I really don't want you guys to hate me. But I wanted to somehow incorporate twilight within the story, so please, don't write hate reviews. But I promise, everything is going to be okay.

Edward (Yay!)

Bella and I left to the house, Bella and I immediately falling asleep when we reached my bedroom. I hadn't slept much, only a few hours, waking up before the sunrise. Bella was hidden under the blanket, only her feet poking out at the bottom. I went downstairs sitting at my piano, playing something I didn't know. It floated from my fingertips, a light, warm, loving sound playing from the piano.

"Edward," Bella breathed. I turned around, Bella wrapped in a blanket. She walked toward me, sitting in between my legs on the piano bench.

"What's the matter?" I whispered. She stayed silent. "Bella?"

"I just couldn't sleep Edward. I was . . . . scared." She closed her eyes as she leaned her head back against me. She yawned.

"Bella, you should really get some rest. It's been a long day."

"Play that song you were playing again. Who was that?" I smiled that she liked it.

"That was something I just made up." She turned to look up at me.

"Really? Edward, that was beautiful. Can you play it again for me?" I nodded, and set my fingers on the keys, remembering exactly what I played a few minutes before. I played further, just going with whatever sounded . . . . right. After I was finished, Bella put her hands on mine, her small fingers half the size of mine.

"What are you going to name it?" she asked in a whisper. I shrugged.

"I don't know Bella, but that is going to be your song. Your lullaby. Do you like it?" She turned, standing. Her eyes were watery and tears started falling from her eyes.

"Edward that is the best thing anyone has ever given me." She smiled, pulling me into an embrace. I picked her up and took her upstairs to my bedroom. I lay her on the bed, my arms still around her body. We both fell asleep, both of us very tired.

We awoke abruptly when Alice came into the room, banging on the door. I sat up, glowering at the evil little pixie girl, who was walking to Bella.

"Alice, leave her alone. She needs to get some rest. She's going to hurt the baby." She snarled, glaring at me.

"Like you care." I stood up, walking over to her. I grabbed her arm, pulling her in the hall. How wrong she was.

"What the hell is your problem Alice?" She crossed her arms over her chest, tears welling up in her eyes. "What is so bad if Bella and I have this baby?" The tears fell. Alice looked at my face, her eyes a dark menacing green.

"That's just it Edward. She gets to have the baby. Daddy took mine away from me. Edward! He killed my baby! I don't want him to do the same thing to Bella. I wanted to have my own little baby, but I couldn't. He was so mean to me. He had no right to take it away from me." She cleared her throat.

"Alice, you're his daughter. He was trying to look out for you. He didn't want to see his little girl go through something that a woman should go through. Why won't you let it go?"

"Bella, she's my best friend, and I don't want to see her hurt."

"What do you think you're doing to her then? You are hurting her the most right now. She loves you more than any person I've ever seen her with. You have to see that. And if you don't you are missing out. Bella has been going through terrible things her entire life, and she doesn't need someone controlling it. She's a big girl. She can take care of herself. Alice, Dad is not going to do that to Bella, he won't take the baby away. Bella isn't his fifteen year old daughter. A fifteen year old having a baby and a twenty year old having a baby are two different things. Get over your jealousy Alice. If she's your best friend you should be happy for her. Not trying to get your way through other people's lives." I turned to walk back in to the room, but stopped and looked at her when she called my name.



"You think you know everything Edward. Always. But I bet you didn't know I hate you." Her words were pungent. Alice and I had always been close, closer than any others in my family. It honestly hurt me when she said that.

"I'm sorry you feel that way Alice. I still love you. You're my sister. I can't hate you. And so you know. I do care." She cried harder, running away. I heard a door slam as I walked back into the room. Bella was sitting up in the bed, hugging her knees. Her face was hidden, but by the way she was trembling, I could tell she was crying.

"I'm sorry Edward," she said through her sobs.

"You have nothing to apologize for Bella. Nothing is your fault."

"Everything is my fault. All of it. God, I love you so much Edward" she whispered. She fell back, slamming her body against the bed. "It's not fair." I agreed with every fiber of my being. It wasn't fair. Alice was being a bitch because she was jealous of her best friend. Rose was taking Alice's side. My best friend was keeping things from me. My brother is . . . actually, he was the only person I didn't feel like hating. This was getting dirty.

Bella

I sat on my bed in my room in Charlie's house, Renee and Charlie sitting in front of me. I decided that it was best that Edward not join me on this, and that he talk to Carlisle and Esme. I regretted that now.

I was so nervous I was sweating, the weather not that severe for it seem natural. I took a deep breath and began. I hoped with all my heart that they would take this well.

"Mom, Dad, a few weeks ago, Edward Cullen and I started dating. We're in a relationship now, but that's not the point. Well, two weeks ago, my period was late, and I found out that I was pregnant. Edward and I decided to keep the baby. I'm four weeks now." Renee's face twisted in anger, her eyes vicious. I looked at Charlie who was frozen. Renee stood up, pulling me up to my feet and out of my room. As I tried to pull away from her, she held on tighter, my arm hurting. She stopped in the middle of the hall looking straight in my face. She slapped me, my hair flying all over the place. Tears stung my eyes, and Charlie stepped in front of me. Renee shoved him out of the way, walking toward me. She pulled my arm again, shaking me.

"Mom! What are you doing?!" She pulled me harder, so we were at the top of the staircase. I started crying, the tears feeling vulnerable. More than anything, I hate crying in front of my mother. It was weakness, and in mother's eyes, I wasn't supposed to be weak. I tried to choke them down, but I was hurting too much.

"You are getting an abortion. Right now." She yanked my arm again, pulling me down the stairs. I tripped over a step as she pulled me harder. She let me go, letting me fall.

I tumbled down the stairs, my arms trying to grab for something to hold. I gave up, putting my arms around my stomach. My baby. I reached the floor, my eyes closing. Nothing. Black. Unconsciousness.

Edward

I was sitting in Carlisle's office, Carlisle sitting in front of me and Esme at my side. I was nervous again, their worried faces uncomforting.

"Alright. Well, as you know, Bella and I already started dating, and we are now in a relationship. Well, a few weeks ago, Bella found out that she was pregnant. She's about four weeks along. We decided to keep it." When I finished, I sighed, wanting to get the hell out of there.

"Edward, that's great news!" Esme said. I felt my eyes open wide, surprised by her reaction. She took my hand in hers, smiling.

"Yes, Edward, that's wonderful. Has she gotten medical attention yet? Is she here?" I shook my head to both questions. "She wanted to wait until you came back from taking care of your mother and sister. If I'm correct, she's with her parents telling them the news. I'm pretty sure she's getting a different reaction than I'm getting. I-" Carlisle held up his hand, looking at a beeper attached to his waist.

"I'm sorry Edward, but I have an emergency at the hospital. Maybe we can continue this discussion later over dinner. Invite Bella. We'd like to congratulate her as well." I nodded.

"Yes sir." I stood up and walked out of Carlisle's office up to my bedroom. I decided to call Bella and ask her how her side of the discussion went.



I dialed her cell phone, but it was useless as it rang on my bedside table. I then dialed her house, and Renee answered.

"Hello, may I speak to Bella please?" Renee scoffed.

"Who is this?" I loved her hospitality.

"This is Edward. Am I able to talk to her?" Renee started crying. "Is something wrong with her?" I felt the panic start to scratch at my skin.

"She's at the hospital." I hung up, dialing Carlisle. He didn't answer. He was with her. My heart started speeding, so I grabbed my keys, walking out of my room and down to the front door. I sped away once I was in the car, getting to the hospital in record time. I almost ran through the doors, to the receptionist's desk.

"May I help you sir?" The woman asked.

"Has Dr. Carlisle Cullen come in yet?" She nodded.

"Yes he did. You must be his son. He's with a patient. You'll have to wait for him to finish before you can speak to him." I took a shallow breath.

"Is Bella Cu- I mean Bella swan, has she come in? As a patient I mean. Is Carlisle with her?" She checked the computer, and nodded.

"Yes, Bella . . . Swan, she is in critical condition. You'll have to wait a while she's out. What is your relation to the young woman?"

"I'm her . . . fiancée."

"Well then in that case, when she's out, you'll be the first to see her on Carlisle's permission." I nodded and sat down in the waiting room, waiting. I stood up a couple of times, pacing around the room, then to get coffee, then paced some more.

It was hours that I wasn't able to see Bella. I was anticipating the moment, wondering what happened to her. I was contemplating on what could have happened. Nothing made sense.

I started to worry about the baby. If Bella was in critical condition, the baby had to be gone. It was a weird feeling, missing someone I didn't know. It was like some little part of me was dying. Because I actuality, it was. It was my little son or daughter that Bella was carrying. Our child. At that instant, I regretted all that I said to Bella about the baby. I hated that I argued with her about it. Honestly, I was being a jerk, and I'd do anything to take it back and make sure Bella was okay.

"I should have gone with her," I mumbled to myself. Damn.

I sat in the same chair I had been sitting in for the past hours, my elbows on my knees, and my face in my hands. Someone tapped my shoulder. I looked up at Alice's red face, tears running down them. I pulled her into and embrace as she started crying harder.

"I'm so sorry for being so bitchy," she sobbed. "I don't hate you Edward. I'm sorry I said all of those mean things." I just rubbed her back sympathetically.

"It's alright Alice. I forgive you. How'd you know I was here?" She looked up at me.

"Edward, do you know what happened?" I shook my head, admitting my ignorance. "Renee pushed Bella down the stairs."

Anger.

"She was trying to get Bella to get an abortion, but Bella started fighting with her. Renee slapped her too." I swear, I started seeing red.

"How do you know this," I just about hissed.

"Charlie called me a few minutes ago from the station. He had to take Renee in and press charges against her for domestic violence and battery." I started pacing again, Alice scrutinizing me.

"Sir, Mr. Cullen?" Alice and I turned our attention to the woman at the receptionist's desk.



"Yes?" I said, walking towards her. I tried to calm myself, realizing my tone was a bit venomous.

"Miss Swan is now in a room if you'd like to visit her." I sighed. "She's still in critical condition, so she'll be in the Intensive Care Unit." I nodded as she gave me the room number, and Alice and I left to see her.

Alice stood outside the room as I walked in. It was silent, only the sound of the heart monitor and other units beeping. Bella was laying under blankets, her skin almost white. Her lips stood out the most, blood red. Her closed eyes hinted a color of lavender. Above her left eyebrow, she had eight little stitches. I couldn't see any other of her injuries, and I certainly didn't want to.

"You can come closer Edward," she said, not opening her eyes. "I don't have a disease." Her lips pulled into a little smile, but within nano seconds, it disappeared from her face. It frightened me.

"Bella," I whispered.

"Edward, just tell me you love me. I've wanted to hear that for some time now." I smiled. I walked to her.

"I love you Bella. So much I'm willing to sell my soul so I won't have to see you like this." She smiled brighter, wincing a little. I stood over her, touching the right side of her face. Her skin was ice cold, looking as white as snow. I kissed her forehead, a little laugh escaping her lips.

"My lips are down here, you know." I hesitated.

"I don't want to hurt you Bella."

"I know. I think my lips are the only place I'm not bruised." I lightly pressed my lips to hers, letting her have what she wanted. When I pulled away, I sat in the chair next to her, holding on to her hand. Her smile faded again, and she turned her head opening her eyes. "Edward, I-" her eyes were watery, the tears spilling over the brim. "I don't think the baby made it. It was a really hard fall, and I fell on my front. I hate her. I-" her tears turned into harsh sobs. "Come here. Can you lie down next to me? Please? I need you." I sighed. She shifted over, as I lay next to her. She wrapped an arm around me, resting her head on my chest. She quieted her sobbing, looking up at me.

"Are you okay," Bella said after some minutes.

"No, Bella, I'm not okay. Are you aware of what you look like?" She winced at my words.

"That bad, huh?" I sighed.

"Bella, your skin is cold and white. White, Bella. Not pale, but white. You have stitches above your left eyebrow, and your skin is bruised to no extent. It hurts to see you like this Bella. I hate it when you hurt." She started crying again.

"You don't even know how happy I am to have you Edward." She whispered.

"Bella, I'm going to be yours forever." Carlisle walked into the room, an uncomforting expression on his face.

"Bella, I took some tests earlier, and I was looking through the results a few minutes ago, and I found something interesting. You were on birth control pill when you conceived, right." Carlisle's voice had a slight edge to it.

"Yeah. I'd been since freshman year. What-what's wrong?" Bella's voice turned into a whisper. I was wondering the same thing.

"Well, Bella, you were never pregnant." She froze where she was lying, slowly rising to sit down.

"Yes, I was. I-my period was late. I was vomiting left and right. It-how can you explain all of that?"

"Well, have you been eating?" Bella nodded.

"Too much food consumption can do that to you. Did you change your pill prescription?"

"No it's been the same one for the past eight years. Nothing different."

"Did you take the wrong pill? The blue instead of the green? Did you switch with someone. Alice? Rosalie?" I took in a frustrated breath.



"No! Carlisle, I have never been late in my life! How can you be four weeks late?"

"Bella, some women go through irregularities. You happen to have went through one." She growled.

"I have never been irregular. I am the most ordinary girl in the entire world!" She fell back against the bed. I stood up, taking Carlisle into the hall. He eyed me suspiciously.

"She lost the baby didn't she?" Carlisle hesitated before nodding. "Why didn't you tell her that?"

"Because I don't want her to end up mourning over it. I didn't want her to end up like Alice." I turned around not looking at Carlisle.

"Bella's capable of taking care of herself. Why doesn't anybody see that?"

"Because you are her shield, Edward," He said sternly. "It doesn't matter how well she can take care of herself. You're standing right there Edward, protecting her like a little girl. No one can see past that. Even when you guys were in high school. You probably didn't do it intentionally, but you were always there for her. Even if you guys weren't friends." I processed his words.

I remembered the many times I had saved her from falling, or asked if she was okay when I heard her crying. Or even be mad when Bella was sad.

"Well, even though, she should know the truth. Tell her there was a mistake, that you were reading someone else's results. Tell her the truth. It was her baby. She should know that it was something." Carlisle sighed, then walked into the room. I heard Bell start to sob, and Carlisle walked out of the room, avoiding me. I left back inside, sitting next to Bella. She clung to me, like a little girl. I didn't mind, because I clung to her, feeling as small as she was feeling. I started crying, too. Bella looked up at me, wrapping her arms around my neck. I held her close, not wanting her to let me go, or wanting to let her go.

Okay I didn't mean for Renee to be mean like that to Bella, but I needed something to happen. I know you guys hate me for killing the baby, but at least it was accidental. You guys will probably still hate me, so bring on the hate mail.

Usually Alice is this bubby girl on the exterior, but I wanted her to be different than what everyone else makes her to be.

Renee isn't going to jail, and is going to appear in next chapter.

Note that summer is going to be almost over, so Edward and Bella are going back to school.

I'm really sorry that the baby is gone. I'm really sorry if you guys don't want to read my story further. I promise promise promise that everything will get better.

Bring on the hate, even though I love you guys,

Esie