AN: thanks for the support. :) this isn't going to be a happy love story. I love those types lol but I wanted to do the complete opposite. Explore the idea of Garcia and Morgan in a different situation. There isn't really any timeline to follow. I also will be presenting Morgan's POV, but that's later. :)
I'm here, staring at pictures of us. It's killing me and I know you would never feel this, for me. I would never cause your heart to long for me as mine does for you. I now understand what this was. This affair for almost a year, was that nothing but an affair. I was never long term, I can't even be mad at you. I knew this would happen. I felt it from the moment we did this. My heart wasn't fooled. My mind fought it, claiming to be in control but I never was. You always were. You always were...
Flashback
I was nursing a glass of scotch. Rossi really got me to appreciate it. Haha who would've thought. I shake my head, remembering our occasional scotch and vinyl nights. He was like father to me, so kind, and full of oh wise one. Then I heard a knock at my door. I went to look at through the peephole and there he is. I know I should answer but I can't stop myself as I unlock the door and let him in.
"What are you doing?" He said with desire and rage.
I blink, unsure how to respond at first,"Having a drink. Would you care for one?"
He stares and walks over to my glass and smells it, "Since when do you drink scotch? No I don't want a drink."
I sigh, "Rossi actually convinced me that it's pretty good." I smiled at the memory.
He snaps,"What's with the smile? You and Rossi huh?" With the cruelest sneer I've ever seen.
I stare with hurt that he would even suggest that. "Don't be obnoxious, Morgan. Rossi is like a father."
His expression softens, "You're right. I'm sorry that was out of line." And he walked closer to me and raised his hand to my face and pulled me in to a kiss. A kiss full of demand and need, it was intoxicating. I backed a way as soon as our lips parted, "Derek, no this is stopping right now. We've been doing this for months and it isn't fair to Savannah. I can't do this..."
He came closer, "Babygirl I know you want to. We both want this. What's wrong about that?"
Her eyes widen and she shoved me a way,"Really? What's wrong? This would only hurt at the end of it. Yes, I want to Derek, with all my body and soul, I want too, but I also know this has to end.."
He was shocked at first then he did something she hadn't expect, he grabbed her and kissed her while his hands roamed her body. I was trying to breathe and think. God, I hate him right now. He knows, I'll give in, like always...and I did.
By the morning, he was gone. Literally, like the wind, all he left was a note, "See you Monday, Garcia." So generic, so blain, nothing, like I was nothing...