I'm sorry people mid-terms! That all I have to say.
Also; so many grammatical mistakes last time. I was apparently way exited to update I forgot to proof read hope this one is better.
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As for the lemons chill people ( hehehe) I want to take my sweet time. I wont take too long though, I promises ya.
I don't own Twilight I wish I did.
But I own my pink laptop that will show me the "Eclipse" teaser trailer tomorrow.
Tell me what you think of this.
" That was amazing" Edward said to me.
I lifted my shield I didn't trust my voice.
……Amazing. I can't………. I don't know what to say. I feel like my nonexistent heart will beat out of my stone hard chest. It almost feels like I don't deserve this bliss. I feel like I some how robbed humanity, like I shouldn't feel the way I do right now. You have awakened emotions within me that I never though existed or even could exist I feel more human than ever. And I don't have the right to claim such feelings.
….. why Bella? If anyone deserves happiness in this dammed life it's you.
……how can you say that when it's not true! I don't deserve this Edward I..
….Bella please! Everything is better when you are around . Look at Alice you saved her I have never seen her eyes glow with so much hope, and love, and happiness! Look at my family every one is happy with you here. I'm happy with you here. You deserve to be happy too.
….. but!
….. No! no buts! Do I have to kiss you again to make you shut up?
… it wont hurt to try.
That got him to laugh.
" You know Bella we should have this private conversation in front of Emmet it will drive him crazy!"
" We have to and we should even make it sound like we are discussing him that would be hilarious! But before we do that I think you promised to shut me up again."
He laughed and leaned to kiss me again. God I could never grow tired of his taste. This is like the perfect moment for Taylor Swift in to start singing.~But can you feel this magic in the air?It must have been the way you kissed meFell in love when I saw you standing thereIt must have been the wayToday was a fairytaleIt must have been the wayToday was a fairytaleGreat now I have the song stuck in my head. UGH!
" Bella who the hell is Taylor Swift?"
" What? Oh My God I can't believe I keep forgetting to put my shield up!"he chuckled " you know that's how I feel all the time" he said to me.
" okay Cullen I get it you poor little thing you have ONE person who reads your mind while you can read everyone else mind"
" are you mocking me Swan?"
" why yes, yes I am"
" are you sure your up for that?"
" what ever will you do to me?" I said arching my eyebrows.
I slowly stared moving backwards toward the forest, the look on his face was priceless. He had the devastatingly beautiful smile on his face and his eyes, god his eyes sparkled with hunger, and playfulness, and lust. And I could see a little bit of fear in his eyes I think it was probably the fact that he had no idea what I was thinking. I turned slightly and the within a second he was next to me
"going somewhere Swan?"
" Actually Cullen I think I am"
" lets see how that goes for you"
I turned and made a run for it. Our laughter filled the air as we ran I giggled like a school girl I couldn't believe how free I felt I never thought I ever would.
We got home around four in the morning and Alice was waiting for us outside.
"Alice" Edward and I greeted her.
She was smiling so big I actually thought she would tear her face apart.
" Edward, Bellaaaaaaaa" she sang my name.
Jasper appeared behind her with a very apologetic look on his face.
" She saw everything didn't she ?" Edward asked
" Um.. Yeah and she made sure everyone knew"
" ALICE!" I screamed
"Bella! Come on its happy news ! I only saw your silhouette Bella I mean it wont be long till Edward looses his virgin…"
The look on Edwards face was murderess I actually stepped away from him. And Alice stopped talking.
But I didn't expect him to just turn away from her. He went inside the house and we all followed him into Alice's room.
I saw what he was looking for, this is going to get ugly, very ugly.
I lifted my shield to try to warn him.
…Edward don't not the shoes, she will kill you. Again.
.. Bella I'm trying to defend our pride here okay? Just let me deal with her
….. Fine but I swear if she bites your arm off I'm not giving you any venom to fix it, got it?
He turned to me for a split second and I could see he was fighting a smile.
I chuckled lightly.
Take the purple Channel pair, she hasn't worn them yet. I said to him and then he made up his mind . She saw a vision of Edward feeding her shoes to a mountain lion.
"Edward don't you even dare I will cut your balls of and make you a stay a virgin for ever so help me god I will!"
" Get out of my way little girl" he pushed Alice and headed out the window, and stared running, but stopped when he read Alice's mind. Or rather saw the vision of his Aston Martin being pushed by a very tiny, very powerful girl.
" You wouldn't dare Alice!"
" Want to test me Edward?"
"Alice!"
" Hand me the shoes and nothing happens to your car or balls"
Edward walked towards the house with defeat all over his face
" Awe babe it's okay " I said as I ran to hug him.
" Here take your damn shoes" he muttered under his breath
Everyone started laughing .
"Okay kids that's enough" Carlisle said.
" Bella, Edward. We are very happy for you and as for the teasing I can't promise that it will stop but, he that's what families do right?" Carlisle said to us and the smile on his face made my heart swell.
" Thanks Carlisle" I felt odd and Jasper noticed.
…Bella? Are you okay? I feel anguish is what Alice said?
….Bella? What's wrong Edward asked me.
" I'm Okay, I think it was just an overwhelming day. Would you excuse me please I think I want to go change, I have mud all over my jeans and my shoes."
"Of course dear you go on. Boys I need your help in the garage we have to build that shed for Bella's car and Rosalie we need you opinion I think we should expand your working area."
" Essme I was thinking the same thing." Rosalie replied I could see what her floor plan was and I liked it.
Edward and Alice looked at me with concern I walked over and kissed Edward and held Alice's hand " I'm okay I promise but I still have so much to learn about my self and I don't understand what I feel, how crazy is that I feel tired? Like I want to sleep!"
" Can you?" Alice asked.
" I have never really experimented, I just feel so overwhelmed"
" I'm so sorry Bella; I never meant to do that I was just kidding about Edward"
" No, no Alice that's not it, I thought that was funny" I looked at Edward with a sheepish look on my face.
" Bella would you call if you need us?"
" Yeah of course I will"
" Should we say good night?'' Alice arched her eyebrow at me
" You can, Edward would you um" ….join me
…I would love too
…You know I could see what you have decided except of course you Bella will I ever be able to see you clearly?
Edward and I laughed and started going up the stairs.
We walked into my room and I went to the dresser to pick up something to wear.
Shield up? Check!
Okay something blue wait wears my La Perla pajamas?
Ha! Found it!
I love this soft blue camisole with matching boy shorts. The lace, the tiny ribbons I adore it! Something about wearing lace makes you feel sexy even if it's simple. I hope Edward will like it.
" Edward I'm going to wash up"
"sure babe that's fine ill go wash up too and meet you here okay?"
"Um yeah sure."
Okay that didn't go the way I planned it.
I walked into the shower and cleaned up.
When I got out of the shower I saw Edward wearing blue and black plaid pajama bottoms and a white tee shirt next to my CD player.
" Hey" I said softly.
He turned around and I felt satisfied with the look in his face. Though I try not to read Edward's mind when he is looking at me, it scares me in away. I block him out, I'm too afraid to see how I look like in his eyes.
But I don't need to read his thoughts his eyes tell me everything I need to know.
And now his eyes told me lust, they were practically screaming lust at me, he composed his features and looked down. If he could blush.
" What are you doing?"
" just wondering about this song that you keep playing over all the time. it's in Arabic. I have never learned that language though I wanted to. Now I wish I had because you seem to really like this song"
I tried to remember what the song was I listen to a lot of music, I Haven't noticed a particular one. I walked over to him and saw the CD.
Oh that song. Nancy Ajram. Lebanese singer I do like her. I didn't realize I play it so much.
"I can translate it for you if you want to"
"really?"
"of course! Here the title "lamest eaid" means touch of a hand
Lamest eaid berda akeed wa bensa enak kent beaid
Touch of hand, I will forgive and forget that you were far away"
I walked by him and touched his hand.
"Keef btoub? Wel hawa maktoob yeasem albi tlat ealob
How am I to stop? When love is destined to split my heart in to three.
Alb yehebak,alb yedoub, wa alb yeghar alik
A heart to love you, a heart to melt in your presence and a heart to get jealous for you."
I said running my hand through his hair.
"Khedni behodnak khaf ali, hasisini bewjudak fieh mabarif emet enai ela lama yeshfook.
Take me in your arms and fear for me, make me feel your presence around me, I don't know the meaning of my eyes till they see you"
I looked into his eyes and he pulled me it to a tight hug.
" will you finish it? Please?" he asked.
"Waiedni matfareana gherbi, weadni teba el omr be eorbi
Promise me that nothing will keep us apart, promise me to stay next to me forever.
Anna roohi, wa enai, wa albi , khelou tyhebook
My heart, eyes, and soul; where made to love you."
He touched my lips with his thumb.
" that's a beautiful song, can I ask you a question? I want you to be honest with me though"
" I promise I will Edward there is nothing more I would rather do"
" why don't you read my mind when I look at you ?"
" oh"
" you promised"
" I know, it's just I'm afraid to see how you see me."
" why?"
" I just don't really know, I feel self conscience"
" Bella I want you to hear everything I think about now okay? Promise me that you will look at your self through my eyes"
" Okay" I said softly.
He pushed me on my back to the bed I sat there clothed yet I felt exposed I don't know why I felt like I was surrendering my self somehow.
I lay there before him. And I lifted my shield I wanted him to know what I was thinking and feeling. No more hiding.
I closed my eyes and focused on the creature that he was looking at. Beautiful wouldn't be a good enough word to describe her. I saw an angle with skin soft like silk. And brown hair that flowed till eternity, she was wrapped in blue lace. The contrast made her skin look stunning.
I felt Edward run his hand through my hair, and then down to my shoulders. He ran his index finger along my color bone, I shivered in his under his touch
……………You have the most perfect milky skin
He lowered his finger and drew and outline across my chest
……….They are perfect, like two scoops of vanilla ice-cream on a hot summer day
He zigzagged a line down my belly button and shifted his weight so that his face was hovering right above my belly button. And he lifted my camisole and kissed my stomach
…Fuck Edward, I …oh… god.
…So fucking beautiful
He traced his tongue on the hem of my boy shorts.
Holy..ungh.. Edward.
He looked up at me and smirked. Then he tugged trying to pull my shorts down.
"BELLA! EDWARD!!" Emmett screamed .
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If you like the Arabic song you could listen to it here .com/watch?v=wuWBJprJMYM&feature=PlayList&p=36D9E4B562CA8DE7&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=4