. I had almost finished my circle around the lake. The surrounding were beautiful, this could have been very romantic if shared with the right person. Just as my mind starts to wander towards a certain Professor, this very same Professor is walking towards me. "Good evening Professor, out for a midnight stroll?" "Miss Jane, it is none of your business what I am doing out here , but the question is what are you doing out of bed after curfew?!" "Well Headmaster Dumbledore stated that I do not have a curfew since I am already of age." "Even so what are you doing out on the school grounds after midnight all by yourself, unless Mr Wright is hiding in the bushes." "I'm sorry Professor I'm completely lost, what does Leo have to do with this?" "It does not matter Miss Jane, you just do as you please and don't mind us mortals." Mortals? Does this mean that he sees me as some kind of goddess? I giggle, my head is running away with me again. Professor Snape is hastily making his way to the castle. I decide to follow him, I want to know what that was all about and if yesterday's actions could be repeated. Running to catch up with him I hear him mutter "You just keep telling yourself that Severus."