"Okay, so for sure, for sure, I'm pregnant, Bells." Alice said, her sobs louder than her actual voice. It shattered my heart some.

"It's okay Alice, we'll get through this," I sighed. I was careful not to make any more sound than I already was, careful not wake Edward as well. He was a wake late last night and I didn't want him to be crankier than a woman when he woke up.

"So what are you going to do?" I whispered softly. Tears welled in my eyes. As much as I didn't want the drama to be on Edward and me, I didn't want them to be on my best friend either.

"I'm going to not have the baby. I can't take a paternity test until the baby is born. I know it's totally wrong, but I'm going to have an abortion. I can't do this to Jasper." Alice was crying less now, her sobs soft and almost silent.

"I think you should tell Jasper what happened," I said to her. "Maybe he'll help you. Maybe he'll understand."

"You're right. We were on a break and it was a stupid mistake to make, but I can't hurt him like that. What if he thinks I'm a cheater and doesn't want to get back together with me? I don't know if I could handle this."

"Alice, you're not a cheater. You made a mistake," I said sternly. "Maybe he did the same."

"Whatever Bella. I'm not in the mood to deal with this right now. I'm calling Jasper." And with that, she hung up.

I didn't waste my time calling her back, so I just set my phone down on the nightstand and snuggled back into Edward.

God, Edward. I felt so bad for him. He comes to visit me, both of us sexually frustrated, and he ends up doing my homework and taking care of me as I slept like I was dead to the world. We haven't even kissed that much. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night, and instead of taking advantage of an awake Edward, I kissed him lightly and fell back to sleep. What a lousy fiancée I am.

I turned to look at him. He was lying on his back, one arm slung over his face to block the light from coming in. I dropped a kiss lightly on his chest. And since I didn't want to wake him just yet, I cleaned up my room and then went to get some breakfast, when I noticed the bag on top of my desk. Inside were two servings of spaghetti and cheesecake. Strawberry cheesecake. It was my favorite food in the entire world, and I had missed it because I was asleep. He really must love me not to feel bothered by all of this. But it bothered me, and I had to make it up to him somehow. So I put it in the mini fridge Victoria had in the room, leaving her a note that said she could eat it if she wanted, and left to the Cafeteria.

Somehow, I couldn't feel bad for Alice and her problem. I wasn't sure what the hell is wrong with me, but I couldn't help the fact that I honestly didn't care. I felt bad for it, but it was eating me away. Why would she have done that? Sleep with someone else other than Jasper. I was contradicting myself, but still. I felt bad for her sure, but I mean it was a bad thing to be tangled in. And Alice had no sympathy for me when I was going through the same thing she was going though. Except Edward had gotten me pregnant instead of some random guy. I mean Jesus! They had been together most of her life. When we were in elementary school, he would look after her and make sure she was safe and looked after, since she was so small. Now, it was like she didn't even care. Something was wrong with her, like she was possessed.

Actually, I was kind of pissed at myself for letting yesterday happen. I wanted to be alone with Edward, and not have this burden to carry around. But as you can see, that wasn't possible. But I would make it up to Edward. He deserved that if not anything else.

I bought all kinds of breakfast foods from the cafeteria, and then nearly lost my balance bumping in to some guy. Instead of letting me fall, he stabilized me and helped me up.

"Super model with no balance," he said. The girl standing next to him laughed a little.

That's when I looked up. It was Jacob. "Jake! Oh, god, it feels like forever since I've seen you! How have you been?" I said to him, hugging him with an arm. "Hi, Leah!" I threw an arm around her and she hugged me back.

He chuckled. "Good Bella. I've been good. Actually I came with Leah to visit a friend. I didn't know this was your campus too." Jacob and Leah were holding hands, signaling their back togetherness. I smiled.

"It is. Though I'm graduating this Spring." I smiled excitedly at the thought of not coming back to school and having a job and living with Edward. "So you guys . . ."

"Yeah," Leah said. "He apologized."

Jacob laughed. "And I meant it."

I smiled.

"So are you and Edward still engaged?" Leah asked.

"Yeah. He's actually here, sleeping."

"Oh, that's cool," Jake said. He smiled at me.

I remember the first time I saw Jacob. He was amazingly hot, no lie, but that's because he was dressed for a clubbing event. He was that one friend that would have had girls hanging on him all the time and was a player. Now, he was all laid back, with a regular t-shirt, jeans, and his hair was cut. Still like a player, though a lot less more like it.

"Oh, my God! What did you do to your hair?" I almost screamed.

"I cut it. I got tired of it."

"Oh, but it was so beautiful," I said.

"See!" Leah exclaimed. "I'm not the only one," she said.

"Oh, well," he said.

"Hey, I have to get back to my room; I'm in charge of breakfast," I said. But, if you guys want, we could hang out later," I suggested. "The four of us, I mean."

"Sure Bella. Just call me when you're free," Jacob said.

"Yeah, totally. We could go see a movie or head to the beach," Leah said.

"Cool. Talk to you later then," I said. I hugged them again, and then left back to my sleeping Edward.

I left to my dorm room. When I got there, there was a note taped to the door.

Hey, Edward, it's Zafrina.

Lauren gave me Bella's room number.

Missed you last night.

Maybe we could try again.

I'd really like to see you.

Oh, by the way, here's my number.

Love, Zafri.

Love?

I honestly didn't know what I should do, but I knew I couldn't be mad,because it said nothing about anything I should be mad about. I should trust Edward. He'd never done anything wrong to me. Except I couldn't help being a little ticked off about some chick leaving him a note. I walked into the room and Edward was sitting up, rubbing his eyes, like he'd just woken up. I snatched the paper off the door in a snippy action. I walked over to him, handing him the note.

More like, throwing the note at him.

"Who's Zafrina?" I asked indifferently trying not to let my anger seep out. It wasn't working. My voice held a small bite.

"Oh, shit. I completely forgot," he muttered. Then to me he said, "She's a friend of Lauren's. She's really cool and nice. She invited us to hang out with her but you were sleeping."

"Oh. That's . . ." I struggled for the right word, trying not to be a bitch about it, "nice. I don't seem to know her."

"Yeah, I figured that. But she's really cool. I've never had a friend like her. She's pretty too, tall with long black hair. She reminds me of a Hispanic Alice," Edward said. His voice sounded happy.

"A friend like what Edward?" I asked. I frowned.

"Zafrina's gay, Bella," he said. His eye held a soft twinkle. Why every guy got excited for that, I had no clue, but I wasn't about to go and burst his bubble.

I burst into laughter completely embarrassed that I would think Edward was cheating on me, or seeing another girl behind my back. "Oh. I thought-" Edward cut me off.

"You thought what?" He asked innocently.

"I don't know," I said in a small voice. "I guess I thought you and she were involved."

Edward didn't say anything, but his expression turned sour.

"I saw the note and-"

"Bella! What do I have to do to show you I'm one hundred percent faithful to you? You don't seem to be getting that part." He stood up from the bed and stared at me. I walked over to him.

"It's not you. I know it's not. It's because of Alice. She's put insecurities in my head." I leaned against him, and he pulled me to him, holding me as tight as he could without hurting me. "Hold me tighter," I whispered. He did.

"Bella, if it's not you, then it's no one else. I can promise you that one. I promise. I love you so much, you have to believe me," he whispered.

"I do. It's just me being stupid. It's the whole thing with Alice and Jasper. I keep forgetting there are faithful people in this world. But I would like to meet your new friend," I said softly. I looked up at him, smiling.

"Later. Right now, I have breakfast with my beautiful fiancée and then we could go see a movie."

I smiled. "Okay."

And that's exactly what we did. Edward and I at the breakfast I had brought and then we showered and left to a little plaza. We picked a movie that would be suitable for us both. Nothing scary and nothing too completely romantic. So we settled on Fast and the Furious.

And let me tell you, I had never seen Paul Walker look so damn sexy. Of course, he was nothing next to my Edward.

After the movie, we went for a coffee at a little café.

"Bella, I want to talk to you about something," Edward said seriously. I put my cup of coffee down and looked at him straight in the eye.

"What about?" I asked a little wary.

"Our wedding," he said with a chuckle.

"Oh."

"Bella," he said with a smile. "There's nothing to be worried about," he said.

"I know, but that word just makes me a little nervous. Obviously, I don't really have a lot of support of weddings." I looked down and stared into my cup of hazelnut coffee.

Edward took my hand in his.

"Bella, I love you. And you and I getting married can only proclaim it more. I don't know how else I can tell you I want to be with you forever."

I smiled a little. "Edward, I'm just nervous about the whole walking down the aisle and maybe falling on my face."

"Don't worry. Everything will be padded," he said with a bright smile. I stuck my tongue out at him. "Any way, I wanted to maybe get started on planning, that maybe we could get married over the summer . . ."

"You've thought about this, haven't you?" I accused him lightly.

"Yes, I have. I can't stop thinking about it Bella. It's impossible not to think about it." He rubbed circles lightly over the back of my hand. His eyes sparkled with immense delight.

"Wow. I mean you've wanted this for a while, haven't you?" I asked him.

"Honestly Bella, I never thought I was going to marry you, the girl of my dreams, but I did think about getting married quite a lot. I never saw myself like Emmett who played around when he and Rosalie weren't together, or like Jasper who isn't sure of what he actually wanted. I knew since I was around fifteen that I wanted to get married to the perfect woman and have a perfect life with her. That's what I want, and I'm damn sure of it Bella, that I wan that life with you. I just want to be able to call you my wife instead of my fiancée."

"I don't care Edward. We could get married tomorrow if you wanted to. Today even. But if you want this to be elaborate and wonderful and perfect, then you can have that too. I just want you to myself too. I want that too, believe me. I do."

"Then over the summer then?" he asked,

"Right at the end, just before my birthday." I smiled at Edward and shivered. "I'm really excited kind of now. It's a weird feeling. A good feeling though. I love you, Edward."

I could never show her how much I loved her. Ever and it was a sad shame because I did love her a lot and I wished I could have done something more than a simple, I love you.

"I love you too, Bella."

After that, we left back to her dorm, two notes posted on the door.

One was from Zafrina.

One was from Jacob.

Honestly, I had nothing against him personally, but I didn't like the way he looked at Bella. It was kind of like she was something to eat to him. It disgusting really.

You fail to call. I'm thinking someone is jealous.

Z.

I smiled at Zafrina's note, but not too much. Bella on the other hand was giggling like crazy.

Bella, please call me. Tell your boyfriend I'm not going to steal you from him.

I just want to tell you dirty jokes and get you drunk.

Jacob

It was things like that bothered me. The way he referred to Bella like a piece of meat. Jesus. I mean he could be polite, at least. Some guys just didn't change.

"Bella do you want to hang out with them? I mean, we could see Jacob and Zafrina both," I suggested.

"No. I don't want to see anyone Edward. I just want to be with you. We can hang out with them next time. It's spring break and I'm not going to sit here and pretend I'm not going to combust from sexual frustration, waiting until the absolute last minute to have sex with you. I don't think so. Whether you like it or not, we're having sex right now."

"Okay by me," I said to her. She giggled. She unlocked the door to the dorm room and she pulled me inside. But instead of furthering our actions, we stopped.

Victoria was sitting on the bed with a crying friend. I sighed in frustration.

"Argh," Bella said. I agreed with every fiber of my being.

"Let's just go die," Bella whispered, pulling me out of the dorm and into the hallway. "Life isn't fair."

"Bella, I'm here all week," I said.

"No, that's not the point, but I do have an idea. I think maybe we should go to Forks for Spring Break. I mean, my dad e-mailed me and said he was going to visit his brothers in Nevada and will be gone for the week. We could stay there. How about that?"

The idea had its appeal. But I felt bad for Zafrina. I guess I really could see her next time. I saved her number anyway.

"Well that sounds okay. But why go to Washington for Spring Break?" I asked her.

"Because we've both never been much of drinkers, and it will ensure us time alone," she said.

We walked back inside the room and Bella was in the phone booking flights and I was busy grabbing all of her stuff and stuffing it into a bag, making sure to grab things like her Pill case and her toothbrush. But in the midst of it, I called Zafrina.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Is this Zafrina?" I asked.

"No, this is Senna. May I ask whose speaking?" the woman on the other side said.

"Oh, could you please tell her that Edward called. And that I'm sorry for leaving on such short notice," I said.

"No problem Edward. Thanks for calling," she said. She clicked off and I hung up. When I turned to Bella, she was giggling on the phone.

"Sorry," she said. "Just have fun with Leah, 'kay?" She laughed some more, then hung up. She looked at me. "Ready to go?" she asked. I nodded. "Then lets go," she smiled. Bella said goodbye Victoria after making her bed and we were off campus and at the airport faster that I could have said bye.

BPOV

A flight to Forks was leaving in an hour, and there were still first class seats left. It wasn't shallow or anything, but after flying first class more than a few times, coach was a little claustrophobic.

Edward and I sat next to each other, and I was rather content. We'd have a house all to ourselves for the next eight days. Heaven on earth for sure.

I fell asleep on the flight like I always did, waking up only right before the flight was landing. Edward let me off the plane, and helped me inside the airport. While we waited for our luggage, I bought a caramel frappe and a brownie. I restored some energy while he called a cab for someone to come get us.

Instead of going directly to my house, we left to Edward's to get his car. But we ended up staying there a while. Inside, we ate and Edward played piano for a bit. We were both too tired to actually have sex, so we mutually decided to wait until tomorrow.

We went up to the third story of the house, to Edward's bedroom and I collapsed on the bed, the comfort engulfing me completely. Edward went over to the balcony and opened the doors to let in a breeze. It was a little chilly, but it was fine all the same.

I stared at Edward, watching him as he straightened up his room, putting everything in its place and picking up things from the floor. The way he moved was so graceful, so beautiful I was awestruck. It took me a few minutes to realize he'd been calling my name.

"What?" I said answering him.

"What are you looking at Bella?" Edward said. I shrugged and smiled.

"You seriously have to know how beautiful you are Edward," I said to him. He sighed.

"Bella, don't start that again."

"Why not? You call me beautiful all the time," I said sitting up.

"That's because you are," he said. He climbed on the bed, pushing me down. His body's weight was so comforting on mine. I circled my arms around his neck.

He kissed me softly, slowly building heat and intensity. And it all came back, all the longing, all the want, all the lust. The heat between us had accumulated so much, that the heat was palpable. I pulled him closer to me, holding him firmly to my body.

Slowly, we stripped each other from our clothes, not hurrying, but being playful and kissing and touching and being natural between us both. Edward was soft with his caresses, but I was eager and ready for him to fill me.

With the last piece of clothing falling to the floor, I lay back on the bed, letting Edward position himself between my legs. I gasped when I felt him slide slowly inside me. I placed my hand on his shoulders, feeling his muscles flex underneath my fingertips. He moved slowly at first, just indulging in the feeling, kissing my lips and my neck and everywhere he could reach. But then his movements grew urgent quickly, pushing in and out with insane rhythm. His lips were almost touching mine, but not quite; his breath teased my lips, warm and hot, completely making me writhe underneath him. My hands slid down the side of his body over his butt, urging him deeper.

"Harder," I moaned, wanting him to fill me and have me and completely take me in any way he wanted. I moaned and sighed as he grunted and complied. I slinked my legs around his hips, urging him to go deeper still, until it was all too much and I unraveled into nothing, convulsing and shuddering as Edward hit his climax and was shuddering on top of me as well. I felt heat spear through me, warming my veins and my entire body into oblivion, past anything I've ever dreamed.

Panting, I wiggled free from underneath Edward, lying next to him, wrapping my arms about his body still seeking the warmth he had to offer.

"That was . . ." I whispered.

"I know," he said back.

"Eight days of this, you realize that right?" I said with an evil grin.

Edward chuckled. "Yes of course I realize this. That's why we can fall asleep without wiping ourselves out." He slid on top of me, kissing my lips and indulging my senses into overdrive. When he pulled away, I was dizzy.

I laughed. "I love you, Edward," I said.

"I love you, too, Bella," he said. And then I was out.

All right. I'm posting more often now! I'll try to have another chapter by Friday, or maybe Wednesday next week. Happy reading!!!!

Oh, bedsides, if you like my story you'll like Never meant to Be, By Sweetdulcinea, or The Arrangement, by manyafandom. They're absolutely great, but they are a bit kinky and flashy and smutty. But hey. To each his own.

Love Esie.