BTVS/Originals/Supernatural Crossover

Chapter 19

It had been a little over a month since Buffy told Elijah how she felt and she was starting to worry that maybe they didn't have the connection that she had thought. They were talking everyday but that was the extent of it, anytime anything was brought up about the two of them he changed the subject. She didn't believe that it was all in her head but now she was starting to think maybe it was. She had been there for over five months now and she knew when she agreed to lead the factions, it was for Elijah, it was because she wanted to stay close to him.

She was sick of waiting, so she finally decided to do something about it. She started walking around the house looking for Elijah, finally she found him in his bedroom. She just stood outside his door, not sure if she could do it. She stood there debating until Elijah finally noticed her 'Do you need something?"

"Yes." was all she said.

When he turned around she noticed his top 3 buttons were unbuttoned, this was a distraction she didn't need. She wasn't sure how long she was staring for but when he cleared his throat she looked up at his face.

"Are you going to tell me what you need, or do you want me to guess?" He chuckled.

"First button your shirt, I'm not really sure why but its distracting and I can't concentrate" She couldn't help but feel a little angry, this was not going the way she wanted it to.

He smiled at her remark, then started buttoning his shirt the rest of the way. "Is that better?"

She nodded. Then she finally made her way into his room. "Can we talk?"

He motioned for her to sit on his bed and he sat next to her. She tried several different times to start saying something but she couldn't ever get the words out. All she could think about was how close they were right now and how they were sitting on his bed. She jumped up off the bed "I can't do this."

"Do what?" He asked.

"Sit here and pretend like every time were in the same room together that it isn't killing me not to be in your arms, Elijah this is so hard for me, I'm not sure how this isn't hurting you like it is me." She said.

"You don't think this has hurt me? I've been around a long time Buffy and I have never felt like this about anyone and honestly it scares me a little, I know you have feelings for Klaus and he you and that's why I haven't acted on these feelings" He took her hands in his "Did you ever read the letter he left you?"

She shook her head.

"You should have, then you'd know why he left." He told her.

"I don't care why he left" she stated.

"You wouldn't care even if you knew it was because he wanted to make himself better for you, so that he could actually have a chance to make you happy" He said.

Buffy didn't want to hear this, she didn't want to hear anything about Klaus.

"He shouldn't be doing that for a girl, he should want to be better for himself" She said not wanting to show any emotion toward Klaus.

"Klaus has always been only about himself and for him to want to do something for someone else, well it's a surprise to say the least" He looked down at their hands "I'm afraid of what he might do if he comes back to us being together, I don't think he'd handle it that well."

"So what are we supposed to do just be unhappy to please him?" She asked him.

"Buffy I'm sorry, the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you, but I can't hurt him either, he is my brother" He looked truly sorry "I know right now you can't understand this, but just think if this was you and your sister, wouldn't you do anything in your power to make sure you're not the one to break her heart?"

Buffy hadn't thought of it like that, of course she knew they were brothers but figured because Klaus had done so much messed up stuff to Elijah that it wasn't really the same as her and Dawn. But she should have known because of how great of a guy Elijah is that it didn't matter what Klaus had done in the past, he was still his brother.

"Dammit Elijah, I get it I do but I don't like it, it's not fair to us" Buffy whined.

He released her hands and slowly took his hands up her arms. "I know but I would never do anything to hurt him, I spaced myself from you hoping that you would move on, but it did the exact opposite."

All Buffy could concentrate on was Elijah's hands on her arms. "Why didn't you talk to me about this sooner?"

"I thought if I just ignored you it would make things easier on the both of us, I know it wasn't the best plan but I just figured if I told you right away that you'd fight me on it and you wouldn't understand." He told her.

"You may have a point, I still want to fight you on it right now but I do understand where you're coming from, I've heard the stories of your brother and I know being unstable is one of his traits, so causing him to be like that isn't a good thing." She told him.

She realized at that moment that she wouldn't be able to have her happily ever after like she had hoped she would. She looked up at Elijah realizing that this will probably be the last time that he would touch her, it was just a small touch on her arms but it meant everything to her. She stepped into him letting him wrap his arms around her. She stood like that for as long as she possibility could, taking in his smell, listening to his breathing, she knew he didn't have to breathe but it still felt comforting. She felt the tears coming before they did, she didn't want him to see her like that but she couldn't stop it. He must have sensed she had started crying because he pulled back from her and then wiped the tears from her cheeks.

She didn't know what happened to her understanding about Klaus but in that moment he wasn't what was on her mind. She closed in the small amount of space between them and when her lips met his, it was mind blowing. She had never felt something so spectacular. She didn't know how long they kissed for but she knew right then that she would never feel something as special as that ever again in her life. When he finally pulled away from her she knew he felt the exact same way that she did in that moment and she really didn't want to ruin the feeling the kiss did to her so she just turned around and walked out of his room. She knew it wouldn't change the way he felt about his brother and there was no reason to fight him over it.