Okay, your reviews almost made me cry! It was just a . . . . Thought. I am totally against abortion, and if Bella wanted an abortion, she would have told Alice and they would have gotten one. You know how Alice is. Everything has to be clean and precise. A clean break. Oh, I hate that line.
Oh! BTW, today's Lemon is dedicated to twilightaddict26.
But In any case. . . .
Edward
I didn't know how Bella felt, but the whole baby thing was growing on me. I think I liked the fact that she was carrying my child, our child, but her mind was set on aborting the baby, so I didn't want to interfere. It was her body anyway, so I couldn't exactly tell her what to do.
At universal studios, Bella and I walked around, and ate . . . a lot. Bella was eating like there was no tomorrow. It was actually quite funny. She glared at me every time I laughed, making me laugh harder. She was so adorable when she did that. It made me love her all the much more.
Since Bella still had the morning sickness, she was still vomiting, so she didn't want to take the chance going on a roller coaster and giving an innocent bystander a "gift". I didn't mind, I loved spending time with Bella and seeing her face light up.
We had a lot of fun otherwise. We were sitting down at a table eating lunch and fooling around, when Bella stood up. She wanted another soda, so she walked away into the restaurant. As she left, she walked right into a stroller, almost falling. She stabilized herself, and then looked at the woman who was holding the stroller. She shrieked.
"Angela! Oh my God! How have you been?" Bella almost shouted. The woman, I'm guessing Angela, smiled and hugged Bella back.
"Good and you?" She responded. She looked at me, smiling.
"Pretty good. Who's the little nudger?" She said trying to contain her smile. Bella put a hand to her stomach. (A/N: Moment of realization.)
"This is my Amy. Before Ben and I graduated, we got pregnant. You wouldn't believe how happy we were." Bella's smile faded. I walked closer to her, putting an arm around her shoulder.
"Oh that's nice. So she's two? She's so cute. The cutest." Bella looked up at me, her eyes sparkling. "Oh Angie, this is my boyfriend Edward. Edward, this is Angela. She was a best friend in high school." I extended my hand and shook Angela's.
"Well it's nice to finally meet you Edward, see you around Bella. Call anytime, we can set up a play date for the kids." Angela said happy.
"How'd you know she was pregnant?" I asked her.
"Mother's intuition." She hugged Bella again and then started walking away.
It hit Bella, and it hit her hard; she wanted to keep it.
Bella
Oh Jesus! After seeing Angela and her little Amy, I wanted to keep mine. Angie and Ben were pregnant in high school. I'm sure we could work something out of course. It wouldn't be that hard. Right?
Edward and I sat down at the table, staring at each other.
"Edward I want it. I want this baby. I want this for us. Do you." He smiled, looking down at me.
"Of course I do. I want this for us too." I kissed him. And smiled at a piece of knowledge I found out during research.
"You know, this might be a good thing. Sex induces labor and it's good for me too." Edward smiled brighter.
"Really?" He put a hand to my stomach and stated tickling my sides. "Then I think we'll have to go to work then."
"Ah! Edward, No!" I managed to say when he kept tickling me. He pulled me on his lap, planting a sweet slow kiss on my well deserving lips. It was definitely good. No, good is an insult. It was definitely amazing.
After parting, Edward and I walked around more, not so close because it was already hot. Even at eight o' clock at night. After the fireworks show, Alice drove us back to the hotel, Edward and I already having plans for our night together. Edward carried me from the lobby, all the way up to the fourteenth floor where our room was. I convinced him to put me down when we were in the elevator, as two little thirteen year old boys walk inside. One of them taps my shoulder, smiling at me.
"Excuse me miss," he said. I look down at him, smiling back. "You are really pretty." I blushed a million shades of red, Edward almost laughing but not quite.
"Thank you very much," I said, and with that, they left. I turned to Edward still blushing.
"See? Even thirteen year old boys are going to think about you." I let him pick me up, and faster than I could have imagined, I was already on the bed kissing Edward's full beautiful delicious lips.
I slipped out of my tank top, deciding not to wear a bra today. Edward smiled as he kissed a trail down to the waist of my tiny denim shorts.
"I'm guessing you're not wearing any underwear either," he said, breathing against my skin. I arched a little, feeling teased.
"You like it don't you?" I asked, breathy.
"Mmm." He slid me out of my shorts, leaving my body completely naked. I smiled, and brought myself to my knees. I reached for Edward's shirt, unbuttoning the classic white button up. I brushed it off of him, pulling the white undershirt over his head.
"You wear too much clothes," I whined. I moved my hand down to his jeans, unbuttoning and unzipping. Zealously, I pushed Edward off the bed, letting him stand. I let his pants fall, pushing his boxers down with them. He climbed back on the bed, kneeling like I was, and he put his hand on my face, moving the strands out of my eyes. He leaned down to kiss me, his eyes still open. I looked at him, his eyes framed beautifully by long auburn eyelashes. I closed my eyes, situating myself so I would lay back. He kissed all over the place, taking one of my nipples into his mouth and sucking softly on it. I was starting to writhe, so I let my hand travel down Edward's body, taking his huge erection into my hand and stroking it. I touched the head to my clit, moaning at how softly he was touching me. He kissed my neck, sucking harder as I stroked faster.
"Bella," he moaned. I arched my back a little, using my other hand to scratch Edward's back, even though it was unintentional. We came, Edward kissed my wet center, licking all my sweet juices, and his too. I bucked my hips to his touch, wanting him to fill me already.
Edward positioned himself, so he was hovering over me, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He pushed himself into me, I gasping. I closed my eyes and put my hands in the mess of Edward's hair. He thrust harder into me, my moans turning into shouts.
"Oh, Edward. Edward. Edward. Oh, yes," I said to him. He thrust faster, I plunging into an orgasm. But like most nights, one wasn't enough. He kept at it, even after his own orgasm. I pushed my hips upward to meet every one of his thrusts, unhooking my legs from his waist, and putting them over his shoulders.
I moaned the loudest I had ever, climaxing into heaven. He did too, after a few more thrusts. My legs fell off his shoulders, but I didn't want this to end. I pulled him from the bed, into the bathroom where the bathtub was. I let the tub up with warm water while Edward pushed me against the wall. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him, letting him assault my lips. I parted my lips instantly, our tongues wrestling for domination, until I pushed his tongue back into his mouth. I moaned softly when his erection grazed my core, my head lulling back slightly. I wanted in me now, so I slid down a little, so he was able to fill me. When he did, it wasn't gentle, almost exactly what I wanted. He pushed upward into me, his hands on my ass. I ground into him, putting a hand on the wall, trying to find something to hold me up with. I put my right hand on the open door, and my left on his shoulder. If it was possible, he thrust harder into me, pushing me over the edge. I fell onto him my arms wrapping around his neck, still grinding against him. Panting, I fell back against the wall, not the least bit tired. He let me fall to my feet, my arms still around his neck.
I saw that the bathtub was already filled, so Edward lowered himself in the water. I lowered myself onto him, sitting on his lap. He kissed me softly; the lust dying. I didn't mind, I just didn't want to stop loving Edward. His words rang in my head clearly, like he was telling me right now. I love you not sex. I slid closer to him, letting him enter me. I rocked slowly, gradually gaining the friction I wanted. I moaned in his mouth, an intense lustful sound.
"Mmm, Bella," He said. I thrived on when he said my name, the way he said it. It felt right. I ground harder onto him, the skin on my belly touching his. Edward's head tilted back against the wall, the bronze strands falling out of his eyes. He looked sexy, my nerves jolting. I put my hands in his hair, pulling slightly at the long strands. An orgasm washed over me, and Edward whispered my name when one washed over him. I stayed on top of him, with him still inside of me, holding him and kissing his wanting lips. I rested against his chest as he ran his hand up and down my back. I pulled my hair into a pony tail, the strands falling over my shoulder and onto Edward's chest.
"I hope the baby looks exactly like you," he whispered. I looked up at him, surprised by his words.
"No, I want it to have green eyes like her daddy," I said back to him, putting a hand on his face. I moved his hair out of his exquisite eyes. He smiled at me, really happy that we were having the baby. I couldn't believe I wanted to kill the little nudger. Edward put his hand on my stomach.
"How do you know it's a girl?" he asked smiling.
"I don't I'm just hoping. But a boy like you would be good, too." He kissed my forehead, pulling me closer to him. He lifted us out of the bath tub, setting me on my feet. I grabbed two towels, handing him one. He wrapped it around his waist, letting it hang dangerously low on his body. I didn't bother because I knew I was going to sleep. Edward lead me to the bedroom and pulled me onto his lap, cradling me in his arms.
"Edward, how are we going to be able to do this?" I asked quietly. Edward held me closer.
"Bella, you'll be pregnant the majority of the school year, and I'm pretty sure Esme would help you no matter what. She'd live with you if she'd have to. After all, it is m baby, too." I was somewhat satisfied with his response, but not thoroughly.
"But it's ours, not Esme's."
"Bella, why are you worrying? We'll be fine," he reassured me. Not when you're three thousand miles away, I thought. I sighed, and Edward started humming a slow peaceful tune. I became drowsy, kissing Edward lazily before falling into unconsciousness.
Edward
Bella looked beautiful while she slept, her lips pulled into a slight smile. Her eyes fluttered open, closing again. I kissed her forehead, and she moved closer to me, kissing my chest.
"Mmm, good morning," she whispered. She kicked off the blankets, sitting up and sighing. "What are we doing today?" Bella asked.
"Well, Alice called and said as soon as you awake she was to take you shopping. She said she wanted you to stop using her clothes." I chuckled.
"Okay, well then I'm going to take a shower and hang out with her for the day, is that okay?" she asked. She looked so tired, and her arms were red and somewhat bruised. Dammit.
"Bella, of course it's okay. I suppose you didn't fall last night, did you?" She smiled at me, her eyes excited. "If you mean 'Did we have hot sex all night last night', then yes, I did a great amount of falling." She pranced to the bathroom, closing the door after her.
All your twisted thoughts free flow
to ever lasting memories show soul
kiss the stars with me
and dread the wait for
Stupid call returning us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true cause we're to young
I know that's true beacause
so long I was
so in love with you
so I thought . . .
Bella's singing was so peaceful; I fell asleep at the sound of it. I must have been sleeping for a while because when I woke up it was already sunset. I looked over at Bella's side of the bed; a piece of folded paper lay neatly on her pillow.
Edward
I won't be back until about nine. Alice wants to spend the entire day with me and some of the night. So go do some of your "guy" things with Emmett and Jasper. Don't miss me too much.
Love, Bells
I smiled at the note, setting it back on the pillow. If I knew my brother and best friend as much as I did, they would probably be playing some sort of video game, with a circle of junk food, complaining about how much they miss Rose and Alice.
I got up, showered, got dressed, and walked down to Emmet and Rosalie's room. Jasper opened the door when I knocked.
"Look who finally decide to grace us with his presence?" Jasper said over exaggerating. I rolled my eyes and closed the door behind me, following Jasper to where Emmett was sprawled on the floor, in front of a paused game of Halo 3. I sat on the sofa behind him, watching as they played.
"So Eddie, what are you going to name it?" Emmett asked. I put my head in my hands, sighing.
"I don't know. We don't even know what the baby is." I closed my eyes, questioning why I even came here in the first place.
"Well do you think they're going to find out today? Can you find out what it is after two weeks?" Jasper questioned.
"No, not until sixteen weeks. Is that what they went to do?" I looked at Jasper who had an expression that said Oh shit, too much information.
"Alice said not to say anything." He sighed. I groaned.
"Is Bella getting an abortion?" I asked Jasper. He shrugged his shoulders.
"Alice said that she was going to tell you that she was going to take Bella shopping. She said she was going to take Bella to the hospital so she can get her vitamins and attention and all that stuff. She didn't say anything about an abortion. Swear." Jasper sighed again, and both he and Emmett were looking at me seriously.
"I thought Bella was going to get an abortion in the first place," Emmett said. I shook my head.
"No, we decided to keep it. Doesn't Rose tell you anything?" I asked him.
"No. She says I can't keep her stupid girly secrets. Who the hell am I going to tell? My other girlfriend?" I laughed at his sarcasm.
We looked over to the door because it sounded like someone was screaming.
"No! Alice! Why? Can't you do it for me?" Bella's voice yelled.
"Because of what he did to me when Jasper got me pregnant." I glared at Jasper, turning red.
"You got Alice pregnant?" I growled. Emmett stepped in front of Jasper. He already knew.
"Alice? What did he do?"
"Daddy told me that He was going to get it out of me, and that he would kill Jasper. It wasn't fair. And I didn't want him to look at Edward the same way. We-Edward and I are very different, and unlike me, Edward is held on this . . . pedestal. Carlisle sees him perfectly, like the perfect son. You guys have to get married first. Like before you start showing. He doesn't approve of babies out of wedlock. You know that."
"Alice, calm down," Rosalie said softly. I looked to Jasper and Emmett.
"No! It's not fair." Alice screamed. The door opened, and she saw the three of us standing there in the middle of the room. Alice looked at me, tears running down her face. I hugged her, her small body cold in my arms. When she pulled away, she didn't look at me, but grabbed Jasper and left. Rosalie looked at me, then sat down behind me. Bella walked slowly towards me, looking down. She grabbed my hand, walking out of the room.
When we reached our room, she didn't stop, she just kept going. We reached the elevator, taking it down to the first floor. In the lobby, Bella walked outside, walking to the car. She tossed me the keys and climbed inside.
"We are going to the airport, and you are going to get two tickets back to Forks. I cant- She wants- It's my fucking life! I can't handle it anymore. I want to live my life the way I want to. She is not my freaking mother. If I wanted two mothers I would have asked. Dammit! She controls my life like I'm incompetent. I'm not retarded. I can take care of myself." I let Bella rant on, not wanting her to take it out on me. "I hope you're up to telling Charlie that you knocked me up." She put her hand around her legs, looking over at me. If there was ever a time where I was nervous, it wouldn't have compared to right now.
"Wait, don't go anywhere." She took out her little silver phone, dialing. "Come to the car." She disconnected, putting her phone back into her the pocket.
A few minutes later, Emmett climbed inside the car. "What's up?" He asked, his eyes glancing between Bella and me.
"Edward and I are going home. You can stay or whatever, but you'd have to drive the car back here. Check out of the room for me and Edward, and Take my luggage to Alice. Tell her she can do whatever she wants with it. And as see it, we can't be friends anymore." Emmett was silent, and Bella motioned me to go. I started driving, ending up at the airport. I did as Bella asked, Emmett hugging Bella and leaving. Bella sat down and waited for the flight to be called. I left a quick second to get her something to eat, Bella sobbing as I walked up to her. She clung to me like a scared little girl.
When the flight was called, Bella and I boarded the plane, Bella's hand tightly woven through my fingers. We sat down next to each other, Bella looking out of the window. She was still crying, her body shaking. She turned and looked at me after a while, her eyes red and puffy, and her hair was a mess from her hands running through it. I pulled her close to me, kissing her forehead. She slid into my lap, letting me cradle her. She started crying harder, her tears not stopping.
After about an hour, Bella was calm, eating something. She smiled at me reassuringly, but it didn't touch her eyes. More than anything, I hated to see Bella like she was now. Even in high school, I would worry about her. She held my hand, finishing her peanut butter sandwich.
"Bella, what happened?" She smiled again.
"I was wondering when you were going to ask. After I took a shower, I wrote you the note and left with Alice. We went shopping, buying a few things, then Alice drove to the hospital. I started panicking because I was scared. She told me that she scheduled an appointment for me to get an abortion. I flipped out on her, then told her we were keeping it. She started yelling at me, telling me that I had to. I stormed out of the hospital, waiting by the car. Alice kept yelling at me, Rosalie trying to keep us from fighting. She took Alice's side, so I flipped out on her too. Then she told me about Carlisle and how she had gotten pregnant at fifteen with Jasper, but Carlisle made her get an abortion. She then told me that we had to get married because you were so perfect in your father's eyes. She cares about you, trying not to ruin your relationship with your father. But I didn't want her to start controlling my life. She's been like that since I met her, but . . . . she is getting on my nerves. Dammit. I wish I wouldn't have told Emmett that." Bella finished what she was saying, her mood changed. She was upset again. "And now I have to tell my dad that I'm pregnant. And my mom, too. I knew this wasn't going to work. Edward . . . ."
"Bella. If I have to go to the ends of the earth to find a way to make this work, then I will go. I love you. If we have to get married, then so be it, but I rather do it the right way." She sighed.
"And how's the right way?" she asked, looking at me in the eye.
"The right way is when we are ready, not because you're pregnant. You have to understand that I want to marry you, just not today." She nodded her head, completely understanding what I was saying. I held her hand tighter, bringing it up to my lips to kiss.
"I feel the same way. I'm going to have to have Renee come up from Phoenix so I can tell them both at the same time. In the meantime, I'm going to stay with you. Is that okay?" I half-smiled at her.
"Of course it's okay." She rested her head on my lap, my finger running through her hair. She closed her eyes, singing the song she was singing this morning.
On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume
Myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods
You learn too much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies
About the times
A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it . . . .
She stopped singing, her eyes closed and her breathing slowing. She fell asleep. I lulled my head back resting it on the seat. This wasn't going to be easy. I knew the outcome of Bella telling her parents wasn't going to be good. Especially to her mom. Renee wasn't the nicest person when it came to her daughter, her attitude almost hateful towards Bella.
I groaned, closing my eyes.
"Excuse me sir, she needs to sit up. We're almost landing." The stewardess walked away, and I woke Bella up. I buckled her in since she wouldn't wake up. When we landed, I woke her up.
"Bella, we're here."
Alright guys, here you are. I hope you don't hate me for what I did, or what I'm going to do. You'll see why I did it. Carlisle isn't mean, just so you know. He is actually a good person, but he's a father. What dad is happy when their little girl gets knocked up? None. That's for sure. I know my father would disown me if I ever got pregnant. But anyway. Alice for the meantime, is not Bella's friend. You guys are probably hating me right now, but I promise you, they'll be besties in no time. Rose isn't ion good terms with Bella either, but everyone will be happy in a few chapter, so don't worry. Okay enough talking Esie! Okay!
With much love (if you review)
Esie