Living What I Hope Isn't a Dream Chapter 18: Waking Up in Spring Break, a twilight fanfic

Hello again Friends! This chapter is purely fluff, Just Edward and Bella being Edward and Bella. I hope you guys like it!

BPOV

I woke up before Edward, but I stayed beside him, too warm and comfortable to move. But I came bored too fast, squirming. I debated on whether I should wake Edward up or not, and then debated against it, and decided to go make Edward some cookies and clean the rest of the house.

I showered quickly, waking my hair and letting it air dry, and pulled on Edward's shirt from the night before and a pair of my boy short underwear from the drawer.

There wasn't too much to clean, just a few things here and there while the cookies were baking, but I had some fun as I turned on the music. I was dancing and parading in the living room, stacking fashion magazines and placing game controllers away.

I was listening to my favorite radio station when they played The Veronicas.

The lights are out and I barely know you
We're going up and the place is slowing down
I knew you'd come around

I swayed to music, singing along.

You captivate me, something about you has got me
I was lonely now you make me feel alive
Will you be mine tonight?

Take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can't take it any more (dadada da dadadada)
I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love

I spun around, and kept dancing.

Just take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can give you more (dadada da dadadada)
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

This time when I spun around, Edward was at the bottom of the stairs, dripping wet with water, his body only covered in jeans. I could see his boxers, red plaid, creeping out from the top of his jeans as they hung low on his hips. He had an amused smile playing his lips.

Instead of being embarrassed, I walked over to him, pulling him closer to me, wrapping my arms around his neck, all the while still singing along to the song. He was still smiling, but he wrapped his arms around my waist and we swayed-

My heart is racing as you're moving closer
You take me higher with every breath I take
Would it be wrong to stay

One look at you and I know what you're thinking
Time's a bitch and my heart is sinking down
You turn me inside out

-Until I ripped myself from his arms and threw myself on the floor, looking at him with the most sedective look I could muster.

He rolled his eyes and shook his head.

Take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can't take it any more (dadada da dadadada)
I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love
Just take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can give you more (dadada da dadadada)
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna kiss a boy
I wanna ...

I stood up and stalked over to him, pulling him down so that he was able to feel my lips as they continued to move while I sang.

I wanna kiss a girl (do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya)
I wanna kiss a girl (do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya)
I wanna kiss a boy (do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya)
I wanna kiss a (kiss a, kiss a, kiss a)

Edward kissed my jaw and then continued to trail down so he was kissing my neck.
dadada da dadadada
dadada da dadadada
dadada da dadadada

"Oh," I moaned at the same part the song did. I could feel Edward chuckle against my skin.

But he did stop. And instead of saying something sweet or sexy, or something to embarrass me, he just laughed. And I laughed with him.

"That's why I love you. Because you wake up on a Sunday morning at seven o clock just to sing to the radio." Edward leaned down to kiss me.

"Not only sing, but bake cookies," I said with a self satisfied smile.

"There you go. Nothing is better than having a wife that makes cookies,: he said with a laughed.

"Yes there is. A wife who knows erotic ways to eat cookie dough." I smiled and kissed him again. I had a feeling this day would be one of those touchy days where Edward and I were all over each other.

In the kitchen, Edward was licking the spoon of cookie dough while I checked on the cookie dough.

"I honestly don't know how you do it, Bella. I've watched you a billion times make cookies, and they always come out perfect. Nothing is ever wrong with them."

"Well, I guess I'm talented." I shrugged innocently.

"Talented beyond anyone's wildest dreams, that's for sure," Edward agreed, though his mind was somewhere other than cookie dough; he had that twinkle in his eye, the one that made him look dazzling.

When the cookies were done, Edward and I sat in the living room and watch movies for the morning, until we decided we were going out for lunch. We watched all sorts of different kinds of movies. Comedies, like Good Luck Chuck, Romance, like A Walk To Remember, and Action-y movies, like X-Men. I sat between Edward's legs wrapped in a blanket, eating the chocolate chip cookies.

When lunch time rolled around, Edward took me to eat at the little Italian place in Port Angeles. I got dressed in a light blue summer dress and black flats.

I got out of the car, eager to get to Edward. Inside, the hostess was eyeing him obviously, but Edward was completely oblivious. She smiled at Edward and almost scowled at me. I smiled back at her. She lead us to our table, where Angela and Ben were and their daughter Amy sitting. She was a big girl now, but Ben had her on his lap. We all kind of banded together for lunch then.

"Bella! How are you?! God you look great. Where's the little baby? Angela asked. I frowned.

"I had a miscarriage while I was still in my first trimester." Edward put his arm around my shoulder and kissed the top of my head. I sighed.

"Oh, I'm sorry for being stupid," she said softly, putting a hand on mine. "Don't worry; you'll get your chance at a baby. And you'll love every second of being a parent. I know you Bella; you're going to be a great Mom."

"Thanks Ang," I said with a smile. I really hoped I would turn out to be a great mother. Angela made me feel better about that.

We all sat at their table, the waitress taking our orders.

"I'll have the Fettuccini Alfredo," I said. But I had to repeat it since she was staring at Edward who was talking to Ben about cars. She proceeded to take everyone else's orders and then left.

"So how's life?" she asked.

"A little hectic I answered. "But nothing I can't handle. Just overworking myself in school and missing Edward way too much. But it's going well. And you?" I asked. Angela had a smile on her face wider than I'd ever seen.

"Well, Ben and I have been great, and so has Amy. But the only problem is, is that we don't have any one to baptize her." Her smile grew. You'd think she asked like Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt and they had said yes. "And Ben and I were talking and I know it's been a while since we've hung out and talked, but I was thinking that maybe you and Edward could be the godparents."

That I did not expect. But I smiled back at her, almost instantly excited.

"Wow Angela. That's wonderful. That really makes me happy that's you'd choose me for something like that. And Edward too." I turned to Edward, who was talking to Ben, completely unaware of our conversation. I nudged him with an elbow.

"Ow," he muttered. "What's wrong Bella?" he asked.

"Nothing's wrong, it's just that Angela's asked us to be Amy's godparents."

"Whoa," he said.

"Yeah, I know. But I think it's a good idea," I whispered. "I mean, if anything were to ever happen to Angela and Ben, then the baby would come to us. And we're great. So what do you think?" I asked.

"I think its fine. I trust your judgment Bella." He smiled at Angela, then turned back to Ben.

"Yeah, Angela. We'd love to do it," I said.

"Oh, thanks so much Bella! I really appreciate what your doing for me and Ben and Amy."

"No problem, Ang. I'm happy to be apart of your family."

EPOV

After spending time with Bella's friends, it did really seem like a good idea to become a god parent. It was an honor for them to think of Bella that way, to trust her so much. Angela and Bella set a date so that Bella her and Amy could go out and Bella and Amy can get used to each other. Almost instantly though, Amy and Bella clicked, and I could see the longing in her eyes when she smiled at me. Bella beamed for the whole day.

After lunch, Bella and I went to the bookstore so Bella could get a few books she'd wanted to read. When she finally chose three, she said, "That way, you catch me reading when you wake up instead of me making a complete fool of myself."

"Because romance novels are so much better," I said, rolling my eyes. She pushed my shoulder lightly.

"They're better than dancing at eight in the morning to provocative music," she said with a smile.

"But I like it when you do that," I said truthfully. "It's cute."

She rolled her eyes, and kissed my cheek.

Instead of going home then, since it wasn't raining, I took Bella to a meadow. It was only an hour away, and the day was actually nice. TI was cloudy, but it was still sunny and warmer than usual. She was surprised to see it, her face going a light. She looked radiant. She gasped and turned to look at me.

"What is this place?" she asked.

"I used to come here during high school. Only Alice knows about it. Otherwise, it's just a private space." I shrugged.

"Edward, this place screams magic. It's so beautiful. I love it," she said. She leaned me against the car and kissed me a while before taking me to the edge of the circular meadow.

"God, this place is so beautiful. I will never ever get over it," she murmured. She looked up as the sky went over cast.

It started to sprinkle, but instead of Bella diving for cover in the car, she walked further out into the circle as the rain poured over her. I followed her.

We didn't say anything; we just lay on the wet grass getting soaked, holding each other close. Though I had wished for better weathering, this was perfect in itself.

We kissed sometimes, but not anywhere near primal intimacy. Just a chaste kiss here and there and then a longer one and a longer one until it turned into a massive tickling session. Bella straddled my waist, pinning my arms down. She looked directly in my eyes.

"That's not fair, you're not ticklish," she said with a smile.

"I'm sorry. There's not much I can do about that though," I said. Bella laughed. "I love you," I said.

"I love you, too," she responded, and leaned down to kiss me.

After a few more wet moments in the rain, I drove Bella back home. We dressed in our pajamas and headed upstairs. But before going up to my bedroom, Bella went into Alice's bedroom and retrieved a deck of cards.

I gave her a weird look.

"What? I thought we could play cards."

I smiled.

"What are we going to play? Go Fish?" I asked her.

"Why not."

And we did. We played Go Fish, but we never got to finish a game, because Bella always thought I was lying. And I only lied when she was getting close to winning. After about an hour, the cards were strewn across the floor of my bedroom, Bella and I no longer interested in the game, but each other's body. It was hard not to be when Bella was practically a goddess straddling my waist in nothing but her underwear.

She was kissing me, grinding her hips against me, making me harder than what I was already. I pressed her hips down harder.

"Mmm," she hummed in my mouth. I let her go, and she climbed off of me. Taking off the rest of her clothing and freeing me from the confines of my boxers. Bella teased and touched and kissed every inch of my skin, except for the where I actually wanted to be touched. But then all the frustration went away as she kneeled down on the ground in front of the bed as I sat up, and took me in her mouth, so far, I could feel the back of her throat. I groaned and watched the exquisite sight of Bella sucking me off. She made eye contact with me holding my gaze while her hot mouth slid up and down my shaft. The vibrations of her mouth crawled up my spine as she ran her nails over the skin of my abdomen. Bella pulled me out of her mouth and licked her lips, murmuring, "So, good, Edward. You taste so good. I could do this forever." Then she whispered, "Do you like it when I do this to you Edward?" I put my fingers through her hair as she licked a line from the base to the tip.

"God, yes," I breathed. She smiled and proceeded to work a miracle. It didn't take long for everything to build up and want release. It was only when Bella said, "come for me, Edward," that I came hard into her mouth. I groaned when I felt Bella swallow against me. And God it was amazing. It got me thinking to how long it's been since I'd had a blow job from Bella. Way too long to go without something like that.

Bella climbed on top of me, kissed me, and then lay on the bed underneath the covers. She looked at me, her eyes half lidded.

"What's wrong Bella?"

"I don't know. I don't feel good. I think I'm tired," she said. I shot her a look of confusion. "We ca continue later. Just let me rest a while." Then I got really concerned.

"Bella, do you want me to bring you something?" I asked her. She shook her head.

"Okay, well I'll be downstairs then," I said to her. I kissed her forehead, and then got dressed. Downstairs, I thought of something I could do. I didn't think of anything, so I sat at the piano and played for a good while.

It was around nine o' clock when I stopped playing and went into the kitchen to make myself something to eat. I settled for television falling asleep while watching, the Prestige.

I woke up to a whimpering sound, someone crying. I sat up from the sofa, looking around. Bella was sitting at the computer there, her back turned to me, shaking as she cried. I walked over to her, picking her up and setting her on the sofa.

"Why does my life have to be so horrible?" she whispered through her sobs.

"Bella, what's wrong?"

"Why can't I have a mother? A baby? A good family?" She asked.

I smiled softy at her. "From what I see, Bella, you have an enormous family that loves you. You have Esme and Carlisle, who would go to the ends of the world to make sure you are safe. Then there's Alice, who despite her weird mentality would kill anyone who hurt you. Even her self. There's Jasper, who you may not know so well, but makes you feel better about yourself. And Rose. She'd do anything for you. And Emmett too, who has always thought of you as family. And me. I'd sell my soul to the devil to see you smile. Bella, we all love you. I love you. You have the best family anyone could ask for," I told her truthfully. "I don't understand what brought this on."

"Remember when I used to spend summers in Arizona from when I was like eight? Well, my mother and father were happy before that. They were happy together. But then she started cheating on him. And it was a clean break between them, but then she made me do all that stuff and now I'm insecure. What if we get married and you find someone better? Someone worth your time and money and intelligence? What if I'm not good enough?" She cried some more, holding on to my shoulders. She held me close as if she didn't even want to take the chance of letting me go. Not that I was going anywhere anyway.

"Bella, what makes you think that I'm going to find someone better? What makes you think that I could even find someone? Bella, that's not happening. It will never happen. Bella, I know you know I love you. I know that and you know that. If there's something I did that makes you think that, I'm truly sorry. I want to marry you because I want to stay with you. Not marry you and leave. That's not how it works Bella."

"But why? Why me? I'm broken and dumb and not nearly as beautiful as I should be. You should be with someone like Rosalie. Not a Plane Jane like me." She wiped at her eyes.

"Rosalie takes too much maintenance. That's why Emmett is practically her slave. Because they're compatible. I couldn't handle that. Some one who's independent and strong and smart and beautiful, that's someone I can handle, and I love her that way. I love the fact that she knows what she wants and that she can depend on someone without having to be dependent. The fact that even though she's been through things no one should ever go through, she's the strongest woman I've ever met. I love that about that someone. That she's passionate about what she believes in and she doesn't let go. That's what I can handle in someone. And that's exactly what I got. And I am completely happy with that because I love you."

"Whatever you say Edward. I think I just have pre-wedding jitters. I mean, there are only a few months left before we're actually together. I guess that makes me kind of scared. Not that I' scared to be with you, but what will happen afterward."

I smiled at her. "Come here." Bella crawled into my arms and she sat in between my legs, her back to my chest, her head resting on my shoulder. I held her close to me, tighter than anything I could have ever held. "I'm going to tel you what is going to happen after we get married. We are going to go far away from Forks, far away from anywhere and I'm going to make passionate love to you until you're too tired to come anymore. You are going to get pregnant and I will wait on you hand and foot, making sure you are the most comfortable in our house. We are going to have as many children as you want, and they are all going to be beautiful. We will become a family and grow old together, and then we'll see each other in heaven. You'll have a wonderful job become successful, and I will worship you forever, for as long as infinity. That is what's going to happen after we get married. No divorce, no other woman, nothing but you and me and our family. That's all that's ever going to happen. Can you handle that?" I asked her. She giggled.

"I'm sorry for being so stupid Edward. I really don't know what I'm scared of and that's really stupid of me. I love you, and I'm stupid for questioning it." She turned her head and kissed my neck, and I leaned down so I could touch her lips with mine.

We fell back to sleep, both of us, tangled on the sofa. I woke up to the ringing of my phone the next morning.

"Edward!" Alice exclaimed.

"Yeah? What?" I asked into then phone groggily. Bella was curled into a ball her hands wrapped around my waist so I could break out of her grasp without waking her up.

"I'm not pregnant! Jasper was totally understanding of the situation and he said that he did the same, without the pregnancy part, but he understood what happened. And now, everything is right in the world."

Honestly, I was really happy for Alice, just not at five in the morning.

"That's great Ali, but I was kind of sleeping, so if you don't mind . . ." I trailed off, closing my eyes.

"Were are you? It's Sunday. You never sleep in on Sunday. Aren't you heading to class now?" Alice asked. She giggled and I head Jasper's voice. I tensed. It was one thing to know your best friend is sleeping with your little sister, and another to hear it. I was fine with the former. The latter however . . . .

"It's Spring Break, for one, and two, I'm with Bella."

"Oh," she said. "Eventful night, I take it?"

"I'm not discussing that with you, Alice," I said. "And Good bye."

"Bye!"

And then I hung up.

"Everything is right in the world," Bella murmured looking up at me. Sh smiled with her eyes closed and ran her fingers over my chest.

"Yeah, Bells. Everything is right in the world."

Hope you guys liked this chapter. See! Nothing is wrong now. And nothing will be wrong. I'm really tired of writing so much angst and depression. I want this story to have a happy ending. Yay.

Until next chapter. Which should be out this weekend,

Esie.