Living What I Hope Isn't a Dream Chapter 2: So I Thought, a twilight fanfic

Sorry it took so long, but here you are.

Edward

After making glorious love to Bella, I couldn't keep my hands off of her. Not that she wanted me to anyway. We lay on the bed, still naked even after our steamy shower. Bella was resting her head on my shoulder then moved to cover herself with the blanket. Abruptly, Alice banged annoyingly on the door.

"Okay Miss I-scream-because-I-have-better-sex-than-anyone-ever-has, are you finished packing?" Bella sat up and looked at me, her face blushing red.

"Was I really that loud?" I opened my mouth to say something, but Alice beat me to it.

"Yes Bella, you were. Did you guys even start packing?" Bella rolled her eyes at Alice's impatience, and pulled away from me, plodding to the door. Bella's towel threatened to fall off of her body, teasing me. She pulled the door open and Alice's eyes opened wide. Bella smacked a kiss right on Alice's unsuspecting lips. They stayed like that for more than a few seconds, until Alice pulled away.

"Shit! Rosalie was right! I suspected you had fun Edward," Alice said through her giggles. I rolled my eyes and Bella blushed. "Okay, okay, I'm gone." She walked away, practically running. "Rosalie! You so have competition for best kisser!" Bella turned, shutting the door and locking it, and smiled a shy embarrassed smile. I stood, only dressed in my boxers, and moved to Bella. She looked away from me, anticipating my question.

"Bella, why on earth did you kiss my sister?" she giggles silently.

"Well after dinner last night, when I was in Alice's room, Rosalie and Alice bombed me with questions, and then since I was a virgin, Rosalie wanted to make sure I was ready, so she kissed me briefly. Then she told me that I was a really good kisser. Alice wanted to try, but I thought it was totally weird so I split." I raised my eyebrows, and she buried her head in my chest.

"I thought you were perfectly fine, as is." Bella raised her head, looking up at me. She raised her eyebrows, a look of confusion masking her face.

"Really? I can't remember anything. I remember you kissing me, then . . . that's all I can remember." I smiled at her, pulling her body on top of mine.

"Is that so?" Bella nodded, tugging on my underwear. I slid them all the way off, helping her. "Well, I think we should refresh your memory."

"I think so, too," she said, crashing her lips on mine. I pulled off her towel, throwing it off the bed, and flipping our positions so I was hovering her. She bit her lip and whimpered, tilting her head back slightly. I put one hand on her left breast, the mound fitting perfectly in my hand, massaging it softly. I trailed down her body to her stomach, then even further down south, where she was already dripping wet and waiting. I looked at her as she bit her lip and moaned at my touch.

"Edward," she moaned softly. I took her saying my name as an invitation, and slipped a finger inside of her wet and soaking core. She gasped as I touched her, and she moaned at the pressure and intensity, all the while looking straight into my eyes with her beautiful sexy heavy-lidded brown ones. She bucked her hips to my hand, both of her hands gripping tight on my shoulder. When she climaxed, she moaned my named again, exploding onto my fingers and the bed. I pulled out, grazing my fingers too her lips. She, without being asked, licked it away. She moaned my name, begging me to fill her. I playfully shook my head as she pushed me off of her.

"Fine," She said simply. I lay flat against the bed, watching as she crawled toward me, her body glistening from a thin sheet of sweat in the setting sunlight. She licked her lips mercilessly, stopping in between my legs. I wanted her to touch me, her skin tight around me as she climaxed, screaming my name. She smiled wickedly, shaking her head as if she had read my mind.

"Now," she said as she grabbed my shaft, "you are not allowed to touch me. That's what you get. Understood?" I nodded mindlessly, sad I wasn't able to touch her at all. She leaned down; kissing the head, then looked straight up at me, smiling viciously. She licked her lips again, and then bit the lower one, obviously trying to torture me.

"Am I allowed to beg?" I asked her. She smiled still, and shrugged.

"You can try, but I don't think you'll be able to say anything." She lowered her head, taking me into her mouth, her tongue swirling around the tip. She bobbed her head up and down, each time letting me deeper down her throat. Whatever she couldn't fit into her mouth, she touched with her warm hands.

"That's right, baby," she said as I moaned her name. She continued with her mouth, I putting my hands on the back of her head, guiding her speed. I moaned her name again, and then screamed when I climaxed, spilling into her mouth. She moaned as the liquid slid down her throat. She still had that damn sexy wicked smile on her face, looking at me seductively. Her body was asking, no, begging to be touched by my hands, her soft skin still glimmering in the remaining light.

"Do you want to?" she asked, her voice low and strained. I could tell she wanted to. I nodded mindlessly again, and she shook her head, like I had earlier. "I don't think so, maybe we she pack. . ." she trailed off, standing up. She sauntered over to the closet, not bothering to cover her deliciously naked body. She smiled virulently, so I stood up and pulled her to me, pushing her on the bed. I climbed onto her, but she held to my chest, electricity jolting my nerves.

"Edward, I-" I crashed my lips to hers, silently telling her to shut the hell up. I felt her smile in the kiss, like this was what she wanted, for me to take control. She weaved her fingers through my hair, pulling me as close as I was able to get to her.

I pulled away from her kiss, moving to her neck. She moaned as I sucked her skin, gasping and saying my name. I pulled away from her, running my hands down her perfect body until I reached her legs. Bella bended them at the knee, so her feet were planted on the bed. I parted her legs slowly as she tried not to squirm as she anticipated on what was coming next. I positioned myself so I was ready to give her exactly what she wanted.

In one slow movement, I thrust into her, listening to her as she gasped. It had been like she'd been aching for me the entire time. I pushed in and out rhythmically, trying to control myself as to not attack Bella. She moaned louder, making it difficult.

"Oh, God, Edward, please," she begged. "Harder, oh, God." I complied, quickening my pace and going deeper inside of her. She moaned louder, satisfied.

When she climaxed, she arched her back, her beautiful breasts brushing my chest. She dug her nails into the skin on my shoulders, breaking the skin so I'd bleed. I didn't mind; I realized I was sort of a masochist. After thrusting deeper and deeper, my climax had come, and Bella just smiled, her eyes closed. Her hair fanned out beneath her head, like a halo on an angel. That was exactly the way she appeared: angelic. Her chest heaved up and down with every breath she took.

"You're beautiful, Bella," I told her. I lay next to her, my fingers finding their way through Bella's. For once since I've known her, she did not protest my compliment.

"Thank you Edward, I love you so much," she whispered to me. I smiled to myself that she had finally believed her beauty. She turned to me, lying on her side. She looked intently into my eyes. "I'm really happy that I have you now." I moved so I was close to her and pulled her to me.

"Isabella, it feels better than anything to have the woman of my dreams. I love you more than anything, more than life itself. Do you know how it feels to finally tell you that?" She smiled again, putting her hand on my cheek.

"Better than anything I could ever imagine."

Bella

Edward and I dressed to our decency, if you can call underwear decent, and packed for our everlasting vacation. Our wonderful Alice-is-controlling-our-entire-vacation vacation. We packed one suitcase for both of us, following Alice's instructions of packing light. I plugged in my iPod and we both started to dance and sing to nonsense songs, until Edward got the brilliant idea to attack me and tickle my sides furiously. I was cracking up, trying to win the battle of getting him off of me until I drowned in the beauty of his sparkling green eyes. I can't believe that for a second I thought that his eyes were gold. They were the most beautiful shade of green.

As if to ruin the moment, my stomach growled with hunger. Edward simply chuckled and pulled me up, handing me a red sundress. I slipped into it, and followed him down to the kitchen. The smell of pizza assaulted my nose, and I smiled. I served and settled in the living room in between Alice and Rosalie. They had just begun to watch a movie, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. The boys were laying on the floor in front of the enormous television, except Edward, who insisted I sit on his lap. I didn't protest, but Alice and Rose vetoed, so he had to sit on the floor. He sat right in front of me, his back against my legs.

During the movie, I could barely keep my eyes open, way too scared to watch any further. Even while Edward had his arms around me as I moved from the couch to in between his legs.

When the movie ended, I had tears streaming down my face. As everyone dispersed, Edward kissed my tears away, and then carried me all the way up to the third story of his house. He laid me on the bed, slipping me between the sheets. He lay next to me, his strong warm arms wrapped around my body.

"I love you," he whispered, his beautiful velvet voice whispered.

"I love you, too," I replied. And with that, I drifted off to sleep, forgetting all about my fears.

The next morning, I awoke to Edward lightly shaking me, telling me it was time to wake up. I growled. I sat up, looking around the still dark room. I groaned and slammed by body back down on the bed, refusing to wake up. Edward crawled onto of me, sprinkling me with kisses. I inhaled his scent, sighing happily.

"I'm awake," I mumbled. I got up, stretching, then quickly dressed in a pair of jeans and my white bikini top. Edward raised his eyebrows at my ensemble, but didn't protest. I knew he'd like the view.

We walked downstairs after I brushed my teeth and hair, greeting everyone else, who had the same expressions I did. It was quite hilarious actually.

"Okay, good news," Rose said. "While the two fuck buddies were, well, fucking, Alice and I went and bought an Escalade. It'll fit us plus all of our luggage comfortably. That means since Alice was born like she was already on crack, she's going to be driving, and all of us can go back to sleep."

"Amen," I said. Edward smiled, pulling me into an embrace. I rested my head on his chest, listening to his breathing and what Alice had to say next.

"Okay, it's already six, so let's get on with it." We followed Alice in the car, loading five suitcases. Alice sat in the driver's seat, Jasper next to her, then Rose and Emmett, then Edward and I. Alice started the engine, and Emmett handed Jasper his iPod. Jasper plugged it in, and a chick-ish song started playing.

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
Now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until-

"Jasper! Take it off!" Emmett was yelling, reaching for the stereo. Jasper kept it playing, doubling over in laughter.

"Dude! Miley Cyrus?" Edward was laughing too, but rose reached forward, and smacked Jasper across the head.

"You're just as bad as him for knowing the song, douche!" Rose yelled. Alice was laughing now, too.

I pretended not to find it amusing, so with a Miley Cyrus voice, I began talking.

"Do you guys not like it? I love that song!" I said, bursting into laughter. After we calmed, I laid comfortably on the seat, my head in Edward's lap. I took out my iPod and started listening to my girlie music by myself.

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
Sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to

I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

I felt the tears stream down my face as I listened to the song. I felt like it was the story of Edward and I, of our love. I looked up at him, his beautiful face peaceful and undisturbed. He must have felt me watching him, because he looked down to me, panic masking his face. His eyes sparkled in the rising sunlight.

"What's the matter, love?" he asked. I shook my head, and Edward wiped my tears away. I smiled as he pulled me up on to his lap, having me straddle him. He leaned up to kiss me, his soft lips pressing against mine. I settled against him, resting my head against his shoulder. I kissed his neck, then just sat there, breathing him in. I cried again, listening to the next song.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

"Bella, why are you crying?" Edward asked after a few minutes.

"Because I have you now, and I don't think I can manage to lose you." I looked at him, his sparkling green eyes lost with confusion. He smiled that lusciously gorgeous half smile of his, sending my heart into overdrive.

"Bella," he said seriously. "I'm not going to lose you, and you're not going to lose me either." He pulled me closer to him, pressing his lips to mine.

It had already been three hours, and Emmett was complaining of starvation.

"Alice please, stop. I'm starving," Emmett said. He sounded like he was in pain.

"Fine, next diner, we'll stop." Alice sped, the mph reaching one hundred. When we reached the diner, Emmett raced out, running into the diner. Edward helped me out, knowing that I would inevitably trip over something. He caught me in his arms, pushing m against the door. He eagerly pressed his lips to mine, and I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist. He pulled away when I moaned from the friction I was creating with my hips. He set me on my feet, walking inside and joining the rest of my family. Edward held me close to him, his arm around my waist and his fingers sitting in my back pocket.

"Did you see a man about this tall, hugely muscular and completely and outrageously sexy walk inside?" I heard Rosalie ask. I smiled at her taunting tone of voice. We followed Rose to where the host pointed toward Emmett, taking our seats next to him. He was already ordering, and when we asked for a minute, the waitress waited nearby patiently. She stared at Edward and I, looking back and forth between us. I glared at her, half-confused and half-annoyed, but she just smiled.

"Are you guys together?" she asked. Her voice was high, like Alice's, her hair the exact same pitch black color. Now that I thought about it, they could have passed for sisters.

"Yes we are. Why?" I asked, confused still.

"Because you are outrageously gorgeous." I gaped at her, disbelieving her words. "It's a shame you have to waste it on the male race." She said male like it was some forbidden disease. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Rose fume.

"Thank you," I said politely. We ordered breakfast and no one let me live it down. Especially Emmett.

"Alice," I said softly, interrupting her conversation with Jasper, "The next time Emmett begs for food, keep driving." Emmett's face fell to the floor, and everyone laughed hysterically.

We left quickly after breakfast, settling back into the car. I set myself comfortable against Edward, he sitting with his back against the side and me in between his legs. We were listening to my iPod, Flyleaf still playing.

After about three more hours, Emmett nodded off to sleep, as did Jasper and Rosalie. Edward was playing with my hair absent mindedly, something bothering him.

"What's wrong?" I asked. He sighed.

"Do you think we're moving too fast?" he asked, his voice small. I turned so I'd be able to look at his face.

"Do you?"

"I just wanted to know, because I don't want to make you uncomfortable. It's been only three days since we've seen each other, and we're already telling I love you to each other. I want to make sure we're in the right place. Plus, I want to make sure you're going to be mine before I start spoiling you." He was smiling now, his face glowing.

"I'm yours, you know that. Now, about the spoiling thing. . ." I trailed off, the thought of Edward spending money on me to buy lavish gifts making me queasy.

"It comes with the package," he said playfully. I groaned.

"I love you, with all my heart. If it makes you happy to spend your money buying me stuff, then so be it."

"I love you for saying that."

The songs I mentioned were So I Thought by Flyleaf, and 7 Things by Miley Cyrus.

Oh my god, you guys are probably irritated that it took me so long to finally post . . . but better late than never right? Well I hope you enjoyed the happiness while it lasted, it will start fading soon, sadly tear. Please, ideas, questions, constructive criticism. . . . I don't care, just review. (I do care, I lied.) They are going to reach California next chapter.

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Esie.