Wouldn't you want more fantastic sex we all dream of with Edward, that is unless you are all for Jacob? (Which is a dumb decision) Which I honestly don't mind, because if you all are fighting for Jacob, I get Edward to myself. Tee Hee. And maybe, if you're nice, I could share. But I won't make any promises. Nope. No guarantees at all.
Anyway. This Idea came from a mixture of my BFF Michelle, and reading Breaking Dawn for the billionth time. I don't want you guys to hate me. Again. So, I hope you guys sort of like . . . (another drama filled chapter. But you guys get to meet Tanya which is good. Since I hate her guts, I thought I should make Bella hater her too.) :looks around nervously:
Edward
It was a beautiful morning when I awoke in my dorm. Besides the snores from James and his damn ringing alarm clock, everything was okay.
Okay, actually that was a major lie. I missed Bella more than anything. An entire month. I had gone thirty seven days without touching her, kissing her, even smelling her. No physically just lying next to her body, just knowing she was there. I was convinced I was going to go insane. I was actually betting on it.
We called each other every day, but late night phone sex just wasn't enough. Not compared to having the real thing. It wasn't the fact that I missed her sexually, but I missed the things we did afterward, the lying next to each other, talking. It was like she was my soul. Dumb college. . . .I can't believe I even thought that. How immature of myself.
I got ready for the morning, taking a shower and getting dressed, then, like the past few days, Tanya came up to me, all touchy and possessive over something that wasn't hers.
"Hi Edward," she chirped irritatingly. I cringed, mentally and physically as she put her hand on my arm.
"Hello Tanya," I replied politely. I shrugged her off.
"Well, how are you doing?" she asked. "I didn't see you in sixth period," she told me. She made me a little nervous; I didn't want someone to see us together and misinterpret what we were doing.
"Well, I was excused by Dr. Aro. Is that okay? Should I have asked your permission?" I honestly didn't mean to sound so rude, but not even the women (Bella, Alice, Esme, and Rose) I knew well asked me so many damn questions. It was quite disturbing to be on the receiving end of that line. As soon as possible I wanted to be cut off from that string.
"Of course not silly. I just wanted to make sure you weren't off with some other woman." Are you serious?! I felt like screaming at her.
"I am engaged you know?" I told her. "To a woman, you know. So-"
"Of course you are. It's about time you came up with a better excuse than 'I'm just not that into you'. The women on this campus are really dense." No shit.
"Well I have to study for an exam, so I'll talk to you later," I said not even waiting for a response. I sprinted away, sighing. Immediately, I called Bella.
"Hey, sweetie," she said, sweet and innocent, but there was something off about her voice.
"Bella, I swear to God, I am going to go over there and hide." She just laughed a soft sweet sound. "You'd think that if I said I was engaged they'd go away."
"Of course they won't," she said. "You're way too hot." Her voice dropped. It was a low and sexy sound. I shuddered as I entered my dorm room. Of course, since this wasn't my day, James was sitting at his desk.
"Bella, that isn't helping in the least," I sighed. I unbuttoned my shirt, hanging it over my desk chair. I changed into a t shirt.
"You're not alone are you?" she almost whined. I smiled.
"No. I'm not."
"Damn it. You're voice sounds so sexy. I love you Edward, you know that right?" She was speaking tentatively. My stomach flipped a bit.
"Of course I do. Its part of the reason I want to marry you." I smiled.
"What's the other part?" She asked. I could see her put her hands on her hips, giving me that face of disapproval.
"That you are so damn sexy wearing absolutely nothing."
"I thought you said you weren't alone?"
"I'm not. James is here, but he's listening to music." Really loud, and really annoying. The room could be burning, and he wouldn't even notice.
"Oh." She paused and took in a deep breath. "You can say no. . .But I was wondering something. I'm probably just being impatient, but I want to tell you. Umm, this is my last year of college; I'm graduating in the spring. And since you're all the way in New Hampshire, I was thinking that in the spring, I could, instead of going back to Forks-" I didn't even let her finish her sentence.
"Yes, Bella. Come live over here with me. We can have our own house, I don't care what it is, but I would love nothing more than to come home to you."
"Really?" She squeaked. "He said yes, Alice." I laughed a little before lying on my bed.
"Oh my God. I get to buy a house! Daddy will be so proud that I'm using my money for something other than shoes!" I heard Alice say. She was in close proximity to Bella.
"Bella. What have you gotten us into?" I asked playfully.
"From the looks of it, a huge mess, and really pretty house." She laughed. "Are you okay Edward?"
"Of course I am. I just wish I could live with you now. I can't think of anything better than to waked up to the most beautiful woman on the face of this earth." She hummed.
"I wish I could hear my lullaby. Do you think you can play it for me? Right now?" Bella asked. Then, there was a knock at the door. I walked over to answer it. Bella stood there in all her glory. She wore a pair of much fitted jeans, and a knee length jacket. "Is there even a piano near here?" I didn't waste any time. Bella dropped her things and took her into my arms, kissing her. She moaned like she missed me, pulling me closer to her. I kissed her long and hard, until James excused himself from the room. Of that I was tremendously grateful for. I threw Bella on the bed, and started undressing her. It was a tangle of legs and arms to get naked for both of us. I didn't even think to lock the door.
"Edward? Edward? Hello?" Bella's voice was in my ear, bringing me back to reality where I was in fact, sitting on my bed, talking to Bella on the phone. I groaned.
"Bella, I need to see you. I need to see you right now," I told her. "I'm dying here, and I need to feel you. Just enough so I know that I'm not going insane."
"You're not going insane Edward. And I miss you just as much, but you have three exams you can't skip. SOOO," she paused. "So I'll come to you."
"Really? You'll really will come and see me? Bella, don't toy with my emotions." Bella laughed soft and musically. Seriously, I was missing my woman.
"Edward, I'm serious. I miss you so much. I want to see you as much as you want to see me," she said softly.
"I'm arranging for it this weekend," I heard Alice say. "Ask him if it's okay."
"Bella, that couldn't be more perfect," I said to her. I could almost hear her smile.
"Good. I would have come anyway." I honestly wouldn't have minded that. "Now. I have a whole six days to wait for you. I can guarantee you we aren't ever going to leave your room," She said. Again, not something I wouldn't have minded. "Edward, I can't wait until we get to live together. It's going to be amazing. I'd never have to leave you, and can see you everyday, without this pesky college being across the entire United States thing."
"Bella, you sound homesick," I said. And why was Alice there? Was she sick? Oh, my God. How horrible am I to be so selfish as to think about myself? "Are you sick?"
"No. . ." she said softly. Then there was a cough.
"Bella." She coughed again. I hated when Bella was sick, for the simple fact that she was never sick.
"Edward, I'm fine. Alice is here to think she is taking care of me, even though whatever she's doing is probably making me sicker. I'm fine Edward," She insisted. I didn't believe her.
"Bella, if you're sick, you don't need to be talking on the phone."
"Are you serious? You're the on thing that's getting me through this . . . not sickness." She laughed again. "I'm not sick, I promise. I'm just really missing you."
"I miss you, too, Bella." Bella sighed.
"Can you stop with the whole depression thing? It's really killing my buzz-Oh! Bella, look at this house! It's so amazing! Get off the phone!" Alice whined.
"But Alice-"
"Bella, it's okay. I have to study for an exam anyway. I'll call you later, love," I said.
"Okay," she said reluctantly. "I love you."
"I love you, too." I hung up, flinging my cell to the foot of the bed. I lay back looking at the ceiling. I don't know, but I think I was becoming a very clingy boyfriend. Fiancé, whatever, but I couldn't help but think about Bella at all times of the day. It sometimes made me feel horrible, that I had to be a whole three thousand miles away from her, only phone call and monthly visits satiating our undying hunger for each other. I only wished (which was most of the time) it was summer again, and Bella never had to leave me. Or better yet, it was high school and I told Bella that I was irrevocably and unconditionally in love with her.
I sighed, and began to study for my anatomy exam. It was an hour later that I decided I would get lunch and get ambushed by the sixty women that insist on talking to me even though I rudely decide to ignore them.
I ate quickly on campus, still studying vocabulary and body parts and the origins of all the names and other useless things they test you on so you know, but never actually need to know when you're performing the operation or prescribing the medicine.
"Oh, Edward." I looked up to see Irina, Tanya's sister. Thought they were both related, I always thought Irina to be the calmest of the three, which is, including their sister Kate.
"Hello Irina," I greeted. She smiled and sat down in front of me. She was company I wouldn't mind having.
"How've you been? Tanya's been talking quite a lot about you," she said. Her voice was pretty, but nowhere near as beautiful as Bella's.
"Really?" Like I hadn't known. I mean I really didn't have to go to college. I was wealthy enough to live without a high paying job. At least, maybe, I could transfer . . .
"Yes, and actually, she said something about you being engaged." She eyed me carefully.
"I am engaged. Her name is Isabella. She's in college in California."
"Wow. That takes a lot to commit to a long term relationship." She narrowed her eyes at me.
Okay. So the one woman I didn't mind talking to was now starting to pick a fight with me. I should have just skipped the day. It would have been much easier to sleep and talk to Bella, than take all of the shit people were giving me today. What kind of conspiracy was this?
"No, we love each other. That's the ends of it. There's no maybes of what ifs. We're perfect for each other."
"Yeah. Well I should get back to class." Yes, you should. In fact, if you're going to insult me, I'd appreciate it if you would just say what's on your mind. Not that I can't tell anyway.
Yes, it's definitely an insult when someone tells me I'm not capable of keeping a relationship with Bella. I love Bella. Only Bella. Why is that so hard to understand? Why was everyone having so many doubts?
She stood up and walked away without another word. I was grateful for that. I shut my text book, picked up my things and went inside the building where my next class was located.
Inside the enormous classroom, I sat next to my lab partner Seth Clearwater. He was a talkative little freshman, but he was as smart as I was. He acknowledged me, then his face contorted into worry. Technically he was a friend, but I wasn't all that into spilling about my life contents. I didn't even do that with Jasper. Or Emmett. On second thought, I could never do that with Emmett because he'd sit there and laugh. Douche bag.
"Hey Ed. . ." I gave Seth a stern look,". . .ward. What's wrong?" I shrugged.
"Just stressed a little I guess." By little, I meant like I felt I was being conspired against.
"Well maybe this'll help: Professor Marcus moved the exam to next week," He said cheerily.
"Seth, the exam was the last of my worries." I sighed, putting my head in my hands.
"Are you having problems with Bella?" I looked up at him, debating with myself whether I should tell him or just say 'no, I'm fine.' Of course, everybody need someone to vent to someday.
I told him about Tanya, about Irina, about Bella, about the fight she had with Alice, which led to why Jasper isn't really my friend at this moment, then why I'm telling him all of my problems.
"Dude. I am really sorry. I can't believe you have to go through all of that. Dude you so need a vacation."
"Well, Bella's coming to see me at the end of the week. I'm thinking about stealing her for the entire week and skipping all of my classes. I need some alone time with her." Truly alone, like off the campus and in a secluded hotel room.
"Sounds good to me Edward. Maybe that's what you need," Seth agreed.
"Yeah," I sighed. "Maybe."
Class started a few minutes later, and it turned out that there was no exam like Seth had said, but there was a seven page paper on the "characteristics of anatomy and the different medicines that sedate pain in certain body parts and why does this medicine affect this and not that" due next class, which just so happened to be tomorrow.
Great.
"Hey Edward," Seth said next to me. I looked at him as I gathered my things. "I know you just told me all that stuff about what was going on with you, but I was wondering if you'd come with me to this party at James' this weekend. It's on Friday. I really don't know a lot of people and I'm just a freshman, so I didn't want to go alone, or even worse, with my sister Leah. So will you come? It might help you de-stress a little."
I was really debating against it, but if I kept this horrible mood I was in, I was going to start looking older than Carlisle. This isn't that bad actually, especially since he looks like he's twenty.
"Oh, what the hell, right?" Seth smiled. I felt better about seeing him smile; I had brushed all my worries and problems onto him.
"Alright, well it's at nine. Leah said she wanted to come, so do you mind?" I eyed him.
"I thought you didn't want to go with her?" I said.
"Not alone. If you're there, we'll look like a group." I shook my head but held onto my grin.
"I don't mind at all, but I'm not very fond of women right now, that is, except for Bella of course."
"Of course," he agreed. "Leah will call you when we're ready."
"Sure."
I left class a little more content than I felt I should be. I felt better despite the fact that I was dragging a seven page paper along with me. I groaned mentally as I walked to my dorm, which, thankfully, was empty.
I lay in the space, wanting to sleep for a little while, except my phone rang with Bella's ring tone. I answered it, my mood brightening a shade.
"Edward! I miss you! Alice dragged me to Victoria's Secret, and I'm hiding in the dressing room. Keep me company?" she said in a whisper. I chuckled.
"Of course, but why are you hiding? Aren't you supposed to be getting some rest?" I asked her. If she was sick . . .
"I'm fine Edward. I promise. But I'm hiding, because there was this guy." My stomach flipped.
"What guy, Bella? Did he hurt you?" I swear to God, if she was in any less perfect condition than she left me in, I was seriously going to hurt someone.
"No, no he didn't, but he wouldn't leave me alone. He was following Alice at first, but then Jasper surprised her by being in the mall, so they went to go get lunch. I didn't want to be alone with creepy dude, so I grabbed a whole bunch of stuff and stuck myself into a dressing room." She sighed. "Now, since I don't want to be bored, I'm trying on all the things. Some of which are really cute. But don't tell Alice I told you. She'll insist on coming back and dragging me along with her. I feel really bad for Jasper. He lives so close to her, going to NYU." She giggled then sighed. "Edward, I can't wait until I graduate. I told Alice that it be better if we'd get an apartment instead, that way we won't have to stay in Hanover forever. It's not my favorite place, but at least it doesn't rain forever like in Forks."
"Bella, I don't care. As long as I'm with you."
"Awe, you're so sweet." She paused. "Hold on, I have to take off my shirt." I groaned at her innocent words, the simplicity making my body react. My heart sped for no apparent reason. "Okay. Ooh. I don't like it. It makes my chest look too small. How ironic yeah? Vicky's is supposed to make my chest bigger." Oh. My. God. All that came to mind was the sight of Bella's naked chest underneath my body as we made love. God, please have mercy on me.
"Bella. Stop it," I complained.
"What? What did I do?" She said, alarmed. She hummed a sweet melody. It was cute how innocent she was. What wasn't cute was the way she had me so wrapped around her. She was always on mind.
"It's bad enough that I can't see you," I said.
"Well then I guess it's a good thing that there's only six days to wait and not seven. She said I'd be there early Saturday night. How do you like that?" I smiled widely.
"Bella, it's honestly the highlight of my day," I said truthfully. I went to my desk, switching on my laptop. I opened a new document and began typing my paper.
"Really? I thought there was going to be some sort of problem."
"Bella, if I could, I'd have you around all the time. You're my life. I can't live without you," I said leaning back in my desk chair. I stared blankly at the ceiling, listening to Bella.
"You're so romantic Edward. I love you so much. I wish I could think of things like that to say to you," She said in a glazed clear voice.
"Bella, 'I love you' is enough for me to hear."
"Well, what if I give you a song? I was with Alice the other day and we were listening to her iPod and there was this really nice song and it reminded me of all the things you say to me." She was so sweet it was almost too sweet. Like an ocean of sugar you wanted to devour so completely it almost hurt to look at it. Bella was like that for me. It was sometimes I woke up and thought it was too good to be true that I had Bella all to myself. That Bella was mine and no one else's. That she'd marry me and live with me. But reality can gift us sometimes.
"How about we listen to it together?" I asked her.
"Deal." There was a little bit of shuffling, then Bella said the very words I didn't want to hear.
"I have to go Edward. Alice is nagging at me. I'll call you in a few hours. I love you."
"I love you, too, Bells. Tell Alice I said Hi."
"She says Hi back."
"I love you Edward," Bella said again. "Don't forget that."
"No chance in Hell that I'll forget that Bella. I love you too."
I hung up and set my phone next to the computer. I typed an actuality of nine and a half pages by night fall, exhausted afterward. I yawned, heading toward my bed. I shed my clothing, except for my underwear and climbed in to bed, falling to sleep immediately.
The week passed along by quickly, simple calls from Bella keeping me sane. It was James' party that threw it all to the dog. It was the worst few hours of my life. If I could, I would trade it all back.
That was a lie. If I could, I'd get rid of Tanya. Or at least deport her halfway across the world.
So maybe I shouldn't have done all those body shots and had that many beers. I wasn't driving though, but I did become a totally different person when I drank. Nothing violent, but I did tend to get. . . loose when I drank.
Tanya and I were in a mass of bodies, dancing closer than any sane person would have wanted her to. We were face to face, my hands safely on her hips, but her hips were pressed hard against mine as we swayed to the obscene lyrics of the hip-hop music that was blasting through. . .the things where music plays from.
Tanya had a super glazed face, staring up at me. No doubt she was beautiful, strawberry blonde hair, sexy figure, and soft creamy skin. It was hard not to think she was beautiful, until she opened her mouth and said something really . . .not smart.
"Edward," she said lowly, but I could hear her. "Edward, I really like you." I nodded, still swaying. Sadly, drinking lowered my IQ.
"I like you, too, Tanya." She smiled, then kissed me on the lips hard like she was trying to make a point. It took a while for her actions to register as wrong, but by while, I meant two seconds longer. I pulled away from her before things escalated. Immediately, I looked around and saw Irina's angry face. Her eyes smoldered with betrayal and rabid anger, I could almost see her fuming.
Instinctively, I ran after her. At least, I had to explain myself. But she was impossible to find in the crowd, especially since I was impaired, and there were approximately a million people in that one part of the house. I groaned and Tanya appeared behind me.
"Baby, she's just jealous of you and me," she said grabbing my arm. I shrugged her off.
"Tanya. I don't like you! I can barely tolerate you! Just stay the hell away from me. There is no you and me. No us. Just. . ." I didn't even finish my thought. I walked away, finding Seth easily. I grabbed his arm pulling him aside.
"Can we leave?" I asked him? He shrugged.
"It is pretty late, and I do have the paper. . . Do you know where Leah is?" I shook my head at his words. He shrugged. "I'll take you."
Seth was a rather slow driver, but nonetheless, he took me exactly where I needed to be. In the dorm room, I shed my shirt, jeans, shoes and socks, then crashed into a deep sleep.
I woke up feeling completely horrible, my head throbbing hard and ruthlessly. I shivered incessantly for a while, then gagged a few times, wanting to vomit. I probably looked as bad as I felt, but I was too sunk under to get up and look at my reflection through a mirror.
The light shone too bright into the dorm room, the blinds still open from the day before. I lay my arm over my eyes, blocking out the light. Then, my phone jingled Bella's familiar ring tone. I sprung up to answer it, after searching the floor for it. I sat on the edge of the bed as I pressed the "talk" button.
"Hello?" I answered groggily.
"It's about fucking time!" Bella screamed. "What the hell Edward? Have you been ignoring my calls? I've been calling you all afternoon. Come get me. Now," she demanded. I was pretty much speechless, until I found a lingering piece of intellect in my head. I tried to remember anything I had done wrong, but my mind was too foggy.
"Bella, what's wrong?" I asked. I cleared my throat, but that made my head hurt worse. I wanted to go back to sleep.
"I'm fucking pissed, Edward. I've been waiting here at the airport for an hour and a half, calling you to come get me. Oh, wait, maybe you were with some blonde girl. Do you like her, too, Edward? Or is she there so you can fuck her while I'm here? Tell me now." Last night's events came flooding back, my head throbbing with disgust.
"Bella, you know I'm not like that-"
"Then explain why the fuck Victoria woke me up this morning telling me you were with some other girl. Do you know how that makes me feel?" She yelled. "Just hurry up and come get me, or I'm going home." The line went dead.
Compared to today, yesterday was the best day of my life. That's saying something.
I got showered quickly and got dressed, taking two aspirin before I left.
The drive to the airport wasn't long, but I realized it was already almost seven. Bella stood there waiting, her arms crossed over her chest, her face red, her eyes puffy. She looked up at me and her eyes began to water, the tears falling over and dripping down her cheeks. She wiped at them furiously.
"Let's go." She carried her things back and let herself into the car. She resumed her position with her arms crossed over her chest. She looked straight ahead as I drove away. "Explain yourself Edward Cullen." She still didn't look at me.
"Well, Seth asked me to go with him to James' party. I didn't want to go, but I decided to anyway. I had more than a few beers and a few shots, and then I started dancing with Tanya. Nothing happened, but she told me she liked me then she kissed me. I pulled away but Irina, Tanya's sister, saw, and she ran away. Then I went back to the school. Nothing, nothing happened between me and anyone. I didn't do anything and would never do something to hurt you like that Bella. Never."
"Right now, Edward, I'm really hurt. You hurt me a lot and I feel used up and trashy, like you don't even care." She stopped speaking and my heart squeezed in my chest at her words. I parked, getting out. Bella followed in suit, following me. We sat on a bench, but instead of sitting as far as she could from me, she sat right next to me, close enough to feel the warmth radiate from her body, looking up at my face.
I took her left hand, my thumb running over the engagement ring I place on her finger not too long ago. "Bella, I made a promise to you to love you, and only you when I asked you to marry me. I want only you. There's no one else that can make me feel the way you do, Bella. There's nothing that can take me away from you. Nothing and no one will give me the things you do, Bella. There is, and will never be, no one else. I love you more than anything or any words can express. There's nothing else to say. When I asked you to marry me, it was because I was done trying to find my soul. Yeah, Bella, it mind sound like a bunch of shit, but I need you to know that my heart is yours, and you complete me like no one ever can. That kiss was a sole waste of my time and I wish it wouldn't have happened more than anyone, because it's doing this to us. Bella, you are the most valuable thing to me, my reason for waking up in the morning, my reason for living period. I don't want you to think I committed an act of adultery because I wanted to. I didn't and don't want anyone but you Bella." I sighed when I finished talking. Bella was crying now, her cheeks covered in tears. I reached over reluctantly to wipe them away, and she let me, leaning into my touch
"Edward, it's the only thing I want to hear from you. The only thing I wanted to hear. I was scared Edward. I thought you didn't want me. I thought you wanted the other girl instead of me. Do you want me?" She asked. Her voice was soft and careful as she looked at me with wide chocolate eyes.
"I want you more than anything Bella. But it always seems to be that something is in the way. Something is always trying to keep us apart. I don't want to have to be apart from you Bella. I want to be with you for as long as I live. For as long as I can be with you. Is that okay?" Her tears fell harder. I pulled her into my arms as she cried.
"Edward. It's better than anything I can ask for," she said. Her voice was a little wobbly, but it was the words behind the voice that mattered. "I love you Edward. Don't ever do that to me. I thought I was broken. I thought we were broken. Never do that to me again. It hurts too much to think about what would have happened to me if you would have left me."
"Then don't think about it Bella. It's never going to happen."
"Promise?" she asked with a small voice.
"I promise." I held her tighter to me, and she sighed, content.
"Take me inside Edward," she said. I picked her up, seeing her smile like she always did, beautiful and gleaming, outshining the rest. I carried her effortlessly up to my dorm room, setting her down when I reached the door. We walked in, and she took off her jacket, draping it over the desk chair. She slipped out of her sneakers and walked across the room to my bed. She situated herself underneath the messy heap of blankets. With a nod, she motioned me to come join her. I turned and locked the door, copying her same movements and climbing into bed. I lay next to her, Bella's body pressed nicely against mine, familiar and missed, my body reacting by wrapping an arm around her waist. She pulled out her iPod, connecting herself to it. She handed me an ear bud, and played a song.
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard a sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your heart
(My heart, it beats for you)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart, my heart is your heart
(It beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart, my heart is yours
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
My heart is...yours
my heart is yours...
The song ended, and somewhere in the midst of listening to it, Bella and I found ourselves kissing each other softly. She pulled away, a sweet smile playing her lips. She took my hand and placed it over her heart.
"This heart," she recited, "it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours." I moved my hand so I cupped her face, running my fingers through the soft brown silky hair that subtlety covered Bella's face. She leaned forward, letting my lips meet hers in a warm, passionate way. Bella's hands traveled up my shirt, her warm fragile hands resting on my skin. My nerves felt like they were on fire, Bella's touch igniting wild flames. She took it off, her hands exploring my warm skin. She pulled herself away from me, peeling off her own shirt, as well as the white eyelet bra she was wearing. She pressed her bare chest against mine, her nipples hard, and her hands desperate. I ran my hand over her waist, down over her backside, pulling her leg over my hip. Bella kissed me harder, more wanting, more ferociously, her fingers tangled in my hair. She held me to her, showing me exactly what she wanted. She took my other hand, putting it on the button of her jeans.
As much as I craved to bury myself deep inside of her, I wanted to take it slow, explore every part of her body and reacquaint myself with the parts I loved about her. The way her hips curved, her slight waist, her long milky white legs. I wanted to remember the way she felt underneath my hands, how warm she was next to me, how my body and hers fit perfectly together. I wanted to familiarize myself with the sweet scent of her hair and skin, how the scent drove me wild. How perfect she was for me in everyway possible, how compatible we were for each other, physically and mentally. She stopped her actions, pulling away from me. I looked at her, her chocolaty brown eyes wide, her eyelashes wet and glistening in the remaining light of the day.
"Edward, what's wrong?" she asked, breathing hard. I put a hand on her waist as she sat up and straddled my waist.
"I don't want to have sex with you-" she cut me off before I could finish
"We don't have to, Edward. We can just cuddle-" she rested her hands on my chest. I noticed how comfortable she was with me, how I could have almost ruined it for us both. I couldn't live without her.
"No, Bella, you misunderstood me. I don't want it to just be sex where you leave with bruises and red marks on your neck. I want to make love to you, for it to be perfect and sweet.." Bella leaned down and captured me in a kiss, sliding off of me and pulling me on top of her. She snaked her arms around my neck her fingers weaving through my hair. Slowly, I took off her pants and frilly little underwear, throwing them somewhere around the room. I undressed my self as well, anxious to feel Bella's skin against mine. Her wet core collided with my stomach as she wrapped her arms around my waist. I touched her, caressed her skin, her clit, stroking her as she attempted to continue kissing me, but instead, unwrapped her arms from my neck and grabbed the comforter of the bed.
"Yes, Edward," she whispered, but moved my hand from her core. "I want you inside me." She unhooked her legs, spreading them wider. "Make love to me, Edward," she said. I stared into her eyes as I thrust into her. She shut her eyes briefly, reopening then to look at me. She arched her back a little as I thrust again, feeling her wet and tight around me. She sighed as I took her arms and put them over her head, resting them against the pillows. She freed one hand, placing it softly on my waist. Her touch electrified me. I leaned down and kissed her, thrusting deeper than the last time, Bella's legs linking around my waist. It was unlike anything that could me imagined or recreated. Bella was mine, and I had to fight hard to keep it that way.
Bella bucked her hips upward, moving as I dove deeper and harder. Bella dug her nails into my back, drawing lines.
"Harder, Edward, please," she moaned in my ear. I did, and that's when I felt Bella grow tight around me, then spring into an orgasm, clutching me to her as I moved and let the waves of pleasure crash down on me. Bella's eyes filled with tears. That never happened before.
"Bella, what's wrong?" I asked softly, my face inches away from hers.
"I love you, that's all." I rolled off of her, pulling her close to me as we situated ourselves underneath the comforter and bed sheets.
"I love you too Bella."
"I don't think I can stand being away from you any longer," she said to me, looking up. "It's making us do weird things." I smiled at her and kissed her perfect lips. "I have a surprise for you," she said sleepily.
"Yeah?" I asked her. I didn't want anything else. This was more than enough for me.
"Mhm. The apartment is ready. Alice fixed it up the last couple of days. You can move in whenever you'd like." She traced absent patterns on my skin.
"But it's not good if you're not there to share it with me," I said to her.
"I know, that's why I made a deal with the little devil pixie. I let her decorate if she arranged for me to be able to come at least every weekend. You'll get to see me more often."
"Every weekend?" I asked, disbelieving.
"Yep. Just me and you alone."
"Sounds like heaven."
"I know, right? I love you Edward, and your heart is forgiven."
"Thank you Bella. I love you too."
We both fell asleep on that last note, waking up in each other's arms. We didn't move, we just lay there still and unmoving, enjoying the peace. Of course we'd be interrupted.
There was an urgent knock at the door, so I disentangled myself from Bella's form, pulled on my boxers and answered the door.
"Edward," Tanya said. Her eyes were red and puffy like she'd been crying. "I'm so sorry."
"Tanya, I really don't want talk to you right now," I said sharply. Her eyes bagan to water again.
"But I need to talk to you. I need to apologize for what happened that night at James'." I was going to protest when I heard Bella's voice.
"Edward, let her inside," Bella said from behind me. Bella sat up in the bed, wearing the shirt I had been wearing yesterday. Tanya sat on James' bed while I sat on the bed next to Bella. Shouldn't Bella have gone off on Tanya like she did Alice. Bella confused me.
"Edward, I'm sorry and I'm sorry for being so out of line. I didn't mean to be so clingy, especially since you weren't mine to cling to. I thought that maybe if you got to know me more, you might like me. But I realize that it's not going to work out. SoI wanted to apologize to you and . . ." She looked in Bella's enviously.
"Bella," she introduced herself.
"Right, well, I'm really sorry if caused anything between you and Edward. It's my fault and I shouldn't have done what I did."
"What exactly did you do?" Bella aked. I loked between the two women, switching my glance between both Bella and Tanya, wishing she'd stop ruining my life.
"Well, I was dancing with Edward and I told him I liked him and then I kissed him. I wouldn't have been lead on if he hadn't said that he liked me back."
"So he said he liked you back! That doesn't give you the right to go around kissing people's fiances! Keep your hands to your hands to yourself, and take a fucking hint. He said he didn't like you, so go away. Is it hard to understand?" Bella said, going off on a rant. I held her hand, but she snatched it away from me, using it to point at Tanya as she stood up. "I don't like the fact that you're bothering Edward all the time and doing things lke kissing him. I don't ever want it to happen again. Do you understand?" Bella demanded. Tanya nodded. "And tell your bratty sister to mind hr own goddamn business."
"I'm really sorry again," Tanya reminded us.
"Yeah, we know," Bella dismissed. She walked Tanya to the door. I could only hear her words faintly. "If you ever so much as look at him again, I'll give you something to cry about. Keep you hands and the rest of your body to yourself skank. Am I understood?"
"Yes, Bella." Bella closed the dorr without a proper good bye, plodding back over to me. She stradled my lap, resting her head on my shoulder.
"Was I too mean?" Bella asked softly. She looked at me, her brown eyed melted and warm. I put a hand on her face, pulling her forward. I kissed her pasionately, wonderfuly, hard and long, my hands pulling her as close as we were physically possible. I just couldn't stand it; I wanted her to be closer. But I guess I was going to have to settle for this. It was more than i deserved, but I, as selfish as I was, never wanted to let her go, to leave me for one second. It was times like these I wanted to last forever, not the boring classes and long hours of homework. I wanted just to be secluded with Bella forever, to be left alone. It was a lot to aske for, especially in the situation I was in, but I knew Bella wanted it too. If Bella wanted it, then I'd do anything in my power to let her have it. It's all because I love her. More than she'd ever even know.
It was definitely hard writng only in Edward's POV, but I liked it. Next chapter, it'll be about Bella, but it probably wont be a long. Defifnitely not as long. But next chapter will contain some old friends and some serious butt kicking at Halo 3.
Happy Sahmain! (Haloween holiday for us Wiccans)
Esie