Nothing to say, so. . .

Bella

I woke up before Edward again, a slight head ache throbbing at my temples. Throughout the night, I remembered doing shots of tequila, but that seemed about it. Then we left. I think it was three times Edward and I had sex, thought I can't be certain. All I knew was that I was exhausted. It was an . . . interesting experience, to say the least.

I stood out of bed, careful not to fall out of nowhere, and went inside the bathroom to brush my teeth and take a shower. It wasn't long, and Edward was still sleeping, so I just dressed and called Alice to see what time we were leaving to Great America.

"Hey Bella!" Alice said. Oh, I was so not in the mood to be that happy.

"Hi Alice, what time are we leaving to get to Great America?" I lay back on the bed, making sure as to not wake up Edward.

"Oh, we are going to leave at seven. The park doesn't open until ten. Bella, are you alright? You sound so sick." I guess I hadn't told her about last night.

"I'm fine; I'm just a little hung-over. Edward and I went to the pool yesterday and he saw his friend James, so he invited us to go to the club with him. It was. . .fun." What I needed now wee two aspirin. Stat.

"Okay, will you be up for it in a couple of hours? I maybe a maniac, but if you're sick we could go tomorrow," she said amicably.

"Not, it's okay. I think I'm going to go back to sleep for an hour. Just call when you want us ready." I closed my eyes, listening to Alice's voice.

"We can leave at eight. That gives you two and a half. Okay? I'll talk to you later."

"Okay." The line went dead, and I face Edward, who was so out of it, I could have jumped on him and he wouldn't have even flinched. I sighed, closing my eyes again. He moved, so he was laying on his back .He put his arm over his face, searching the bed with his other hand. He found my hand entwining our fingers together, bringing my hand up to kiss it. I rolled over, snuggling closer to him, wrapping my arm around his warm body. We stayed like that for a while, silent and still, for what felt like forever. He sat up, rubbing his eyes, then walked away to the bathroom. I watched him as he moved, situating myself under the blankets. Somewhere along the lines, I fell asleep.

Edward

After showering, I got dressed and lay next to Bella's sleeping body. I stared at the ceiling, a headache banging at the back of my head. I closed my eyes listening to Bella's intricate breathing, assuming she was having a dream. I lay still, trying with all my might as to not make this headache worse.

After some time, Bella's phone rang from the bedside table, Alice's name displayed on the LCD screen. I answered it.

"Hello?" I said.

"Oh hi Edward, where's Bella?" I looked over to her, Bella's body almost completely covered in the blankets.

"She's sleeping. Why?" I asked, completely clueless as to today's plans.

"Because we're leaving in ten minutes. Bella told me to call because she didn't feel well and wanted to go back to sleep. Wake her up and meet us down in the lobby." I sighed, wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep.

"Okay, we'll meet you there." I ended the call, shaking Bella to wake her up. She groaned, hiding under the blankets. After a few minutes, she stood up and stretched. She was wearing tiny shorts and a white tank top, her almost white arms and legs displayed. As I observed her, I noticed faint blue and light purple marks on her arms and thighs.

"Bella?" she turned around from looking in the mirror to look at me. "How many times did you fall last night?" She smiled.

"No falling," she said. "This was all you, Edward." I stood up and picked up Bella, setting her on the counter to examine the marks, none of them that bad.

"Are you hurt?" she shook her head, putting her hands on the ends of my shoulders.



"No, I'm fine. Are you okay?" Honestly, I wasn't okay with leaving marks on Bella's body, even though it was due to intimacy.

"Mhm. I am perfectly fine. Are you okay?" I considered her question a few seconds, and then nodded so she wouldn't feel bad. "Okay. Let's get down to the lobby so Alice doesn't add to this head ache." Bella jumped off the counter, taking my hand and leading me down.

Alice and Rosalie were giggling, Emmett was half-asleep, and Jasper looked as bad as I felt. We left to the car, climbing in. As Rosalie started the engine, Bella and I sat where we had been sitting before, Bella resting her head on my shoulder. In less than two seconds, she was already asleep. After a while, I joined her.

An hour later, I woke up, Bella sitting with Alice and Jasper. She turned around to look at me, a beautiful smile on her face.

"Hey sleepy head," she said. She climbed over the seat, managing not to hurt herself in the process. Bella sat next to me, quiet and smiling still.

I tilted my head back, resting it on the seat. "Oh! Bella! Did I tell you about the roller coasters?" Alice just about screamed.

"Are you serious!?" She sat up, looking at Alice. "No way. We totally have to get on. Do you think the headache will be gone by then?" Alice nodded.

"Oh yeah. We're going to get lunch first then walk around and stuff. Are you hungry?"

"I am," Emmett said from the front.

"No one cares," Alice said. Emmett slumped in his seat.

"I care baby," Rose said to him. I smiled. Rose and Emmett had been together since they were in the third grade. They were practically married.

"Yeah, I'm hungry." Bella turned to me, her eyes wide with excitement. "Are you hungry Edward?" I shrugged, not wanting to think about food because the possibility of vomiting was high.

"Not really, but I could eat I guess." Bella sat back, taking out her iPod. She turned it up very loud, so even Rose and Emmett were able to hear it. I yawned, wishing I wouldn't have had all those shots. Irresponsible.

When we finally arrived there, Alice took care of the ticketing, so, easily, we were granted entrance into the theme park. Bella intertwined our fingers, walking closer to me. The heat from her body felt so good, all I could think about was sleep.

"How about we all split, then meet up somewhere later. Sound good?" Alice suggested.

"Yeah," I agreed. Alice, Rose, Jasper, and Emmett walked away, leaving Bella and I alone. We walked around a little bit, until Bella decide she felt like sitting down. We sat at a table, Bella putting her head down. I wrapped my arm around her, but she stayed, the way she was.

"Bells? Are you okay?" I asked her.

"Yeah I'm perfectly fine. I just-I'm not up for it. I told Alice I was, but I really don't want to do anything. We could if you want though," she said looking at me. Her hair was in a tight ponytail, the strands reaching her waist naturally.

"That's okay. Alice gets bored easily anyway." Bella still had that concerned look on her face.

"Edward, remember when you asked me if I thought we were moving too fast?" I nodded, and she looked down. "Well, would you think it's stupid if I want to slow things down?" I smiled and kissed her forehead.

"Of course not. But in terms of speaking, how slow do you want to take it?" She sort of winced.

"I was thinking maybe no sex, just for a little while. At least until the bruising goes away. It's not only on my arms and legs you know." I smiled at her. "Is that okay?" she asked self consciously.

"Bella, this relationship goes both ways, I have to be willing to commit as much as you are. I love you not sex." She smiled.

"Glad to hear it." She kissed me softly, then rested her head against my shoulder.



"Are you hungry Bella?" She shook her head.

"If I eat I'm going to throw up." I laughed. She looked at me and smiled. "I love you, too."

Bella

Edward took it better than I expected he would have when I told him I didn't want to have sex with him for a while. He just told me he loved me. Somehow, it was all I needed to hear.

After a few hour of sitting, Edward's phone rang. He answered it, still smiling at me.

"Yeah," he said into the receiver. "Not really. We've been sitting down the entire time. . . . Don't tell Alice . . . . No, we'll be fine. Alright." He closed the phone and slipped it back into his pocket, returning his attention to me.

"That was Jasper. He wanted to know what we were up to since you didn't answer Alice's call," Edward said to me.

"Oops, I forgot it in the car. Dammit." I shrugged. "Okay, well anyway, no, I have never snowboarding. I would probably cause an avalanche. Be responsible for thousands of deaths? I don't think so," I said, continuing Edward's conversation. He laughed. His laughter was intoxicating.

"You are not going to kill anyone Bella. I don't think it's possible," he said between laughs.

"Show's what you know." I muttered with a smile. I looked at his green eyes, both of then holding lust in the best form. Love. Edward smiled that drop-dead-gorgeous-I-might-as-well-kill-myself-to-be-in-heaven crooked smile, letting me melt into his arms.

"You know Bella, you really are beautiful," he said with a smile. "Do want to walk a little bit?" I shrugged, and then took his offer as he stood up. He helped me to my feet, then we started walking around a little while, running into Emmett and Rosalie. She had wilder hair than this morning. I pulled her away, walking a few steps away from Edward.

"Rose, you and Emmett didn't. . . ." She smiled wider.

"Oh, hell YES we did. Amazing might I add. You and Eddie-boy should try it. Such fun." Yes because only Rose thought defiling a family theme park was fun.

We walked back to Emmett and Edward, interrupting their conversation of whatever they were talking about.

"Come on Emmett. Let's go have some fun," Rose said walking away. I smiled at Edward who just took my hand, starting to walk further. We came up to a theme park, mindlessly walking into the incredibly long line. Edward held me close to him, the girls nearby sighing and fuming. I smiled. We continued talking about everything, just anything when it popped into our minds. After an hour and a half, we boarded Demon, Edward and I sitting next to each other, in between a girl and a boy.

"Any luck that you guys are just brother and sister?" the girl sitting next to Edward asked. I laughed.

"No such luck," Edward said. He took my hand, and before I knew it, we were going 50 mph, going around loops and running through corkscrews. Bad idea getting on the ride.

After the two minutes, we got off, Edward maintain his balance, but I walking around like I was intoxicated. I ran to the nearest bathroom, locking myself in a stall and vomiting up my lungs. After I was done, I actually contemplated on washing out my mouth with soap. I settled with water, reaching in my pocket for a stick of gum. I looked in the mirror, my reflection bothering me.

My upper arms were dark with color, so were my thighs. My neck was covered in little red marks when Edward kissed me and sucked my skin. I shuddered at thought of what he did. My eyes were red and watery, my hair was a little frizzy, but I didn't care. I fixed what I was able, then walked back into Edwards arms. He cradled me, rubbing my back consolingly.

For some strange reason, I started crying, Edward just picking me up and setting my down at a nearby table. I composed myself, then hugged Edward again, missing his warmth. He moves the wispy strands from my face, looking into my eyes.

"Are you okay, Bella?" Edward asked his voice showing sympathy.

"Yeah, I just don't feel good. I feel like sleeping." I told him honestly. He took out his phone, and started talking into it, lowly, so I wasn't able to hear. I didn't care; I couldn't concentrate any way. Edward took my hand, and we walked out of the park, no questions asked.



When we reached the parking lot, we found the car quickly and Edward started driving to L.A. it was a four hour drive, but I fell asleep a few minutes after driving away. I guess I had slept through the entire drive and then some, because I awoke on the familiar bed in our hotel room. I opened my eyes to see Edward standing by the window, looking in its direction.

"Edward," I said, my voice croaky and half asleep sounding. The room was dark, but I could see Edwards face perfectly in the moonlight.

"Are you okay? Don't downplay anything." I nodded, but I needed to throw up again. I rushed to the bathroom, vomiting whatever was left in my stomach. I groaned, the disgusting acidic liquid staining my shirt. I stripped to nothing, taking a shower. I wrapped myself in a large white towel, walking out. I got back into bed, Edward lying next to me.

"Edward, can I use your phone for a minute?" He dug into his pocket, handing me the black rectangle. I sat up, walking to the bathroom, standing in the corner farthest away from the door. I dialed Alice.

"Hey Bells. How are you feeling?" I contemplated on whether to voice my opinion or not, scared.

"Alice," I whispered, "what's today?" I asked her ignoring her question.

"The fourth."

"I'm late. Two days late, Alice," I whispered. Alice was silent on the other end "You know of all people that I have never been late in the entirety of my life."

"No Bella, there has to be a different explanation," Alice pleaded. I felt the tears sting my eyes, flowing over the brim.

"Then explain all the vomiting. I only had six shots. I am, and I don't know how to tell him. On the way here, can you bring me a test?" I cringed at the word, scared at the horribly possible outcome.

"Yes of course, Bella. If there's anything I know, it's my brother. He won't run away from this Bella." I started sobbing into the receiver of the telephone, Alice trying her best to console me as best she could.

"Thank you so much, Alice," I said to her, my voice small.

"Bella you are nothing if not my sister. I love you. We're on our way now; actually we should be there in three hours." I nodded, then realized she couldn't see me.

"Okay. I love you too." The line went dead, then I started sobbing harder. Edward picked me up from where I was sitting, and lay me on the bed. He was silent, giving me the notion that he knew, but I didn't say anything out of fear.

Three hours went by slowly, no talking, or kissing, just laying there with Edward, my thoughts to myself. I nearly jumped when I heard Alice knock on the door, the light rap, my savior. The door flew open, and I hugged Alice, and then turned to Edward.

"I'm going to spend the night with Alice and Rose tonight, okay?" he nodded, so Alice and I left.

Alice bought six tests, each of them a different brand. I did as many as I could, waiting a total of seven minutes for the tests to be evaluated.

They were all positive.

I cried harder, Alice cradling me in her small arms. I didn't stop crying for a long time.

"Alice, I love him very much. So much, you don't even know the half of it," I said through my sobs. I wondered what he was thinking.

Edward

It wasn't like Bella to keep a secret from me, but I started to get worried when she started to cry in the bathroom. Jasper stayed with me that night, Alice kicking him out. We didn't waste time, Jasper slept on the couch and I on the bed.

The next morning, Bella walked in the room wearing Alice's flashy clothes.

"Believe me," she said, "this was the least flashy she had," she giggled. "I'm sorry about last night, Edward." I shook my head, holding out my arms and urging Bella to fill them. She was quiet, but she was crying again.



"Do you want to tell be about what happening?" I asked her softly. She looked up at me, her eyes showing the most vulnerability I've ever seen in them. It was quite saddening.

"I'm not sure how you're going to react," she said, then she bolted from my arms to the bathroom. A few minutes later, after she brushed her teeth, she walked back over to me. She sat in my lap as I stroked her hair, her tears coming back.

"Edward, how much do you love me?" I was taken aback by her question, wondering where she was going with this.

"More than anything I could love. I love you, and I find out different ways to love you each day. I don't think I could love anything more than how much I love you right now," I told her.

"Promise, no matter what?" she mumbled, looking up at me.

"Yes, Bella, no matter what."

"Okay." She hesitated before going on. "I wanted to make sure last night, that's why I called Alice. I'm late Edward. My period is three days late." I froze where I was sitting. She continued. "Alice gave me six tests, and not one of them was negative. None!" She stated crying again. "What the hell am I going to do? I can't have a baby." I was still frozen, trying to process what she was saying. "Say something, Edward," she pleaded.

"I don't know, Bella. I love you, but I don't think I'm ready for a baby." Bella pulled away from me, sitting away from me.

"God, you say it like it's a disease," she growled.

"Bella I didn't mean it like that. Do you want the baby?" She glared at me, standing up.

"I don't know. This goes both ways, Edward. It takes two," she almost shouted. "Do you want it?" she spoke venomously. Now I knew why she kept it from me last night. I wouldn't have handled it well.

"Does it matter my answer?" She glared at me again, her eyes filled with hurt.

"Dammit, Edward! Of course it does! It's just as much your choice as it is mine! Forget it!" she yelled. "It's like talking to a brick wall!" She ran out of the room, slamming the door behind her.

"Fuck," I said under my breath. I hissed, and got dressed, thinking of ways that this could work.

If Bella were to have the baby, we'd both be screwed. We still had school. Esme wouldn't mind taking care of it, but would Bella mind carrying it for nine months?

No, this can't happen, I thought to myself. Bella and I had just barely started a relationship, and this little nuisance was trying to make a disaster out of it.

It wasn't the baby's fault, it was my fault, as much as it was Bella's. I stopped myself from blaming her. She did her part with the birth control pills, but I was stupid as to not use condoms. Maybe it was her fault. Maybe she didn't take the pill that day. I stopped myself again. I tried to think of abortion.

No, that won't happen. Bella would never get an abortion. Adoption. . . . I thought t myself.

"Dammit," I mumbled. Alice barged through the door, angry scribbled all over her face.

"You could have at least showed you cared. I gave her confidence because I thought I knew you Edward. I thought you were a good man who didn't run away from his problems. I want to hate you so bad." She left, slamming the door behind her, leaving me alone again. It was not my day. Both Bella and Alice wanted to hate me. Bella probably did.

"Way to go jackass," I muttered to myself.

Bella

"You're not a jackass," I said to Edward. He walked over to me and pulled me into an embrace. I cried, for the third time today, Edward silent again. "I didn't mean to take it out on you. I'm sorry," I apologized.



"Bella, it's not your fault. I just didn't know how to handle this. You know I love you still with all my heart right?" I nodded at his words, finding comfort in them. He lay me on the bed, both of us silent. I was aggravated because of his silence, so I looked up. It was then I realized he was crying, too. It only made me cry harder. It was because I knew he cared.

Believe me, I didn't know this was going to happen, it kind of just flowed out of my fingertips. I'm sad now. . . Please review. PLEASE!

Love

Esie