A/N: Hello everyone, sorry for the delay with this chapter, I graduate college at the end of this month so everything has been crazy. On the bright side I just got a job working for one of the best know public gardens in the country! I'm so excited, but I will try to keep time between updates to a minimum. Thanks for reading!

Trixie made her way into the church flanked by Rollins and Evans. As soon as they got through the door Evans was off taking shop with Di's mom. With a quick smile to Rollins Trixie hurried over to Honey.

"Hi Honey, have I missed anything?"

Honey smiled, "No we haven't started yet, but I expect we will within the next ten minutes. How are you feeling after the salon today?"

Trixie smiled, "I'm feeling very different."

Honey gasped, "You're blushing, Trixie tell me how you're feeling right now!"

"Calm down Honey, and lower your voice. I feel urg, I can't do this."

"Yes you can Trixie, how do you feel?"

"I feel sexy alright; please don't make me say it again." Trixie could feel her face turning tomato red and wished the floor would open up to swallow her whole.

Honey gapped, "That's wonderful Trix. What's so wrong with feeling sexy?"

Trixie shook her head, "it's not a feeling I'm familiar with and uhg I just, it's just that. Why is this so hard? I don't know what to do about this feeling."

Honey smirked, "Well I'm sure if you asked Jim would be happy to help you out."

Trixie groaned, "That's what I'm afraid of. Part of me wants him to, but the other part is freaking out and not sure what to do and is worried that it'll be terrible, or that I'll freak out during. I should just buy a vibrator and give up on love right?"

Honey shook her head, "Far be it from me to tell you not to buy a vibrator, actually I might get you one for your birthday. But you need to talk to Jim about your feelings you know he wouldn't do anything to hurt you and that man cares about you Trixie. He has since you were kids and if you want your sex life to include someone that's not battery operated you're going to need to talk to Jim."

Trixie sighed, "I'm not promising anything Honey, but I'll try."

Evans swept over and hurried Trixie and Honey towards the doors of the church, "Okay ladies it is time for y'all to make your entrances."

Trixie allowed herself to be pushed into line, the twins were first and they were walking in pairs, then Bobby was walking with a friend of Di's from college, then Jim with another friend from college, then it was her turn. Trixie took Brian's arm and the two siblings slowly made their way down the aisle. Trixie felt herself growing impatient with the slow pace. Brian pulled back on her arm and Trixie slowed down her pace, when they finally got to the alter she turned to see Honey and Dan, and then finally Di walking with her dad.

Trixie couldn't help but smile when she saw her friend. Di was positively glowing. She shook her head, who knew her goofball brother could put that big a smile on her friends face.

The rehearsal went smoothly Evans had everything down to a science and Trixie was pretty sure Di would float away if she looked any happier. They all loaded into cars to drive to the rehearsal and Trixie found herself riding with Jim as Evans just had to talk with Di and her mom on the car ride over.

The silence stretched between them as they drove, Trixie shifted a bit in her seat as she tried to decide how to address this new found awkwardness between them. She opened her mouth to speak, but Jim beat her to it.

"Is everything alright Trixie you've been so quiet today?"

Trixie nodded, "Everything is fine, I'm just feeling a bit off today and I've been thinking about some things."

Jim nodded, "Is there anything I can help with?"

Trixie snorted, "Honey seems to think there is."

Jim quirked an eyebrow at her, "What does my sister have to do with this?"

Trixie smiled, "She and Di dragged me to the salon for a girl's day. After all the pampering in this dress I was just feeling different and Honey said I should talk to you about it."

"Well Shamus, you do look stunning, but why do you feel different?"

Trixie took a deep breath, she could do this, "Do you think I'm sexy?"

"Of course I do you're always sexy, why?"

"I just feel sexy today and I don't normally feel that way and my body says one thing, but my mind says another, and I just don't know what to do with myself."

Jim looked concerned, "Do you want to tell me what's got you so worried?"

Trixie sighed, "I have had one good sexual experience my whole life Jim, and even that sort of blew up on me in the end. My body reacts to you there's no denying that, but then I think about everything that could go wrong if I give in to those desires and I worry. What if I can't figure out what I'm supposed to be doing? What if something reminds me of Jay? Do you even want to have sex with me?"

Jim chuckled, "Of course I do Shamus, but I'm not going to do anything that upsets you. If you are unsure of something we'll figure it out together, and if you don't like something, or it dredges up bad memories we'll stop. When it comes to this Trix the ball is in your court."

Trixie reached over and grabbed Jim's hand, "Thanks Jim, maybe we can sneak off for a little while and start to explore these feelings."

Jim groaned, "Shamus you'll be the death of me."